*sigh* It's finished! This story I mean. *sigh* I'm going to miss posting this stuff! ^^ but never fear, for I've got alot more coming! LoL. on another note: I'm the Green Fairy!! hahaha. I'm getting the Moulin Rouge Soundtrack..........VOLUME 2!! YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS! Now I can listen to "Spectacular Spectacular!" whenever I want. oh joy! ^^ Okay, now on with the story!! *runs off singing "Come What May"

~ * ~ Chapter 5: Confessions and Comparisons ~ * ~

Obi-Wan and Padme were in the library together for another hour. Obi- Wan had left for a few minutes to find Sabe and tell her that he'd found Padme asleep in the library. A lie, he knew, but he wanted to be alone with Padme. So he told Sabe to go back to bed and that he'd watch her. Sabe had agreed and gone back to sleep.

When Obi-Wan came back, he found that Padme was still reading, so he decided he'd get something to read too. She looked up and saw him browsing through the romance section. She started giggling madly at this. Obi-Wan, annoyed, walked over into the next section, but only for a few minutes.

He came back and went through the romance novels again quickly and pulled out a second copy of the one Padme was reading. Padme looked up and watched him walk over to her, book in hand, and sit down. He began to shuffle through it, stopping every now and then to read some.

"What are you doing?!" Padme demanded curiously.

"You know, Obi-Wan remarked, as if he hadn't heard her comment, "This book is very similar to what's going on in your life right now."

Padme laughed again. "Obi-Wan, I don't think anything in 'A Forbbiden Affair' relates to my life. Why do you say that?"

"Let's see, you're the important, pregant woman, and her soldier husband that's turned traitor would be Anakin."

"Okay....then who are you?"

"I'm the husband's best friend."

Padme burst out in laughter. "Creative!" she said. "There's only one problem with that senario."

"What's that?"

"We aren't falling in love." Well, not exactly, she thought. I'm in love with him, but he can't be in love with me. He is a Jedi after all. He'd break the code like Ani did.....and then.....I'd lose him too......

"I wouldn't say that." Obi-Wan said thoughtfully, turning twords her and looking into her eyes.

"W-what do you mean?!" I wonder if he's been reading my thoughts again??? Obi-Wan laughed.

"I have." He smiled as Padme began to blush.

"Oh...." she replied, turning away quickly in embarresment.

"Do you know why Jedi aren't supposed to love, Padme? Because it hurts you eventually. It leads to darker emotions such as jealousy and fear. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. And before you know it you've lost yourself to the dark side....."

"You're very wise Obi-Wan."

"Only because of Master Yoda."

"I see.."

"I admit, I have been known to fall in love." he said, turning away. His thoughts wandered to his first and one true love, who he'd first met when he was only 17 and loved till she dissapered......it seemed so long ago that he'd lost her, but it had only been a few months. "But I usually try to push it away to avoid conflict." he continued, turning back to Padme.

"You've been in love before?" Padme asked, shocked.

Obi-Wan looked at her curiously. "Yes," he admitted quietly.

"Tell me about her..."

"We were both 17. I was still a Padawan. Qui Gon had been sent on mission to Corrilia (sp?) and the Council wanted me to go with him, even though I really had nothing to do with it. We were to stay with a bounty hunter named Aleena Tarlana and her servant. Aleena was very beautiful. She looked alot like you. Brown hair, brown eyes. Quite pleasent to look at. She also had a nickname for everyone. Mine was Ben."

"Yeah.."said Padme, looking very interested.

"We eventually fell in love and we had an affair under the Coucil's nose. I later found out that she was actually a Jedi, and that it was all just a test."

"That must have hurt."

"It did. I thought she didn't love me. But one night wile I was passing her room, I heard her crying, I stood at her door and listened for awhile. She began singing a song. She knew I was there, and once she finished, she came to the door and explained that she really did love me."

Padme sighed. "How romantic. What hapened to her?"

Obi-Wan looked away. A tear rolled down his cheek. He quickly wiped it away and turned back to Padme. "A few months ago, she went on a mission to get some information on the new Empire that was forming. I haven't seen her since."

"Oh..............that must be very hard for you."

"It is, especially since I've also been in love with you since I first met you."

Padme gasped.

"I've felt so guilty, trying to hide it from both Aleena and Anakin. I don't know how, but I managed to suceed."

"But...don't you love Aleena?"

"Yes. She may be my only true love, as Anakin is with you, but I also love you. Don't you see?"

"I do........I-I love you too Obi-Wan."

"I know. You must understand that we can never have an open relationship."

"I do."

"So before fate tears us apart, let's spend what time we can together."

"Yes." Padme whispered as she leaned in to kiss him. It was a kiss many years in the making, long and passionate, and when they broke apart, it seemed as if time had stopped just for them.

Padme smiled, stood up and picked up her book. "I don't know about you," she said, "But I'm going back to bed." Then she winked at her and began to walk down the stairs. Obi-Wan caught on quickly and followed her, laughing. He caught up to her and took her into his arms.

"Are you sure you know what you're getting into?" he asked her.

"Yes, and I don't care." she replied, kissing him again. They both knew that this was the happiest they'd been since they'd lost their loved ones, and that they would be torn apart soon. But as they walked to Padme's room, Obi-Wan began to think of only her and shoved away all thoughts of the consequences, and the pain they'd go through.

The End

ne? ne? NE? How was that?! Good ne? that's what I thought. Thank you to all those who have supported me throughout my posting. ~Blade Malfoy Celebare~Brown Eyes~Lady Evenstar~everyone who gave me a review~ I'm going to have the full story of Aleena and Obi-Wan up soon enough. Look for it! (Obi-Wan's Choice) ^ ^ ta ta for now!