The Threshold of Darkness and Light
Chapter 11
Kina let the tears flow freely as she crept into her bed, curling her body up in a tight ball. A familiar wet nose found its way to her cheek as Tama meowed softly. The red head reached out, stroking the cat's head and pulling him closer to her. Her hot tears dripped into his fur, making it wet and it stuck to his skin. "Tama, I did something very bad. I told Yue I didn't want to be his wife anymore. I- I'm so confused!!" She used the back of her sleeve to wipe the tears away but they where soon replaced with fresh ones. "I...I love Yue but...it we're related...I don't think I can be with him. But is my love that weak? It's wrong. It just is. But he's still Yue, nothing about him has changed. So why am I making this a big deal? I could be wrong too and now I've gone and said all those things to Yue. I'm sure he'll hate me now. Loving someone is ensuring that life will continue in the future. When you love someone, you can draw strength from it, and surmount any obstacle. Please, if there is anyone out there, hear me now. Let me have the strength to find the truth and overcome this because right now I don't think I can. Yue is always smiling by my side, always there for me and now I've gone out and abandoned him. This has been a painful day, I want to flee into the night and just disappear. It hurts...I feel so lonely. There I go again, jumping off the cliff. Make it stop...make my heart stop hurting! It feels like someone is breaking it into pieces...I'm so confused....someone please help...please! I love Yue but what if I can't love him if I'm really related to him? What am I going to do? What have I already done?! I don't want to leave him and yet at the same time I don't want his hand to touch my own. I long for him and yet at the same time I don't long for him, at least when the thought of us being related surfaces. Will I be forever searching for a reason? An answer? Why can't we just be left alone to love each other? I'm so lost...someone show me the way. I've been saving smiles for you Yue...but why can't I just use them on you now? Why is it so hard to smile at you, to embrace you, to hold you? WHY?!" She cried harder, causing Tama to rub his head against her own forehead sympathetically.
Then a voice spoke to her, she didn't know from where or how but she knew it was her mother. "Whether or not it's unrequited, whether it's right or wrong, whether it seems disgusting or not, there's no law against falling in love. Remember the principals of conflict: Know yourself, believe in yourself and then overcome yourself."
~~
I can tell by the look in your eyes you've been hurting
You know I'll never let you down... oh no
And I'll try anything to keep it working
You gave me time to find out
What my heart was looking for
And what I'm feeling inside
~~
Yue stared out at the sky. He lay back in the cold grass, but the night air didn't seem as cold as his heart felt right now. It was like it had been frozen then crumbled into pieces. "I don't believe she meant what she said. I mean, she can't, she just can't. Something must have happened, but why? Why won't she tell me what's wrong?" He held his hand up into the air, tracing out the shape of the Big Dipper. The stars peeked out like diamonds in a huge sheet of black velvet. "Those eyes can peer into my soul...those eyes can make my heart pound with love but shatter with hurt. I can see heaven in her eyes. Those lips can kiss away my fears but they can ruin my hopes when they utter those evil words of hate and pain. Her words can heal or they can cut deep into me. Her hands can take away all my pains and brush my cheek tenderly or they can dig themselves into me. Was this all a dream? A figment of my imagination? I just want to have ordinary days again, spent every minute with her...Why Kina? Why are you doing this? What happened? Can't I come near you? I want to see your love again, I want your love back."
~~
In your eyes
I want to see your love again
In your eyes
I never want this feeling to end
It took some time to find the light
But now I realize
I can see the heaven in your eyes
~~
Kina jolted up, her head turning side to side. "Who's there?!" She scrambled off the bed, causing Tama to run from the room. She looked down at the floor, realizing who had said that to her. "There's no law against falling in love....thank you mom..." Kina whispered softly. "It's true...no matter how much I fight it....I love Yue. I always will, no matter what. It's just the way things are, it's just right like that. Even the mer thought of him makes me blush and get all giggly. I want to spend forever with him, no matter what. We've been through so much and it hurts ....so many heartaches but I love him even more now. I know myself, I will believe in myself and then overcome myself. Don't you leave me Yue...and I won't leave you..." Her footfalls echoed softly as she emerged from her room, looking for the man of her dreams, the bishonen of her dreams.
~~
Can't you see I'm finding it hard to let go
Oooh at all the heartaches
We've been through
I never really thought I'd see this love grow
But you helped me see
Now I know what my heart's been looking for
And what I'm feeling inside
~~
She couldn't find him anywhere inside the house and Kina began to worry. "Yue!! Y-Yue!!!" She strained her voice to whisper but loud enough that anyone nearby would hear her.
"Huh?" Yue jerked up as he heard a noise come from inside the house. He pulled back the window and stuck his head in. "Who's there?"
Kina choked in a scream as she jumped back. "YUE! I mean...Yue..." She said quietly. "I-I was looking for you...." Her eyes suddenly found the ground interesting.
"Oh...Come on out here if you want." Yue replied, his eyes where heartbroken.
Kina walked out the back door, sitting down next to him in the grass. She sat back, looking at his face in the silver moonlight. Kina suddenly realized she was born to be with him. She was meant to be with this person, this bishonen. Off in the distance a few crickets chirped quietly, their songs filling the air. Kina looked over at him again, not taking her eyes off of him. He was gazing up at the stars again; trying not to focus on her or the pain that was overwhelming his heart. She looked at his blue eyes and they suddenly seemed so distant...and so hurt...she wanted to see heaven in those eyes again, just like she use too.
~~
In your eyes
I want to see your love again
In your eyes
I never want this feeling to end
It took some time to find the light
But now I realize
I can see the heaven in your eyes
~~
Kina shivered in the cold but ignored it, turning so she was on her side facing him. "Yue." She said his name softly, her voice wavering with emotion.
"Y-yes?" Yue tried not to let his voice show how much he was fighting from breaking down.
"Yue, You light me up, when I stumble you hold me up. Don't you leave me, why can't you see you're the one that I belong to! I'll be the sun that drives the darkness away, I'll be your light and I'll sleep tight only if you're around. There are lessons I've been learning. I've been stupid, selfish but confused. I should have talked to you before I went and freaked out again. Y-you see...I think we could possibly be related. The necklace you gave me is the Key of Love and if you gave it to me, for you to have it, it would make sense that you got it from your decedents. And those are also my decedents." She finished, a silence following her as he let her words be absorbed.
~~
We've been living on the edge
Where only the strong survive
We've been living on the edge
And it's something that we just can't hide
Oh this feeling inside
~~
"I don't care if we are or not related Kina. All I know is what I feel! I got that necklace from my grandmother and I'm not quite sure where she got it. But we can go to her and find out, she wasn't killed when the village was attacked because she was living somewhere else. Tomorrow, we'll go and find out if that makes you feel better. You really scared me Kina...but I understand how you must have felt..." He replied softly.
"I-It hurt...and I was scared...I felt alone and I didn't know what to do. I'll try not to do anything like that again. I lost Shui and I thought I'd lose you too...it'll be weird if we're somehow related...I don't think things could be the same if we were though..." She tried to explain what she felt.
"Kina, we are not related. I can promise, I swear that is true. If it'll make you feel better and reassure you, then I'll take you to my grandmother. But listen to me, we are not related at all. We're just married..." Yue brushed back a strand of her hair and placed it behind her hair. She looked so gorgeous bathed in the milky, silver moonlight. All he wanted to do was make everything all right for her, make it all better.
"Please hold me...and never let me go! You always hold a place in my heart Yue..." Kina murmured to him as they both sat up. He reached out, pulling her up against him and he felt her shivering stop. He brought his strong arms around her and held her tightly but gently as she laid her head on his chest. They both laid back down so half of Kina was laying on Yue's chest while her bottom half sat in the grass. "A miracle will happen...I just know it. Everything will be ok." She muttered softly. Yue smiled as the smell of her hair filled his heart. He'd prove to her that she was wrong, he knew she was wrong about this whole ordeal. But he didn't worry about that now, all that mattered right now was each other. They both cuddled closer under the night sky as Kina closed her eyes and soon they both were asleep.
~~
In your eyes
I want to see your love again
In your eyes
I never want this feeling to end
It took some time to find the light
But now I realize
I can see the heaven in your eyes
Ooh yeah I can see the heaven in your eyes
Oh baby I can see the heaven in your eyes
Oooh yeah heaven in your eyes, heaven in your eyes
Oh heaven in your eyes, heaven in your eyes
I can see the heaven, heaven in your eyes, heaven in your eyes
Chapter 11
Kina let the tears flow freely as she crept into her bed, curling her body up in a tight ball. A familiar wet nose found its way to her cheek as Tama meowed softly. The red head reached out, stroking the cat's head and pulling him closer to her. Her hot tears dripped into his fur, making it wet and it stuck to his skin. "Tama, I did something very bad. I told Yue I didn't want to be his wife anymore. I- I'm so confused!!" She used the back of her sleeve to wipe the tears away but they where soon replaced with fresh ones. "I...I love Yue but...it we're related...I don't think I can be with him. But is my love that weak? It's wrong. It just is. But he's still Yue, nothing about him has changed. So why am I making this a big deal? I could be wrong too and now I've gone and said all those things to Yue. I'm sure he'll hate me now. Loving someone is ensuring that life will continue in the future. When you love someone, you can draw strength from it, and surmount any obstacle. Please, if there is anyone out there, hear me now. Let me have the strength to find the truth and overcome this because right now I don't think I can. Yue is always smiling by my side, always there for me and now I've gone out and abandoned him. This has been a painful day, I want to flee into the night and just disappear. It hurts...I feel so lonely. There I go again, jumping off the cliff. Make it stop...make my heart stop hurting! It feels like someone is breaking it into pieces...I'm so confused....someone please help...please! I love Yue but what if I can't love him if I'm really related to him? What am I going to do? What have I already done?! I don't want to leave him and yet at the same time I don't want his hand to touch my own. I long for him and yet at the same time I don't long for him, at least when the thought of us being related surfaces. Will I be forever searching for a reason? An answer? Why can't we just be left alone to love each other? I'm so lost...someone show me the way. I've been saving smiles for you Yue...but why can't I just use them on you now? Why is it so hard to smile at you, to embrace you, to hold you? WHY?!" She cried harder, causing Tama to rub his head against her own forehead sympathetically.
Then a voice spoke to her, she didn't know from where or how but she knew it was her mother. "Whether or not it's unrequited, whether it's right or wrong, whether it seems disgusting or not, there's no law against falling in love. Remember the principals of conflict: Know yourself, believe in yourself and then overcome yourself."
~~
I can tell by the look in your eyes you've been hurting
You know I'll never let you down... oh no
And I'll try anything to keep it working
You gave me time to find out
What my heart was looking for
And what I'm feeling inside
~~
Yue stared out at the sky. He lay back in the cold grass, but the night air didn't seem as cold as his heart felt right now. It was like it had been frozen then crumbled into pieces. "I don't believe she meant what she said. I mean, she can't, she just can't. Something must have happened, but why? Why won't she tell me what's wrong?" He held his hand up into the air, tracing out the shape of the Big Dipper. The stars peeked out like diamonds in a huge sheet of black velvet. "Those eyes can peer into my soul...those eyes can make my heart pound with love but shatter with hurt. I can see heaven in her eyes. Those lips can kiss away my fears but they can ruin my hopes when they utter those evil words of hate and pain. Her words can heal or they can cut deep into me. Her hands can take away all my pains and brush my cheek tenderly or they can dig themselves into me. Was this all a dream? A figment of my imagination? I just want to have ordinary days again, spent every minute with her...Why Kina? Why are you doing this? What happened? Can't I come near you? I want to see your love again, I want your love back."
~~
In your eyes
I want to see your love again
In your eyes
I never want this feeling to end
It took some time to find the light
But now I realize
I can see the heaven in your eyes
~~
Kina jolted up, her head turning side to side. "Who's there?!" She scrambled off the bed, causing Tama to run from the room. She looked down at the floor, realizing who had said that to her. "There's no law against falling in love....thank you mom..." Kina whispered softly. "It's true...no matter how much I fight it....I love Yue. I always will, no matter what. It's just the way things are, it's just right like that. Even the mer thought of him makes me blush and get all giggly. I want to spend forever with him, no matter what. We've been through so much and it hurts ....so many heartaches but I love him even more now. I know myself, I will believe in myself and then overcome myself. Don't you leave me Yue...and I won't leave you..." Her footfalls echoed softly as she emerged from her room, looking for the man of her dreams, the bishonen of her dreams.
~~
Can't you see I'm finding it hard to let go
Oooh at all the heartaches
We've been through
I never really thought I'd see this love grow
But you helped me see
Now I know what my heart's been looking for
And what I'm feeling inside
~~
She couldn't find him anywhere inside the house and Kina began to worry. "Yue!! Y-Yue!!!" She strained her voice to whisper but loud enough that anyone nearby would hear her.
"Huh?" Yue jerked up as he heard a noise come from inside the house. He pulled back the window and stuck his head in. "Who's there?"
Kina choked in a scream as she jumped back. "YUE! I mean...Yue..." She said quietly. "I-I was looking for you...." Her eyes suddenly found the ground interesting.
"Oh...Come on out here if you want." Yue replied, his eyes where heartbroken.
Kina walked out the back door, sitting down next to him in the grass. She sat back, looking at his face in the silver moonlight. Kina suddenly realized she was born to be with him. She was meant to be with this person, this bishonen. Off in the distance a few crickets chirped quietly, their songs filling the air. Kina looked over at him again, not taking her eyes off of him. He was gazing up at the stars again; trying not to focus on her or the pain that was overwhelming his heart. She looked at his blue eyes and they suddenly seemed so distant...and so hurt...she wanted to see heaven in those eyes again, just like she use too.
~~
In your eyes
I want to see your love again
In your eyes
I never want this feeling to end
It took some time to find the light
But now I realize
I can see the heaven in your eyes
~~
Kina shivered in the cold but ignored it, turning so she was on her side facing him. "Yue." She said his name softly, her voice wavering with emotion.
"Y-yes?" Yue tried not to let his voice show how much he was fighting from breaking down.
"Yue, You light me up, when I stumble you hold me up. Don't you leave me, why can't you see you're the one that I belong to! I'll be the sun that drives the darkness away, I'll be your light and I'll sleep tight only if you're around. There are lessons I've been learning. I've been stupid, selfish but confused. I should have talked to you before I went and freaked out again. Y-you see...I think we could possibly be related. The necklace you gave me is the Key of Love and if you gave it to me, for you to have it, it would make sense that you got it from your decedents. And those are also my decedents." She finished, a silence following her as he let her words be absorbed.
~~
We've been living on the edge
Where only the strong survive
We've been living on the edge
And it's something that we just can't hide
Oh this feeling inside
~~
"I don't care if we are or not related Kina. All I know is what I feel! I got that necklace from my grandmother and I'm not quite sure where she got it. But we can go to her and find out, she wasn't killed when the village was attacked because she was living somewhere else. Tomorrow, we'll go and find out if that makes you feel better. You really scared me Kina...but I understand how you must have felt..." He replied softly.
"I-It hurt...and I was scared...I felt alone and I didn't know what to do. I'll try not to do anything like that again. I lost Shui and I thought I'd lose you too...it'll be weird if we're somehow related...I don't think things could be the same if we were though..." She tried to explain what she felt.
"Kina, we are not related. I can promise, I swear that is true. If it'll make you feel better and reassure you, then I'll take you to my grandmother. But listen to me, we are not related at all. We're just married..." Yue brushed back a strand of her hair and placed it behind her hair. She looked so gorgeous bathed in the milky, silver moonlight. All he wanted to do was make everything all right for her, make it all better.
"Please hold me...and never let me go! You always hold a place in my heart Yue..." Kina murmured to him as they both sat up. He reached out, pulling her up against him and he felt her shivering stop. He brought his strong arms around her and held her tightly but gently as she laid her head on his chest. They both laid back down so half of Kina was laying on Yue's chest while her bottom half sat in the grass. "A miracle will happen...I just know it. Everything will be ok." She muttered softly. Yue smiled as the smell of her hair filled his heart. He'd prove to her that she was wrong, he knew she was wrong about this whole ordeal. But he didn't worry about that now, all that mattered right now was each other. They both cuddled closer under the night sky as Kina closed her eyes and soon they both were asleep.
~~
In your eyes
I want to see your love again
In your eyes
I never want this feeling to end
It took some time to find the light
But now I realize
I can see the heaven in your eyes
Ooh yeah I can see the heaven in your eyes
Oh baby I can see the heaven in your eyes
Oooh yeah heaven in your eyes, heaven in your eyes
Oh heaven in your eyes, heaven in your eyes
I can see the heaven, heaven in your eyes, heaven in your eyes
