Pevious Chapter-Tomorrow
"But Cid, he fought harder than I did, oh if you knew how hard he fought, you'd be so proud of him, he was strong Cid, so strong." She cried as she fell asleep, exhausted.
Disclaimer: not mine
I know I'm morbid and obsessed with morbid stuff. I Can't help it! It's a deisese only curable with intense shrink talk!
Which reminds me of a saying, it takes a Mad person to help a Mad person.
Most people say I should be a shrink.
All right on with the story.
Chapter 2 - Back to the Garden
Chapter 2 - Second Chances
Seifer walked the known path. It was the long way to Garden, not the short cut that Raijen, Fujin, and him had taken so many times coming back from Balamb, but they had traveled it a lot. This was a stupid idea walking into Garden and asking to see Headmaster Cid, no he should not even go, or make up some plan. Not just walk in there where everybody can see him and glare at him.
He could always make a request to see him privately, probably would never happen. He could always call Matron; no he didn't want any memories to pop up while talking to her. `Damn you Seifer, you damn chicken-wuss! Just get your damn ass to the Garden and get it over with!' He mentally yelled at himself.
There it was, the Garden, it was in his sight and he was scared to death. Walking in their with his head up high like he had some pride left was certain to get him killed but it was against his nature to let any one see him weak. So what was he to do? Not go in, yeah that was a good idea. No! Bad idea, you're walking into that school to show that you're not week. 'There is no way your turning around Almasy so choose another choice.'
'But there were no more choices, look weak or look like you still got some pride. Oh the answers clear.'
'Shove your pride down for a minute Almasy, Hyne, this is your future, all you have to prove is that you've changed and then you can have some pride.'
'But I want it now!'
'Too bad'
He argued with himself before the pain hit him full force. No, nothing was going to stop him from walking into that Garden and apologizing. He stood up on shaky legs and started walking toward the Garden. The building was beautiful, a nice piece of architecture. People are already staring so hurry up and get in there, there's no turning back now, he forced himself on.
There was the gate, would he be allowed in? Looks like it, the guy's to dumbfounded to do anything about it. 'Make sure you got your head down, Almasy, you got to prove to these people that your not the same and you have some humanity in you.' He checked himself as he quickly made his way to the elevator. No one had tried to stop him yet; maybe that was a good sign, probably not. 'There's the elevator a few more steps and here's chicken-wuss blocking my path, damn.' "Zell," he mumbled not looking him in the face.
"You got some nerve showing up here, Lapdog." Zell said shoving him.
"I... I need to see the headmaster." He mumbled again, looking at his feet.
"Speak up Lapdog." Zell said pushing him around.
"I... I need to see the headmaster." He said louder looking Zell in the eye.
"What you going to torture him?"
"Please Zell it's important, taunt me any other time. I need to talk to him."
"Be my guest Lapdog, I'll see you later than."
Seifer sighed as he walked into the elevator and quickly pushed the third floor button. What was he going to say? 'Hi, Headmaster Cid, What's up? Me nothing I just wanted to see if you'd let me back into the Garden?' Yeah like that was going to work, he should try something more humble. 'Headmaster Cid, my sovereign lord, oh my hyne, please forgive me? I'm begging for you forgiveness, I can not live with out it.' Even though that held a lot of truth he seriously doubted that it would work.
BING
'Great, I don't even know what to say!' He thought to himself and walked into the third floor where a stunned Sectary stared at him. "Um, excuse me Miss. I need to uh... talk to the headmaster... I...if... he's not too busy that is." He added stuttering as he started to fidget.
"Uh, y... y... y... yeah... yes I'll go see if he's not too busy." She said nearly running out of the room, probably was going to scrub every square inch of this room after he left. "He can see you Mr. Almasy." She said with a sneer.
He slowly walked in there still wondering what to say to Headmaster Cid. Well it didn't matter if he had anything planned to say to Headmaster Cid, because there was no Headmaster Cid, there was only a Headmaster Squall! 'Great, all hope is gone.' He thought to him self as he stood staring at Squall.
"Have a seat Mr. Almasy, I'll be with you in just a minute." Squall said looking down at some papers.
'Squall old buddy, how's life been treating you?'
'Oh, better than it's been treating you lapdog.'
He imagined the two lines and a smile almost came to his face. "Okay Mr. Almasy what did you want to see me about?" Squall asked looking up from his papers. As soon as Seifer saw Squalls face memories hit him like a sledgehammer.
Torture
Squall tied up to a wall like he was on a cross
The electricity going through his body
'What's the true meaning to seed?'
'Plant the seeds around the world'
More electricity going through Squalls body.
Pain, got to get out of their more punishment for trying to stop it.
White hot pain
Squalls and his scream mixed together.
"Almasy did you hear me?"
"I'm sorry," he mumbled, a headache was coming, a bad one.
"Excuse me?"
"I'm sorry," he repeated.
"That's fine now please what is the reason you wanted to see me?"
"Two things," He took a deep breath. "I'm sorry for everything, and I would like to return to Seed. With any punishment you think would be appropriate." He added the last part quickly as he played with his fingers, barely looking up to see Squall staring at him.
"At least you don't think a sorry will get you out of trouble. Almasy, you betrayed Garden, even before Ultemicia, and I realize that you could have been controlled the same as Matron. But you would not have been in that position if you had stayed in the disciplinary unit." Squall starred at the slouched form in the chair then finished. "You will be aloud to return to Garden under strict probation. Instructor Trepe will be your personal instructor, you will attend all classes on time, you are to meet with Instructor Trepe and me every Friday to discuss your behavior and progress. You will not fight, and you will follow all of the previous rules of Garden. And I will set up a therapy session in case the Ultemicia event has caused any psychological damage on you..."
Squall was cut off when the secretary came in and whispered something in his ear. He nodded and she ran out of the room. Two people soon walked in and as soon as he saw Matron's face more flashbacks slammed into him
A bedroom
Low light
Candles
Not able to move
Cool hands touching his warm body
Caressing
Kisses
Pain
Stop!
'I can't stop, please don't make this happen'
'No I will not do this with one of my children!'
'Please...Don't'
Crying
Tears running down his face
Shame
Guilt
No control
None
Can't make this stop.
'I can make this stop if you will just do as I tell you.'
NO!
"No," he mumbled speaking aloud.
"What?" Squall asked.
"N... nothing."
"Seifer, you're here!" Matron almost yelled running up to him and pulling him into a hug.
Hugging
Kisses
NO!
Matron felt Seifer tense up under her arms and realized the problem. "Seifer, that was neither of us or our fault. It will never happen again" She whispered in his ear as she let go of him and looked into his eyes, seeing all the pain and fear in his eyes she backed up.
"M... Matron." Seifer managed to choke out as he tried not to look in her eyes. It was hard considering how much shorter she was than to him, he had to basically look at his shoes. "Squall... Squall and me were ... just discussing ... about... about... me... uh... returning to Garden." He stuttered out chocking on the words as he tried to hide the fear in his voice, he didn't want Matron to think he was afraid of her.
"Oh, and what did he say?"
"He... uh..." Why couldn't he get it out?
Squall seeing Seifer was having a problem quickly said. "I agreed to allow him back in as long as he follows a strict Probation."
"That's good, don't you think Cid?"
"Fine and Dandy." Cid mumbled. "Matron and I have come to tell you that we plan to renew our vows and you're invited."
"Oh, and you too Seifer. I was hoping we'd find you before we had it done."
Seifer saw the fake smile Cid forced on his face and quickly came up with a lie. "I would love to Matron... but I'll... probably be too busy training." He mumbled his apologies and looked at Squall. "I need to get a few things... from my uh Apartment please." He asked
"Go on I'll have everything set up for you when you come back."
"Thank you Squall, I... I really appreciate it."
"It's not you; everybody just needs a second chance."
"But Cid, he fought harder than I did, oh if you knew how hard he fought, you'd be so proud of him, he was strong Cid, so strong." She cried as she fell asleep, exhausted.
Disclaimer: not mine
I know I'm morbid and obsessed with morbid stuff. I Can't help it! It's a deisese only curable with intense shrink talk!
Which reminds me of a saying, it takes a Mad person to help a Mad person.
Most people say I should be a shrink.
All right on with the story.
Chapter 2 - Back to the Garden
Chapter 2 - Second Chances
Seifer walked the known path. It was the long way to Garden, not the short cut that Raijen, Fujin, and him had taken so many times coming back from Balamb, but they had traveled it a lot. This was a stupid idea walking into Garden and asking to see Headmaster Cid, no he should not even go, or make up some plan. Not just walk in there where everybody can see him and glare at him.
He could always make a request to see him privately, probably would never happen. He could always call Matron; no he didn't want any memories to pop up while talking to her. `Damn you Seifer, you damn chicken-wuss! Just get your damn ass to the Garden and get it over with!' He mentally yelled at himself.
There it was, the Garden, it was in his sight and he was scared to death. Walking in their with his head up high like he had some pride left was certain to get him killed but it was against his nature to let any one see him weak. So what was he to do? Not go in, yeah that was a good idea. No! Bad idea, you're walking into that school to show that you're not week. 'There is no way your turning around Almasy so choose another choice.'
'But there were no more choices, look weak or look like you still got some pride. Oh the answers clear.'
'Shove your pride down for a minute Almasy, Hyne, this is your future, all you have to prove is that you've changed and then you can have some pride.'
'But I want it now!'
'Too bad'
He argued with himself before the pain hit him full force. No, nothing was going to stop him from walking into that Garden and apologizing. He stood up on shaky legs and started walking toward the Garden. The building was beautiful, a nice piece of architecture. People are already staring so hurry up and get in there, there's no turning back now, he forced himself on.
There was the gate, would he be allowed in? Looks like it, the guy's to dumbfounded to do anything about it. 'Make sure you got your head down, Almasy, you got to prove to these people that your not the same and you have some humanity in you.' He checked himself as he quickly made his way to the elevator. No one had tried to stop him yet; maybe that was a good sign, probably not. 'There's the elevator a few more steps and here's chicken-wuss blocking my path, damn.' "Zell," he mumbled not looking him in the face.
"You got some nerve showing up here, Lapdog." Zell said shoving him.
"I... I need to see the headmaster." He mumbled again, looking at his feet.
"Speak up Lapdog." Zell said pushing him around.
"I... I need to see the headmaster." He said louder looking Zell in the eye.
"What you going to torture him?"
"Please Zell it's important, taunt me any other time. I need to talk to him."
"Be my guest Lapdog, I'll see you later than."
Seifer sighed as he walked into the elevator and quickly pushed the third floor button. What was he going to say? 'Hi, Headmaster Cid, What's up? Me nothing I just wanted to see if you'd let me back into the Garden?' Yeah like that was going to work, he should try something more humble. 'Headmaster Cid, my sovereign lord, oh my hyne, please forgive me? I'm begging for you forgiveness, I can not live with out it.' Even though that held a lot of truth he seriously doubted that it would work.
BING
'Great, I don't even know what to say!' He thought to himself and walked into the third floor where a stunned Sectary stared at him. "Um, excuse me Miss. I need to uh... talk to the headmaster... I...if... he's not too busy that is." He added stuttering as he started to fidget.
"Uh, y... y... y... yeah... yes I'll go see if he's not too busy." She said nearly running out of the room, probably was going to scrub every square inch of this room after he left. "He can see you Mr. Almasy." She said with a sneer.
He slowly walked in there still wondering what to say to Headmaster Cid. Well it didn't matter if he had anything planned to say to Headmaster Cid, because there was no Headmaster Cid, there was only a Headmaster Squall! 'Great, all hope is gone.' He thought to him self as he stood staring at Squall.
"Have a seat Mr. Almasy, I'll be with you in just a minute." Squall said looking down at some papers.
'Squall old buddy, how's life been treating you?'
'Oh, better than it's been treating you lapdog.'
He imagined the two lines and a smile almost came to his face. "Okay Mr. Almasy what did you want to see me about?" Squall asked looking up from his papers. As soon as Seifer saw Squalls face memories hit him like a sledgehammer.
Torture
Squall tied up to a wall like he was on a cross
The electricity going through his body
'What's the true meaning to seed?'
'Plant the seeds around the world'
More electricity going through Squalls body.
Pain, got to get out of their more punishment for trying to stop it.
White hot pain
Squalls and his scream mixed together.
"Almasy did you hear me?"
"I'm sorry," he mumbled, a headache was coming, a bad one.
"Excuse me?"
"I'm sorry," he repeated.
"That's fine now please what is the reason you wanted to see me?"
"Two things," He took a deep breath. "I'm sorry for everything, and I would like to return to Seed. With any punishment you think would be appropriate." He added the last part quickly as he played with his fingers, barely looking up to see Squall staring at him.
"At least you don't think a sorry will get you out of trouble. Almasy, you betrayed Garden, even before Ultemicia, and I realize that you could have been controlled the same as Matron. But you would not have been in that position if you had stayed in the disciplinary unit." Squall starred at the slouched form in the chair then finished. "You will be aloud to return to Garden under strict probation. Instructor Trepe will be your personal instructor, you will attend all classes on time, you are to meet with Instructor Trepe and me every Friday to discuss your behavior and progress. You will not fight, and you will follow all of the previous rules of Garden. And I will set up a therapy session in case the Ultemicia event has caused any psychological damage on you..."
Squall was cut off when the secretary came in and whispered something in his ear. He nodded and she ran out of the room. Two people soon walked in and as soon as he saw Matron's face more flashbacks slammed into him
A bedroom
Low light
Candles
Not able to move
Cool hands touching his warm body
Caressing
Kisses
Pain
Stop!
'I can't stop, please don't make this happen'
'No I will not do this with one of my children!'
'Please...Don't'
Crying
Tears running down his face
Shame
Guilt
No control
None
Can't make this stop.
'I can make this stop if you will just do as I tell you.'
NO!
"No," he mumbled speaking aloud.
"What?" Squall asked.
"N... nothing."
"Seifer, you're here!" Matron almost yelled running up to him and pulling him into a hug.
Hugging
Kisses
NO!
Matron felt Seifer tense up under her arms and realized the problem. "Seifer, that was neither of us or our fault. It will never happen again" She whispered in his ear as she let go of him and looked into his eyes, seeing all the pain and fear in his eyes she backed up.
"M... Matron." Seifer managed to choke out as he tried not to look in her eyes. It was hard considering how much shorter she was than to him, he had to basically look at his shoes. "Squall... Squall and me were ... just discussing ... about... about... me... uh... returning to Garden." He stuttered out chocking on the words as he tried to hide the fear in his voice, he didn't want Matron to think he was afraid of her.
"Oh, and what did he say?"
"He... uh..." Why couldn't he get it out?
Squall seeing Seifer was having a problem quickly said. "I agreed to allow him back in as long as he follows a strict Probation."
"That's good, don't you think Cid?"
"Fine and Dandy." Cid mumbled. "Matron and I have come to tell you that we plan to renew our vows and you're invited."
"Oh, and you too Seifer. I was hoping we'd find you before we had it done."
Seifer saw the fake smile Cid forced on his face and quickly came up with a lie. "I would love to Matron... but I'll... probably be too busy training." He mumbled his apologies and looked at Squall. "I need to get a few things... from my uh Apartment please." He asked
"Go on I'll have everything set up for you when you come back."
"Thank you Squall, I... I really appreciate it."
"It's not you; everybody just needs a second chance."