Author's notes:
The exams are finally over! ^o^ YAY! This is my first X Men fic that I finally managed to get written. This is the first part of Torn Pages - versions of Rogue's life throughout the X Men Evolution.
She is so my favorite character! ^^ Anyway I hope you enjoy reading and I appreciate everyone for taking the time to review this!^-^ Thank u!!
Torn Pages Part 1: "Sacrifice"
Chapter 1: Pain
PainIs like rain
It fills up like the river
And flows like the floods
And yet,
When the sun
Comes out shining
The rain stops.
But pain
Pain
Remains…
***
She stood near the door, hidden in the shadows.
Watching them.
They were talking in what seemed to be low whispers.
Secrets,
That only they shared between them.
She could feel her heart beating at a frightening pace.
The stabbing feeling,
Surging through her veins.
They seemed so comfortable being alone with each other.
She tightened her grip on the doorknob causing the door to creak
Breaking the silent whispers.
From the couch, both heads turned towards the sound.
Sensing a presence, they stood up.
The door opened wide and in came Jean.
"Oh, Scott, I've been looking all over for you," she said the whole sentence smoothly, as if she'd only been there for a second.
"Hey, Jean."
Scott smiled nervously at his girlfriend, looking slightly uncomfortable.
Rogue nodded and noting that it was her cue to go, headed towards the door.
As the door shut behind her, the smile on Jean's face disappeared, replaced by a scowl.
Glaring accusingly at Scott, she said bitingly,
"My, you two were cozy…It was obvious I interrupted something."
Scott frowned,
"Nothing's going on between us…"
"That's what you told me last time!" Jean cried, anger rising.
"I wasn't lying! Look, we were only talking – "
"About what?"
"Nothing worth keeping from you."
"Then why don't you tell me?"
"Jean! It's just – "
Scott didn't go on, tired of the accusations that never seemed to go away no matter how hard he tried to explain.
Sighing, he told her,
"The whole point is that Rogue and I are just friends. There's nothing more to it, ok?"
Which is more than I can say about you and Duncan…"Scott-"
"Look, I don't have time for this. I'll be in my room finishing up on my project."
With that he walked past her and headed upstairs.
"Scott…"
It's all her fault things between Scott and me are breaking up….
***
"I heard that Scott and Jean are like totally mad at each other!" Kitty was telling the others as they sat in the living room, a few hours after the argument.
Rogue yawned as she put her book down,
"They'll patch things up as usual…"
"Uh-uh. This one's major! It'll probably spell disaster for their relationship!"
"You mean a breakup?"
"Like, yeah!"
Kurt and Rogue laughed.
"That'll never happen! Those two have been together, like forever! Sure, things like that happen between them, but it always works out sooner or later," Kurt pointed out.
Kitty rolled her eyes.
"Sure, you like, say that now, but anything's possible!"
Rogue shook her head,
"That'll be the day…"
Besides, Scott's too in love with her to let her go…***
The night was cold but he seemed to deep in his thoughts to notice.
Leaning over the balcony, he had his gaze towards the distance.
"Hey…"
Scott turned to the person behind him.
It was Rogue.
Standing beside him, she gave him a comforting smile,
"How're you doing?"
"Okay, I guess…"
He was smiling, but his sadness didn't escape Rogue.
"Ah'm sorry if ah messed things up between you an Jean…"
Scott shook his head as he looked at her.
"No, it's not your fault. You had nothing to do with it…"
Rogue knew that that wasn't really true.
Sighing Scott said,
"It's just that I wish she wouldn't be so stubborn sometimes…if she'd only try to understand…but she doesn't. She's probably only got that guy in her mind anyway…"
The bitterness in his voice made Rogue long to reach out and comfort him in her arms.
But that wasn't so, instead she told him softly,
"Ah just hope things work out between you two…"
Scott nodded.
"I hope so too…"
***
The sun was hardly awake yet as was everyone in the institute.
But someone was already up at that hour.
Walking quietly across the hall, Rogue tiptoed to Scott's room.
Good, he's still asleep…Walking over to his desk, she placed something on top of it.
Turning to leave, she gazed momentarily at his sleeping form.
He looked so different without his protective ray glasses and the serious expression he usually wore when he was awake.
Like a sleeping child innocent of the dangers that lurked, Rogue reflected.
Taking a deep breath, she thought silently,
Ah'd do anything for you, Scott…but ah know that ah'll just never be the one in your heart no matter how hard ah try…
After all…there's already someone there…
Ah just hope you'll be happy…
She closed the door, a sense of sadness flowing through her.
"What are you doing?"
Rogue whirled around to find Jean frowning at her.
"Ah just happened to be passing by, that's all…"
Rogue told her stiffly as she headed for the stairs, not being in the mood to argue.
But Jean was obviously not done yet as she followed Rogue from behind.
Reaching the landing, Jean grabbed Rogue by the arm.
"Either you tell me the truth or I'll call in the professor!"
Rogue glared at her.
"Ah'm telling you the truth. Now let go!"
Rogue tried to free herself but Jean held on, the rush of anger rising by the second.
She'd had enough of lies, enough of deceit, she wanted the truth and she wasn't going to wait any longer.
She was tired of waiting, tired of having to pretend that everything was going to be all right.
Well, enough was enough.
"Liar!!" she yelled. "You were trying to steal Scott away from me!!!"
Rogue stared at her. Jean Grey had totally lost it.
Shaking off her grip, Rogue muttered,
"Ah don't have to take this…"
"Why?" Jean demanded. "Because it's true?"
"No…because you're not making any sense at all!"
Jean smiled menacingly,
"I know I'm making sense. You just don't want to admit it!!"
"Admit what??"
"Don't play innocent with me! Admit that you've fallen for him, that's what! Oh, yes, I've seen how you look at him, how close you two are whenever I'm not around…You've been planning to have him all to yourself since the very beginning!!!"
Rage was beginning to burn inside Rogue.
"You're accusing me simply because ah was the one he found comfort in whenever he was having trouble! ME – not you!!"
"That's because you were turning him against me!! If you hadn't come in the first place, none of these things would be happening!!"
Rogue narrowed her eyes,
"You just don't get it, do you? You obviously broke Scott's heart when he saw you and Duncan together…you're not exactly the perfect girlfriend Scott deserves!!!"
Jean gapped at her, still refusing to back down.
"Duncan has nothing to do with this…It's you! Everything is all YOUR fault!!!!"
"Ah –"
"You're so pretentious! Pretending to have such a hard life, pretending to go through pain when you don't really know what it is…making such a big deal about your cursed powers, as if that makes you so different than the rest – wanting everyone to feel sorry for poor little you!!
Well, let me tell you – you don't fool me! I know who you really are! I know
That all this time you've been putting up an act just to get what you want!! You-"
She stopped as Rogue slapped her hard right across the face.
The echo of silence hung in the air.
Rogue was shivering with anger, her breath heaving.
She glared dangerously at Jean and spoke in a low voice,
"You don't know…you don't know me at all…"
With that she rushed out of the door without a second glance, leaving Jean to stare, dazed, her hand on the spot where she had just been slapped.
She'd finally managed to hurt her.
She'd wanted that more than anything.
She didn't care because she'd wanted her to feel as bad as she did.
Now that she accomplished that,
Why was she feeling this awful?
***
Chapter 2 coming up! ^^
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