Shattered
Chapter 10
Disclaimer: NBC, WB, John Wells and others own Third Watch. I own nothing, I merely borrow and play with the characters for a little bit.
Authors note: I never thought I would get to a chapter 10 :) Thank you for all your support and encouraging words :) It is greatly appreciated. Hopefully you are still enjoying the story.
Feedback: Nothings changed I still want your feedback good or bad.
E-Mail: Farewellparty2002@yahoo.ca
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He stood there waiting for Guslers response. He knew that in a few minutes his career would be over, okay maybe not over but tarnished to say the least. It didn't matter anyway, everything was falling apart what was another thing on the list? He was surprised by the way he was thinking. He never gave up that easy before. He always fought, but this was all too much. It was getting to him, breaking him. He didn't like this weak out of control Bosco but he couldn't change it. He tried, he tried to be strong and not let all this get to him but he couldn't. He just wasn't strong enough to fight it. He was ashamed of himself, he should be better then this. But being ashamed of himself only added fuel to the fire.
"Well is that what happened?"
Bosco was shaken back to reality. Gusler still hadn't answered the Captain. He was just standing there looking at Mikey, who was still catching his breath and holding his throat but there was something in his eyes a look of confidence as he looked between Bosco and Gusler.
Bosco knew Mikey was right. He didn't expect Gusler to back up Sully's story. He had worked with the Gusler a few times, He was a nice kid. Not that he would ever admit that to anybody. But he was honest to a fault. Most rookies were. They still believed that they could change the world. Make it a better place. It was a nice dream. Bosco use to have it once. But after time you saw too much, you saw wives bail out there husbands who just beat the shit out of them. You saw rapist and molesters get out of jail on parole after serving hardly anything. You saw killers get off on technicalities. That's when reality set in. You couldn't change the world, you couldn't make it a better place but if you were lucky and having a good day maybe you could prevent it from getting any worse. Maybe.
"Well?"
"I walked in just after officer Boscorelli finished opening the cell door. He walked in to get the prisoner and the guy lunged at him, knocked him down. Officer Boscorelli got up and held him against the wall to restrain him and that is when officer Sullivan and Davis arrived. That's all that happened sir." Gusler said never taking his eyes off of Mikey.
Bosco looked at Sully and Davis he could tell they were as surprised as he was that Gusler had went along with the story. He didn't even stumble with it. He just said it matter of fact.
The Captain excused Gusler, Sully and Davis and then called Bosco out into the hallway.
"Boscorelli"
"Yes sir" Bosco replied looking at the floor.
"I know you have been through a lot lately, especially in the last day but don't let this happen again. Next time I won't be able to ignore the obvious."
Bosco looked up surprised by what he had just heard, "Yes sir, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking."
"It's understandable. How is Yokas?"
"She's doing better. The doctor is still concerned about her heart but if she gets her rest he seems to think she'll be fine."
"That's good to hear. Yokas is a fine lady and a good cop. Now why don't you get out of here. I don't want to see you back anytime soon. Go home get some rest, spend some time with Yokas and forget about this place. It's the best thing you can do for yourself right now.
"I'll try sir." With that Bosco walked away and went to the locker room to find Gusler. He wanted to thank him for backing up Sully's story and saving his ass.
He walked in and looked around but there wasn't anybody in there. So he sat down on one of the benches and waited. After a few minutes he looked up and realized he was sitting in front of Faiths locker. He sat there and stared at it thinking about how long it would be before she was back here getting ready for work. Riding with him. Till things were back to normal.
"Why?....Because of you of course. What better way to get to you?"
He put his head down and closed his eyes as he remembered the words and saw last nights events replay over in his head. Things would never be normal again. No matter how hard he tried things could never be normal again. He would always remember it was his fault. He was the whole reason Faith was shot and if that wasn't enough he wasn't there for her when she was shot.
He stood up and went to Faiths locker and hit it hard. A couple of the deeper cuts on his hand had began to bleed again when he did that. When he saw his blood he automatically flashed to her laying on the cement, blood flowing out of her. "the blood started slowly flowing out of her, staining her cloths and forming a puddle on the ground....her warm body starting to get cold. You felt it didn't you? You felt her drifting away and there was nothing you could do about it. Could you?" No there wasn't anything he could do about it then but there was something he could do about it now. He would never be the reason she got hurt again. Never.
He remembered thinking in the hospital that if she never forgave him and she was out of his life that he would be ok if she was alive,safe and happy. If she was those things somewhere in the world then he could live with out her. It would be the hardest thing he ever had to do but it would keep her safe from him. Nothing would ever touch her again because of him. That's all that mattered.
He was about to leave when Gusler walked in.
"Gusler I wanted to talk to you if you have a minute?"
"Sure, What is it?"
"I uh I just wanted to thank you for what you did back there....and for being there for Faith. You probably saved her life." He said quietly.
"Don't mention it. I was so scared when I saw her get shot. I think I was just doing everything on auto pilot, it was just reflex."
"Well maybe it was but you were there for her and that's what counts"
"Thank you. But don't thank me for covering for you. Faith has always been kind to me. I couldn't imagine anybody wanting to hurt her. After hearing what your brother said to you, I wanted to kill him myself. I've never felt like that before, I never thought I could....I wasn't going to stop you, you know. I saw what you were doing and all I could think was it served him right"....'serves her right for betraying me' Bosco gave his head a slight shake......"So backing up officer Sullivan's story was nothing." With that Gusler walked past Bosco and went to his locker.
Bosco looked back at him. He's already seen to much. He thought to himself.
He walked out of the room. He was going to swing by his apartment and then go by and see Faith.
~*~*~*~*~*~
He stood there at the foot of her bed watching her sleep. She looked so peaceful and innocent lying there. He wanted her to stay that way so he knew he was doing the right thing.
He didn't know where he was going yet but he knew he couldn't stay here anymore. It was for the best. He knew he wouldn't always be able to protect her but this was the last time she would ever get hurt because of something he did or didn't do. She was better off without him. They all were.
He had turned around to leave. He was going to say good bye but he decided a clean break was the best. He had taken a step towards the door when he heard her.
"Don't think about it Boscorelli. I'm not letting you leave here."
Surprised he turned around and said, "How do you do that?"
"I'm a mother it's a super power we get." She gave him a sleepy grin.
He went and sat down on the chair beside her bed and held her hand.
"You were going to leave, weren't you?"
"Come on Faith you know me better then that. I wasn't going anywhere."
"I may be lying here doped up on meds Bos but don't play me for a fool."
"Faith I wasn't. I..."
"We know each other to well Bos, we can tell what the other one is thinking. It's one of the reasons we works so well together. Well that and I'm the only one that can put up with you for more then five minutes." She gave him another grin.
Bosco couldn't help but smile, She could always manage to do that to him no matter how bad his day was. It was short lived when he remembered his reason for coming.
"Faith I know you don't think this is my fault but you didn't hear him. Mikey...he said he did this because of me....to get back at me Faith." He said almost to himself. He felt Faith squeeze his hand.
She didn't say anything for a minute. Then she said, " So what, because he said you were the reason you're going to run. It's not you Bosco."
Why was she making this so hard? "It will keep you safe. It'll..."
"Bosco listen to me, he won't come after me again."
"No but someone else might and what if I'm not there again Faith? I'm not going to let you get hurt again. I owe you that much."
"What you owe me Bos is to stay here and be my friend. To help me get better and out of this place. I need you here Bos. I can't do this by myself. That's what you owe me, Nothing else. You can't watch over me twenty four hours a day."
"Maybe not but this will keep you safe. I know it Faith. Trust me on this."
"I can't trust you on this because it's not right. You're wrong this time Bosco. You're wrong!"
"Faith listen..."
"What if Fred comes back and you're not here?"
He had never thought about Fred coming back but he didn't think he was stupid enough to ever come back.
"Sully knows to be on the look out for Fred."
"Bos" Faith began but quit. The heard monitor was beginning to beat faster.
"Calm down Faith. Relax you're getting to excited." Bosco said full of worry. Standing up 'Just something else you did. Couldn't have just left could you?' He thought to himself.
"Why don't you go back to sleep Faith. You need your rest."
"Will you be here in the morning?"
"Sure I will." He tried to sound convincing.
"Promise me Bos. Promise you'll be here when I wake up."
He had never lied to her about something this big before. It killed him to do it but it was for her own good he thought.
"I promise Faith." he gave her hand a gentle squeeze
With in ten minutes she was sleeping soundly and her vitals were back to normal. He was still standing beside her bed holding her hand. He bent down and gave her a soft kiss on her forehead, gave her hand a gentle squeeze and put it down beside her. He looked at her and whispered. "I'm sorry Faith....I'm sorry."
He walked out of the room never looking back. He went down to the parking lot and got in his car and started it. He looked up to her room that was on the second floor. "Good bye Faith." He slipped his car in reverse and backed out. Then he peeled out of the lot screeching his tires.
"Good bye Faith."
Chapter 10
Disclaimer: NBC, WB, John Wells and others own Third Watch. I own nothing, I merely borrow and play with the characters for a little bit.
Authors note: I never thought I would get to a chapter 10 :) Thank you for all your support and encouraging words :) It is greatly appreciated. Hopefully you are still enjoying the story.
Feedback: Nothings changed I still want your feedback good or bad.
E-Mail: Farewellparty2002@yahoo.ca
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He stood there waiting for Guslers response. He knew that in a few minutes his career would be over, okay maybe not over but tarnished to say the least. It didn't matter anyway, everything was falling apart what was another thing on the list? He was surprised by the way he was thinking. He never gave up that easy before. He always fought, but this was all too much. It was getting to him, breaking him. He didn't like this weak out of control Bosco but he couldn't change it. He tried, he tried to be strong and not let all this get to him but he couldn't. He just wasn't strong enough to fight it. He was ashamed of himself, he should be better then this. But being ashamed of himself only added fuel to the fire.
"Well is that what happened?"
Bosco was shaken back to reality. Gusler still hadn't answered the Captain. He was just standing there looking at Mikey, who was still catching his breath and holding his throat but there was something in his eyes a look of confidence as he looked between Bosco and Gusler.
Bosco knew Mikey was right. He didn't expect Gusler to back up Sully's story. He had worked with the Gusler a few times, He was a nice kid. Not that he would ever admit that to anybody. But he was honest to a fault. Most rookies were. They still believed that they could change the world. Make it a better place. It was a nice dream. Bosco use to have it once. But after time you saw too much, you saw wives bail out there husbands who just beat the shit out of them. You saw rapist and molesters get out of jail on parole after serving hardly anything. You saw killers get off on technicalities. That's when reality set in. You couldn't change the world, you couldn't make it a better place but if you were lucky and having a good day maybe you could prevent it from getting any worse. Maybe.
"Well?"
"I walked in just after officer Boscorelli finished opening the cell door. He walked in to get the prisoner and the guy lunged at him, knocked him down. Officer Boscorelli got up and held him against the wall to restrain him and that is when officer Sullivan and Davis arrived. That's all that happened sir." Gusler said never taking his eyes off of Mikey.
Bosco looked at Sully and Davis he could tell they were as surprised as he was that Gusler had went along with the story. He didn't even stumble with it. He just said it matter of fact.
The Captain excused Gusler, Sully and Davis and then called Bosco out into the hallway.
"Boscorelli"
"Yes sir" Bosco replied looking at the floor.
"I know you have been through a lot lately, especially in the last day but don't let this happen again. Next time I won't be able to ignore the obvious."
Bosco looked up surprised by what he had just heard, "Yes sir, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking."
"It's understandable. How is Yokas?"
"She's doing better. The doctor is still concerned about her heart but if she gets her rest he seems to think she'll be fine."
"That's good to hear. Yokas is a fine lady and a good cop. Now why don't you get out of here. I don't want to see you back anytime soon. Go home get some rest, spend some time with Yokas and forget about this place. It's the best thing you can do for yourself right now.
"I'll try sir." With that Bosco walked away and went to the locker room to find Gusler. He wanted to thank him for backing up Sully's story and saving his ass.
He walked in and looked around but there wasn't anybody in there. So he sat down on one of the benches and waited. After a few minutes he looked up and realized he was sitting in front of Faiths locker. He sat there and stared at it thinking about how long it would be before she was back here getting ready for work. Riding with him. Till things were back to normal.
"Why?....Because of you of course. What better way to get to you?"
He put his head down and closed his eyes as he remembered the words and saw last nights events replay over in his head. Things would never be normal again. No matter how hard he tried things could never be normal again. He would always remember it was his fault. He was the whole reason Faith was shot and if that wasn't enough he wasn't there for her when she was shot.
He stood up and went to Faiths locker and hit it hard. A couple of the deeper cuts on his hand had began to bleed again when he did that. When he saw his blood he automatically flashed to her laying on the cement, blood flowing out of her. "the blood started slowly flowing out of her, staining her cloths and forming a puddle on the ground....her warm body starting to get cold. You felt it didn't you? You felt her drifting away and there was nothing you could do about it. Could you?" No there wasn't anything he could do about it then but there was something he could do about it now. He would never be the reason she got hurt again. Never.
He remembered thinking in the hospital that if she never forgave him and she was out of his life that he would be ok if she was alive,safe and happy. If she was those things somewhere in the world then he could live with out her. It would be the hardest thing he ever had to do but it would keep her safe from him. Nothing would ever touch her again because of him. That's all that mattered.
He was about to leave when Gusler walked in.
"Gusler I wanted to talk to you if you have a minute?"
"Sure, What is it?"
"I uh I just wanted to thank you for what you did back there....and for being there for Faith. You probably saved her life." He said quietly.
"Don't mention it. I was so scared when I saw her get shot. I think I was just doing everything on auto pilot, it was just reflex."
"Well maybe it was but you were there for her and that's what counts"
"Thank you. But don't thank me for covering for you. Faith has always been kind to me. I couldn't imagine anybody wanting to hurt her. After hearing what your brother said to you, I wanted to kill him myself. I've never felt like that before, I never thought I could....I wasn't going to stop you, you know. I saw what you were doing and all I could think was it served him right"....'serves her right for betraying me' Bosco gave his head a slight shake......"So backing up officer Sullivan's story was nothing." With that Gusler walked past Bosco and went to his locker.
Bosco looked back at him. He's already seen to much. He thought to himself.
He walked out of the room. He was going to swing by his apartment and then go by and see Faith.
~*~*~*~*~*~
He stood there at the foot of her bed watching her sleep. She looked so peaceful and innocent lying there. He wanted her to stay that way so he knew he was doing the right thing.
He didn't know where he was going yet but he knew he couldn't stay here anymore. It was for the best. He knew he wouldn't always be able to protect her but this was the last time she would ever get hurt because of something he did or didn't do. She was better off without him. They all were.
He had turned around to leave. He was going to say good bye but he decided a clean break was the best. He had taken a step towards the door when he heard her.
"Don't think about it Boscorelli. I'm not letting you leave here."
Surprised he turned around and said, "How do you do that?"
"I'm a mother it's a super power we get." She gave him a sleepy grin.
He went and sat down on the chair beside her bed and held her hand.
"You were going to leave, weren't you?"
"Come on Faith you know me better then that. I wasn't going anywhere."
"I may be lying here doped up on meds Bos but don't play me for a fool."
"Faith I wasn't. I..."
"We know each other to well Bos, we can tell what the other one is thinking. It's one of the reasons we works so well together. Well that and I'm the only one that can put up with you for more then five minutes." She gave him another grin.
Bosco couldn't help but smile, She could always manage to do that to him no matter how bad his day was. It was short lived when he remembered his reason for coming.
"Faith I know you don't think this is my fault but you didn't hear him. Mikey...he said he did this because of me....to get back at me Faith." He said almost to himself. He felt Faith squeeze his hand.
She didn't say anything for a minute. Then she said, " So what, because he said you were the reason you're going to run. It's not you Bosco."
Why was she making this so hard? "It will keep you safe. It'll..."
"Bosco listen to me, he won't come after me again."
"No but someone else might and what if I'm not there again Faith? I'm not going to let you get hurt again. I owe you that much."
"What you owe me Bos is to stay here and be my friend. To help me get better and out of this place. I need you here Bos. I can't do this by myself. That's what you owe me, Nothing else. You can't watch over me twenty four hours a day."
"Maybe not but this will keep you safe. I know it Faith. Trust me on this."
"I can't trust you on this because it's not right. You're wrong this time Bosco. You're wrong!"
"Faith listen..."
"What if Fred comes back and you're not here?"
He had never thought about Fred coming back but he didn't think he was stupid enough to ever come back.
"Sully knows to be on the look out for Fred."
"Bos" Faith began but quit. The heard monitor was beginning to beat faster.
"Calm down Faith. Relax you're getting to excited." Bosco said full of worry. Standing up 'Just something else you did. Couldn't have just left could you?' He thought to himself.
"Why don't you go back to sleep Faith. You need your rest."
"Will you be here in the morning?"
"Sure I will." He tried to sound convincing.
"Promise me Bos. Promise you'll be here when I wake up."
He had never lied to her about something this big before. It killed him to do it but it was for her own good he thought.
"I promise Faith." he gave her hand a gentle squeeze
With in ten minutes she was sleeping soundly and her vitals were back to normal. He was still standing beside her bed holding her hand. He bent down and gave her a soft kiss on her forehead, gave her hand a gentle squeeze and put it down beside her. He looked at her and whispered. "I'm sorry Faith....I'm sorry."
He walked out of the room never looking back. He went down to the parking lot and got in his car and started it. He looked up to her room that was on the second floor. "Good bye Faith." He slipped his car in reverse and backed out. Then he peeled out of the lot screeching his tires.
"Good bye Faith."