1 Part ten
Q/N: Ten parts! Oh hooray! The response for this has been phenomenal! I thank you all! * Runs around like mad and hugs all regular reviewers. * All of ya deserve a huge huggle for all of your support and the boost of morale. I'm a happier person to know that I have so many people who like my work. You're all fabulous! This part is all for you! Hope you all enjoy it!
Chapter 10 It all comes crashing down
Sometimes I feel like
I don't have a bother
Sometimes I feel like
My only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of cities
Lonely as I am
Together we cry, we cry, we cry
I don't ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
I don't ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
All Saints – Under The Bridge
Squall's sapphire blue eyes were filled with fear as Seifer released his anger into his Hypherion. His aim was perfect. Squall was about to see the end of his life. He hadn't even had chance to tell Quistis how he felt. Suddenly the Hypherion blade came into contact with a long stick of wood attached to a chain, causing a clang to echo through the Training Centre. Seifer turned to see Selphie, in a fighting stance, with Quezacotl and the cute green bunny Carbuncle at her side. She had an angered look on her face.
"Get back Seifer!" she ordered. "I know you were responsible for that attack on Squall and I'm going to tell Quistis!"
"Oh…I don't think so…you see, cos if you do, people like Squall are going to get hurt, and you don't want your best friend all beaten up and dead now do you?" Seifer sneered. Selphie maintained her angered gaze, praying that Seifer wouldn't live up to his word. Selphie ran over to Squall and pulled him away from Seifer, cradling his battered body in her arms. Seifer laughed evilly and walked up to Squall and Selphie. "Something interesting is going to pop up today Squall. And if you turn up for it you're not gonna be the only one who's gonna die." He pointed the blade of the Hypherion towards them then left the pair alone.
"Are you all right Squall?" Selphie asked. Squall sat himself up and smiled.
"Yeah, I'm fine," he replied. "Thanks for coming to help me."
"Thank Shiva and Diablos. They sent the message to Quezacotl, without them I would never have found you!"
"I'm under Silence right now so I can't thank them."
"I'll clear up that." Selphie cast Remedy over him and the communication between the GFs and Squall was restored.
[Squall! You OK?] Shiva asked.
'I'm fine, thanks to you two,' Squall replied. 'I owe you two big time for this.'
[No problem] Diablos said.
"Seifer said something about an event that's happening today that you're not allowed to attend, what do you think he meant?" Selphie asked.
"I'm not sure…" Squall thought deeply, rising to his feet. "I'm just not sure…"
~~***~~
Squall sat on a bench outside the library contemplating what Seifer had said. What in the world could he have meant by this? Something was going down, and Squall didn't like it. He suddenly heard a commotion from down the hall. He got to his feet and went to the source of the problem. All his friends were huddled around Seifer and Quistis.
"What the…" Squall questioned. Zell turned to face him; he almost looked sympathetic towards him. "What is it? Come on, tell me."
"Squall…I…I don't know how to tell you this…" Zell hesitated.
"What is it Zell, come on!"
"Seifer and Quistis…are getting married." Squall's eyes widened with horror. He felt shattered, like someone had thrown him aside and he'd smashed into a million pieces. He was totally heartbroken.
"I hope all of you can make it!" Seifer smiled. "What about you Squall? You coming?" Seifer could tell Squall was vulnerable and upset. Squall felt tears come to his eyes but he refused to let them fall.
"I…I…I can't…I'm…I'm too busy that day…" Squall choked. Quistis' eyes widened. "Could you…excuse me…for just a second…" Squall darted off in a hurry, making his way to the dorms. He ran into his room and made sure the door was shut behind him. He then sat down on his bed. He couldn't hold back any longer. He covered his face with his hands and started to cry. Was this really happening to him? Was this even possible? He couldn't believe it. She was getting married to him, after all he had done to him…she was marrying him now. Squall grabbed an empty glass bottle and smashed it on his hand. Blood gushed out of his hand as he sobbed harder. "Why me! Why does this fucking have to happen to me! Why!" he screamed, sobbing harder and harder as he spread his blood over his face. He grasped the small shards of glass that lay in his hands tightly, causing himself more damage. Blood poured profusely from the now large gashes in his hands. Tears still fell down his cheeks as he repeated to himself over and over again what Zell had told him. Why did this have to happen now? Of all the times it could've happened it had to be now, when Squall was open and vulnerable. Now, he felt like he'd lost everything, especially the will to live.
He looked up at the case containing the Lionheart. A crazy thought flashed through his head. 'I'll kill myself' he thought, glaring at the large black case. As much as he tried to dismiss this unbelievably stupid idea, it didn't appear to want to leave him. It just stuck in his mind. He didn't have much of a choice now. He couldn't go on knowing that she was spending the rest of her life with Seifer. He couldn't live on knowing that she'd never know how he felt for her. He loved her too much to see her marry him. He stumbled over to the Lionheart and removed it from the case, the cool blue blade glinting in the afternoon sun.
"So…it all comes down to this, does it?" Squall questioned himself. "It comes down to one choice…" Squall stared deeply at the iridescent blade of the Lionheart and contemplated his actions. He grasped the handle tighter. "I don't care! I don't care! I'd rather die than live in misery! Never being able to say how I really feel!" his looked turned from sorrow to determination. He knew now what he had to do…
~~***~~
Selphie, Irvine and Zell walked in solemn silence along the hallways of Garden. Nobody said a word. Irvine finally spoke.
"I wonder what got Squall so upset?"" he wondered.
"He loves Quistis, this is a major blow for him," Zell replied softly. "I feel so sorry for him…he must hurt so bad…"
"Yeah…he must really hurt…" Selphie muttered. "All that pain…pain…pain! No!" it all came into focus for Selphie suddenly.
"What is it babe?" Irvine asked.
"It's Squall! I think…I think he's gonna hurt himself!"
"What? Are you sure?"
"He's gone back to the Dorms! That was the direction he was running in! He's gone to get the Lionheart! He's…HE'S GONNA COMMIT SUICIDE!" Selphie screamed. Irvine and Zell gasped in horror. They dashed over to the Dorms and ran up to Squall's door. They bashed on it repeatedly. "Squall! Squall! Open up!" Selphie pleaded, close to tears.
"Squall! Don't be a jerk! Open up!" Irvine yelled. Selphie thudded her fists on the door, in floods of tears.
"Squall! Don't die! Please don't die!" she begged, her desperate pleas no doubt falling on deaf ears. A low crack was heard, emanating from Zell's direction. He'd cracked his knuckles and was going to ram the door down.
"Stand aside people!" Zell said, charging at the door. Irvine pulled Selphie out of Zell's path as he hammered the door down very neatly. They stepped into the room and gasped in horror at the sight before them. The room was loitered with blood, everywhere possible. Selphie sunk into Irvine's arms for comfort as she looked around the room.
"Are we…too late?" Selphie asked quietly.
"I…I don't know…" Irvine asked. Zell's eyes scanned around the room. He caught sight of the beautiful iridescent blue blade of the Lionheart in the corner of the room. He went up to it and his eyes widened.
"I found him you guys!" he called to the others. They raced to Zell's side, only to bear witness to a blood-coated Squall, his head buried in his knees, refusing to meet his friends' eyes. Selphie crawled over to his side and put her arms around him.
"Oh Squall…" she said tearfully. "I thought we'd lost you!" she could tell he was in tears. She held him as close as she could and let him sob into her arms. She stroked his back affectionately. "It's OK now Squall…it's all right…" she soothed. He suddenly stopped sobbing and his body relaxed. Selphie felt Squall's body go limp and still. She looked at his face. He wasn't breathing anymore. "Oh my god…Squall! Squall!" she screamed. "Squall!"
I never sang my song
On the stage on my own
I never said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
2 You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs just once more
My last night here with you
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of walked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know that I had my eye on you?
Darling so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you never hurt
As if you never doubt
Shall I be the one for you?
A picture so softly, but sure
And from this show then
I would know that you are no dreamer
Julia Heartilly – Eyes on me
Once again, had to leave it at a critical point in the story. I can't resist cliffhangers! They always keep the audience on their toes! Next chappy we'll see if Squall made it through his suicide experience or whether this is the end of the heartbroken soldier.
All Saints – Under the Bridge taken from their self titled album All Saints. As for that last song…Hwoarang Girl and I listened to this 13 times to get the words right. Yes, it's the song from the Ragnarok on disk 3! I love that song! It so kawaii…anyways, till next chappy, later days! (Darn too much Weekenders!)
Q/N: Ten parts! Oh hooray! The response for this has been phenomenal! I thank you all! * Runs around like mad and hugs all regular reviewers. * All of ya deserve a huge huggle for all of your support and the boost of morale. I'm a happier person to know that I have so many people who like my work. You're all fabulous! This part is all for you! Hope you all enjoy it!
Chapter 10 It all comes crashing down
Sometimes I feel like
I don't have a bother
Sometimes I feel like
My only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of cities
Lonely as I am
Together we cry, we cry, we cry
I don't ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
I don't ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
All Saints – Under The Bridge
Squall's sapphire blue eyes were filled with fear as Seifer released his anger into his Hypherion. His aim was perfect. Squall was about to see the end of his life. He hadn't even had chance to tell Quistis how he felt. Suddenly the Hypherion blade came into contact with a long stick of wood attached to a chain, causing a clang to echo through the Training Centre. Seifer turned to see Selphie, in a fighting stance, with Quezacotl and the cute green bunny Carbuncle at her side. She had an angered look on her face.
"Get back Seifer!" she ordered. "I know you were responsible for that attack on Squall and I'm going to tell Quistis!"
"Oh…I don't think so…you see, cos if you do, people like Squall are going to get hurt, and you don't want your best friend all beaten up and dead now do you?" Seifer sneered. Selphie maintained her angered gaze, praying that Seifer wouldn't live up to his word. Selphie ran over to Squall and pulled him away from Seifer, cradling his battered body in her arms. Seifer laughed evilly and walked up to Squall and Selphie. "Something interesting is going to pop up today Squall. And if you turn up for it you're not gonna be the only one who's gonna die." He pointed the blade of the Hypherion towards them then left the pair alone.
"Are you all right Squall?" Selphie asked. Squall sat himself up and smiled.
"Yeah, I'm fine," he replied. "Thanks for coming to help me."
"Thank Shiva and Diablos. They sent the message to Quezacotl, without them I would never have found you!"
"I'm under Silence right now so I can't thank them."
"I'll clear up that." Selphie cast Remedy over him and the communication between the GFs and Squall was restored.
[Squall! You OK?] Shiva asked.
'I'm fine, thanks to you two,' Squall replied. 'I owe you two big time for this.'
[No problem] Diablos said.
"Seifer said something about an event that's happening today that you're not allowed to attend, what do you think he meant?" Selphie asked.
"I'm not sure…" Squall thought deeply, rising to his feet. "I'm just not sure…"
~~***~~
Squall sat on a bench outside the library contemplating what Seifer had said. What in the world could he have meant by this? Something was going down, and Squall didn't like it. He suddenly heard a commotion from down the hall. He got to his feet and went to the source of the problem. All his friends were huddled around Seifer and Quistis.
"What the…" Squall questioned. Zell turned to face him; he almost looked sympathetic towards him. "What is it? Come on, tell me."
"Squall…I…I don't know how to tell you this…" Zell hesitated.
"What is it Zell, come on!"
"Seifer and Quistis…are getting married." Squall's eyes widened with horror. He felt shattered, like someone had thrown him aside and he'd smashed into a million pieces. He was totally heartbroken.
"I hope all of you can make it!" Seifer smiled. "What about you Squall? You coming?" Seifer could tell Squall was vulnerable and upset. Squall felt tears come to his eyes but he refused to let them fall.
"I…I…I can't…I'm…I'm too busy that day…" Squall choked. Quistis' eyes widened. "Could you…excuse me…for just a second…" Squall darted off in a hurry, making his way to the dorms. He ran into his room and made sure the door was shut behind him. He then sat down on his bed. He couldn't hold back any longer. He covered his face with his hands and started to cry. Was this really happening to him? Was this even possible? He couldn't believe it. She was getting married to him, after all he had done to him…she was marrying him now. Squall grabbed an empty glass bottle and smashed it on his hand. Blood gushed out of his hand as he sobbed harder. "Why me! Why does this fucking have to happen to me! Why!" he screamed, sobbing harder and harder as he spread his blood over his face. He grasped the small shards of glass that lay in his hands tightly, causing himself more damage. Blood poured profusely from the now large gashes in his hands. Tears still fell down his cheeks as he repeated to himself over and over again what Zell had told him. Why did this have to happen now? Of all the times it could've happened it had to be now, when Squall was open and vulnerable. Now, he felt like he'd lost everything, especially the will to live.
He looked up at the case containing the Lionheart. A crazy thought flashed through his head. 'I'll kill myself' he thought, glaring at the large black case. As much as he tried to dismiss this unbelievably stupid idea, it didn't appear to want to leave him. It just stuck in his mind. He didn't have much of a choice now. He couldn't go on knowing that she was spending the rest of her life with Seifer. He couldn't live on knowing that she'd never know how he felt for her. He loved her too much to see her marry him. He stumbled over to the Lionheart and removed it from the case, the cool blue blade glinting in the afternoon sun.
"So…it all comes down to this, does it?" Squall questioned himself. "It comes down to one choice…" Squall stared deeply at the iridescent blade of the Lionheart and contemplated his actions. He grasped the handle tighter. "I don't care! I don't care! I'd rather die than live in misery! Never being able to say how I really feel!" his looked turned from sorrow to determination. He knew now what he had to do…
~~***~~
Selphie, Irvine and Zell walked in solemn silence along the hallways of Garden. Nobody said a word. Irvine finally spoke.
"I wonder what got Squall so upset?"" he wondered.
"He loves Quistis, this is a major blow for him," Zell replied softly. "I feel so sorry for him…he must hurt so bad…"
"Yeah…he must really hurt…" Selphie muttered. "All that pain…pain…pain! No!" it all came into focus for Selphie suddenly.
"What is it babe?" Irvine asked.
"It's Squall! I think…I think he's gonna hurt himself!"
"What? Are you sure?"
"He's gone back to the Dorms! That was the direction he was running in! He's gone to get the Lionheart! He's…HE'S GONNA COMMIT SUICIDE!" Selphie screamed. Irvine and Zell gasped in horror. They dashed over to the Dorms and ran up to Squall's door. They bashed on it repeatedly. "Squall! Squall! Open up!" Selphie pleaded, close to tears.
"Squall! Don't be a jerk! Open up!" Irvine yelled. Selphie thudded her fists on the door, in floods of tears.
"Squall! Don't die! Please don't die!" she begged, her desperate pleas no doubt falling on deaf ears. A low crack was heard, emanating from Zell's direction. He'd cracked his knuckles and was going to ram the door down.
"Stand aside people!" Zell said, charging at the door. Irvine pulled Selphie out of Zell's path as he hammered the door down very neatly. They stepped into the room and gasped in horror at the sight before them. The room was loitered with blood, everywhere possible. Selphie sunk into Irvine's arms for comfort as she looked around the room.
"Are we…too late?" Selphie asked quietly.
"I…I don't know…" Irvine asked. Zell's eyes scanned around the room. He caught sight of the beautiful iridescent blue blade of the Lionheart in the corner of the room. He went up to it and his eyes widened.
"I found him you guys!" he called to the others. They raced to Zell's side, only to bear witness to a blood-coated Squall, his head buried in his knees, refusing to meet his friends' eyes. Selphie crawled over to his side and put her arms around him.
"Oh Squall…" she said tearfully. "I thought we'd lost you!" she could tell he was in tears. She held him as close as she could and let him sob into her arms. She stroked his back affectionately. "It's OK now Squall…it's all right…" she soothed. He suddenly stopped sobbing and his body relaxed. Selphie felt Squall's body go limp and still. She looked at his face. He wasn't breathing anymore. "Oh my god…Squall! Squall!" she screamed. "Squall!"
I never sang my song
On the stage on my own
I never said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
2 You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs just once more
My last night here with you
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of walked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know that I had my eye on you?
Darling so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you never hurt
As if you never doubt
Shall I be the one for you?
A picture so softly, but sure
And from this show then
I would know that you are no dreamer
Julia Heartilly – Eyes on me
Once again, had to leave it at a critical point in the story. I can't resist cliffhangers! They always keep the audience on their toes! Next chappy we'll see if Squall made it through his suicide experience or whether this is the end of the heartbroken soldier.
All Saints – Under the Bridge taken from their self titled album All Saints. As for that last song…Hwoarang Girl and I listened to this 13 times to get the words right. Yes, it's the song from the Ragnarok on disk 3! I love that song! It so kawaii…anyways, till next chappy, later days! (Darn too much Weekenders!)