EPISODE 3: LONELY

Disclaimer: Please refer to Chapter 1

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Max sat down and Alec shifted uncomfortably in his place on the couch. He was about to fess up to Max about his situation with Asha and he wasn't looking forward to it. The thought of showing his deep and meaningful side wasn't something Alec ever wanted to do, but he had no choice. Max would go to Asha if he didn't tell her what happened.

"So, what happened with Asha?" Max asked, pushing Alec to get on with his story.

"Okay, while you were away I went over to Asha's one mourning cause I just didn't want to go to work." Alec lied, he went over to her house to sleep with her. He was in heat, not the Manticore revved up one, just the normal male kind of heat. "I thought Asha would be mopping over Logan and I thought we could just have a couple of beers and that would be it! So I went over there and I feel asleep."

Max was giving Alec a look. Alec could only describe the look as an 'I know your not telling me everything, if you don't tell me everything I'll kick your ass' look. Max was always so caring!

"And I hadn't got some in a while so I guess I had my intentions but that's not the point. I woke up and I was about to leave and I guess it just happened. Anyway, I left a note and went." He tried to read Max's face but he couldn't.

"So, what you gonna do about it? Cause the girls gotta feel used and that ain't a fun feeling I'm telling you now!" Max told Alec, trying to be as frank as she could with him.

"I don't know!" Alec looked away from Max, sensing Max was going to ask him the major question.

"Do you care about Asha? Cause you go and just use girls all the time and now you feel guilty all of a sudden. Maybe you want a relationship with her!" Max didn't fail in Alec's predictions and he felt pressured to be honest with her.

"Max, I'm gonna be as honest as I can and your not gonna let out that I have a caring side here cause that may ruin my reputation as the bad boy!" Max smiled and Alec went on. "I like Asha but not in a 'I wanna go and have this angst' relationship with her cause I see her as a buddy. Sure she's a 'hot blond who I'm attracted to' but at the same time, she's a bud and that's it!"

"A buddy! That's it?" Max asked and Alec nodded.

Max drank her beer and then she went on. "Is Manticore the only reason you don't want to get involved with her?"

"Manticore, I didn't bring that up! And I didn't say I wanted to get involved with her!" Alec voice had gotten loader and Max was watching every movement he made.

"Alec, you care about her a lot admit it! You're guilty about hurting her, angsty around her. You say you like her. Come on, just be strait with me!" Max used a dogmatic tone and Alec responded.

"Fine then, I care about Asha. I think she's a sweet individual who deserves better than what she's getting and I'm no good for her! Happy Max?" Alec turned away from Max now pissed of.

"Yes, and now your gonna admit that you want to be with her!" Max stood up and she put her beer in the bin.

"Now that's where I leave you cause I don't. Max, I think she's a nice girl but I don't want to be with her, besides I don't want to be with anyone!" He turned and Max sat down again.

"Alec, I know that being inside Manticore for the time you were must have messed you up heaps. And I know that you're happy just having fun, kicking back. But it gets lonely, and you need to open up to somebody, find somebody who you can just be you with. And I think you can do that with Asha cause she knows who you are. There is only three girls who know who you really are and that's Original Cindy, Asha and me. You actually have some sort of a chance with her. You should take it!" Max put her hand on Alec's back and he shrugged her off.

"Max, you think I'm lonely. Well I'm not. And I'm not ready to go and put myself in a relationship like you and Logan have. You two are doomed cause of who you are. The same goes with any other human who we come into contact. We were built to be soldiers, not somebodies soul mate! We are not a soul made by god! And I'm not some emotional dirt bag who's gonna get with the sap about his life. It's just the dealio I was handed out and I've accepted it" It was now Alec's time to get up and he went into the kitchen leaving Max to think about what he just said.

"Alec, it's okay to have feelings for someone. You're not like Ben, you can handle this world." Max called after Alex but she got no response. So she decided to just leave him alone. "I'm gonna go okay. And thanks for everything tonight!" Max went to the front door and left.

Alec came out once Max had left and went back to the TV. He layed down and opened a packet of chips he had brought with him from the kitchen. "I'm not lonely!" Alec told himself while lying in his apartment by himself.

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Asha walked into her apartment and kicked of her shoes. She threw down her bag and then fell on the couch, the emotional weight leaving her body.

Spending the night with Max and Logan alone was emotional enough. She had loved Logan for so long and she knew there was no hope with him, but at the same time she just couldn't get over him. He was in her life and they were constantly interacting, therefore she wasn't able to get any closure. Not even Max, the women of his dreams could give her that.

And then there was Alec. Alec had gone out and used her like all the other girls he sleeps with and that really upset her. But the fact of the matter was she was very lonely. After pining for Logan so long, Alec had just been the perfect distraction, the perfect release. The reality was she used Alec too. And she hated the girl she had become.

And that was why she was upset with Alec. It wasn't cause he used her, it was because she was upset with herself.

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