~Okay, here's Bulma's POV when she hears of Vegeta's sacrifice/death~
~There is some slight AU in here~
I Do This For You
By Angel_Wings
~~~Bulma~~~
The ground beneath me spins and feel as if it sucks me in. I feel my body quake and realize I'm crying. The salty droplets slide down my cheeks and I bite my lip to keep from crying out. Squeezing my eyes shut I turn my hands into tight fists. My shoulders begin to slowly shake as I fail to hold back my voice and cry, "but I don't want him to be dead!"
My old boyfriend comes over and tries to comfort me, but I don't want him… I want the only one who can brush away my tears… the only one who can tell me it will be alright and make the pain go away… I want the one who can't be here at that moment because he's gone… I want my love, Vegeta…
Unable to take the gentle words my friends try to ease my pain with I push the scarred warrior away and run. My feet race beneath me and I have no direction in which I want them to lead. I only want to get away… get away from the pain… get away from the looks of pity my friend's give me… get away from reality… I want to go back home… lie in bed next to the person I have woken up to every morning for the last decade… Why is life so unfair to me?!
Just when he was finally opening up… when his words began to hint towards his love for me… he is stolen from my side by a thief in the night… No money, word, action, or person can ever hope to replace what I have lost today… I have lost more than my love… my husband… or my protector… I have lost the willingness to continue… I have lost the joy of life… I have lost life itself… There is nothing for me to live for or hope for… I already had what I wanted…
I find myself at the edge of Kami's lookout. I slow my run and halt a few feet at the edge. I stand there looking down through the clouds as the wind runs through my short sky blue hair. I hug myself as more tears find their way to slip down my cheeks. I do not hold back my sobs as I stand there in grief and listen to them echo throughout the atmosphere.
I think about when I first met him. It was not the most desirable meeting you want to make with your true love, but I can say it was memorable. Never was I ever more scared in my life when I first got up close and personal with my sayian prince. Though he threaten the lives of me and my friends countless times I found myself drawn to him. Perhaps it was because I was always drawn to the less-than-nice guys... perhaps that's what first lured me to him. After a while it became something more than just his attitude that I was attracted to. Physically any woman would have been attracted to him, but deeper within me still was drawn to him. His eyes… I remember his eyes more than anything else… So dark and pitiless they were,… but when I looked into them it was like a mirror into his soul… It took me awhile to understanding what I was seeing in his cobalt eyes, but I soon discovered it was him that I was seeing… Not the dark prince he was considered to be or the mask he hid so well beneath, but the underlying being he truly was that even he could not see…
Vegeta… Do you know about who you are?… I thought you were beginning to realize it… Today however I had my doubts… When I saw you destroy the stadium I couldn't believe what I was seeing… I had to ask myself several times if that was you, my husband, Vegeta… I was so shocked I could barely think… My mind shut down and I didn't want to believe you had changed back to the way you were years ago… I couldn't let you destroy all that you had accomplish to become in the last group of years… I became determined to seek you out and stop you myself as soon we finished wishing back the people you killed with the dragon balls,… but I was too late…
You are gone… and I wish I could go with you… If it weren't for the fact we-- I had an eight-year-old son to care for I would quickly jump over this ledge and embrace the darkness of death. If I had to go to Hell to find you I would gladly do it. I cannot --and will not-- live without you, Vegeta… Maybe you cannot truly understand the emotions within you or the one's I feel for you, but I understand what beats in my heart… I can no longer face the days of tomorrow without you standing next to me… I will force myself to face those days though for our son… However I will find no joy in the days or happiness in the hope of the future… All I long for now is death so that I might be with you…
Vegeta… I am so proud of you… When they explained how you died --that you sacrificed yourself for this world-- I can honestly say I've never felt prouder of you… Though I am sadden with your actions I understand what you did… Vegeta… I know you died to protect me and Trunks… that you did it for me… I only wish I could tell you how proud and how much I love you… Do not be sadden by the fact you never said the words 'I love you' to me for I already know the truth… You never physically needed to tell me for I could see it in your eyes…
I first found out I was falling in love with you about the time I asked you to stay at my house. It was when you nearly killed yourself that I started to think about what you meant to me. I spent several hours by your bedside worried to near tears about you as your life hung in the balance. After you recovered from the explosion you caused in the gravity chamber you dove back into training I began to keep an eye out for when that door would open and you would exit the confines of the gravity room to please your ferocious hunger or little sleep your body required. I found myself longing for our quarrels when you disappeared into space. As you continued to avoid me I continued to follow you. You were a mystery in yourself and I longed to figure you out. I could understand exactly what you were feeling, but your actions often conflicted with my presumptions. I had finally come to understand you and then you began to open up. It was long and hard, but I began to chip away the hard steel that locked down your soul. I was very glad to see the results of my efforts… because of such we had our son…
I know it was hard for you to come to terms with loving your son, even that little step was hard. You barely acknowledged him except when you two trained. I know he will miss you terribly. He always had enjoyed that time you shared with him though you never treated him any different then how you treated him outside that gravity chamber. I never tried to push you into showing your love for him for fear you would rebuke him than rather embrace him. I think it worked out in the end…
Today our lives ended, Vegeta… Yours and mine were a single strain of life and when they severed yours from existence they killed me in the same moment… I stand here today physically, but in all other senses and terms I have died… I stand here as a ghost of my former self and will never return… for you will never return…
Goodbye, Vegeta…
Wait for me,… my love…
I fall to my knees and hung my head letting my cerulean locks fall over my teary eyes. I run my hands over my pale face in hope of trying to rub away the terrible feeling that aches in my bosom, but in vain. As the wind whispers soft words in my ears in hopes of silent comfort I see images of the past… I see not the time when you were dark and heartless… and killed with no purpose other than to quench your thirst of blood… I see the days after Freeiza… When you were at Capsule Corps… I see you when we first began to hold one another… I see you when your eyes became the channel of your emotions… I see when we first kissed… I see when we became parents… I see what you became… I see the true sayian prince you are… I cannot hold back the smile that comes with those blessed memories,… but I cannot hold back the pain either…
As the world falls away and I kneel there alone,… to forever be alone,… my heart dies… and I begin the long wait for death... the long wait to be with you again...
~There is some slight AU in here~
I Do This For You
By Angel_Wings
~~~Bulma~~~
The ground beneath me spins and feel as if it sucks me in. I feel my body quake and realize I'm crying. The salty droplets slide down my cheeks and I bite my lip to keep from crying out. Squeezing my eyes shut I turn my hands into tight fists. My shoulders begin to slowly shake as I fail to hold back my voice and cry, "but I don't want him to be dead!"
My old boyfriend comes over and tries to comfort me, but I don't want him… I want the only one who can brush away my tears… the only one who can tell me it will be alright and make the pain go away… I want the one who can't be here at that moment because he's gone… I want my love, Vegeta…
Unable to take the gentle words my friends try to ease my pain with I push the scarred warrior away and run. My feet race beneath me and I have no direction in which I want them to lead. I only want to get away… get away from the pain… get away from the looks of pity my friend's give me… get away from reality… I want to go back home… lie in bed next to the person I have woken up to every morning for the last decade… Why is life so unfair to me?!
Just when he was finally opening up… when his words began to hint towards his love for me… he is stolen from my side by a thief in the night… No money, word, action, or person can ever hope to replace what I have lost today… I have lost more than my love… my husband… or my protector… I have lost the willingness to continue… I have lost the joy of life… I have lost life itself… There is nothing for me to live for or hope for… I already had what I wanted…
I find myself at the edge of Kami's lookout. I slow my run and halt a few feet at the edge. I stand there looking down through the clouds as the wind runs through my short sky blue hair. I hug myself as more tears find their way to slip down my cheeks. I do not hold back my sobs as I stand there in grief and listen to them echo throughout the atmosphere.
I think about when I first met him. It was not the most desirable meeting you want to make with your true love, but I can say it was memorable. Never was I ever more scared in my life when I first got up close and personal with my sayian prince. Though he threaten the lives of me and my friends countless times I found myself drawn to him. Perhaps it was because I was always drawn to the less-than-nice guys... perhaps that's what first lured me to him. After a while it became something more than just his attitude that I was attracted to. Physically any woman would have been attracted to him, but deeper within me still was drawn to him. His eyes… I remember his eyes more than anything else… So dark and pitiless they were,… but when I looked into them it was like a mirror into his soul… It took me awhile to understanding what I was seeing in his cobalt eyes, but I soon discovered it was him that I was seeing… Not the dark prince he was considered to be or the mask he hid so well beneath, but the underlying being he truly was that even he could not see…
Vegeta… Do you know about who you are?… I thought you were beginning to realize it… Today however I had my doubts… When I saw you destroy the stadium I couldn't believe what I was seeing… I had to ask myself several times if that was you, my husband, Vegeta… I was so shocked I could barely think… My mind shut down and I didn't want to believe you had changed back to the way you were years ago… I couldn't let you destroy all that you had accomplish to become in the last group of years… I became determined to seek you out and stop you myself as soon we finished wishing back the people you killed with the dragon balls,… but I was too late…
You are gone… and I wish I could go with you… If it weren't for the fact we-- I had an eight-year-old son to care for I would quickly jump over this ledge and embrace the darkness of death. If I had to go to Hell to find you I would gladly do it. I cannot --and will not-- live without you, Vegeta… Maybe you cannot truly understand the emotions within you or the one's I feel for you, but I understand what beats in my heart… I can no longer face the days of tomorrow without you standing next to me… I will force myself to face those days though for our son… However I will find no joy in the days or happiness in the hope of the future… All I long for now is death so that I might be with you…
Vegeta… I am so proud of you… When they explained how you died --that you sacrificed yourself for this world-- I can honestly say I've never felt prouder of you… Though I am sadden with your actions I understand what you did… Vegeta… I know you died to protect me and Trunks… that you did it for me… I only wish I could tell you how proud and how much I love you… Do not be sadden by the fact you never said the words 'I love you' to me for I already know the truth… You never physically needed to tell me for I could see it in your eyes…
I first found out I was falling in love with you about the time I asked you to stay at my house. It was when you nearly killed yourself that I started to think about what you meant to me. I spent several hours by your bedside worried to near tears about you as your life hung in the balance. After you recovered from the explosion you caused in the gravity chamber you dove back into training I began to keep an eye out for when that door would open and you would exit the confines of the gravity room to please your ferocious hunger or little sleep your body required. I found myself longing for our quarrels when you disappeared into space. As you continued to avoid me I continued to follow you. You were a mystery in yourself and I longed to figure you out. I could understand exactly what you were feeling, but your actions often conflicted with my presumptions. I had finally come to understand you and then you began to open up. It was long and hard, but I began to chip away the hard steel that locked down your soul. I was very glad to see the results of my efforts… because of such we had our son…
I know it was hard for you to come to terms with loving your son, even that little step was hard. You barely acknowledged him except when you two trained. I know he will miss you terribly. He always had enjoyed that time you shared with him though you never treated him any different then how you treated him outside that gravity chamber. I never tried to push you into showing your love for him for fear you would rebuke him than rather embrace him. I think it worked out in the end…
Today our lives ended, Vegeta… Yours and mine were a single strain of life and when they severed yours from existence they killed me in the same moment… I stand here today physically, but in all other senses and terms I have died… I stand here as a ghost of my former self and will never return… for you will never return…
Goodbye, Vegeta…
Wait for me,… my love…
I fall to my knees and hung my head letting my cerulean locks fall over my teary eyes. I run my hands over my pale face in hope of trying to rub away the terrible feeling that aches in my bosom, but in vain. As the wind whispers soft words in my ears in hopes of silent comfort I see images of the past… I see not the time when you were dark and heartless… and killed with no purpose other than to quench your thirst of blood… I see the days after Freeiza… When you were at Capsule Corps… I see you when we first began to hold one another… I see you when your eyes became the channel of your emotions… I see when we first kissed… I see when we became parents… I see what you became… I see the true sayian prince you are… I cannot hold back the smile that comes with those blessed memories,… but I cannot hold back the pain either…
As the world falls away and I kneel there alone,… to forever be alone,… my heart dies… and I begin the long wait for death... the long wait to be with you again...