Moving On

Carmen: Here's chapter three, see disclaimer in chapter one. This chapter is S+S fluff, and there's a sappy song that I stuck in to make it interesting. I plan on putting songs in a few of the other chapters too. This one is Helplessly Hopelessly by Jessica Andrews. I suggest you download it and listen to it while you read. If you need a program so you can download it, download KaZaA at www.kazaa.com.

Chapter Three: Do I still love him?

I can stand with the weight of
The world on my shoulders
I can fight with the toughest
Of the tough

Everyone had arrived and had been driven to Sakura's house. They had decided to spend the first few days of their reunion at the beach. They were all sitting on their towels, watching the sun go down on the beautiful empty horizon. They were all alone at the beach. Sakura decided to go play in the waves for a little while while everyone else watched the stars come out. Syaoran watched her instead. She was teasing the waves by getting close and then running away as they came towards her. She'd let herself get ankle deep sometimes before jumping up and down, splashing water and sand all over her legs. He thought about how tough she was sometimes. Like when he'd first seen her at the shop a few days ago. Wow, it seemed like much longer than that. At times like that, she seemed to be able to do anything.

Sakura was also thinking about how strong she seemed sometimes. She knew that everyone thought she was brave and tough because she had run away and made a life for herself on her own. And she knew that last week she would have said that she could stand up to anything. No matter what it was, she had enough self-control to withstand any emotional problem. Nothing could ever touch her heart again. It had developed a barrier around itself. But ever since the day she found Syaoran, the protection had somehow been ebbing away.

I can laugh in the face of
All my insecurities
Anytime, anywhere, anything
I'm strong enough

Sakura suddenly fell over as a large wave hit her from behind. She yelled as the water tried to pull her out to sea. Her friends started running towards her, but Syaoran was fastest. Sakura might be a great swimmer, but not when she was caught off guard like that. He managed to reach her and get her back to shore. Sakura coughed up water and tried to rub the salt from her eyes. One leg was bruised just above the ankle and it had a nasty red cut across the bruise. She had gotten caught on something. Sakura cried as Syaoran held her in his lap. Eriol and Tomoyo had run to get towels to try and use as bandages. Chiharu and Yamazaki were going to see if they could find a first-aid kit in the car and Rika was going to get a bottle of water from a vending machine by the boardwalk. Tomoyo and Eriol's girls were alseep back on their towels. It was just Syaoran holding Sakura, watching as she tried to cough up all the seawater she'd swallowed. He patted her back, trying to help. She leaned back against his chest as she panted for air. He didn't notice as his own arms slid around her waist and she rested her hands on his.

But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

Sakura felt so safe and completely forgot the pain in her leg. It felt good to lean against Syaoran. He was only wearing his swiming trunks and Sakura was wearing a halter-top bikini. Almost her whole back was bare. Sakura sure didn't feel strong anymore. She felt completely relaxed as his fingers brushed against her bare stomach. He was also in the same state of unconsciousness. It was just Sakura and Syaoran right now. No, it was one person. There was only one person out here.

So let consequence do what it will to us
I don't care
Let the stars stand witness to it all
Say the word and tonight I will follow you
Anywhere
I just can't pretend anymore
That I'm too sturdy to fall

Syaoran didn't feel all his training as a child. He didn't think of all the times he had been told not to fall in love. He was supposed to marry Meilin in a few years, even though neither of them wanted it. He knew that Meilin wanted him to find someone else and break the arrangement, but was he really ready to admit that he still loved Sakura? Sakura didn't know what to think. She knew that she had loved Syaoran, had obsessed over him for years, but did she still feel that way? She knew her heart wasn't impossible to reach anymore, but was she really ready to fall in love again? Her mind screamed yes.

'Cause when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

Sakura felt that she shouldn't be doing this, that she needed time to decide a lot of things. But she didn't move. Syaoran was thinking about it too. But his heart did a system override on his brain. He didn't move either.

I am not afraid
I am not afraid

Sakura felt her senses filling with Syaoran. She could feel his heart beat against her back, and smell his... his Syaoran scent. She listened to his soft breathing and held her fingers on top of his, feeling their skin touching. Syaoran was feeling the same things. He was completely aware of everything about her. Except for one thing. One thing they both wanted.

'Cause when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

Sakura turned her head to look at his face. They looked into each other's eyes for a while, and it seemed like their breaths came at the same time. Sakura felt a warmth wash over her body as he lowered his lips to hers. She forgot all her thoughts about not being ready to love him again. But it was too late. They had already fallen in love again. They stopped kissing after a while, and then they heard footsteps on the sand. Syaoran quickly took his arms off of her stomach and she stopped leaning against him. Her friends quickly bandaged her leg and they all went home. Syaoran stayed at Sakura's house, although no one believed that he was 'too tired to drive himself home'. Both Sakura and Syaoran fell asleep dreaming of each other.

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How was it? Thought I was going to forget about the cut, didn't you? Well I thought I'd give you a mushy chapter after that whole suicide thing. Any suggestions for songs? I'd be glad to check them out. I'm going to use Every Time by Jessica Andrews in the next chapter. Don't know when it'll be done, I hope soon. Bye for now!

Review please!
-Carmen