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figures, magazines…well, you get the idea :)
A/N: Sorry it's taken so long to get this part out. I have a whole bunch of stories going at the same time and I needed a break. Anyhow, hope you like this!
~*~A Rose That Won't Open~*~
Part 4
Aeryn sat up in her bed, her heart beating rapidly. Her breathing was unsteady and out of place, and her eyes were wide with shock. The last time she felt like this was when she had woken up from a nightmare right after the John Crichton on Talyn died.
The nightmare had Aeryn break into a cold sweat, and to remember the one beforehand made it even worse. She felt so cold and alone, and drew her soft blankets around her.
'How ironic. A sebacean that's cold' Aeryn thought to herself. 'How I miss lying in his arms without a care in the world. I felt so safe then. Even though I went through some really bad times on Talyn, I knew he was there, and that he loved me. That was what kept me going: him. And now he's dead, but at the same time, he isn't…FRELL! I can't stand this. I need to run away, get off of Moya…no, Moya is my sanctuary. My only companions remain here. But let's go through everyone and see how much they've been there for me…
Pilot…he and I are very close. I have a very good understanding of him, since I have his DNA inside of me-the same DNA that makes me compatible with-'
Aeryn shook her head violently and silently cursed herself for thinking about *that* event in her life. Things had been much more simple back then. Sure, John kissed a bunch of women he didn't even know, was forced to marry a princess, was chased by Scorpius and the prince, and was going crazy all at the same time…and then they tested to see if they were compatible. And they were. She smiled all the way into the night…even the DRDs were staring at her funny. But Aeryn didn't care. All she thought about that night was she, John, and their possible future together, and children…
And now, here she was, pregnant with his seed, but at the same time, not. It tore her apart every time she thought about it.
And now, nightmares were haunting her throughout her entire life, and just didn't want to leave her in peace.
'Maybe I should ask Jool if she has anything to stop these nightmares. I can't take much more of this. It's hard enough just to think about it when I'm awake…'
At that moment, Jool rushed in, looking frantic, her eyes wide with shock. Then she turned, and saw Aeryn, a little confused from Jool's expression.
"Aeryn! I was so worried! I heard this scream while I was wandering around Moya, and I knew it was coming from your quarters…are you alright?"
Aeryn just stared at her, and tilted her head slightly to one side.
"Oh, of course you're not!" Jool said, exasperated with herself. "But, please tell me, why in frell's name did you scream so loud?"
Aeryn swallowed. "I had a nightmare. I've been having many for the past few nights, ever since…" Aeryn's voice then faded for a moment. "Well, that's not important. But this one scared me the most, or was just as bad as another one a had a few weekens ago."
Jool had been listening intently, and as she watched Aeryn speak she knew something was troubling this ex-peacekeeper. She also thought she knew what it was, and wanted to help in some way.
"You look a bit on the shaky side" Jool commented. "Let's go to the medical bay. Perhaps I can figure out some remedy to keep you from having these nightmares."
Aeryn nodded, hiding the fact that she was a little nervous.
Together they walked through the many twists and turns of Moya. Aeryn started to feel dizzy, which was very odd considering the fact that she'd been on leviathans all her life and had never felt sick walking through the hulls. Colors were swimming through her head, and she felt as though she was about to fall over.
Jool had her brow furrowed, thinking hard. 'What could I possibly do to help her? I can't keep the past from haunting her…there isn't any remedy that I know of that could help her. But she needs to talk about this to someone. She shouldn't clamp up, it isn't healthy. I'm no psychiatrist, but I can try to help.'
They walked inside the medical bay, and Aeryn shivered in spite of herself. She had a sick sense that something bad was going to happen. But then again, that was always to be expected. After all, she was Aeryn Sun, wasn't she?
And yet she felt so different, so alone. Nothing could help her. In a way, she wanted top escape, to leave Moya so she wouldn't have to face John. But on the other hand, she wanted to tell him, she wanted to hear him say, "It's okay, baby. We'll get through this."
But in her head, she kept seeing that nightmare of him leaving her for good, out of jealousy for his double.
"I don't want to leave" Aeryn whispered.
"What?" Jool said, a bit bewildered.
"Nothing" Aeryn said quickly.
"Now, Aeryn, please tell me about these nightmares you've been having."
Jool stopped abruptly, for there were quick footstep heading their way. A figure stopped at the door, panting slightly.
"What's wrong? Is Aeryn okay?" John asked.
End Part 4
Am I staying in character? Is this still any good? Let me know in feedback please!
A/N: Sorry it's taken so long to get this part out. I have a whole bunch of stories going at the same time and I needed a break. Anyhow, hope you like this!
~*~A Rose That Won't Open~*~
Part 4
Aeryn sat up in her bed, her heart beating rapidly. Her breathing was unsteady and out of place, and her eyes were wide with shock. The last time she felt like this was when she had woken up from a nightmare right after the John Crichton on Talyn died.
The nightmare had Aeryn break into a cold sweat, and to remember the one beforehand made it even worse. She felt so cold and alone, and drew her soft blankets around her.
'How ironic. A sebacean that's cold' Aeryn thought to herself. 'How I miss lying in his arms without a care in the world. I felt so safe then. Even though I went through some really bad times on Talyn, I knew he was there, and that he loved me. That was what kept me going: him. And now he's dead, but at the same time, he isn't…FRELL! I can't stand this. I need to run away, get off of Moya…no, Moya is my sanctuary. My only companions remain here. But let's go through everyone and see how much they've been there for me…
Pilot…he and I are very close. I have a very good understanding of him, since I have his DNA inside of me-the same DNA that makes me compatible with-'
Aeryn shook her head violently and silently cursed herself for thinking about *that* event in her life. Things had been much more simple back then. Sure, John kissed a bunch of women he didn't even know, was forced to marry a princess, was chased by Scorpius and the prince, and was going crazy all at the same time…and then they tested to see if they were compatible. And they were. She smiled all the way into the night…even the DRDs were staring at her funny. But Aeryn didn't care. All she thought about that night was she, John, and their possible future together, and children…
And now, here she was, pregnant with his seed, but at the same time, not. It tore her apart every time she thought about it.
And now, nightmares were haunting her throughout her entire life, and just didn't want to leave her in peace.
'Maybe I should ask Jool if she has anything to stop these nightmares. I can't take much more of this. It's hard enough just to think about it when I'm awake…'
At that moment, Jool rushed in, looking frantic, her eyes wide with shock. Then she turned, and saw Aeryn, a little confused from Jool's expression.
"Aeryn! I was so worried! I heard this scream while I was wandering around Moya, and I knew it was coming from your quarters…are you alright?"
Aeryn just stared at her, and tilted her head slightly to one side.
"Oh, of course you're not!" Jool said, exasperated with herself. "But, please tell me, why in frell's name did you scream so loud?"
Aeryn swallowed. "I had a nightmare. I've been having many for the past few nights, ever since…" Aeryn's voice then faded for a moment. "Well, that's not important. But this one scared me the most, or was just as bad as another one a had a few weekens ago."
Jool had been listening intently, and as she watched Aeryn speak she knew something was troubling this ex-peacekeeper. She also thought she knew what it was, and wanted to help in some way.
"You look a bit on the shaky side" Jool commented. "Let's go to the medical bay. Perhaps I can figure out some remedy to keep you from having these nightmares."
Aeryn nodded, hiding the fact that she was a little nervous.
Together they walked through the many twists and turns of Moya. Aeryn started to feel dizzy, which was very odd considering the fact that she'd been on leviathans all her life and had never felt sick walking through the hulls. Colors were swimming through her head, and she felt as though she was about to fall over.
Jool had her brow furrowed, thinking hard. 'What could I possibly do to help her? I can't keep the past from haunting her…there isn't any remedy that I know of that could help her. But she needs to talk about this to someone. She shouldn't clamp up, it isn't healthy. I'm no psychiatrist, but I can try to help.'
They walked inside the medical bay, and Aeryn shivered in spite of herself. She had a sick sense that something bad was going to happen. But then again, that was always to be expected. After all, she was Aeryn Sun, wasn't she?
And yet she felt so different, so alone. Nothing could help her. In a way, she wanted top escape, to leave Moya so she wouldn't have to face John. But on the other hand, she wanted to tell him, she wanted to hear him say, "It's okay, baby. We'll get through this."
But in her head, she kept seeing that nightmare of him leaving her for good, out of jealousy for his double.
"I don't want to leave" Aeryn whispered.
"What?" Jool said, a bit bewildered.
"Nothing" Aeryn said quickly.
"Now, Aeryn, please tell me about these nightmares you've been having."
Jool stopped abruptly, for there were quick footstep heading their way. A figure stopped at the door, panting slightly.
"What's wrong? Is Aeryn okay?" John asked.
End Part 4
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