1 School-Trip
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon... you know the rest.
School-Trip
Tuesday evening
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"Tai?", Matt asked.
"Shh", Tai put a finger on his lips.
"What-", Matt was cut off, when Tai pressed his lips Matts.
~
'I can't believe that I'm doing this', Tai thought when he pressed his lips to Matts.
'He's kissing me, he's kissing me.... oh god...'Matt thought when he responded to the kiss.
Tai drew back a little and opened his eyes.
His eyes locked with Matts.
"Tai", Matt whispered.
"Yeah?"
"You're crushing me", Matt managed to say.
"Not that I would mind...", the blond quickly added.
"Oh.. sorry", embarrassed Tai climbed of off Matt.
It was an embarrassing situation for both of them and neither knew what to say next.
The blond sat up and looked around.
He had snow all over his back and in his hair.
Matt looked at Tai and saw that his face was as red as a tomato.
Ignoring the fact that Tai looked quite adorable with his red face Matt started to brush the snow off.
"Want some help with this?", Tai asked when he noticed that Matt couldn't reach his back.
"If you don't mind", the blond said.
Tai took a deep breath and reached out.
He had to stay focused on the task ahead.
It wasn't in his nature that the brunet boy would loose his control, but Matt made something deep within him click and Tai thought that he might jump him then and there.
Finally he managed to brushed the remaining snow off and sat back.
"There! Better?", Tai smiled.
"Yeah, it was cold", Matt answered.
"Snow is always cold, Matt", Tai grinned.
"I know", and with that Matt took a hand full of snow and hit Tai in the face.
"What was that for?", Tai cried.
"That was for the first snowball you hit me with", Matt grinned back.
"I see.... I think... that.. I have to punish you again", Tai jumped at Matt and pinned him down again.
"I have a feeling that that is something we lived through only some minutes ago", Matt murmured.
"Yeah... maybe we should sto-", Tai was cut off.
Matt reached up and put his arms around Tais neck.
With little force he pulled the brunet boy down and their lips met for the second time this evening.
Tai was surprised when Matt pulled him down.
But he wasn't going to complain.
After all he was the one who started this 'game'.
Tai kissed back with a passion that surprised Matt.
But he could deal with it.
Tais tongue dared out and gently brushed against Matts lower lip.
The other boy understood the sign and he opened his mouth.
'This is too good to be true. I'm going to wake up every minute now', Matt thought.
Similar thoughts went through Tais head while his tongue explored it's new territory.
Tai had to part again, `cause he needed to breath.
"And now?", Matt asked a little unsure of Tais reaction.
"I don't know..", Tai said.
He didn't see a reason to get up.
To lie on top of Matt was quite comfortable, but Tai made sure not to put his whole weight onto the other boy like he had done before.
Matt turned his head to the side and looked away.
"What is wrong?", Tai asked with concern in his voice.
Matt turned his head again and looked Tai straight into the eyes.
"You're not gay, Tai", it was more a statement than a question.
"What?", Tai didn't understand.
He sat up and pulled Matt with him.
"You're not gay", Matt repeated.
"I heard that, but what do you mean?"
"I mean what I said."
"So, you think that I'm not gay, but what makes you so sure?"
"Nothing. Just don't want that they're going to hate you. You're not like me, Tai, believe me. It's better for you. Go and find a nice girl. Take Mimi, she's really nice and you two fit together."
"Matt, what are you talking about?"
"You don't understand... you don't have to put up with people that tell you everyday that you're not worth living and that you can't do anything right", a lonely tear ran down Matt cheek.
"Wha- Who tells you this shit, Yama?", Tai asked.
"....", Matt preferred the silence
"Oh, Yama..", Tai sighed.
The brunet reached out and put his arms around Matt.
He drew Matt into a hug.
Matt didn't cry or anything.
He just sat there and let Tai hold him with his head buried into Tais shoulder.
"Is that the reason why you get into this fights?", Tai asked slowly.
"Sometimes...they beat me up.."Matt whispered as if he was afraid to talk.
"Other time I get mad and want to make people feel like I feel. You know when you see other people in pain you can forget your own for some time.... You know, you're the first in a long time that made me feel good and I really like it..., but it's not right."
The blond boy seemed to sense that Tai didn't understood the full meaning of what he had just said.
"You know what I mean, right?", Matt asked.
Tai needed some time to think.
"I.. I think so", Tai said more into Matts hair than to the boy himself.
Tai tightened his grip around Matts body.
He noticed that the blond was shivering.
"Matt, you're cold. Let's go to the cabin. We can talk later if you want", Tai said.
He stood up and brought Matt with him.
Tai kept one hand on Matts arm and he led the other boy back to the cabin.
The day started so nice, but now nothing seemed right anymore.
They reached the cabin and Tai let go of Matts arm.
He was afraid after what he had heard from Matt.
To loose his friends was not his intention , but he knew that he loved Matt and he didn't want to loose that either.
"You don't understand... you don't have to put up with people that tell you everyday that you're not worth living and that you can't do anything right", Matt had said.
"Wha- Who tells you this shit, Yama?", he had asked, but Matt remained in silence.
Tai couldn't take his mind away from this part of the conversation.
Who told Matt that he is worthless.
His family?
Tai couldn't bring himself to believe that.
Parents were supposed to love their child, no matter what is 'wrong'.
And his friends?
Mimi?
Chris?
Andy?
They're always so nice and Tai couldn't and he didn't want to believe that they could do something like that.
But they had told him that Matt was someone he shouldn't spend his time with and they always talked bad about him.
But on the other hand they told him yesterday that he should introduce Matt to them.
Was this all a kind of facade?
Tai really didn't know whom he could believe and whom he couldn't trust.
The other two boys were in the cabin and they looked up when Matt and Tai entered.
They could see that Matt was covered in snow and they couldn't go on without noticing the sad look on the blonds face.
Daniel and his friend thought that Tai and Matt had a fight and that Tai refused to be Matt friend anymore.
Daniel smirked and looked at Dave, who had a similar grin on his face.
They definitely had to talk about this when they were alone
Tai and Matt changed and went to bed.
Daniel and Dave tried to talk to Tai about noting in particular and later they wanted to talk about hat had happened, but Tai turned the offer down.
He wanted to talk to Matt badly, but with the other two boys in the cabin he couldn't.
Tai feared that they might go and tell his friends about what was said in the cabin if he tried to talk with Matt.
The brunet was lost in his thoughts when he heard Daniel and Dave change as well and go to bed.
Tai knew that Matt loved or at least liked him a lot, but with the attitude, that what they just did was wrong he knew that he would never be able to reach Matts heart the way he wanted to.
AN: Not a real Taito. But in the next chapter Tai is going to sort some thing out with Matt.
Is it going to be a Taito or are Matt and Tai going their separate ways? [Stupid question]
I think that this part is bad, but I couldn't come up with something better. I might write it
again...
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon... you know the rest.
School-Trip
Tuesday evening
~
"Tai?", Matt asked.
"Shh", Tai put a finger on his lips.
"What-", Matt was cut off, when Tai pressed his lips Matts.
~
'I can't believe that I'm doing this', Tai thought when he pressed his lips to Matts.
'He's kissing me, he's kissing me.... oh god...'Matt thought when he responded to the kiss.
Tai drew back a little and opened his eyes.
His eyes locked with Matts.
"Tai", Matt whispered.
"Yeah?"
"You're crushing me", Matt managed to say.
"Not that I would mind...", the blond quickly added.
"Oh.. sorry", embarrassed Tai climbed of off Matt.
It was an embarrassing situation for both of them and neither knew what to say next.
The blond sat up and looked around.
He had snow all over his back and in his hair.
Matt looked at Tai and saw that his face was as red as a tomato.
Ignoring the fact that Tai looked quite adorable with his red face Matt started to brush the snow off.
"Want some help with this?", Tai asked when he noticed that Matt couldn't reach his back.
"If you don't mind", the blond said.
Tai took a deep breath and reached out.
He had to stay focused on the task ahead.
It wasn't in his nature that the brunet boy would loose his control, but Matt made something deep within him click and Tai thought that he might jump him then and there.
Finally he managed to brushed the remaining snow off and sat back.
"There! Better?", Tai smiled.
"Yeah, it was cold", Matt answered.
"Snow is always cold, Matt", Tai grinned.
"I know", and with that Matt took a hand full of snow and hit Tai in the face.
"What was that for?", Tai cried.
"That was for the first snowball you hit me with", Matt grinned back.
"I see.... I think... that.. I have to punish you again", Tai jumped at Matt and pinned him down again.
"I have a feeling that that is something we lived through only some minutes ago", Matt murmured.
"Yeah... maybe we should sto-", Tai was cut off.
Matt reached up and put his arms around Tais neck.
With little force he pulled the brunet boy down and their lips met for the second time this evening.
Tai was surprised when Matt pulled him down.
But he wasn't going to complain.
After all he was the one who started this 'game'.
Tai kissed back with a passion that surprised Matt.
But he could deal with it.
Tais tongue dared out and gently brushed against Matts lower lip.
The other boy understood the sign and he opened his mouth.
'This is too good to be true. I'm going to wake up every minute now', Matt thought.
Similar thoughts went through Tais head while his tongue explored it's new territory.
Tai had to part again, `cause he needed to breath.
"And now?", Matt asked a little unsure of Tais reaction.
"I don't know..", Tai said.
He didn't see a reason to get up.
To lie on top of Matt was quite comfortable, but Tai made sure not to put his whole weight onto the other boy like he had done before.
Matt turned his head to the side and looked away.
"What is wrong?", Tai asked with concern in his voice.
Matt turned his head again and looked Tai straight into the eyes.
"You're not gay, Tai", it was more a statement than a question.
"What?", Tai didn't understand.
He sat up and pulled Matt with him.
"You're not gay", Matt repeated.
"I heard that, but what do you mean?"
"I mean what I said."
"So, you think that I'm not gay, but what makes you so sure?"
"Nothing. Just don't want that they're going to hate you. You're not like me, Tai, believe me. It's better for you. Go and find a nice girl. Take Mimi, she's really nice and you two fit together."
"Matt, what are you talking about?"
"You don't understand... you don't have to put up with people that tell you everyday that you're not worth living and that you can't do anything right", a lonely tear ran down Matt cheek.
"Wha- Who tells you this shit, Yama?", Tai asked.
"....", Matt preferred the silence
"Oh, Yama..", Tai sighed.
The brunet reached out and put his arms around Matt.
He drew Matt into a hug.
Matt didn't cry or anything.
He just sat there and let Tai hold him with his head buried into Tais shoulder.
"Is that the reason why you get into this fights?", Tai asked slowly.
"Sometimes...they beat me up.."Matt whispered as if he was afraid to talk.
"Other time I get mad and want to make people feel like I feel. You know when you see other people in pain you can forget your own for some time.... You know, you're the first in a long time that made me feel good and I really like it..., but it's not right."
The blond boy seemed to sense that Tai didn't understood the full meaning of what he had just said.
"You know what I mean, right?", Matt asked.
Tai needed some time to think.
"I.. I think so", Tai said more into Matts hair than to the boy himself.
Tai tightened his grip around Matts body.
He noticed that the blond was shivering.
"Matt, you're cold. Let's go to the cabin. We can talk later if you want", Tai said.
He stood up and brought Matt with him.
Tai kept one hand on Matts arm and he led the other boy back to the cabin.
The day started so nice, but now nothing seemed right anymore.
They reached the cabin and Tai let go of Matts arm.
He was afraid after what he had heard from Matt.
To loose his friends was not his intention , but he knew that he loved Matt and he didn't want to loose that either.
"You don't understand... you don't have to put up with people that tell you everyday that you're not worth living and that you can't do anything right", Matt had said.
"Wha- Who tells you this shit, Yama?", he had asked, but Matt remained in silence.
Tai couldn't take his mind away from this part of the conversation.
Who told Matt that he is worthless.
His family?
Tai couldn't bring himself to believe that.
Parents were supposed to love their child, no matter what is 'wrong'.
And his friends?
Mimi?
Chris?
Andy?
They're always so nice and Tai couldn't and he didn't want to believe that they could do something like that.
But they had told him that Matt was someone he shouldn't spend his time with and they always talked bad about him.
But on the other hand they told him yesterday that he should introduce Matt to them.
Was this all a kind of facade?
Tai really didn't know whom he could believe and whom he couldn't trust.
The other two boys were in the cabin and they looked up when Matt and Tai entered.
They could see that Matt was covered in snow and they couldn't go on without noticing the sad look on the blonds face.
Daniel and his friend thought that Tai and Matt had a fight and that Tai refused to be Matt friend anymore.
Daniel smirked and looked at Dave, who had a similar grin on his face.
They definitely had to talk about this when they were alone
Tai and Matt changed and went to bed.
Daniel and Dave tried to talk to Tai about noting in particular and later they wanted to talk about hat had happened, but Tai turned the offer down.
He wanted to talk to Matt badly, but with the other two boys in the cabin he couldn't.
Tai feared that they might go and tell his friends about what was said in the cabin if he tried to talk with Matt.
The brunet was lost in his thoughts when he heard Daniel and Dave change as well and go to bed.
Tai knew that Matt loved or at least liked him a lot, but with the attitude, that what they just did was wrong he knew that he would never be able to reach Matts heart the way he wanted to.
AN: Not a real Taito. But in the next chapter Tai is going to sort some thing out with Matt.
Is it going to be a Taito or are Matt and Tai going their separate ways? [Stupid question]
I think that this part is bad, but I couldn't come up with something better. I might write it
again...
