The Winds of Change Rising Winds : Touch Again, a flame of recca fanfic

Rising Winds: Touch Again

Authoress notes: Thought all the angst is over didn't you? Gomen for this being so short. Presently typing 'Ocean Song' a Mikagami centric fic. Well I decided to insert a little molest for this story. Enjoy. I will try to write more… but damn it ! I need one of those Time turners that Hermione Granger has in Harry Potter book 3… Time!! I need time!! Btw, I was hankering to reach 50 reviews by last chapter! But I was disappointed…. Never mind … that will just mean the first reviewer of this fic will get the next chapter for them! PS: I will cry if I don't get any review. So… you know what to do right? Pretti Please! Need a beta reader.. anybody interested?

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It hurts.

The punches. The kicks. The taunting. The cruel rough hands. The mocking laughter. The coldness of the snow.

Everything hurts.

She had tried to fight back. But the injury on her legs caused her to fall face-first on the frozen ground, leaving her open for their attack.

Something warm trickled down her face. Was she...crying?

No. She can't cry. She never cries. She never lost a fight. But the tears streaked down her cheeks…

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~Fuuko~ [The next day]

White. So white in here… so white it hurts my eyes. Somehow I feel dead, out of sync, in la la land or whatever you choose to call it. So white… like snow. Cold… Where am I? Asylum? Hospital? What happened? Cold… like snow… snow… pain… no… I lost didn't I? I lost and they touched me… they touched me… so white… so dirty. Will I ever be clean again? Why? Why do I feel so dirty? So white… so bleak… Ugly faces… dark ugly shadowed faces looming over me. Cruel~

Cruel hands

Touching

Touching me

Hurting me

No no

Closer

They are coming

No no no

Touching

White

Cruel

Pain

Shadows

Harsh breaths

Laughter

No

Nonononono

NOO!

GO AWAY!

STAY AWAY FROM ME!

Pain

NO

GO AWAY!

DON'T TOUCH ME!

"Fuuko… Fuuko!"

"NO! DON"T TOUCH ME!"

-THWAP-

Mikagami. The slap snaps my head to the left. I turn it gingerly. I look at him, clutching my sore cheek, panting slightly. He returns the look, picking up the basket of fruits to place it on table.

"Nice to see you awake."

I didn't reply. How could I? White. Pain. Cold. Harsh Laughter. He moved to sit on the bed, his hair rustling over his oh-so-stylish ripped tee and jeans.

"Yanagi-chan worried. You haven't eaten nor spoke voluntarily since you woke. You got to eat sooner or later. Or you will never heal." He said, absently peeling an orange. I stare at his hands. The scent is cloyingly sweet, almost a little over powering. I feel sick. Mikagami has very big hands. I never notice this before but they are large and long, the ends slightly tapered, the back of it corded with green veins and the fingers calloused from years of swordplay. Calloused hands. Why do they seem so familiar? [1]

Calloused big hands

Pushing at me

Hitting me

Pain

Go Away

Stop

"Want some?"

His voice breaks me out of reverie. I look up, startled. I edge away from him. He hurt me. He can hit me again. He is dangerous. Just like them. Touching me. No. Pain. I curl into myself.

"Fuuko? Fuuko! Break out of it, damn it!"

Large hands

Reaching for me

Go Away

No more

Stop

Hit them

Hurt them

Fight back

I swipe at the hand drawing blood, giggling manically.

Now they will go away

No, don't touch me

I will fight you

I will fight you and win

But

But I lost

I lost and they hurt me.

Domon? Raiha? Why? You promised. Lies. You lied to me. Broken promises. You said you would be there for me. You lied. All lies. You said you would protect me. You said you would keep me safe. You lied. Why? Why! I want it to stop. Pain. So much pain. Eating at me. Burning into my guts. WHY? Why didn't you protect me? Why did you let them hurt me? I thought you cared. Why did you let me believe? Why did you let me believe in Faeries tales? Believe you care? All lies. Broken promises. Why? Why! Tell me why!

-Shiver-

I rock myself back and fro. Cold so cold. Pain so much pain.

They are coming

Can't you hear their footsteps?

Closer

Coming

Closer

Touching

Not again

Don't touch me again

Never

Go away

Never touch me again

Go away

Faceless hands

White

Cold

"NO! GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE! NEVER TOUCH ME AGAIN! GO AWAY! ISN'T, ISN'T IT ENOUGH?"

No~

Dark. Cold. The darkness embraces me as the metal slide through my skin [2]. Dark.

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[1] When something horrible happen. Every and any and nothing will trigger the memories. Trust me on that. Even breathing will make you remember.

[2] Personally, I hate being drugged and I hate doing it to the characters. But in this case, there is no choice (sorry Fuuko). Why I hate being drugged? When you have a nightmare, you can't wake up. I rather not sleep then to be not able to wake up.

Thanks:

peipei ()	Date: 2002-01-19	Ch: 4	Anonymous
I will I swear! Thanks (_) appreciated your review.
neko-san ()	Date: 2002-01-15	Ch: 5	Anonymous
Glad you think so, Thanks!
~~ReccaGirl~~ ()	Date: 2002-01-13	Ch: 5	Anonymous
It haven't end yet!!!! C'mon read on! Thanks for your reviews(^_^)! This is going to be a very long multi-chaptered fic…
Cherie ()	Date: 2002-01-07	Ch: 2	Anonymous
Review again? Thanks! I will! I promise. *Cross her heart*
Cherie (deja_vu12@lovemail.com)	Date: 2002-01-07	Ch: 1	Anonymous
Yup I got to agreed I absolutely love Koganei after Fuuko and Mika of course.. Thanks for your review!
Kari_n_Gatomon (Too lazy to sign in) ()	Date: 2002-01-06	Ch: 5	Anonymous
Fuuko next… well she woke up… hence I got to give her a point of view too!
flutter~ ()	Date: 2002-01-05	Ch: 5	Anonymous
(Z.z) I hate my school but it is too late for a transfer.. Thanks for the reviews really appreciated it.
Foggy ()	Date: 2002-01-05	Ch: 5	Anonymous
Thanks * hugs the good luck close to heart* got I kind of feeling I will need the good luck. Tanks for your review! Here more. Chew over it (^_^)… btw… scary? Why? Because domon was that close to Fuuko? (o.O) Okay okay I admit it… imaging domon that close to Fuuko will be extremely scary…
angel/wildchild ()	Date: 2002-01-05	Ch: 5	Anonymous
(^_^) Great to see you guys again… hey I typed this at 3 am … so I'm really sacrificing my sleep… review k? Thanks for the reviews!
mia ()	Date: 2002-01-05	Ch: 5	Anonymous
Thanks OF course there is a next part! I got plan out to around 17 chapters now and I doubt it will end any sooner, unless of course you guys dun review.. it will break my heart…
beautiful.dreamer	Date: 2002-01-05	Ch: 5	Signed
Thanks for your review! Sorry but now is the time for more angst! Fuuko-torture, what else? PS: my frens say I'm sick.. torturing characters I like, but what the heck. (^_^) it is fun.