His sapphire eyes became fixed upon his friends, but mainly Tomoyo, as he
stood nervously by the door. He was unwilling to move, and he was
definitely out of character…
'Ugh! Why can't I move? I hate these pitiful feelings. It goes to show that I, Eriol Hiragizawa is USELESS and PARANOID without the "great" Clow Reed and his powers…ugh…I hate having no magic…I feel empty…like a part of me is gone…why…why…did I have to do that to Kaho…why…why…did I give up my magic?!? Why…' he thought to himself.
Eriol silently battled against himself in his head until the bell rang. He smoothed his hair gently as he took his seat, and like old times it was behind Daidouji-san.
"Um…Eriol? M-May I please speak to you…after school?" Tomoyo asked nervously
Eriol looked up surprised. "Sure. Why don't you meet me at my house?"
"Alright! Thanks Eriol…"
'I wonder…what she wants to say to me…that's so important? Actually…yes…I do know…it has to be about Jay. She doesn't want to tell Sakura because she knows that she will not understand…correctly…heh, it's nice to know that I still have a little bit of common sense left…'
The rest of the day passed by quickly and soon the ex-magician and the amethyst angel were rested upon large black leather couches in the magician's home.
"Would you like some tea, Tomoyo?" Eriol asked trying become his old self again.
"No…it's ok…" Tomoyo fiddled with her thumbs as she collapsed upon a couch. "Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure."
"Did you think I made a good choice, going to the dance with Jay?"
"Well…can you answer me this first?" Eriol said calmly.
"S-Sure"
"Why didn't you ask Sakura?"
"I know you know the answer to this already Eriol…but…I'll say it anyway…Sakura is sometimes doesn't notice the troubles that people have…she always looks on the positive side, and she doesn't know the negatives with well…going with Jay…"
"And they are?"
"Umm…well…err…I don't know!" Tomoyo stuttered.
"Ah…I see…Tomoyo, it's not that there are negatives, it is just that you can't let go of the past. Yes, I know that you let go of your feelings for Sakura, but I also can see that you sometimes regret it…"
Tomoyo broke into more tears as she said, "Yes…I know…I'm trying to hide the truth…I-I just want things to be like old times, they were so happy, and now…I don't know exactly…but something doesn't seem right."
Eriol took his hand and lifted her chin. "Don't worry Tomoyo, everything will work out for the better." He sighed and took a seat next to her. "You know, if you have troubles with anything, you know ill always be here…but…if I'm not one day…you should always consult your own heart."
"That…usually never works…" Tomoyo said quietly
"Are you sure? Well what made you ask me? What made you hesitate about Jay?"
Tomoyo grew silent. "My heart…"
"Your heart was the one that guided you through everything, and although you pretend not to, you really do know why…Tomoyo, no one expects for you to be the perfect person, or go out with the perfect guy."
"I know…"
"Then why are you really here?"
"I guess…I guess…I jest needed someone to talk to…that's all." She leaned over and hugged her friend tightly. "Thanks Eriol…I know I can always count on you…
Eriol shocked at her action blushed crimson
"So…how are you Eriol? Ever since you came back…you don't seem…like you…"
Eriol sighed deeply. "Do you remember why I came to Japan eight years ago?"
Tomoyo nodded. "You needed to help Sakura turn the Clow Cards into Sakura Cards."
"Yes, but it wasn't only that…I also needed to give her…my magic."
"But don't you have your magic right now?" Tomoyo asked curiously
"No. I have no more magic." Eriol clenched his fists and pounded it upon his glass coffee table leaving it in pieces.
"Ouch!" Blood ran down Tomoyo's arm as she grasped her wound hurriedly.
"Tomoyo! I'm so sorry are you ok? Tomoyo?" Eriol asked worried. "If I had my powers I could've prevented this! Nakuru! Get the first aid kit!"
"Why Eriol-sama?" Nakuru asked walking into the room "Wa…Tomoyo! Are you alright? I'll get the kit!"
"I'm ok…I'll last…" Tomoyo's body shivering from the lost of blood grew paler.
"I've got it. Here Eriol." Nakuru handed her master a small white box with antiseptics and bandages
"Tomoyo, this might sting a little." Eriol calmly said.
"Don't worry, I'm not afra-AHHHHHHH!" Tomoyo screamed
Eriol chuckled. "Alright, it's over. I'm sorry for hurting you Tomoyo, I really didn't mean it…"
"It's okay" Tomoyo rubbed the bandage, "Um…so you gave all of your magic to Sakura?"
"No, I wish it was that way though…"
"But didn't you just say-"
"It's a long story."
"Tell her Eriol." Spinel said flying into the room and nudging his shoulder
"I have the time," Tomoyo said smiling at them
"O-K. When Sakura won her battles against me, I was supposed to transfer to her all of my magic, but something went wrong during the process. Sakura back then still wasn't strong enough to take all of Clow's power…" Eriol said disappointed.
"But…weren't you happy? I mean…having to keep some of the magic must be…relieving, wouldn't it?"
"I hated having magic back then. I hated living in the shadow of such a cherished character that I his reincarnation is left to do all his dirty, next life work! Back then…magic was my sin." Eriol stressed, leaned back to rest his head.
"Back then?"
"Yes. Back then. I hated my magic so much back then…that I would do ANYTHING to be rid of it even deceive the one I love."
Tomoyo crossed her legs Indian style and looked compelled.
"According to one of Clow Reed's old journals, to get rid of ones magic, one must deceive someone they love."
"Kaho…" Tomoyo mouthed.
"Yes. It was Kaho, who I deceived, and to this very minute I regret doing what I did…I caused her so much pain and agony…well at least she is ok now…without me." Eriol said forcing away tears.
"M-May I ask what happened?" She said cautiously
"I know it was wrong of me, but, but, I begged one of my close friends in England to pretend to have an affair with me…I deliberately kissed her ink front of Kaho, causing Kaho to get mad. But, my plan failed. Kaho got so mad she tripped and fell down the steps, bruising her head. She was in coma and she was about to die." Tears streamed down Eriol's face as Nakuru placed her hand on his shoulder trying to comfort him.
"Oh my…" Tomoyo covered her mouth.
"It was all my fault! I knew it was…so I did the only thing that could save her, I gave her the rest of my magic, and when she awoke, she didn't remember me…and I guess it was for the best. When she asked me who I was, I just said that I was a volunteer worker, but at least now…she is happy, without me."
"Eriol…"
End of chapter 4! Sorry I took so long to write this! I had major writers block while writing this…so sorry if its kinda bad…eep, well it was my longest chapter! Hehe. Anywho please review! Or if you have any ideas or suggestions please tell me! Hehe ^_^
'Ugh! Why can't I move? I hate these pitiful feelings. It goes to show that I, Eriol Hiragizawa is USELESS and PARANOID without the "great" Clow Reed and his powers…ugh…I hate having no magic…I feel empty…like a part of me is gone…why…why…did I have to do that to Kaho…why…why…did I give up my magic?!? Why…' he thought to himself.
Eriol silently battled against himself in his head until the bell rang. He smoothed his hair gently as he took his seat, and like old times it was behind Daidouji-san.
"Um…Eriol? M-May I please speak to you…after school?" Tomoyo asked nervously
Eriol looked up surprised. "Sure. Why don't you meet me at my house?"
"Alright! Thanks Eriol…"
'I wonder…what she wants to say to me…that's so important? Actually…yes…I do know…it has to be about Jay. She doesn't want to tell Sakura because she knows that she will not understand…correctly…heh, it's nice to know that I still have a little bit of common sense left…'
The rest of the day passed by quickly and soon the ex-magician and the amethyst angel were rested upon large black leather couches in the magician's home.
"Would you like some tea, Tomoyo?" Eriol asked trying become his old self again.
"No…it's ok…" Tomoyo fiddled with her thumbs as she collapsed upon a couch. "Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure."
"Did you think I made a good choice, going to the dance with Jay?"
"Well…can you answer me this first?" Eriol said calmly.
"S-Sure"
"Why didn't you ask Sakura?"
"I know you know the answer to this already Eriol…but…I'll say it anyway…Sakura is sometimes doesn't notice the troubles that people have…she always looks on the positive side, and she doesn't know the negatives with well…going with Jay…"
"And they are?"
"Umm…well…err…I don't know!" Tomoyo stuttered.
"Ah…I see…Tomoyo, it's not that there are negatives, it is just that you can't let go of the past. Yes, I know that you let go of your feelings for Sakura, but I also can see that you sometimes regret it…"
Tomoyo broke into more tears as she said, "Yes…I know…I'm trying to hide the truth…I-I just want things to be like old times, they were so happy, and now…I don't know exactly…but something doesn't seem right."
Eriol took his hand and lifted her chin. "Don't worry Tomoyo, everything will work out for the better." He sighed and took a seat next to her. "You know, if you have troubles with anything, you know ill always be here…but…if I'm not one day…you should always consult your own heart."
"That…usually never works…" Tomoyo said quietly
"Are you sure? Well what made you ask me? What made you hesitate about Jay?"
Tomoyo grew silent. "My heart…"
"Your heart was the one that guided you through everything, and although you pretend not to, you really do know why…Tomoyo, no one expects for you to be the perfect person, or go out with the perfect guy."
"I know…"
"Then why are you really here?"
"I guess…I guess…I jest needed someone to talk to…that's all." She leaned over and hugged her friend tightly. "Thanks Eriol…I know I can always count on you…
Eriol shocked at her action blushed crimson
"So…how are you Eriol? Ever since you came back…you don't seem…like you…"
Eriol sighed deeply. "Do you remember why I came to Japan eight years ago?"
Tomoyo nodded. "You needed to help Sakura turn the Clow Cards into Sakura Cards."
"Yes, but it wasn't only that…I also needed to give her…my magic."
"But don't you have your magic right now?" Tomoyo asked curiously
"No. I have no more magic." Eriol clenched his fists and pounded it upon his glass coffee table leaving it in pieces.
"Ouch!" Blood ran down Tomoyo's arm as she grasped her wound hurriedly.
"Tomoyo! I'm so sorry are you ok? Tomoyo?" Eriol asked worried. "If I had my powers I could've prevented this! Nakuru! Get the first aid kit!"
"Why Eriol-sama?" Nakuru asked walking into the room "Wa…Tomoyo! Are you alright? I'll get the kit!"
"I'm ok…I'll last…" Tomoyo's body shivering from the lost of blood grew paler.
"I've got it. Here Eriol." Nakuru handed her master a small white box with antiseptics and bandages
"Tomoyo, this might sting a little." Eriol calmly said.
"Don't worry, I'm not afra-AHHHHHHH!" Tomoyo screamed
Eriol chuckled. "Alright, it's over. I'm sorry for hurting you Tomoyo, I really didn't mean it…"
"It's okay" Tomoyo rubbed the bandage, "Um…so you gave all of your magic to Sakura?"
"No, I wish it was that way though…"
"But didn't you just say-"
"It's a long story."
"Tell her Eriol." Spinel said flying into the room and nudging his shoulder
"I have the time," Tomoyo said smiling at them
"O-K. When Sakura won her battles against me, I was supposed to transfer to her all of my magic, but something went wrong during the process. Sakura back then still wasn't strong enough to take all of Clow's power…" Eriol said disappointed.
"But…weren't you happy? I mean…having to keep some of the magic must be…relieving, wouldn't it?"
"I hated having magic back then. I hated living in the shadow of such a cherished character that I his reincarnation is left to do all his dirty, next life work! Back then…magic was my sin." Eriol stressed, leaned back to rest his head.
"Back then?"
"Yes. Back then. I hated my magic so much back then…that I would do ANYTHING to be rid of it even deceive the one I love."
Tomoyo crossed her legs Indian style and looked compelled.
"According to one of Clow Reed's old journals, to get rid of ones magic, one must deceive someone they love."
"Kaho…" Tomoyo mouthed.
"Yes. It was Kaho, who I deceived, and to this very minute I regret doing what I did…I caused her so much pain and agony…well at least she is ok now…without me." Eriol said forcing away tears.
"M-May I ask what happened?" She said cautiously
"I know it was wrong of me, but, but, I begged one of my close friends in England to pretend to have an affair with me…I deliberately kissed her ink front of Kaho, causing Kaho to get mad. But, my plan failed. Kaho got so mad she tripped and fell down the steps, bruising her head. She was in coma and she was about to die." Tears streamed down Eriol's face as Nakuru placed her hand on his shoulder trying to comfort him.
"Oh my…" Tomoyo covered her mouth.
"It was all my fault! I knew it was…so I did the only thing that could save her, I gave her the rest of my magic, and when she awoke, she didn't remember me…and I guess it was for the best. When she asked me who I was, I just said that I was a volunteer worker, but at least now…she is happy, without me."
"Eriol…"
End of chapter 4! Sorry I took so long to write this! I had major writers block while writing this…so sorry if its kinda bad…eep, well it was my longest chapter! Hehe. Anywho please review! Or if you have any ideas or suggestions please tell me! Hehe ^_^