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***Thank you people who reviewed! : ) This will probably be the last POV. I have other stories that I have to work on.
If he should stay evil…
Where are you, Vash? I can`t believe that you just walked away from us…from me. You walked away with hardly a goodbye. I don`t understand. I wanted you to stay here with me,
Yeah…I know that I can be a pain in the butt sometimes. I`m sorry. I really am. Things just get on my nerves a lot. I can`t tell you why. I really don`t know myself. I want to sit down and talk things over with you. Maybe that`s what I need…for you to be serious for just a few minutes. Why do you always have to be such a…there I go again. Sorry.
I guess if I saw it from your eyes I would go after my brother too. He does have to be stopped…but why couldn`t you have stayed here where it`s safe?...It isn`t safe, is it Vash? He`d come after you here.
Is that why you wanted us to stay away? You didn`t really blame yourself, did you? Did you think that Knives would make us his next targets? Vash…I wish that I had thought of this sooner. I`m so sorry…but you have to realize that it wouldn`t matter what the reason is. I`ll follow you to the ends of the earth because…because I care about you a lot.
There. I admitted it. Yes. I care about you. I care about Vash the Stampede. I really can`t understand why…yes I can. I love your smile. I love your laugh. I even love all of the stupid things that you do. I don`t really care too much for you hitting on all of those girls but that`s who you are…so I must love that too no matter how odd that sounds. I love the way that you smell. I love how you dress.
I should stop. This is making me so depressed. I know that you don`t want to love someone because you think that everyone who is around you will die. How can you blame yourself for anything that`s happened? That incident in July was all Knives` fault. He`s the reason that you are Vash the Stampede. He made you who you are now. He branded you as a killer. You`re blamed for everything.
I hate him, Vash. I loathe him. I loathe him for making you feel so much pain. How can you act like anything was your fault. You know what? The reasons that things bad happen around you is his fault too. You tried so hard to be loved by others and you still do. He made you suffer for his own ideals. He made you suffer, Vash. He makes us all suffer.
I`m sorry. I shouldn`t think such horrible things about him. He is your brother…and that scares me. What if you bring him back alive…if you live at all? What if he turns on us and starts out again? What if he goes after us? Can you really bring yourself to take that risk? No. It won`t be your fault but you`ll blame yourself again.
I don`t know what to think anymore. All of these thoughts about Knives…Knives. What a horrible name for probably a very handsome man. He is your twin, after all. I`ve never seen him but I can guess. Knives…how could someone have named him that? I remember what you said about your past. I can understand his viewpoints…but not the killing of innocents. What went wrong? I still don`t understand how anyone around others who truly cared about him could turn into such a heartless thing.
Vash…I`m sorry that you were given such horrible odds. I keep apologizing…like you do. Heh…it`s almost funny. I`m picking up things from you now.
I don`t like that you`re away from me even if you do not feel the same way about me. I wonder sometimes though…do I really matter that much to you at all? Sometimes I think that I am only a burden to you that you constantly hope will leave. I feel wonderful around you…but at the same time terrible that I am capable of being used against you.
Maybe I should leave with Millie. She needs someone there for her. She misses Wolfwood so much. I wish that he was here right now for her. I know that she mourns for him every night. Yeah…we could go and you would be free. I can`t yell at you and Millie won`t make you feel sad. We`d be gone. You would be busy with Knives if he is alive…then again…you may need our help.
I`m being selfish. I need to think things through first. I have to be here when you get back…if you get back. I need to be there to assure you that someone cares if you live or die. I`ll stay here and I`ll wait for you. I`ll wait for you and Knives.
I know that you won`t kill him I just know it…wait. I think that I see you coming now…yes! Where`s the red coat?...Knives…that has to be Knives that you`re carrying. I missed you so much, Vash! I can`t wait until I can hug you.
One more thing that I must do though: If Knives does plan on hurting others…I can`t promise that I will not kill him myself. If he goes after you or Millie or anyone else I will.
I won`t think about that now though. I`m just so happy that you`re okay…
***The meaning of the title should make sense at the end. I think that Meryl would be thinking about Vash and what would happen if his brother came back. In my mind I could see Meryl making that promise to herself. I think that she has it in her to keep because she cares so much for Vash and Millie. Anyways…I think that this is all unless someone asks for a Millie POV. I need to have it requested though.
***Thank you people who reviewed! : ) This will probably be the last POV. I have other stories that I have to work on.
If he should stay evil…
Where are you, Vash? I can`t believe that you just walked away from us…from me. You walked away with hardly a goodbye. I don`t understand. I wanted you to stay here with me,
Yeah…I know that I can be a pain in the butt sometimes. I`m sorry. I really am. Things just get on my nerves a lot. I can`t tell you why. I really don`t know myself. I want to sit down and talk things over with you. Maybe that`s what I need…for you to be serious for just a few minutes. Why do you always have to be such a…there I go again. Sorry.
I guess if I saw it from your eyes I would go after my brother too. He does have to be stopped…but why couldn`t you have stayed here where it`s safe?...It isn`t safe, is it Vash? He`d come after you here.
Is that why you wanted us to stay away? You didn`t really blame yourself, did you? Did you think that Knives would make us his next targets? Vash…I wish that I had thought of this sooner. I`m so sorry…but you have to realize that it wouldn`t matter what the reason is. I`ll follow you to the ends of the earth because…because I care about you a lot.
There. I admitted it. Yes. I care about you. I care about Vash the Stampede. I really can`t understand why…yes I can. I love your smile. I love your laugh. I even love all of the stupid things that you do. I don`t really care too much for you hitting on all of those girls but that`s who you are…so I must love that too no matter how odd that sounds. I love the way that you smell. I love how you dress.
I should stop. This is making me so depressed. I know that you don`t want to love someone because you think that everyone who is around you will die. How can you blame yourself for anything that`s happened? That incident in July was all Knives` fault. He`s the reason that you are Vash the Stampede. He made you who you are now. He branded you as a killer. You`re blamed for everything.
I hate him, Vash. I loathe him. I loathe him for making you feel so much pain. How can you act like anything was your fault. You know what? The reasons that things bad happen around you is his fault too. You tried so hard to be loved by others and you still do. He made you suffer for his own ideals. He made you suffer, Vash. He makes us all suffer.
I`m sorry. I shouldn`t think such horrible things about him. He is your brother…and that scares me. What if you bring him back alive…if you live at all? What if he turns on us and starts out again? What if he goes after us? Can you really bring yourself to take that risk? No. It won`t be your fault but you`ll blame yourself again.
I don`t know what to think anymore. All of these thoughts about Knives…Knives. What a horrible name for probably a very handsome man. He is your twin, after all. I`ve never seen him but I can guess. Knives…how could someone have named him that? I remember what you said about your past. I can understand his viewpoints…but not the killing of innocents. What went wrong? I still don`t understand how anyone around others who truly cared about him could turn into such a heartless thing.
Vash…I`m sorry that you were given such horrible odds. I keep apologizing…like you do. Heh…it`s almost funny. I`m picking up things from you now.
I don`t like that you`re away from me even if you do not feel the same way about me. I wonder sometimes though…do I really matter that much to you at all? Sometimes I think that I am only a burden to you that you constantly hope will leave. I feel wonderful around you…but at the same time terrible that I am capable of being used against you.
Maybe I should leave with Millie. She needs someone there for her. She misses Wolfwood so much. I wish that he was here right now for her. I know that she mourns for him every night. Yeah…we could go and you would be free. I can`t yell at you and Millie won`t make you feel sad. We`d be gone. You would be busy with Knives if he is alive…then again…you may need our help.
I`m being selfish. I need to think things through first. I have to be here when you get back…if you get back. I need to be there to assure you that someone cares if you live or die. I`ll stay here and I`ll wait for you. I`ll wait for you and Knives.
I know that you won`t kill him I just know it…wait. I think that I see you coming now…yes! Where`s the red coat?...Knives…that has to be Knives that you`re carrying. I missed you so much, Vash! I can`t wait until I can hug you.
One more thing that I must do though: If Knives does plan on hurting others…I can`t promise that I will not kill him myself. If he goes after you or Millie or anyone else I will.
I won`t think about that now though. I`m just so happy that you`re okay…
***The meaning of the title should make sense at the end. I think that Meryl would be thinking about Vash and what would happen if his brother came back. In my mind I could see Meryl making that promise to herself. I think that she has it in her to keep because she cares so much for Vash and Millie. Anyways…I think that this is all unless someone asks for a Millie POV. I need to have it requested though.