Author's Note: Hi, there! I'm Abisinia and this is my first Card Captor Sakura Fan fiction!!!!!!!!!!!! Just to make a few things clear: 1) Sakura and friends are about 17 years old in this fic 2) Since they are about 17, they don't think or act as the 10 year old children they were in the series, if you know what I mean 3) Eriol has gone back, just like in the series 4) Syaoran hasn't told Sakura about his feelings YET 5) Syaoran hasn't gone and won't go back to Hong Kong (yessssssss!!!!!!!!!!!) 6) Since I'm not used to those "kun", "san" and "chan" stuff, I won't use them 7) Don't be too hard on my pitiful grammar skills, since English isn't my first language
Firstly, I want to thank Kyralea, Absolut Angel, Satashi and THE MOUSE, the four wonderful authors who inspired me to write this story (although they probably don't know me)! I'd also like the readers to know that this is MY story, so don't hate me if you don't like it, because I did my best. And please, I beg you, send me FEEDBACK (flames or whatever)!!!!!!!!!! Thanks!
I'd also like to thank the first reviewers of this fic: Moshimoshiqueen, Nako-chan, LiNa, Lyss chan, sakura, nonie77, DawnRising, Cherry_Blossom, chescaOtaku, Sakura Li, CATGIRL, Happy Individual, Flower Kid, ~*princess icestar*~, Yeslek25, Star Mistress, Sakura Kinomoto Li, ~lil~ Sakura~chan, Jane, Silver Kitsune, kari, Intrams and AyaChan! You've helped me a lot!
Disclaimer: No, I don't own Card Captor Sakura. Clamp does. Sue THEM if you want to…
Disclaimer 2: I DO own Lin Su Hin (the pronunciation is "Lin Su HAN" and "Lin" is the surname)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't forget:
"……….." = Thinking
- ………… = Speaking (duh!)
~*~*~*~* = Change of scene or/and POV
(A.N.:……) = Author's note
There are also a few thick black lines in the middle of the text, I'm not sure where. Please ignore them: it was an error I wasn't able to do anything about! L
Love or Hatred?
By Abisinia
Chapter 7: The Defeat and the Capture
The Hatred Card took some time to realize what was happening. She was ready to finish the Card Mistress, when that young warrior, the descendant of Clow Reed, came between them. And now, all of a sudden, her body was filled with dizziness.
The Card could feel a hard, warm and pleasant pressure on her lips. She felt strong hands sliding down and holding her by the waist, bringing shivers up her spine, although there was a thick black mantle between them and her skin. Unconsciously, Hatred encircled the persons waist with her arms… that person who was completely putting down her defenses, breaking every barrier with a touch, making her body melt in a tight embrace.
Suddenly, the red-haired woman recognized that aura, the powerful green aura that was surrounding and slaying her completely. Li Syaoran… But that didn't matter anymore…
Hatred returned and deepened the kiss, surrendering and feeling her body tremble a bit at the whole bunch of new sensations. She had never felt anything like that before… the more she tried to think rationally, the more the sorcerer hardened the kiss, sliding his tongue through the Card's parted lips and bringing a new wave of unexpected hunger.
That strange feeling was filling her body endlessly, and it was so… so good… and so different from anything she could have ever imagined! Could it be- No! It absolutely couldn't be LOVE… Could it? Was that the way a love kiss should be? Was that the wonderful feeling she had denied for so long? The feeling she had claimed insignificant? Regret tormented Hatred's mind… She knew the warrior didn't love her at all… But if he made her feel that way even when they didn't share any kind of strong feelings, imagine how would it feel like to be kissed by someone who really loved you?
She finally backed away, panting for air, with an astonished look on her face. The Card was pale, and her features looked slightly more delicate and fragile now. The fire that burned in her eyes had softened, and a small, indescribable smile adorned her exotic face, along with a shining, lonely tear that was now streaming down her face.
Amazingly beautiful and intense golden amber eyes were staring at her, anxiously. Syaoran had finally made it: he had kissed the Hatred Card, putting all his passion and love that had been locked inside him, restrained, because he didn't have the courage to do the same with the only person he loved. All those trapped emotions and desires were released… But he had done that for her. He had done that to save Sakura's life, because he would never forgive himself if something had happened to her. Li would give his life to keep her from harm. And his life, for the past years, had been his endless, secret love for the Card Mistress… the love he had tried to put on that one kiss, while he pretended that Hatred was Sakura…
- W… Why did you… - the Clow Card started, slowly. She couldn't find the words to speak and her voice seemed weak and hesitant. Then, she looked down, unable to look into his eyes – I…I'm sorry… I was wrong… So very wrong… - Seeing that he hadn't made any mention to reply, she went on - You defeated me… I surrender: love IS stronger than hatred… you made me see that. My beliefs… everything I've done all along… was a huge mistake. Forgive me… Because now that I know, I regret it-
The Card's speech was interrupted and her eyes widened in surprise as she felt a warm, comforting hand resting on her shoulder.
- I know… You are Hatred, and you were "born" that way… But I'm glad to see you realized- a finger touched his lips, making him stop talking. Hatred gently ran her hand along Li's cheek.
- I've caused too much trouble for you… I'd better go… - with that, the Clow Card closed her crimson bright eyes, and an intense light surrounded its body once again.
Just like when Su Hin had changed to his original form, the blinding light was modifying the Card's body. This time, the red-haired woman was kind of dissolving into two different colors. Red stripes were concentrating and gathering inside a shining rectangle, while black stripes did the same in another rectangle.
Syaoran watched in amazement as he realized the Clow Card was sealing itself… She was so different from the other ordinary Cards… She was able to change herself to another form just like Kero or Yue; she had her own beliefs, willpower and, to top it all, she was able to seal herself, without the need of the staff or the Card Mistress.
Suddenly, the colored magical straps of energy disappeared and the two glowing rectangles floated to Li's hands, which were unconsciously waiting for them.
"Why TWO Cards?"
He looked curiously at the tarot-like cards on his hands. They weren't shining anymore, but he could still feel the power hidden inside them, pulsing and waiting. Then, the warrior concentrated on the figures showing on both new cards. A good-looking man, with a wild and yet cold look in his bright green eyes, wearing a black mantle illustrated the first Card. Focusing on the letters just below, Syaoran read "Hatred". Then, a little confused, the sorcerer observed the figure on the other Card he was holding. A beautiful woman, with wavy waist-length red hair and crimson, warm eyes could be seen. Her features were soft and delicate, giving her an ethereal look, although she was wearing a dark mantle. Then, just like he had done with the other Card, Li focused on the letters below, wondering what could be possibly written. His lips seemed to curve slightly as he read "Love".