Jag sighed, leaning against the wall in the turbolift. He shoved a hand
back through his short, black hair. 'This is not what I had planned for
today, not at all…Why did I just do that? I know she loves her family more
than me…didn't I? ' he thought. 'And now I've hurt her…I wonder if she
knows that the great Chiss pilot is scared of losing the only girl he'd
ever love? Or that this great Chiss pilot is jealous of her closeness with
her family? Or, that this great Chiss pilot is an idiot? Well,' he amended,
'She probably thinks that now… Gods, why is I do that? I care so much about
her, and then, when I have to leave, instead of enjoying the day with her,
I mess up what we have by taking offense and getting into a fight…Gods,
what an idiot…'
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Jaina stared at the turbolift bank, feeling weak in the knees, and about to collapse. 'Lords of the Sith, please, don't leave Jag…I don't want to lose you…' She sniffled. 'Gods, why is he so jealous all of a sudden? What if something happens to him? What if he never speaks to me again?' she wiped at another tear. 'First guy to hurt me…but, really, did I hurt him first?' she wondered. 'I need some peace and quiet…' and with that, tears still blurring her vision, she headed towards the hangar bay.
* * *
"Jaina?" Jag knocked on the door. "Jaina, please, I know you're in there, even if you won't speak to me ever again, please, hear me out…" he pleaded. He rested his forehead on the cold metal door in a sign of defeat. He shook his head. "She hates me. She really, really hates me. Well, I can't blame her, I hate me too, now…" He sighed, before shoving his hands into his pockets and heading towards the hangar bay to work on his ship. It's what he usually did when he wanted time to think, and sort out his thoughts. Jag wandered into the hangar bay, moments later, and a soft sound met his ears. 'The sound of muffled crying, maybe?' he thought. 'Jaina?' he searched around for the source fo the noise, and saw his girl on her knees, underneath a ship. 'The one Kyp borrowed from the Hapans.' Jag noted. He approached quietly, not daring to disturb her, ducking his head as he walked underneath the ship. He dropped down onto his knees next to her, and watched her jump a little. She started to say something, wiping tears away furiously, but he hushed her, and pressed a finger to her lips.
"Wait." He whispered. "Listen to me, please, Jaina. Just hear me out. I stood there in that turbolift, and you may as well have shot me through the heart with a blaster, I couldn't feel anything, I was so numbed. I'd let myself play with the thought that you loved me, only me, with your everything, well, I was proved wrong. And then, things started to get back into focus, and I couldn't help but think of what an idiot I was. And then, I thought, what if that was our last conversation, and something were to happen, and I know that I'd be regretting every syllable until I died. And then, I thought about why I acted that way, and I realized I am scared. I'm scared of losing you, because I won't be there to protect you. Remember at Hapes, how your fighter crashed there?" he plowed on, not waiting for her to answer, "I was so scared, because I thought I'd lost you. And I couldn't protect you, and stop you from crashing. I don't want that to happen now. If I could, Jaina, I'd never leave your side, ever again. I'm sorry, I was acting like a jerk. Can you still find it in you to love me? Cause I still love you so much…"
Jaina's eyes welled up with tears again. 'Great, Fel, now look at what you've done!' he scolded himself. He braced himself for her answer.
"Jag…" she started, blinking away tears, "Oh, gods, Jag, I, I …" Jag closed his eyes, prepared for the worst, when Jaina threw herself into his arms, her mouth finding his, and kissing him hard. That knocked Jag off guard, but he wrapped his arms around her, and returned her kiss hungrily, urgently. 'Well, so far so good…' he thought, faintly amused, but more so relieved. He pulled back, and studied her face, stroking her cheek absently with his thumb. "Our first fight, and we couldn't even not talk to each other for 10 minutes. Sad, isn't it?"
Jaina laughed. "Does this even count as a fight? It was so stupid,"
"I guess you're right." Jag grinned.
"I would say so, Colonel. Listen, Jag, I would go with you in a Coruscant second if I felt my family, or what's left of it, could manage-"
"I know, I know. I've lost siblings too. Don't worry about it. It's just, I don't know, the thought of spending a moment without you, and having to wonder if you're ok, just, ah-"
"I'm plenty capable of taking care of myself, thank you very much."
"I know, but at Hapes, when I couldn't be there to protect you, and I thought I'd lost you…I just don't want that to happen again." Jag said softly.
Jaina smiled at him understandingly. Jag leaned forward to kiss her again, when they were interrupted by a shout in the hangar bay.
"Jaina! Jaina, where are you?" cried a voice.
"Sith. Never a moment alone." Muttered Jaina. Jag laughed, before rising up off of his knees, to stand up, but he still had to duck his head. He took her by the hand, and looked into her brown eyes, and raised her hand to his mouth, and kissed it before tugging Jaina to her feet and they walked, bent over, out from underneath the freighter. "Jaina!" cried the voice, just before the speaker stepped into view.
"Kyp," Jaina sounded faintly surprised, "What can I do for you?"
Kyp Durron blushed noticeably. "I, ah, hope, I'm not interrupting anything…" Jaina and Jag exchanged glances, before Jag said, "No, not at all. Go ahead."
"Actually, I was looking for you, Jaina, because I couldn't find Colonel Fel, and I knew that you two would most likely be together. So, now that you are here, Colonel, we've just received an urgent message from Borleias. You are to leave as soon as you can get your things together for the Pyria system. That's all." Kyp shrugged, before leaving the two alone in the bay. "Thanks," Called Jag, before turning to the young woman standing next to him. "So, I guess, for now, this is farewell, Lieutenant?"
"I guess so, Colonel." Jaina looked up at him sadly, before giving him a cold smile. "Fly faster and shoot straighter than those Vong, and hustle home. Got it? If I hear anything about you and bacta, I will kill something."
"Yes, ma'am." Jag saluted, mocking her.
"I'm glad we have an understanding, Colonel. And, I'm glad we're all good."
"Me, too, Lieutenant, me too."
Jaina stretched up to give him a kiss, and Jag wrapped her in a tight embrace. "I'll miss you, you know." He could tell she was smiling as she nodded into his chest.
"And I'll miss you, too. You send me a holo every day, got it?"
"Yes, Liuetenant."
She pulled out of the embrace, smiling up at him. She kissed her fingertips, and pressed them to his lips. "Be careful, Jag. I know you'll be brave."
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ok, sorry about that, my superior intellect is failing me, so out of lack of other creative ideas, this is what I came up with. I beg your pardon, please, don't hate me, just review, and offer suggestions. Any suggestions are appreciated. And thanks to my loyal readers, who are still reading this, besides the terrible, plotless, evil writing this is developing into. ;D
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Jaina stared at the turbolift bank, feeling weak in the knees, and about to collapse. 'Lords of the Sith, please, don't leave Jag…I don't want to lose you…' She sniffled. 'Gods, why is he so jealous all of a sudden? What if something happens to him? What if he never speaks to me again?' she wiped at another tear. 'First guy to hurt me…but, really, did I hurt him first?' she wondered. 'I need some peace and quiet…' and with that, tears still blurring her vision, she headed towards the hangar bay.
* * *
"Jaina?" Jag knocked on the door. "Jaina, please, I know you're in there, even if you won't speak to me ever again, please, hear me out…" he pleaded. He rested his forehead on the cold metal door in a sign of defeat. He shook his head. "She hates me. She really, really hates me. Well, I can't blame her, I hate me too, now…" He sighed, before shoving his hands into his pockets and heading towards the hangar bay to work on his ship. It's what he usually did when he wanted time to think, and sort out his thoughts. Jag wandered into the hangar bay, moments later, and a soft sound met his ears. 'The sound of muffled crying, maybe?' he thought. 'Jaina?' he searched around for the source fo the noise, and saw his girl on her knees, underneath a ship. 'The one Kyp borrowed from the Hapans.' Jag noted. He approached quietly, not daring to disturb her, ducking his head as he walked underneath the ship. He dropped down onto his knees next to her, and watched her jump a little. She started to say something, wiping tears away furiously, but he hushed her, and pressed a finger to her lips.
"Wait." He whispered. "Listen to me, please, Jaina. Just hear me out. I stood there in that turbolift, and you may as well have shot me through the heart with a blaster, I couldn't feel anything, I was so numbed. I'd let myself play with the thought that you loved me, only me, with your everything, well, I was proved wrong. And then, things started to get back into focus, and I couldn't help but think of what an idiot I was. And then, I thought, what if that was our last conversation, and something were to happen, and I know that I'd be regretting every syllable until I died. And then, I thought about why I acted that way, and I realized I am scared. I'm scared of losing you, because I won't be there to protect you. Remember at Hapes, how your fighter crashed there?" he plowed on, not waiting for her to answer, "I was so scared, because I thought I'd lost you. And I couldn't protect you, and stop you from crashing. I don't want that to happen now. If I could, Jaina, I'd never leave your side, ever again. I'm sorry, I was acting like a jerk. Can you still find it in you to love me? Cause I still love you so much…"
Jaina's eyes welled up with tears again. 'Great, Fel, now look at what you've done!' he scolded himself. He braced himself for her answer.
"Jag…" she started, blinking away tears, "Oh, gods, Jag, I, I …" Jag closed his eyes, prepared for the worst, when Jaina threw herself into his arms, her mouth finding his, and kissing him hard. That knocked Jag off guard, but he wrapped his arms around her, and returned her kiss hungrily, urgently. 'Well, so far so good…' he thought, faintly amused, but more so relieved. He pulled back, and studied her face, stroking her cheek absently with his thumb. "Our first fight, and we couldn't even not talk to each other for 10 minutes. Sad, isn't it?"
Jaina laughed. "Does this even count as a fight? It was so stupid,"
"I guess you're right." Jag grinned.
"I would say so, Colonel. Listen, Jag, I would go with you in a Coruscant second if I felt my family, or what's left of it, could manage-"
"I know, I know. I've lost siblings too. Don't worry about it. It's just, I don't know, the thought of spending a moment without you, and having to wonder if you're ok, just, ah-"
"I'm plenty capable of taking care of myself, thank you very much."
"I know, but at Hapes, when I couldn't be there to protect you, and I thought I'd lost you…I just don't want that to happen again." Jag said softly.
Jaina smiled at him understandingly. Jag leaned forward to kiss her again, when they were interrupted by a shout in the hangar bay.
"Jaina! Jaina, where are you?" cried a voice.
"Sith. Never a moment alone." Muttered Jaina. Jag laughed, before rising up off of his knees, to stand up, but he still had to duck his head. He took her by the hand, and looked into her brown eyes, and raised her hand to his mouth, and kissed it before tugging Jaina to her feet and they walked, bent over, out from underneath the freighter. "Jaina!" cried the voice, just before the speaker stepped into view.
"Kyp," Jaina sounded faintly surprised, "What can I do for you?"
Kyp Durron blushed noticeably. "I, ah, hope, I'm not interrupting anything…" Jaina and Jag exchanged glances, before Jag said, "No, not at all. Go ahead."
"Actually, I was looking for you, Jaina, because I couldn't find Colonel Fel, and I knew that you two would most likely be together. So, now that you are here, Colonel, we've just received an urgent message from Borleias. You are to leave as soon as you can get your things together for the Pyria system. That's all." Kyp shrugged, before leaving the two alone in the bay. "Thanks," Called Jag, before turning to the young woman standing next to him. "So, I guess, for now, this is farewell, Lieutenant?"
"I guess so, Colonel." Jaina looked up at him sadly, before giving him a cold smile. "Fly faster and shoot straighter than those Vong, and hustle home. Got it? If I hear anything about you and bacta, I will kill something."
"Yes, ma'am." Jag saluted, mocking her.
"I'm glad we have an understanding, Colonel. And, I'm glad we're all good."
"Me, too, Lieutenant, me too."
Jaina stretched up to give him a kiss, and Jag wrapped her in a tight embrace. "I'll miss you, you know." He could tell she was smiling as she nodded into his chest.
"And I'll miss you, too. You send me a holo every day, got it?"
"Yes, Liuetenant."
She pulled out of the embrace, smiling up at him. She kissed her fingertips, and pressed them to his lips. "Be careful, Jag. I know you'll be brave."
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ok, sorry about that, my superior intellect is failing me, so out of lack of other creative ideas, this is what I came up with. I beg your pardon, please, don't hate me, just review, and offer suggestions. Any suggestions are appreciated. And thanks to my loyal readers, who are still reading this, besides the terrible, plotless, evil writing this is developing into. ;D