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This is not a new chapter well it is the new chapter 15 but that is also posted on the chapter 15 page. In order to move up the page so all you would know chapter 15 has been redone i had to upload something instead of just edit it. I tried just taking the chapter down and reloading but apparently that could cause the whole stroy to disappear which explains how i goofed on GMB :) So when i do get chapter 16 done i'll upload that one then take this page down so it all works out...did that just make any sense?.....oh well if you haven't read the new chapter just continue on here :)
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Shattered
Chapter 15
Disclaimer: I own nothing. NBC and other people own it.
Authors Note: As I was sitting down to write chapter 16 I realized as you guys probably did that chapter 15 wasn't really needed. All it did was open a new can of worms that really didn't need to be opened. So I'm asking for you to please forget that the previous Chapter 15 ever happened. Sorry for any confusion or irritation this may cause you but in my defense please remember I still pretty much suck at this writing thing.
Feedback: Always wanted
E-mail: wine_into_water@hotmail.com
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He rushed in through the locker room doors. If he didn't hurry he would be late for roll call. He ran over to his locker and threw off his shirt and grabbed his uniform shirt. He looked around but didn't see Faith she must have already been at roll call. He finished changing and went to roll call. Sure enough as he walked in he saw Faith sitting there talking with Davis. As he walked over to them he noticed that Sully wasn't there. He felt chill run through him. This was too familiar, too familiar to that day that he still tried to forget. As roll call went on he found out that Sully had taken the day off. But this time instead of jumping at the chance to work with Davis he stuck with Faith.
Roll call had ended and they were heading out to the patrol cars when Faith caught up with him.
"Hey what's with you today? It's like you've seen a ghost or something."
"Huh? no nothings wrong, just tired I guess that's all."
Faith shot him an disbelieving look but didn't say anything she just walked up to the drivers side of the squad car and got in. She called up, "You don't mind if I drive do you?"
"No go ahead." he said as he climbed into the passengers side. Faith shot him another look at his willingness to let her drive. He didn't pay much attention to it though because he was already getting lost in his thoughts. It had been just over a year since that day. A year and 19 days actually. He knew he shouldn't dwell on it like he did but as much as he tried he couldn't completely let it go. Some days were better then others but for the most part Faith had been right, they had worked through everything. He had went to see a shrink after much persisting from Faith. That combined with his talks he had with Faith he had pretty much gotten over everything that led up to that day and the day it's self. As far as Faith knew though he was over it. He barley brought it up anymore. She had no clue just how often that day still crept back on him. It would hunt him like a bad nightmare. He could be standing in line at a store or at home watching TV and something would trigger off the memories of that night and the nights that followed. The night with Mikey, the night with Fred. Emily yelling that it was all his fault and that she hatted him. Faith flat lining at the scene. It would all rush back and there was nothing he could do to stop it.
A lot had happened in the past year. Faith had gotten better. Clean bill of health. After the shooting it took awhile for her heart to get stronger but it did. She was back on desk duty after a couple months and a month after that she was okayed for patrol again. Which was a relief to him. He had missed being her partner. He had gotten shifted from one partner to the next while she was gone but none of them were the same as being partnered with Faith.
Mikey was serving time for premeditated attempted murder on a police officer. It may not have really been premeditated but the story that Gusler spun at the trail convinced the jury it was and they found Mikey guilty in less then half an hour. He hadn't seen Mikey since that day in court or had talked to his mother since then either. Angela had blamed Bosco for Mikey's actions figuring that if he would have spent more time with him being more of a "brother" then none of this would have happened. But the final straw with her was that He didn't do a thing to help Mikey get out of jail. He couldn't believe that she actually thought he would after what he had done to Faith. So he washed his hands of them. He didn't need them. Not when he had real family like Faith and the kids or his friends.
Fred...well Fred hadn't come back yet. He called Faith a couple of times but she told him that she didn't want to see him. She had asked the kids if they wanted to and they both said no. So he stayed away. Faith had received divorce papers a couple of months ago. She signed them without a second thought. She was through with Fred she was never going to give him that second chance he wanted so bad. Fred was out of her life for good.
Emily and Charlie were doing great. Both were doing well in school. After seeing for herself that her mother was ok Emily finally gave in and forgave him but not without making him make a promise that he would always be there to protect her this time. He of course made that promise. He had made it to himself way before that even. He and Charlie still hung out quite a bit. Mostly on the weekends they would go out and have there "man" day. He had gotten close with both kids, more then he thought imaginable.
So all in all things were going good. Maybe a little to good.
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There shift had been going pretty slow. They just gotten off there supper break, they ended up going to Faiths favorite restaurant. They talked and joked around with each other. He was feeling a lot better then he was earlier in the shift. Gone was the uneasiness he had felt earlier and gone was the memories that had haunted him.
As they were getting back to the squad car a call came over the radio. An armed robbery was in progress just down the street from where they were. They said that they would take it. Bosco got behind the wheel and sped off. As they arrived at the scene they saw the suspect running into a back ally. Bosco and Faith began to run after him but with the sun starting to set the ally was poorly lit, shadows were cast everywhere, corners were almost impossible to see into.
They each began to walk down the ally. One on each side checking behind dumpsters and in doorways. They had checked about a quarter of the way through when Bosco heard a loud crash. He turned around to see what happened. He saw Faith lying on the cement her gun a few feet behind her, the suspect a few feet away with his gun aimed at her head. The suspect turned to Bosco, "Drop your gun. Now!"
Bosco just stood there, his gun still drawn.
Turning his gun back on Faith, cocking the trigger the suspect spoke, "Now or she gets it!"
Bosco looked down at Faith. There was no way she could defend herself, it was all up to him. He looked back towards the man. He could tell this guy was serious. There was no way he would be able to get a shot off before the guy shot Faith and he was too close to her. If he did shoot and hit her where he was aiming, she wouldn't survive. He was sure of it. So he did the only thing he could do. He lifted up his hands and slowly dropped his gun to the pavement.
"Good now get over here?" The man demanded as he motioned with his gun.
Bosco slowly and cautiously walked over to Faith. He held out his hand to help her up once he reached her. She had accepted his hand and stood up. It appeared that the fall she had taken hadn't injured her.
"Back up!"
He and Faith slowly started backing up. Remembering that Faiths gun was lying a little further back and to the side he looked at Faith. He could tell by the look in her eyes that they were both thinking the same thing. As they got closer to were the gun was lying he looked behind the gunman and slightly nodded his head. Playing right into there hands the suspect whirled around to see if there were any cops behind him. Faith dived for the gun. Hearing the notice the suspect turned back around and pulled the trigger. A shot rang out.
In reality it all happened in a matter of seconds but for Bosco it took what seemed like hours. He saw the suspect turn back around. He saw Faith getting to her gun but not having the time to have picked it up yet. He saw the suspect pulling the trigger. He saw Faith in the direct line of fire.
'Not this time. I wont let it happen again this time Faith. I promise'
Without a second thought he took a step forward, stepping in front of Faith. He felt a sudden pain in his neck followed by something warm trickling down it. He put his hand to his neck were he felt the pain. As he pulled it away he saw that bright red blood stained his hand. He felt himself getting weaker, he fell to the ground. As he was falling he heard another gun shot.
'No. Please no!'
"Faith?...Faith?" He whispered hoarsely
Kneeling down behind him she lifted his head to her lap and applied pressure to his neck, "Bos...oh god Bos hang on. Help will be here soon. Just hang on. Please just hang on."
"Faith are you ok?"
"I'm fine Bos, don't worry about me. Just stay still, you'll be fine."
"Swear to me Faith. Swear to me you're ok."
"Bosco I'm fine. I Swear. I don't have a scratch on me. Now please just lay still and be quiet until help gets here." She said through tears.
A smile appeared on his lips. Slowly he spoke, "I kept my promise Faith. I saved you this time. I didn't let him get to you Faith. I didn't."
"Bos don't." Tears coming more forcefully down her cheeks.
"Shh Faith please don't cry. I'm going to be fine because your ok, I'm going to be fine." He felt himself getting weaker. He wouldn't be able to stay awake much longer. It was strange he didn't feel the pain anymore. He felt fine. For the first time in months he felt at peace with himself, he had kept his promise. He had kept her safe and by doing that he was finally able to forgive himself for that night a year ago.
He could hear the sirens coming in the distance but he knew they wouldn't get there in time. With all the strength he had left he reached for her hand and he looked up into those bright blue eyes that had saved him so many times before. He felt a warm tear hit his cheek. He gently squeezed her hand and before his world faded to darkness he whispered,
"Good bye Faith."
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I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame trapped in the past for too long
I'm moving on
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This is not a new chapter well it is the new chapter 15 but that is also posted on the chapter 15 page. In order to move up the page so all you would know chapter 15 has been redone i had to upload something instead of just edit it. I tried just taking the chapter down and reloading but apparently that could cause the whole stroy to disappear which explains how i goofed on GMB :) So when i do get chapter 16 done i'll upload that one then take this page down so it all works out...did that just make any sense?.....oh well if you haven't read the new chapter just continue on here :)
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Shattered
Chapter 15
Disclaimer: I own nothing. NBC and other people own it.
Authors Note: As I was sitting down to write chapter 16 I realized as you guys probably did that chapter 15 wasn't really needed. All it did was open a new can of worms that really didn't need to be opened. So I'm asking for you to please forget that the previous Chapter 15 ever happened. Sorry for any confusion or irritation this may cause you but in my defense please remember I still pretty much suck at this writing thing.
Feedback: Always wanted
E-mail: wine_into_water@hotmail.com
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He rushed in through the locker room doors. If he didn't hurry he would be late for roll call. He ran over to his locker and threw off his shirt and grabbed his uniform shirt. He looked around but didn't see Faith she must have already been at roll call. He finished changing and went to roll call. Sure enough as he walked in he saw Faith sitting there talking with Davis. As he walked over to them he noticed that Sully wasn't there. He felt chill run through him. This was too familiar, too familiar to that day that he still tried to forget. As roll call went on he found out that Sully had taken the day off. But this time instead of jumping at the chance to work with Davis he stuck with Faith.
Roll call had ended and they were heading out to the patrol cars when Faith caught up with him.
"Hey what's with you today? It's like you've seen a ghost or something."
"Huh? no nothings wrong, just tired I guess that's all."
Faith shot him an disbelieving look but didn't say anything she just walked up to the drivers side of the squad car and got in. She called up, "You don't mind if I drive do you?"
"No go ahead." he said as he climbed into the passengers side. Faith shot him another look at his willingness to let her drive. He didn't pay much attention to it though because he was already getting lost in his thoughts. It had been just over a year since that day. A year and 19 days actually. He knew he shouldn't dwell on it like he did but as much as he tried he couldn't completely let it go. Some days were better then others but for the most part Faith had been right, they had worked through everything. He had went to see a shrink after much persisting from Faith. That combined with his talks he had with Faith he had pretty much gotten over everything that led up to that day and the day it's self. As far as Faith knew though he was over it. He barley brought it up anymore. She had no clue just how often that day still crept back on him. It would hunt him like a bad nightmare. He could be standing in line at a store or at home watching TV and something would trigger off the memories of that night and the nights that followed. The night with Mikey, the night with Fred. Emily yelling that it was all his fault and that she hatted him. Faith flat lining at the scene. It would all rush back and there was nothing he could do to stop it.
A lot had happened in the past year. Faith had gotten better. Clean bill of health. After the shooting it took awhile for her heart to get stronger but it did. She was back on desk duty after a couple months and a month after that she was okayed for patrol again. Which was a relief to him. He had missed being her partner. He had gotten shifted from one partner to the next while she was gone but none of them were the same as being partnered with Faith.
Mikey was serving time for premeditated attempted murder on a police officer. It may not have really been premeditated but the story that Gusler spun at the trail convinced the jury it was and they found Mikey guilty in less then half an hour. He hadn't seen Mikey since that day in court or had talked to his mother since then either. Angela had blamed Bosco for Mikey's actions figuring that if he would have spent more time with him being more of a "brother" then none of this would have happened. But the final straw with her was that He didn't do a thing to help Mikey get out of jail. He couldn't believe that she actually thought he would after what he had done to Faith. So he washed his hands of them. He didn't need them. Not when he had real family like Faith and the kids or his friends.
Fred...well Fred hadn't come back yet. He called Faith a couple of times but she told him that she didn't want to see him. She had asked the kids if they wanted to and they both said no. So he stayed away. Faith had received divorce papers a couple of months ago. She signed them without a second thought. She was through with Fred she was never going to give him that second chance he wanted so bad. Fred was out of her life for good.
Emily and Charlie were doing great. Both were doing well in school. After seeing for herself that her mother was ok Emily finally gave in and forgave him but not without making him make a promise that he would always be there to protect her this time. He of course made that promise. He had made it to himself way before that even. He and Charlie still hung out quite a bit. Mostly on the weekends they would go out and have there "man" day. He had gotten close with both kids, more then he thought imaginable.
So all in all things were going good. Maybe a little to good.
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There shift had been going pretty slow. They just gotten off there supper break, they ended up going to Faiths favorite restaurant. They talked and joked around with each other. He was feeling a lot better then he was earlier in the shift. Gone was the uneasiness he had felt earlier and gone was the memories that had haunted him.
As they were getting back to the squad car a call came over the radio. An armed robbery was in progress just down the street from where they were. They said that they would take it. Bosco got behind the wheel and sped off. As they arrived at the scene they saw the suspect running into a back ally. Bosco and Faith began to run after him but with the sun starting to set the ally was poorly lit, shadows were cast everywhere, corners were almost impossible to see into.
They each began to walk down the ally. One on each side checking behind dumpsters and in doorways. They had checked about a quarter of the way through when Bosco heard a loud crash. He turned around to see what happened. He saw Faith lying on the cement her gun a few feet behind her, the suspect a few feet away with his gun aimed at her head. The suspect turned to Bosco, "Drop your gun. Now!"
Bosco just stood there, his gun still drawn.
Turning his gun back on Faith, cocking the trigger the suspect spoke, "Now or she gets it!"
Bosco looked down at Faith. There was no way she could defend herself, it was all up to him. He looked back towards the man. He could tell this guy was serious. There was no way he would be able to get a shot off before the guy shot Faith and he was too close to her. If he did shoot and hit her where he was aiming, she wouldn't survive. He was sure of it. So he did the only thing he could do. He lifted up his hands and slowly dropped his gun to the pavement.
"Good now get over here?" The man demanded as he motioned with his gun.
Bosco slowly and cautiously walked over to Faith. He held out his hand to help her up once he reached her. She had accepted his hand and stood up. It appeared that the fall she had taken hadn't injured her.
"Back up!"
He and Faith slowly started backing up. Remembering that Faiths gun was lying a little further back and to the side he looked at Faith. He could tell by the look in her eyes that they were both thinking the same thing. As they got closer to were the gun was lying he looked behind the gunman and slightly nodded his head. Playing right into there hands the suspect whirled around to see if there were any cops behind him. Faith dived for the gun. Hearing the notice the suspect turned back around and pulled the trigger. A shot rang out.
In reality it all happened in a matter of seconds but for Bosco it took what seemed like hours. He saw the suspect turn back around. He saw Faith getting to her gun but not having the time to have picked it up yet. He saw the suspect pulling the trigger. He saw Faith in the direct line of fire.
'Not this time. I wont let it happen again this time Faith. I promise'
Without a second thought he took a step forward, stepping in front of Faith. He felt a sudden pain in his neck followed by something warm trickling down it. He put his hand to his neck were he felt the pain. As he pulled it away he saw that bright red blood stained his hand. He felt himself getting weaker, he fell to the ground. As he was falling he heard another gun shot.
'No. Please no!'
"Faith?...Faith?" He whispered hoarsely
Kneeling down behind him she lifted his head to her lap and applied pressure to his neck, "Bos...oh god Bos hang on. Help will be here soon. Just hang on. Please just hang on."
"Faith are you ok?"
"I'm fine Bos, don't worry about me. Just stay still, you'll be fine."
"Swear to me Faith. Swear to me you're ok."
"Bosco I'm fine. I Swear. I don't have a scratch on me. Now please just lay still and be quiet until help gets here." She said through tears.
A smile appeared on his lips. Slowly he spoke, "I kept my promise Faith. I saved you this time. I didn't let him get to you Faith. I didn't."
"Bos don't." Tears coming more forcefully down her cheeks.
"Shh Faith please don't cry. I'm going to be fine because your ok, I'm going to be fine." He felt himself getting weaker. He wouldn't be able to stay awake much longer. It was strange he didn't feel the pain anymore. He felt fine. For the first time in months he felt at peace with himself, he had kept his promise. He had kept her safe and by doing that he was finally able to forgive himself for that night a year ago.
He could hear the sirens coming in the distance but he knew they wouldn't get there in time. With all the strength he had left he reached for her hand and he looked up into those bright blue eyes that had saved him so many times before. He felt a warm tear hit his cheek. He gently squeezed her hand and before his world faded to darkness he whispered,
"Good bye Faith."
~*~
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame trapped in the past for too long
I'm moving on
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