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Wufei silently cursed his stupidity as he raced down the maze like halls. How could he have been so stupid as to just leave Meiren alone like that!? He had known she was hurting, he could feel her calling out for him, but he had believed that she needed time to figure it out on her own. Oh, he was so mad he could have kicked himself! She NEEDED him! How could he have even THOUGHT about leaving her alone for a SECOND!?
All that could enter the young pilot's mind was how he continually let her down. He didn't even register the fact that he was still only clad in his black boxers, nor the fact that he hadn't had time to pull his hair back, not that it mattered. All that mattered was being there for his wife. HIS wife. His love. His…everything! IF YUY HAD LAIN ONE FINGER ON HER HE WAS GOING TO RIP HIM APART! NO ONE EVER HURTS SOMEONE HE LOVED! Pushing himself faster, the Chinese blur told himself mentally about talking to Winner about having his room moved to by hers if she couldn't be by him. He was NOT going to let this happen again!
His muscles flexed as he ran, his years of training allowing him to easily run this marathon without breaking a sweat. The soft, full carpets that covered the floors cushioned his feet and made them stealthy, not to mention comforting against his skin. It was a dark red, the carpet was, with decorative designs and pictures dyed into it, almost giving it the appearance of a long wall tapestry that had fallen. The darkness of the outside sky was also irrelevant has he continued to press on. He was almost there and he could hold her in his arms again and this time he wasn't going to leave till he was certain she was okay. His heart told him to NOT leave, to never let her out of his sight again but he knew it was impossible to be around her every minute of every day. But it did help that he now had a VERY long vacation time saved up, he could be with her and not have to worry about the Preventors till this had all settled down a bit.
Wufei finally reached Rei's room. He had to take a couple of deep breaths before allowing himself to go in. Right now her world was very painful and his getting worked up would not help, he needed to be strong for her, he needed to be an anchor for her to hold onto reality and not get torn away by the powerful currents of her past. He wouldn't ask though, no matter how much he wanted to know whom it had been that had taken her from him he wouldn't ask. When she was ready, when her heart had time to heal, then she would tell him everything, but for now he would be satisfied with simply knowing she was alive and safe with him.
Reaching for the cold handle, the dark haired soldier slowly opened the door. His heart crumbled as he saw his koishii curled up in a fetal position on the bench like window, each sob digging deep into his soul. This wasn't like the Meiren he had known from three years ago. Meiren would never allow herself to cry, but then again, he had to remind himself that she was no longer Chang Meiren…she was Chang Rei. Someone, who had gone through too much for someone so young, just like himself. But no matter her name, he still loved her, nothing could make him stop loving her.
Slowly making him way to the crying tenshi's side, he slipped his arm comfortingly around her waist, pulling her into his lap. Startled, Rei jerked her head up to see who had caught her in such a display of weakness. Her eyes softened when she realized it was Wufei. His eyes were filled with worry, something she had never seen in him before.
"C-Chang!" She suddenly gasped as realization hit her, pulling back and trying to hide the tears that had stained her face, she refused to look at him.
Oh, WHY had he come!? Now he was going to think she was weaker than before. Warriors don't cry, you shouldn't be crying, you're a senshi. Can't you do ANYTHING right Rei-baka! It's all your fault! You'd deserve it if he left you! Her train of thoughts, however, were interrupted as she felt his strong arms encircle her again. She relaxed into his embrace as he gently kissed her temple.
This shocked the ebony haired priestess to no end. Why was Wufei being so gentle with her? He had never been this way with her before. She had known he had loved her, even though he never said it out loud she could tell. But why was he doing this now? He wasn't telling her to get over it, he wasn't calling her a weak onna, he was just holding her.
She looked up into his deep eyes again, searching for an answer to all of her questions, but all she saw was reassurance, reassurance that as long as she was in his arms nothing could ever hurt her again. As if being able to read her thoughts, he pulled her closer to him, resting his chin on her head.
"I lost you once before without being able to tell you how much you meant to me. I don't want that to happen again. Aishiteru. I always have and always will, nothing you can do can change that." He whispered into her hair fiercely, sliding the hair tie out and running his hand through her silken hair.
Wufei had always loved the smell of her hair. She always smelt of fresh jasmine, that was something he had simply associated with her since he had met her. He hadn't even realized till know just how much he had missed that small detail of her.
Rei couldn't speak as she choked back tears. He had said it. He had told her he loved her. She felt the familiar trails of salt water slide down her cheeks. Everything was so perfect…except the fact that her friends were still gone. Why couldn't she both? Why did it have to be one or the other?
Feeling her sorrow as if it was his own, the heir to the Dragon Clan rubbed her back soothingly.
"It's alright to cry koi…it's alright."
She couldn't hold it any longer. Wrapping her arms around him tightly and burying her face into his chest she let out all the feelings she had shoved inside her. Worry, helplessness, rage, loneliness, guilt, weariness of battle, want to move one, betrayal of being left alone, it all poured out as he rocked her slowly back and forth trying to help ease the pain.
"It's all my fault! I couldn't protect them! It's all my fault!" She cried, the tears now flowing freely.
The pilot of Nataku wasn't sure what to do, he had never tried this before and he was still worried about messing up and hurting her more. He knew how it felt to know you had failed and it had cost someone their life, heck, that's how he had felt when he thought SHE had died. He had blamed himself for the longest time but he had realized that there was nothing he could have done to save her, it was just something that happened. But this was something she had to figure out on her own, he couldn't force her to see it. It seemed she had lost some people very close to her, and only time could heal that.
"It wasn't your fault, Rei, you tried your best to save them, there was nothing else you could have done." He said calmly, brushing some of the tears away.
"You don't know that! You weren't there! It's because of ME they were killed! It's because of ME they're gone forever! What kind of soldier am I who just allows her friends to be slaughtered right in front of her!? For all you know I could have killed them MYSELF!" She screamed at him, trying to pull away once again but his hold on her was too strong.
"I know you didn't do that because I know you. You can't blame yourself, they wouldn't want you to." Wufei continued gently, he was determined to help her through this no matter what.
"HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT!? YOU DON'T!?" All of her rational thinking had escaped her by now.
"If it had been you and not them, would you want them to blame themselves? Did you want me to when you faked your death?"
The princess's breath caught in her throat at his words. Breathing raggedly, her anger slowly ebbing as she leaned against his chest again, all of her strength drained from the emotional outbursts. She shook slightly as she rested her head in the crook of his neck, suddenly aware of how warm and soft his touch was. She was silent as thoughts raced through her brain.
"No…" She finally whispered, tightening her hold on him, "I wouldn't want you to blame yourself."
"Then why would they?" He asked softly, hope rising in him as he felt her calming down.
"I…I don't know. It just hurts so much." She confessed, closing her eyes tightly to try and shut out the memories.
Rubbing her back soothingly, he recommenced his slight rocking. She felt so much like a China doll that could break at any moment, fragile and delicate. But then again, she was a woman. A woman who needed him to hold and try to mend her bleeding heart. He didn't want her to be emotionless, he had seen what that does to someone, he had seen it in Yuy, and that was definitely not how he wanted her to be.
"Don't worry, Rei-chan, I'm never going to let anything hurt you ever again."
She looked up at him, still overwhelmed at how much her dragon love cared about her. Now she was certain coming back was the right thing to do, it was worth everything to be able to be with him again. She was finally going to get to have a normal life, she thought, completely forgetting about her terrible dream experience.
"Ai…Aishiteru, Fei-chan." She smiled, her eyes dancing while stars reflected in them.
Pulling her closer, Wufei held her chin gently as he capturing her lips with his. Her eyes widened momentarily before relaxing and closing all together. She leaned forward, deepening the passionate kiss, her body molding perfectly to his. Her spirit soared as she lost herself in the moment, electricity surging through her body. If this wasn't how kissing your soulmate felt she didn't know what did. It was as if her whole body was alive with immeasurable amounts of energy. Bliss.
Wufei fought back a groan as he tasted the sweetness of her lips. Nothing he had ever experienced could compare to this. Why hadn't he done this before!? Was he insane!? He had risked not knowing such an amazing feeling just because he was too proud and stubborn to admit that he cared about her. It was as if every inch of her skin that touched his burned, but it didn't hurt. Far from it. His senses were going haywire and all he could feel was her. Her arms wrapped tightly around his waist. Her lush lip against his. Her body perfectly fitted to him, as if they were made for it. The soft tickling of her hair on his arms as he pressed her against him. She was perfect. And he'd be damned if he let anyone else try to touch her.
Finally pulling back, he allowed her to catch her breath, a small smirk playing across his face. Scooping her up in his arms, he carried her over to the bed and gently laid her down before sliding in beside her. He pulled the covers around her shoulders before wrapping his arms comfortably around her slim waist. He watched her eyes question him sleepily, she needed rest. Kissing her delicately on the forehead, he rested his head beside hers.
"Get some sleep now little pyro, we can talk in the morning."
Too tired to argue she closed her eyes and snuggled against him, no longer afraid of what dreams may bring, for as long as he was with her nothing could possibly harm her.
Wufei waited till her breathing was slow and even before drifting off himself, for the first time not worried about what nightmares may come because as long as she was in his arms everything was going to be alright.
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Wufei silently cursed his stupidity as he raced down the maze like halls. How could he have been so stupid as to just leave Meiren alone like that!? He had known she was hurting, he could feel her calling out for him, but he had believed that she needed time to figure it out on her own. Oh, he was so mad he could have kicked himself! She NEEDED him! How could he have even THOUGHT about leaving her alone for a SECOND!?
All that could enter the young pilot's mind was how he continually let her down. He didn't even register the fact that he was still only clad in his black boxers, nor the fact that he hadn't had time to pull his hair back, not that it mattered. All that mattered was being there for his wife. HIS wife. His love. His…everything! IF YUY HAD LAIN ONE FINGER ON HER HE WAS GOING TO RIP HIM APART! NO ONE EVER HURTS SOMEONE HE LOVED! Pushing himself faster, the Chinese blur told himself mentally about talking to Winner about having his room moved to by hers if she couldn't be by him. He was NOT going to let this happen again!
His muscles flexed as he ran, his years of training allowing him to easily run this marathon without breaking a sweat. The soft, full carpets that covered the floors cushioned his feet and made them stealthy, not to mention comforting against his skin. It was a dark red, the carpet was, with decorative designs and pictures dyed into it, almost giving it the appearance of a long wall tapestry that had fallen. The darkness of the outside sky was also irrelevant has he continued to press on. He was almost there and he could hold her in his arms again and this time he wasn't going to leave till he was certain she was okay. His heart told him to NOT leave, to never let her out of his sight again but he knew it was impossible to be around her every minute of every day. But it did help that he now had a VERY long vacation time saved up, he could be with her and not have to worry about the Preventors till this had all settled down a bit.
Wufei finally reached Rei's room. He had to take a couple of deep breaths before allowing himself to go in. Right now her world was very painful and his getting worked up would not help, he needed to be strong for her, he needed to be an anchor for her to hold onto reality and not get torn away by the powerful currents of her past. He wouldn't ask though, no matter how much he wanted to know whom it had been that had taken her from him he wouldn't ask. When she was ready, when her heart had time to heal, then she would tell him everything, but for now he would be satisfied with simply knowing she was alive and safe with him.
Reaching for the cold handle, the dark haired soldier slowly opened the door. His heart crumbled as he saw his koishii curled up in a fetal position on the bench like window, each sob digging deep into his soul. This wasn't like the Meiren he had known from three years ago. Meiren would never allow herself to cry, but then again, he had to remind himself that she was no longer Chang Meiren…she was Chang Rei. Someone, who had gone through too much for someone so young, just like himself. But no matter her name, he still loved her, nothing could make him stop loving her.
Slowly making him way to the crying tenshi's side, he slipped his arm comfortingly around her waist, pulling her into his lap. Startled, Rei jerked her head up to see who had caught her in such a display of weakness. Her eyes softened when she realized it was Wufei. His eyes were filled with worry, something she had never seen in him before.
"C-Chang!" She suddenly gasped as realization hit her, pulling back and trying to hide the tears that had stained her face, she refused to look at him.
Oh, WHY had he come!? Now he was going to think she was weaker than before. Warriors don't cry, you shouldn't be crying, you're a senshi. Can't you do ANYTHING right Rei-baka! It's all your fault! You'd deserve it if he left you! Her train of thoughts, however, were interrupted as she felt his strong arms encircle her again. She relaxed into his embrace as he gently kissed her temple.
This shocked the ebony haired priestess to no end. Why was Wufei being so gentle with her? He had never been this way with her before. She had known he had loved her, even though he never said it out loud she could tell. But why was he doing this now? He wasn't telling her to get over it, he wasn't calling her a weak onna, he was just holding her.
She looked up into his deep eyes again, searching for an answer to all of her questions, but all she saw was reassurance, reassurance that as long as she was in his arms nothing could ever hurt her again. As if being able to read her thoughts, he pulled her closer to him, resting his chin on her head.
"I lost you once before without being able to tell you how much you meant to me. I don't want that to happen again. Aishiteru. I always have and always will, nothing you can do can change that." He whispered into her hair fiercely, sliding the hair tie out and running his hand through her silken hair.
Wufei had always loved the smell of her hair. She always smelt of fresh jasmine, that was something he had simply associated with her since he had met her. He hadn't even realized till know just how much he had missed that small detail of her.
Rei couldn't speak as she choked back tears. He had said it. He had told her he loved her. She felt the familiar trails of salt water slide down her cheeks. Everything was so perfect…except the fact that her friends were still gone. Why couldn't she both? Why did it have to be one or the other?
Feeling her sorrow as if it was his own, the heir to the Dragon Clan rubbed her back soothingly.
"It's alright to cry koi…it's alright."
She couldn't hold it any longer. Wrapping her arms around him tightly and burying her face into his chest she let out all the feelings she had shoved inside her. Worry, helplessness, rage, loneliness, guilt, weariness of battle, want to move one, betrayal of being left alone, it all poured out as he rocked her slowly back and forth trying to help ease the pain.
"It's all my fault! I couldn't protect them! It's all my fault!" She cried, the tears now flowing freely.
The pilot of Nataku wasn't sure what to do, he had never tried this before and he was still worried about messing up and hurting her more. He knew how it felt to know you had failed and it had cost someone their life, heck, that's how he had felt when he thought SHE had died. He had blamed himself for the longest time but he had realized that there was nothing he could have done to save her, it was just something that happened. But this was something she had to figure out on her own, he couldn't force her to see it. It seemed she had lost some people very close to her, and only time could heal that.
"It wasn't your fault, Rei, you tried your best to save them, there was nothing else you could have done." He said calmly, brushing some of the tears away.
"You don't know that! You weren't there! It's because of ME they were killed! It's because of ME they're gone forever! What kind of soldier am I who just allows her friends to be slaughtered right in front of her!? For all you know I could have killed them MYSELF!" She screamed at him, trying to pull away once again but his hold on her was too strong.
"I know you didn't do that because I know you. You can't blame yourself, they wouldn't want you to." Wufei continued gently, he was determined to help her through this no matter what.
"HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT!? YOU DON'T!?" All of her rational thinking had escaped her by now.
"If it had been you and not them, would you want them to blame themselves? Did you want me to when you faked your death?"
The princess's breath caught in her throat at his words. Breathing raggedly, her anger slowly ebbing as she leaned against his chest again, all of her strength drained from the emotional outbursts. She shook slightly as she rested her head in the crook of his neck, suddenly aware of how warm and soft his touch was. She was silent as thoughts raced through her brain.
"No…" She finally whispered, tightening her hold on him, "I wouldn't want you to blame yourself."
"Then why would they?" He asked softly, hope rising in him as he felt her calming down.
"I…I don't know. It just hurts so much." She confessed, closing her eyes tightly to try and shut out the memories.
Rubbing her back soothingly, he recommenced his slight rocking. She felt so much like a China doll that could break at any moment, fragile and delicate. But then again, she was a woman. A woman who needed him to hold and try to mend her bleeding heart. He didn't want her to be emotionless, he had seen what that does to someone, he had seen it in Yuy, and that was definitely not how he wanted her to be.
"Don't worry, Rei-chan, I'm never going to let anything hurt you ever again."
She looked up at him, still overwhelmed at how much her dragon love cared about her. Now she was certain coming back was the right thing to do, it was worth everything to be able to be with him again. She was finally going to get to have a normal life, she thought, completely forgetting about her terrible dream experience.
"Ai…Aishiteru, Fei-chan." She smiled, her eyes dancing while stars reflected in them.
Pulling her closer, Wufei held her chin gently as he capturing her lips with his. Her eyes widened momentarily before relaxing and closing all together. She leaned forward, deepening the passionate kiss, her body molding perfectly to his. Her spirit soared as she lost herself in the moment, electricity surging through her body. If this wasn't how kissing your soulmate felt she didn't know what did. It was as if her whole body was alive with immeasurable amounts of energy. Bliss.
Wufei fought back a groan as he tasted the sweetness of her lips. Nothing he had ever experienced could compare to this. Why hadn't he done this before!? Was he insane!? He had risked not knowing such an amazing feeling just because he was too proud and stubborn to admit that he cared about her. It was as if every inch of her skin that touched his burned, but it didn't hurt. Far from it. His senses were going haywire and all he could feel was her. Her arms wrapped tightly around his waist. Her lush lip against his. Her body perfectly fitted to him, as if they were made for it. The soft tickling of her hair on his arms as he pressed her against him. She was perfect. And he'd be damned if he let anyone else try to touch her.
Finally pulling back, he allowed her to catch her breath, a small smirk playing across his face. Scooping her up in his arms, he carried her over to the bed and gently laid her down before sliding in beside her. He pulled the covers around her shoulders before wrapping his arms comfortably around her slim waist. He watched her eyes question him sleepily, she needed rest. Kissing her delicately on the forehead, he rested his head beside hers.
"Get some sleep now little pyro, we can talk in the morning."
Too tired to argue she closed her eyes and snuggled against him, no longer afraid of what dreams may bring, for as long as he was with her nothing could possibly harm her.
Wufei waited till her breathing was slow and even before drifting off himself, for the first time not worried about what nightmares may come because as long as she was in his arms everything was going to be alright.
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