Shattered
Chapter 6
Disclaimer: Same as always I don't own a single thing concerning Third Watch but if I ever do you'll be the first to know :)
Authors note: I had to make up some history for the story. I hope you all don't mind. This was a tough chapter to write I hope I have the characters acting believable under the circumstances.
Feedback: Wanted badly. Let me know what you are thinking good or bad.
E-Mail: Farewellparty2002@yahoo.ca
Hope you like it.
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After her scare with the ventilator the doctor had wanted to examine Faith. He said it would take awhile so Bosco took this time to go and tell Emily and Charlie what had happened. He never even thought about telling them the night before, and when he did think of calling Betty to see how the kids were doing she told him that she just told them that they were to stay there tonight because Faith wasn't going to be home. They didn't think anything of it because Faith and Bosco would work a double shift at times so it was nothing unusual. Betty had asked him if he wanted her to tell them or if he would. After thinking about it he decided he should be the one to tell them. After all it was his fault that Faith was in this mess in the first place. They would be getting home from school soon so he left the hospital with strict orders that if anything at all changed with Faith to call him immediately.
When he reached Faiths apartment building it took everything he had to get out of the car and to go into the building. But he had to do it. He owed her that much so he slowly left the car and walked up the stairs to Betty's apartment and knocked on the door. Betty answered it with a smile.
"Hello Mr. Boscorelli, the kids just got home they are having snack. Why don't you come in?"
"Hi Betty and I told you before it's Bosco. and if you don't mind I would rather tell the kids over at Faiths"
"Oh of course I understand. I'll send the kids over right away."
"No rush let them finish their snack first."
"Ok then they should only be a few more minutes."
"Thanks"
Bosco walked down the hall to Faiths apartment he dug out his key from his pocket and unlocked the door and walked in. He took a deep breath maybe it was a bad idea to tell the kids here he thought as he walked to the couch and sat down. It was hard being here knowing that there had been a good chance the night before that Faith may have never stepped into this room again.
He sat there for a few minutes trying to figure how to tell Emily and Charlie about what had happened but no matter how many times he said it in his head he knew it sounded awful. There was no good way of telling them that their mother had been shot and she had almost died. He was hoping that they would take forever to finish their snacks, because this was just to hard to do.
While waiting he started to look around for something to bring Faith. That's when he spotted the picture he had taken a few years ago. He had taken Faith and the kids to the park for an afternoon. Fred had been drinking again and it was taking it's toll on Faith so on their day off he showed up with a huge picnic basket and some toys for the kids and they spent the afternoon in the park. They had a great time. They had spent hours there and just before they came home he got them to pose for a picture. Faith was in the middle with her arms around both of the kids. The picture had turned out great so when he got it back he had it enlarged and gave it to Faith for a present. She had loved it. Her face had lit up when she saw it. But what Faith or anybody else didn't know was that he had also had a smaller copy made for himself and he kept it in his wallet. He had never taken it out. He had always wanted to remember that day because he treasured it. It ended up being one of the best days in his life. Faith had been so warn out and depressed over Fred and his drinking but he had made her smile and laugh and have fun. He never had those kinds of days with his family growing up. He would have given almost anything for just one memory like that from his family and even though Faith, Emily and Charlie weren't technically his family he had thought of them as his family. He would do anything for them. He would of given them the world if they had asked.
That was the day that he started actually hating Fred. He had never been a big fan of Fred's, they never had gotten along but it was that day that he realized just what an idiot Fred was. Here he had a strong, beautiful, intelligent, amazing woman in love with him, two terrific kids that thought the world of him and he just took it for granted. He just sat there and drank his life away and put them through hell. Fred didn't deserve them. Sure he had his good days but in the end he didn't deserve them and he proved that a month ago. It took Bosco all he had not to kill Fred or at least beat him senseless. He remembered that night he got a phone call from Faith it was almost 3:30 in the morning and she had sounded like she had been crying.....
"Hi Bosco" Said two happy voices as Emily and Charlie walked through the door.
"Hey guys, how have you been?" Bosco replied tying to sound cheery
"I'm good but school sucks" said Charlie
"Same here, Hey where's mom isn't she with you?" Asked Emily with concern in her voice.
Well it was now or never so Bosco took in a deep breath and said. "Why don't you guys come sit on the couch I have to tell you something."
Both kids slowly walked to the couch and sat down. Both were looking concerned.
"Where is she? Where's my mom?" asked Charlie getting scared.
Emily just sat there looking at Bosco she knew something was wrong but was scared to ask what because she was scared to know the answer.
"Emily, Charlie I don't know how to tell you this so I'll just say it ok. Your mom is in the hospital she was shot last night but she is doing ok the doctors said that she should be fine but it's going to take awhile." He didn't want to lie to them the doctor had said she should be fine so he left out just how close she had came to dying they didn't need to know that.
Both kids were crying. Emily had tears running down her face but Charlie was sobbing. Bosco leaned over and hugged him.
"It's going to be ok Charlie, don't worry. She'll be ok. She'll be back here before you know it." He said trying to sound reassuring.
"Can we go see her?"
"Not yet, she needs to rest a little but as soon as you can I'll come and get you guys, Promise" He could have taken them down today to go and see her but he didn't want them to see her with all those tubes sticking out of her she looked so helpless and an image like that would haunt them forever even after she had gotten better and things were back to normal. They would always have that image in there heads. He couldn't do that to them. It was already his fault she got shot. He wasn't going to be the one to do this to them.
"How come she got shot? Where were you?"Emily asked coldly
Bosco was shocked by the question. He started feeling sick again. "I....I wasn't with your mom last night. I was riding with someone else."
"Why? You're suppose to be with her. You're suppose to make sure she stays safe and she's suppose to make sure you stay safe. So why is she in the hospital and you're here? Why weren't you there to protect her?!" Emily asked accusingly
Her words were cutting him like a knife. Why wasn't he there to protect her? Why wasn't it him instead of her? It should of been him. He knew it. If he would of just swallowed his pride and let Faith help him none of this would have ever happened. Faith would be fine and she would be here with her kids and he wouldn't be here staring into two teary eyed faces.
"I don't know why Em. I should of been there for her but I wasn't. I'm sorry Emily I should of kept her safe." Bosco looked down ashamed at himself.
"Yes you should have, you promised remember?"
"Em I'm..."
Emily cut in "I want to see her! I want to see her now!"
"Em you can't not yet."
"Why not we'll be quiet, she can get all her rest. I just want to make sure she's ok. I just want to sit with her for a few minutes. Please." Emily pleaded.
This was killing him but he couldn't let them see her like she was so he stuck to his guns. "Em you and Charlie can go in a couple of days but not right now. Okay?"
"Why not?!" Then as if something had dawned on her she said "She's bad isn't she? You're not telling us everything, If we can't see her that means she's really bad isn't she?!"
This just kept getting worse and worse. "Emily she was hurt pretty bad and she needed surgery and it took a lot out of her. But she'll be fine. She just needs her rest." He was hoping he was sounding convincing.
"You're lying! There is more to it that you're not telling us!"
This was getting to him. Yeah there is, there's a chance she could still die is that what you want to hear? Well he knew he couldn't say that so he tried to comfort Emily he went to hug her with his free arm because he still had Charlie in his other arm, he was still crying and holding on to Bosco for dear life. Emily's yelling at Bosco was scaring him. But Emily shot up from the couch.
"Don't touch me! It's your fault! It's all your fault! You should of been there protecting her! Now she's in the hospital hurt so bad that you don't think we should see her!"
"Em listen..." he went to grab her hand to calm her down.
She jerked away "Stay away from me and stay away from Charlie! I never want to see you again! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" With that she grabbed Charlie's hand and tore him away from Bosco and left. Slamming the door behind her.
Bosco just sat there looking at the door. A tear rolling down his cheek. He never thought it would end up like this. He never thought Emily would act like that. But if Emily acted like that and she didn't know half of the truth how did he ever expect Faith to forgive him knowing all the truth. Knowing that it was Mikey that shot her, that it was because of him she was even there and that it was him that said those things to her before the shift. She would never forgive him ever.
He picked up the picture he had been looking at before and he stared at it. He had lost them and it was all his fault. He threw it all away. Who was the idiot now?
He was shaken out of his thoughts with the ringing of his cell phone.
"Hello Mr. Boscorelli this is the hospital we need you come down here right away"
Chapter 6
Disclaimer: Same as always I don't own a single thing concerning Third Watch but if I ever do you'll be the first to know :)
Authors note: I had to make up some history for the story. I hope you all don't mind. This was a tough chapter to write I hope I have the characters acting believable under the circumstances.
Feedback: Wanted badly. Let me know what you are thinking good or bad.
E-Mail: Farewellparty2002@yahoo.ca
Hope you like it.
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After her scare with the ventilator the doctor had wanted to examine Faith. He said it would take awhile so Bosco took this time to go and tell Emily and Charlie what had happened. He never even thought about telling them the night before, and when he did think of calling Betty to see how the kids were doing she told him that she just told them that they were to stay there tonight because Faith wasn't going to be home. They didn't think anything of it because Faith and Bosco would work a double shift at times so it was nothing unusual. Betty had asked him if he wanted her to tell them or if he would. After thinking about it he decided he should be the one to tell them. After all it was his fault that Faith was in this mess in the first place. They would be getting home from school soon so he left the hospital with strict orders that if anything at all changed with Faith to call him immediately.
When he reached Faiths apartment building it took everything he had to get out of the car and to go into the building. But he had to do it. He owed her that much so he slowly left the car and walked up the stairs to Betty's apartment and knocked on the door. Betty answered it with a smile.
"Hello Mr. Boscorelli, the kids just got home they are having snack. Why don't you come in?"
"Hi Betty and I told you before it's Bosco. and if you don't mind I would rather tell the kids over at Faiths"
"Oh of course I understand. I'll send the kids over right away."
"No rush let them finish their snack first."
"Ok then they should only be a few more minutes."
"Thanks"
Bosco walked down the hall to Faiths apartment he dug out his key from his pocket and unlocked the door and walked in. He took a deep breath maybe it was a bad idea to tell the kids here he thought as he walked to the couch and sat down. It was hard being here knowing that there had been a good chance the night before that Faith may have never stepped into this room again.
He sat there for a few minutes trying to figure how to tell Emily and Charlie about what had happened but no matter how many times he said it in his head he knew it sounded awful. There was no good way of telling them that their mother had been shot and she had almost died. He was hoping that they would take forever to finish their snacks, because this was just to hard to do.
While waiting he started to look around for something to bring Faith. That's when he spotted the picture he had taken a few years ago. He had taken Faith and the kids to the park for an afternoon. Fred had been drinking again and it was taking it's toll on Faith so on their day off he showed up with a huge picnic basket and some toys for the kids and they spent the afternoon in the park. They had a great time. They had spent hours there and just before they came home he got them to pose for a picture. Faith was in the middle with her arms around both of the kids. The picture had turned out great so when he got it back he had it enlarged and gave it to Faith for a present. She had loved it. Her face had lit up when she saw it. But what Faith or anybody else didn't know was that he had also had a smaller copy made for himself and he kept it in his wallet. He had never taken it out. He had always wanted to remember that day because he treasured it. It ended up being one of the best days in his life. Faith had been so warn out and depressed over Fred and his drinking but he had made her smile and laugh and have fun. He never had those kinds of days with his family growing up. He would have given almost anything for just one memory like that from his family and even though Faith, Emily and Charlie weren't technically his family he had thought of them as his family. He would do anything for them. He would of given them the world if they had asked.
That was the day that he started actually hating Fred. He had never been a big fan of Fred's, they never had gotten along but it was that day that he realized just what an idiot Fred was. Here he had a strong, beautiful, intelligent, amazing woman in love with him, two terrific kids that thought the world of him and he just took it for granted. He just sat there and drank his life away and put them through hell. Fred didn't deserve them. Sure he had his good days but in the end he didn't deserve them and he proved that a month ago. It took Bosco all he had not to kill Fred or at least beat him senseless. He remembered that night he got a phone call from Faith it was almost 3:30 in the morning and she had sounded like she had been crying.....
"Hi Bosco" Said two happy voices as Emily and Charlie walked through the door.
"Hey guys, how have you been?" Bosco replied tying to sound cheery
"I'm good but school sucks" said Charlie
"Same here, Hey where's mom isn't she with you?" Asked Emily with concern in her voice.
Well it was now or never so Bosco took in a deep breath and said. "Why don't you guys come sit on the couch I have to tell you something."
Both kids slowly walked to the couch and sat down. Both were looking concerned.
"Where is she? Where's my mom?" asked Charlie getting scared.
Emily just sat there looking at Bosco she knew something was wrong but was scared to ask what because she was scared to know the answer.
"Emily, Charlie I don't know how to tell you this so I'll just say it ok. Your mom is in the hospital she was shot last night but she is doing ok the doctors said that she should be fine but it's going to take awhile." He didn't want to lie to them the doctor had said she should be fine so he left out just how close she had came to dying they didn't need to know that.
Both kids were crying. Emily had tears running down her face but Charlie was sobbing. Bosco leaned over and hugged him.
"It's going to be ok Charlie, don't worry. She'll be ok. She'll be back here before you know it." He said trying to sound reassuring.
"Can we go see her?"
"Not yet, she needs to rest a little but as soon as you can I'll come and get you guys, Promise" He could have taken them down today to go and see her but he didn't want them to see her with all those tubes sticking out of her she looked so helpless and an image like that would haunt them forever even after she had gotten better and things were back to normal. They would always have that image in there heads. He couldn't do that to them. It was already his fault she got shot. He wasn't going to be the one to do this to them.
"How come she got shot? Where were you?"Emily asked coldly
Bosco was shocked by the question. He started feeling sick again. "I....I wasn't with your mom last night. I was riding with someone else."
"Why? You're suppose to be with her. You're suppose to make sure she stays safe and she's suppose to make sure you stay safe. So why is she in the hospital and you're here? Why weren't you there to protect her?!" Emily asked accusingly
Her words were cutting him like a knife. Why wasn't he there to protect her? Why wasn't it him instead of her? It should of been him. He knew it. If he would of just swallowed his pride and let Faith help him none of this would have ever happened. Faith would be fine and she would be here with her kids and he wouldn't be here staring into two teary eyed faces.
"I don't know why Em. I should of been there for her but I wasn't. I'm sorry Emily I should of kept her safe." Bosco looked down ashamed at himself.
"Yes you should have, you promised remember?"
"Em I'm..."
Emily cut in "I want to see her! I want to see her now!"
"Em you can't not yet."
"Why not we'll be quiet, she can get all her rest. I just want to make sure she's ok. I just want to sit with her for a few minutes. Please." Emily pleaded.
This was killing him but he couldn't let them see her like she was so he stuck to his guns. "Em you and Charlie can go in a couple of days but not right now. Okay?"
"Why not?!" Then as if something had dawned on her she said "She's bad isn't she? You're not telling us everything, If we can't see her that means she's really bad isn't she?!"
This just kept getting worse and worse. "Emily she was hurt pretty bad and she needed surgery and it took a lot out of her. But she'll be fine. She just needs her rest." He was hoping he was sounding convincing.
"You're lying! There is more to it that you're not telling us!"
This was getting to him. Yeah there is, there's a chance she could still die is that what you want to hear? Well he knew he couldn't say that so he tried to comfort Emily he went to hug her with his free arm because he still had Charlie in his other arm, he was still crying and holding on to Bosco for dear life. Emily's yelling at Bosco was scaring him. But Emily shot up from the couch.
"Don't touch me! It's your fault! It's all your fault! You should of been there protecting her! Now she's in the hospital hurt so bad that you don't think we should see her!"
"Em listen..." he went to grab her hand to calm her down.
She jerked away "Stay away from me and stay away from Charlie! I never want to see you again! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" With that she grabbed Charlie's hand and tore him away from Bosco and left. Slamming the door behind her.
Bosco just sat there looking at the door. A tear rolling down his cheek. He never thought it would end up like this. He never thought Emily would act like that. But if Emily acted like that and she didn't know half of the truth how did he ever expect Faith to forgive him knowing all the truth. Knowing that it was Mikey that shot her, that it was because of him she was even there and that it was him that said those things to her before the shift. She would never forgive him ever.
He picked up the picture he had been looking at before and he stared at it. He had lost them and it was all his fault. He threw it all away. Who was the idiot now?
He was shaken out of his thoughts with the ringing of his cell phone.
"Hello Mr. Boscorelli this is the hospital we need you come down here right away"