Moving On

Carmen: Okay, here's an intro: It's the same story as in the show, but without the cards. Sakura decides she loves Syaoran once he's gone, and has been waiting eight years for his return. Now she's nineteen. But she's been so er… obsessed… that she's been distant at school and with her friends. Now that they've all graduated high school, her friends have moved away while she still lives in a small home in Tomoeda. They are a little mad at her for ignoring them for so long. She doesn't know where they live. This first chapter is based on the song "I'm Movin' On" by Rascal Flatts. I don't own or the characters from the show.

Chapter One: The Decision

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons

1 Finally content with a past I regret

I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness

For once I'm at peace with myself

Sakura had faced all the problems of the past eight years, and decided to forget it all. She forgave herself for her foolishness, yet she wished she had seen what was coming. She hated what she'd done, but she'd managed to pull through and forgive herself and everyone else. Sakura had finally come to terms with her actions.

I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long

I'm movin' on

She saw that she'd been hurting her friends and herself by clinging to her childish dream. She had thought she could never let it go, but now she knew she had to move on with her life. There was nothing left for her in that dream.

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces

Each one is different but they're always the same

They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it

They'll never allow me to change

But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong

I'm movin' on

Sakura had lived in Tomoeda all her life and she knew everyone in it. They all liked her, and she would always be able to recognize them anywhere. But she wanted to be around people who wouldn't see her as she had been when she was a child. She just couldn't stay in Tomoeda anymore. She couldn't stand the fact that their views of her would never change.

I'm movin' on

At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me

And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone

There comes a time in everyone's life

When all you can see are the years passing by

And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

Sakura had finally realized that she'd completely ignored her life for all these years. All she ever thought of was those eight years that she spent idly waiting for her love. But she had made herself stop thinking of them, had made herself push them into the darkest corner of her active memory.

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't

Stopped to fill up on my way out of town

Sakura sold everything she could bear to and packed all her suitcases. She loaded up her car and drove away with only a message left on her father's answering machine. She got some gas, and then sped away before the attendant could ask her where she was going. That was a question she could not answer.

I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't

I had to lose everything to find out

Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road

I'm movin' on

She knew that she had loved no one else but Syaoran, just like she was supposed to. But she had let everything and everyone else become unimportant in her life. Now she had lost all her friends to various colleges, mostly in other countries. That was what made her realize how much she really needed them. She hoped that she could completely forgive herself someday, now that she was leaving the past behind.

I'm moving on

I'm moving on

She took one last look back as she left the limits of Tomoeda, and headed for the airport. Sakura never wanted to return to the place that she knew would haunt her forever. There were too many memories, and she hated to remember all the pain she had caused. She was moving on.