The day I loved another
Note: I don't own Furuba, although I'd love to, I can't _. Anyways, on another note, I'm terribly sorry for the major delay. This is due to the fact that 1) school has been sucking hte life out of me and 2) BIG O writer's block. It's not easy. I've written several drafts of this thing, but I suddenly came up with this one and decided to stick with it. Hope it's not bad. If it's sounds out of character, I apologize. I tried to come up with something interesting. More drama for everyone! whoo hoo!! hope you guys like it.
Chapter 1: The Forbidden Kiss
Months have past since Kyou confessed to me. We were always together. I would go with him to the dojo and watch him practice and also help clean up the dojo since Kyou claimed that Master Kazama didn't know how to take care of himself. Other time he would accompanying me to do grocery shopping. He always had something to say and I would listen patiently to his thoughts and feelings. I was happy being with him....right?
Ever since that day Kyou came back with me hand in hand and Yuki was never the same. Even though I wondered if he was avoiding me purposely it was true that he had a lot of school political situations to solve since he was to become the next school president. We rarely talked to each other at school and when he comes back home he would just silently eat his dinner and go back up to his room. Everyone else thought that it was just normal of him to be like that.
Every so now and then, I feel like crying myself to sleep because I think that I have hurt Yuki and I don't know what to do in this situation. Kyou and Yuki are the two most important guys in my life. I love Kyou, but do I really share the same feelings as he does for me? I don't want to disappoint him. I will be happy with Kyou because he loves me.
Another day has gone by and the four of us gathered for dinner.
"Honda-san?" I'm startled at Yuki's voice.
"Y-Yes?" I asked.
"I need a little help with the garden tonight. Could you give me hand?"
I was in shock.
"Yes! Yes! I will help you!" I was so happy. Yuki was asking me to help him out with the garden. The garden that we shared memories together with. Memories of happiness. That only the two of us can share...
As I clear up the table after dinner, I looked at Kyou. He had this frustrated look on his face. Was he angry at me for agreeing so quickly?
"Kyou-kun? Are you...mad at me?" I asked him.
"NO!...no, I'm not mad. But what is wrong with the stupid mouse asking so late at night? Why can't he do it in the morning? Why can't he do things by himself?"
"It's okay. I want to help anyways. Gardening isn't an easy task you know."
"Yah...whatever. Just don't stay out there too long. You tell him that. We have school tomorrow afterall. I don't want you waking up late." He took my hand and gave it a squeeze. I squeezed back and smiled at him.
The walk to the secret garden was quiet. I was hoping we would have a conversation but it never came about. The winds were getting stronger so Yuki brought out the cover that I saw the first time I went to his garden.
"Just hold those ends Honda-san. I'll be there on that side once I have these sides covered."
"Yes..Yuki-kun...takes good care of these plants don't you?" I asked.
There was silence. He didn't respond. I just remained silent and knelt there waiting for him to come to my side to hammer down the cover.
"That's...be-...because these are the only things I have left." He silently said as he knelt down to hammer my side of the cover. I looked at him in question.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Nothing." He responded as he continued on hammering the cover down.
When he finished he got up and I just stayed in kneeling position still in question. He turned around with his back in front of me.
"Honda-san....Are..Are you happy with him?"
"Him?"
"Kyou. Are you happy with Kyou?"
This was an abrupt question, but I didn't know what to say. I could only think of what I wanted to believe in.
"I'm...I'm happy."
"Ah...that's good. I'm happy for you......Well, let's go, it's getting late and we got school tomorrow." He started walking away. I couldn't. Forgive me...but I can't stop.
"Are you really happy?" I ask. "I'm with Kyou right now, we do everything together. He loves me and I love him. Are you really happy with that?"
"Honda-san." He turns back at me yet covers his expression. "As long as you're happy, all I can do is accept it and wish you good luck."
I walk closer to him. He takes a step back. I walk closer. He steps back more.
"Why?...Why are you stepping back?" I take a step closer. He steps back more.
"Honda-san...don't do this."
"Why?! Why is it scary for me to walk this close to you?" It started to drizzle as I stepped closer and closer to him. I couldn't take it any more. I wanted to know. I wanted to know what he felt. He's shut me out to long. I needed to know.
Just then, the courage came out. Yuki grabbed me by the shoulders and kissed me. It was gentle yet abrupt. I was in shock yet relieved at the same time. So this is what you've been feeling all along. All these feelings....feelings that I...I feel as well. I slowly closed my eyes as I drowned into the kiss. My knees suddenly went weak and I held onto his arms. I didn't want to lose this moment. I could feel his warmth flowing and circulating throughout my entire body. I could feel him trembling as he deepened the kiss. I couldn't pull back for it was something that I wanted too much to experience from him. I returned my hunger as well, but only for a few moments before he backed away only to realize what he had done.
"I'm sorry....it was something I shouldn't have done." He said as he looked away. I just stood there in wonder about what just happened a few minutes ago. The rain continued to come down harder and we just stood there wondering what the other should say.
"Yuki...-kun...I.." I tried calling out to him, but only to be given words of rejection.
"It's best if you just took that as a mistake. For your sake and for the sake of your relationship with him."
My hands tried to reach out to him, but he quickly ran back home to leave me alone in the rain. I stood there looking up at the sky. Crying. Wondering. Will I ever be able to experience that love with Kyou as much as I had with that kiss?
To be continued...
Note: I don't own Furuba, although I'd love to, I can't _. Anyways, on another note, I'm terribly sorry for the major delay. This is due to the fact that 1) school has been sucking hte life out of me and 2) BIG O writer's block. It's not easy. I've written several drafts of this thing, but I suddenly came up with this one and decided to stick with it. Hope it's not bad. If it's sounds out of character, I apologize. I tried to come up with something interesting. More drama for everyone! whoo hoo!! hope you guys like it.
Chapter 1: The Forbidden Kiss
Months have past since Kyou confessed to me. We were always together. I would go with him to the dojo and watch him practice and also help clean up the dojo since Kyou claimed that Master Kazama didn't know how to take care of himself. Other time he would accompanying me to do grocery shopping. He always had something to say and I would listen patiently to his thoughts and feelings. I was happy being with him....right?
Ever since that day Kyou came back with me hand in hand and Yuki was never the same. Even though I wondered if he was avoiding me purposely it was true that he had a lot of school political situations to solve since he was to become the next school president. We rarely talked to each other at school and when he comes back home he would just silently eat his dinner and go back up to his room. Everyone else thought that it was just normal of him to be like that.
Every so now and then, I feel like crying myself to sleep because I think that I have hurt Yuki and I don't know what to do in this situation. Kyou and Yuki are the two most important guys in my life. I love Kyou, but do I really share the same feelings as he does for me? I don't want to disappoint him. I will be happy with Kyou because he loves me.
Another day has gone by and the four of us gathered for dinner.
"Honda-san?" I'm startled at Yuki's voice.
"Y-Yes?" I asked.
"I need a little help with the garden tonight. Could you give me hand?"
I was in shock.
"Yes! Yes! I will help you!" I was so happy. Yuki was asking me to help him out with the garden. The garden that we shared memories together with. Memories of happiness. That only the two of us can share...
As I clear up the table after dinner, I looked at Kyou. He had this frustrated look on his face. Was he angry at me for agreeing so quickly?
"Kyou-kun? Are you...mad at me?" I asked him.
"NO!...no, I'm not mad. But what is wrong with the stupid mouse asking so late at night? Why can't he do it in the morning? Why can't he do things by himself?"
"It's okay. I want to help anyways. Gardening isn't an easy task you know."
"Yah...whatever. Just don't stay out there too long. You tell him that. We have school tomorrow afterall. I don't want you waking up late." He took my hand and gave it a squeeze. I squeezed back and smiled at him.
The walk to the secret garden was quiet. I was hoping we would have a conversation but it never came about. The winds were getting stronger so Yuki brought out the cover that I saw the first time I went to his garden.
"Just hold those ends Honda-san. I'll be there on that side once I have these sides covered."
"Yes..Yuki-kun...takes good care of these plants don't you?" I asked.
There was silence. He didn't respond. I just remained silent and knelt there waiting for him to come to my side to hammer down the cover.
"That's...be-...because these are the only things I have left." He silently said as he knelt down to hammer my side of the cover. I looked at him in question.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Nothing." He responded as he continued on hammering the cover down.
When he finished he got up and I just stayed in kneeling position still in question. He turned around with his back in front of me.
"Honda-san....Are..Are you happy with him?"
"Him?"
"Kyou. Are you happy with Kyou?"
This was an abrupt question, but I didn't know what to say. I could only think of what I wanted to believe in.
"I'm...I'm happy."
"Ah...that's good. I'm happy for you......Well, let's go, it's getting late and we got school tomorrow." He started walking away. I couldn't. Forgive me...but I can't stop.
"Are you really happy?" I ask. "I'm with Kyou right now, we do everything together. He loves me and I love him. Are you really happy with that?"
"Honda-san." He turns back at me yet covers his expression. "As long as you're happy, all I can do is accept it and wish you good luck."
I walk closer to him. He takes a step back. I walk closer. He steps back more.
"Why?...Why are you stepping back?" I take a step closer. He steps back more.
"Honda-san...don't do this."
"Why?! Why is it scary for me to walk this close to you?" It started to drizzle as I stepped closer and closer to him. I couldn't take it any more. I wanted to know. I wanted to know what he felt. He's shut me out to long. I needed to know.
Just then, the courage came out. Yuki grabbed me by the shoulders and kissed me. It was gentle yet abrupt. I was in shock yet relieved at the same time. So this is what you've been feeling all along. All these feelings....feelings that I...I feel as well. I slowly closed my eyes as I drowned into the kiss. My knees suddenly went weak and I held onto his arms. I didn't want to lose this moment. I could feel his warmth flowing and circulating throughout my entire body. I could feel him trembling as he deepened the kiss. I couldn't pull back for it was something that I wanted too much to experience from him. I returned my hunger as well, but only for a few moments before he backed away only to realize what he had done.
"I'm sorry....it was something I shouldn't have done." He said as he looked away. I just stood there in wonder about what just happened a few minutes ago. The rain continued to come down harder and we just stood there wondering what the other should say.
"Yuki...-kun...I.." I tried calling out to him, but only to be given words of rejection.
"It's best if you just took that as a mistake. For your sake and for the sake of your relationship with him."
My hands tried to reach out to him, but he quickly ran back home to leave me alone in the rain. I stood there looking up at the sky. Crying. Wondering. Will I ever be able to experience that love with Kyou as much as I had with that kiss?
To be continued...