Part 5
"That was just gross!" Buffy said sitting down on a crate of boxes, exhausted. Sora sat next to her dropping the crossbow she had used to protect herself. It was the day after Spike and Sora had made the deal and they had just finished killing the demon. It was a tough fight due to the fact that along with the demon, there was a large nest of vampires also hidden in the warehouse.
"Why don't we all head home, then, and get some sleep." Giles suggested. Everyone was tired. Even Angel and Spike looked like they were a tad on the sleepy side!
"Well as inviting as sleep sounds, Watcher, Sora here promised me some answers, didn't you pet?" Spike said.
"You guys don't need help with the weapons?" Sora asked a touch on the hopeful side.
"Nope. We're all good." Xander said picking up some of the scattered weapons from the fight. Sora nodded.
"When you're done, come see me?" Angel asked softly knowing how hard it would be to convince Spike of who she was. And for them both to deal with it.
"Of course." Sora said giving him a pat on the arm. She headed over to the warehouse door and opened it, letting the cool night air rush into the room. "You coming or not?" She called out to Spike. Spike hopped off the crate he was seated on and followed Sora outside.
"Care to tell me where we're going, pet?" Spike asked falling in step beside Sora.
"What I have to tell you is going to take awhile. And since dawn is only a few hours away, I thought we would talk at your crypt." Sora said.
"Why do I have a feeling that what you have to tell me is not what I am expecting?" Spike asked. Sora didn't reply and they walked the rest of the way in silence, both lost in their own thoughts. She didn't have any clue on how to tell him who she was. Or what his reaction would even be. Sora had hurt him some much in her past life and also in her present. The last thing she wanted was to hurt him again.
"This is it, pet." Spike spoke opening the door to his crypt. Sora had never been in there and always avoided the area when on patrol with Buffy. It was to avoid the urge to run up to him and beg for forgiveness. Or shagging him until she had enough.
"It's uh… nice." Sora said looking around. The place smelled like him and butterflies developed in her stomach.
"I'm still working on decorating it. I'm eventually going to put the bed down there but I'm still working on making room for it." Spike said indicating to the opening in the floor. They then made eye contact and Sora laughed softly. She plopped down on one of the chairs and faced Spike who sat on the edge of the bed.
"Did you want anything to drink? Or wanna watch some tele?" Spike asked.
"Do you know who I am?" Sora asked ignoring Spike's question.
"Uh oh! Songbird's getting serious on me!" Spike cried out mockingly. Sora glared at him.
"Damn it, Spike! You're the one who wanted these answers!"
"Continue, pet." Spike said. Sora took a deep breath.
"Look at me, Spike. Really look at me! What do you see?"
"What do you mean? You look like you, my Songbird." Spike said not understanding what she was getting at. All he wanted to know was why she had left him back in Chicago and why she wouldn't admit that she loved him because he still loved her.
"Do you ever think about when you were human? Your life then? The people you loved?" Sora asked.
"Why the bloody hell would I want to think about that? All of that died when I died. There's no point." Spike said wondering why she was bringing all this up. What did it have to do with anything?
"My friends used to make fun of you and your poems. We called you William the Bloody. You didn't care. You continued writing…. for me. Then I became engaged. It was the worst choice I could have ever made. It wasn't just because he was the one who killed me in the end. He killed me long before that. It was because… I was in love with you." Sora said in a soft voice, her eyes not leaving Spikes. Spike stood up suddenly. It was so painful to think back then. He wouldn't let himself! What did that have anything to do with her! The poof probably put her up to it, just to cause him more pain. To remind him that no one will ever love him.
"Bugger this! Sora, just leave. These aren't the answers I wanted. You have no clue what you're saying." Spike said turning away from her. Sora rushed to her feet and stood facing him. She reached up and grabbed his face in her hands, forcing him to make eye contact with her. Tears welled up in her eyes as she continued.
"Look at me! Look! Who am I? Who am I, William? Look in my eyes. Look in my heart! Who do you see? Open your eyes. Just open them and really see!" Sora cried out. His eyes turned cold and hide their emotion from Sora's searching ones.
"Go away, Sora!" Spike said in an emotionless voice. Sora dropped her hands from her face.
"Let yourself remember me, William. I let myself remember you and now I won't give up. You never gave up on me. You never stopped loving me. I know you haven't forgotten me. I love you." Sora said and left the crypt to leave Spike alone with his memories and headed back to her dorm instead of going to see Angel like she had promised.
"That was just gross!" Buffy said sitting down on a crate of boxes, exhausted. Sora sat next to her dropping the crossbow she had used to protect herself. It was the day after Spike and Sora had made the deal and they had just finished killing the demon. It was a tough fight due to the fact that along with the demon, there was a large nest of vampires also hidden in the warehouse.
"Why don't we all head home, then, and get some sleep." Giles suggested. Everyone was tired. Even Angel and Spike looked like they were a tad on the sleepy side!
"Well as inviting as sleep sounds, Watcher, Sora here promised me some answers, didn't you pet?" Spike said.
"You guys don't need help with the weapons?" Sora asked a touch on the hopeful side.
"Nope. We're all good." Xander said picking up some of the scattered weapons from the fight. Sora nodded.
"When you're done, come see me?" Angel asked softly knowing how hard it would be to convince Spike of who she was. And for them both to deal with it.
"Of course." Sora said giving him a pat on the arm. She headed over to the warehouse door and opened it, letting the cool night air rush into the room. "You coming or not?" She called out to Spike. Spike hopped off the crate he was seated on and followed Sora outside.
"Care to tell me where we're going, pet?" Spike asked falling in step beside Sora.
"What I have to tell you is going to take awhile. And since dawn is only a few hours away, I thought we would talk at your crypt." Sora said.
"Why do I have a feeling that what you have to tell me is not what I am expecting?" Spike asked. Sora didn't reply and they walked the rest of the way in silence, both lost in their own thoughts. She didn't have any clue on how to tell him who she was. Or what his reaction would even be. Sora had hurt him some much in her past life and also in her present. The last thing she wanted was to hurt him again.
"This is it, pet." Spike spoke opening the door to his crypt. Sora had never been in there and always avoided the area when on patrol with Buffy. It was to avoid the urge to run up to him and beg for forgiveness. Or shagging him until she had enough.
"It's uh… nice." Sora said looking around. The place smelled like him and butterflies developed in her stomach.
"I'm still working on decorating it. I'm eventually going to put the bed down there but I'm still working on making room for it." Spike said indicating to the opening in the floor. They then made eye contact and Sora laughed softly. She plopped down on one of the chairs and faced Spike who sat on the edge of the bed.
"Did you want anything to drink? Or wanna watch some tele?" Spike asked.
"Do you know who I am?" Sora asked ignoring Spike's question.
"Uh oh! Songbird's getting serious on me!" Spike cried out mockingly. Sora glared at him.
"Damn it, Spike! You're the one who wanted these answers!"
"Continue, pet." Spike said. Sora took a deep breath.
"Look at me, Spike. Really look at me! What do you see?"
"What do you mean? You look like you, my Songbird." Spike said not understanding what she was getting at. All he wanted to know was why she had left him back in Chicago and why she wouldn't admit that she loved him because he still loved her.
"Do you ever think about when you were human? Your life then? The people you loved?" Sora asked.
"Why the bloody hell would I want to think about that? All of that died when I died. There's no point." Spike said wondering why she was bringing all this up. What did it have to do with anything?
"My friends used to make fun of you and your poems. We called you William the Bloody. You didn't care. You continued writing…. for me. Then I became engaged. It was the worst choice I could have ever made. It wasn't just because he was the one who killed me in the end. He killed me long before that. It was because… I was in love with you." Sora said in a soft voice, her eyes not leaving Spikes. Spike stood up suddenly. It was so painful to think back then. He wouldn't let himself! What did that have anything to do with her! The poof probably put her up to it, just to cause him more pain. To remind him that no one will ever love him.
"Bugger this! Sora, just leave. These aren't the answers I wanted. You have no clue what you're saying." Spike said turning away from her. Sora rushed to her feet and stood facing him. She reached up and grabbed his face in her hands, forcing him to make eye contact with her. Tears welled up in her eyes as she continued.
"Look at me! Look! Who am I? Who am I, William? Look in my eyes. Look in my heart! Who do you see? Open your eyes. Just open them and really see!" Sora cried out. His eyes turned cold and hide their emotion from Sora's searching ones.
"Go away, Sora!" Spike said in an emotionless voice. Sora dropped her hands from her face.
"Let yourself remember me, William. I let myself remember you and now I won't give up. You never gave up on me. You never stopped loving me. I know you haven't forgotten me. I love you." Sora said and left the crypt to leave Spike alone with his memories and headed back to her dorm instead of going to see Angel like she had promised.