Author's Notes:

Heyla! ~waves~ Me back. ^_^ With another lil fic.

This isn't connected to the 'Honor' ficcy. Just a
small Akito POV that somehow managed to creep into my
brain and force itself to be written. I don't think
there's spoilers. Having only watched till episode 7 I
don't thin I can spoil much of anybody. ¬_¬

Well, enjoy ne!

~Possessions~
By: Cali-chan

I once had a small pet. A puppy. It was small, white,
and I remember quite clearly it's pink wet tongue that
would always dart out to touch my skin. I was pleased
with it. Why? It loved only me. It obeyed only me. It
was mine utterly and completely and belonged to no one
else.

I had never had something that only belonged to me in
the past. Already at the age of four I already had my
duties as the head of the Sohma clan. Which meant my
life didn't even belong to myself. I would forever be
dedicated to my cursed relatives whims.

Then one day I had gotten sick. I wasn't allowed to
have my puppy at my side while I was this way. So I
tried to get well quickly. So that my puppy wouldn't
miss me too badly. Finally after a month I was better.

But it was too late.

The creature, it seemed, had quite taken to Shigure
who fed it while I had been in bed. Its shifted
affection could be given to the fact that Shigure
attracted his own kind as the dog cursed Sohma. But
that didn't matter to me. It was understood that my
puppy had betrayed me. He had, while I had been sick,
turned to the first person that had shown it kindness.
I couldn't forgive that betrayal of friendship.

I had him drowned the next day.

Shigure had shown his disapproval about my decision.
He said I was too cold and heartless and couldn't
expect the puppy to love only me. I merely smiled,
shook my head, and told him to be silent. In this
house my word was law. A small compensation for my
entire life being taken from me, the burden of Sohma
head taking away my health.

The doctors had claimed that my frailty had already
begun at birth and was a natural course. I didn't
believe them. I knew it was because of the curse.
Surely, it had to be that. It took my chance of a
normal life. It caged me in a weak shell and kept me
within Sohma grounds. It gave my cousins alternate
bodies of the creatures of the zodiac to whom I was
dedicated to every hour.

It seemed my life was damned to be repetitiously
dull. Merely watching over my cousins' fumble at
attempts at a normal life only to have them crawl back
to my protection. A Sohma can only be truly accepted
by fellow Sohma's.

Then one day, my life forever changed.

It was announced to me another cursed Sohma was
discovered and was to live within the grounds. I took
it without interest. What would another Sohma mean
after all? Just another fumbling life to watch, a
child to guide who would take up more of my time. But
I couldn't have been more mistaken.

Sohma Yuki... was exactly the opposite.

The first time I saw him I couldn't help but feel the
eeriness of the fact that it seemed I was gazing into
a mirror. We had the same frail body, that thin face
and wide-eyed gaze that seemed to devour the very
world it's vision fell upon. Hair that looked
immaculately soft graciously framed pink flushed
cheeks, full lips parting to let out a soft breath as
he shivered in the cold spring air. I was utterly
captivated.

Unable to help myself I reached out and touched a
cheek that was as smooth and soft as it appeared.
"Yuki isn't it?"

"Hai. I am pleased to finally meet you Akito-sama."
His voice is soft, refined. Belying an undercurrent of
intelligence despite his obvious youth. I find myself
smiling despite myself.

From that day forward, if it could be helped, Yuki
never left my side.

Let me ask you, have you ever owned something
precious? Something that was worth more that anyone
could be able to pay? I'm sure you have. And as you
well know with things of such value you aim to keep it
hidden, away from others less they taint or treat it
roughly and un-accordingly. This thing, this precious
thing that you kept locked away from them so they
could never take it away. That was exactly what Yuki
was to me.

He was everything. All my time I wanted spend it in
his presence. When we were apart time slowed to an
almost crawling pace. I loved stroking his hair,
touching his lips and feeling the breath that escaped
from them warm my fingers. I would often rest my head
against his chest just to hear his heart beat. To know
he was alive. I would have him read aloud just to hear
his voice breaking the silence of the small grove we
often leisured in. I bought him small toys just to
watch him play, books just to watch him learn. I loved
him so much it brought pain every time I saw him
smile. Pain every time he faltered. And it brought
even more pain when I saw him grow apart from me.

The outside world beckoned to him with an
irresistible voice. I couldn't deny his wish when he
asked if he could play with the other children. I
couldn't deny him anything if it could be helped.
Perhaps he still had to learn. Had to learn that
Sohma's could only truly be with other Sohma's. And
learn he did. The hard way.

Hatori easily enough erased the memories of his
playmates after that unfortunate incident. But nothing
could erase their reactions from Yuki's mind. We grew
closer after that. Perhaps he realized I was the only
one who could love him despite his faults. And for
more blessed years we were together.

Of course we didn't only have happy times. No
relationship is perfect. I often had to strike out at
him when he disobeyed or did something I disapproved
off. It was all because I loved him of course. I
wanted him to learn, to be perfect. Afterwards I would
treat the wound myself, with Hatori's assistance, and
lovingly kiss his tears away.

I loved Yuki. I loved him more than anything.

Then once again he had asked something of me. He
wanted to move out to Shigure's home, to taste the
normal life of a High School youth. Of course I
agreed. How could I not? It is only temporary after
all.

Later, what had happened with his playmates will
happen again. And he will return to me. Because he
knows I love him as no one else can. Then perhaps we
will grow closer than before. Then perhaps finally
Yuki will never decide to leave my side again.

I will watch as he fumbles with failed relationships.
Watch as those foolish people harm him. But I will not
intervene. Only when he has finally understood where
he belongs will I pick him up and bind his wounds. And
once again I will have my most precious thing locked
away safely, for only me to admire and love.

~Owari~

Hehehehehe... that was weird wasn't it? O_o