Part 1 Torn Pages: Sacrifice
Final chapter: Saying goodbye
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Time to face the musicTime to wake up from the dream
The breaking of a fallen twig
The fading of a knowing gleam
Time to get over
What I felt for you forever
Time to say goodbye
To face the dreaded lie
I'm sorry
But there's no need to worry
Cause you don't ever
Have to know
How my heart felt sorrow
When I had to say goodbye
Had to say goodbye…
Goodbye to love…
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Scott…
Wake up, Scott…
Voices,
Echoes,
Whispers.
Calling him,
Asking him,
Wanting him,
To awaken from his sleep.
Scott stirred. For a moment all he saw was a big blur which gradually came into focus. Reaching, he recognized the protective glasses over his eyes. Yes, the object that always kept him from hurting others and his self. Yes, he was awake, out of dreams and in the land of the living.
"Scott, how're you feeling?"
Scott smiled. Recognizing the familiar voice and the familiar faces that surrounded him.
"Hey…"
They smiled back at him, their faces glowing with both joy and relief.
"Glad to have you back man," grinned Evan.
"Hey, like, you're finally awake, sleeping beauty," giggled Kitty.
"See, I told you there was nothing to verry about," smiled Kurt.
Jean and Rogue nodded, smiling quietly.
"Rogue, you're back," Scott said with a bright smile on his face as he noticed her.
"Ah'm glad to see you too," Rogue laughed softly.
They talked some more before leaving Scott to rest. Soon, his side left only Jean and Rogue. But Rogue got up to leave the room, smiling,
"Ah'll let you two be alone now."
"Wait up," called Jean as she got up to follow Rogue and told Scott she'd be back in a moment.
Outside, Rogue looked questioningly at Jean.
"If this is about the whole Scott thing…Ah'd just like you to know that ah…"
Jean shook her head.
"No, It's not about that. I mean, I know about what you tried to do for me and Scott…about the tickets…"
Rogue gave a nervous laugh.
"Oh, that…"
"Well," Jean smiled. "I want to apologize again for the way I acted before and to say thank you."
"It's really no biggie, and besides, apology already accepted."
Nodding her head towards the room, Rogue smiled knowingly,
"Now go on already, Scott's waiting."
Jean blushed slightly. Just before she prepared to reenter the room, she called out,
"Hey, Rogue…"
"Yeah?"
"We make a pretty good team, don't you think?"
Rogue grinned and nodded in reply.
Smiling, Jean whispered to her before finally disappearing,
"Thanks, friend…"
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Rogue leaned back against her chair, stretching out her arms as she brought them back again, resting her chin in her hands as she sat staring at the silent sky from her bedroom window.
She sighed and shook her head.
Yes…
I made the right decision… It's better this way…
A sad look reflected in her green eyes as she recalled what she had decided after the whole Scott incident.
To forget about…Whatever it was I felt for him…
To finally let go…
And let free this feeling.
A picture of him floated through her mind causing her to wonder again. But then, another image appeared – an image of Scott and Jean.
Taking a deep breath she assured herself once more that everything would be fine, that she was doing it for their sake and for own sake as well.
I don't need to feel that way,
I never needed it anyway,
After all, I am a rogue…
I'm never gonna let myself be associated with that kind of feeling anymore…
I'm saying goodbye,
Goodbye to love…
Nodding and not having any more second thoughts, her decision was final. Getting up, she decided to head downstairs to get herself a drink. Just then, Kurt suddenly appeared before her causing her to fall back in surprise.
"You nearly gave me a heart attack!" She cried, clutching at the place where her heart was.
Kurt gave an apologetic grin as he helped her up. "Sorry didn't mean to scare ya…"
"Right…" she rolled her eyes. "Never mind that, what's up?"
Kurt tilted his head as he looked at her with those wide eyes of his.
"You."
Rogue stared back at him, frowning slightly.
"Me?"
Kurt nodded, his face set with concern.
"…I know how you feel about Scott…"
Rogue stood there, unmoving. Then slowly, head down, she murmured softly,
"There's nothing to say about it now…Ah'm…over it."
She paused, before continuing, "As long as he's happy, that's all that matters…"
Kurt wasn't convinced.
"But are you?"
Rogue lifted an eyebrow,
"What?"
"Are you happy?"
For a moment, Rogue could only look at him with a silent expression.
Slowly, a smile lifted on her face.
"Of course…"
With that, she turned the doorknob open and walked out of the room leaving Kurt to gaze at her.
Of course ah'm happy…
She kept her hands to her side as she walked quietly down the stairs, not wanting to reach out and wipe away the silent tears forming at the corner of her eyes.
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End.
What? The end?! Well, it is the end of Part 1, but there's still part 2 ^^
What's gonna happen when Rogue decides that she doesn't ever want to have anything to do with love? Will it be as easy as that?
All these questions answered in Torn Pages Part 2: (I'm still figuring out the title for it…)
Thanks again for taking the time to read and review my fic – I totally appreciate it! ^_^