The Threshold of Darkness and Light
Chapter 21
"Sorry I didn't show up yesterday Shiva." Kina nervously walked into the hospital room.
"Hey, it's ok. Yue explained." Shiva ran, hugging her friend. "I'm leaving today! Time to return to the real world!"
"Are you sure you want to do that?" Kina rose her eyebrows, knowing how cruel the world could be.
"Of course! Why wouldn't I want to return? Too many great things out there for me to do!" Shiva smirked.
Kina flashed her back a smile. A simple yet touching genuine smile. "I understand now." She whispered softly, taking the arm of her friend.
~~
La life is unbelievable
La life is good
Life is good
Life is great
Life is unbelievable
Life is hard, life is cruel
Life is so beautiful
Ooh yeah ooh yeah
~~
"We're moving back into our house also today. Want to stay for a few weeks?" Kina opened the door for Shiva. The two walked out of the hospital, waving to familiar nurses and doctors.
"Sure." Shiva reached out, stretching her arms up towards the sky. "Want to stop and grab a bite to eat?"
"Ok. My treat!!" Kina perked up. She felt so much better than the day before. She had people who cared about her and she cared about them. Sure, maybe they wouldn't be around forever, maybe she'd lose some of them to the world, maybe she'd be hurt, maybe they would turn against her but she would worry about that when the time came. All that mattered was being there with them right now. And being with them made her body fill with a warm, happy feeling. John was gone but she would see him one day in the future. Now he wouldn't hurt inside, he would be up with the angels and with mom and dad. But Kina was pulled out of her thoughts as they walked into a tiny coffee shop.
"Two donuts and a coffee." Shiva smiled at a woman wearing a pink outfit, obviously a waitress. The woman smiled back at them happily, writing down the order.
"Two cups of coffee?" The waitress asked.
"Only one. Give her caffeine and she'd go crazy." Shiva pointed at Kina and then snickered, hiding laughter. The waitress nodded in understanding then went to get their food.
~~
La life is unbelievable
Oh yeah oh yeah
La life is unbelievable
Somewhere in life and yet on my way to anywhere
A woman named Beatrice serves me coffee
And she smiled as if she cares
~~
Kina grabbed her donut and promptly began munching on it. Shiva proceeded to scarf down her own donut and guzzle on her coffee. "Ahh, so much better than Jell-O. If I had that one more day I'd scream!!"
"Then I won't tell you what I bought for dinner." Kina joked as Shiva rolled her eyes.
"Oh bite me!" Shiva retorted.
"Where and how hard?" Kina laughed.
"Whatever!" Shiva sighed as they both walked down a street sidewalk. She glanced across the street to see a floral shop. "Want to get some flowers to brighten up the house?" Shiva cast her friend a sidelong glance, noticing the hint of sadness in her eyes.
Kina jumped up, zoning out of her trance. Another smile lit up her face but this one seemed a bit sad. "Sure."
"You don't have to smile if you don't want to." Shiva gave Kina a serious look.
"Sorry, I just saw the lilies and it reminded me of him." Kina apologized.
"No need to say you're sorry. I understand." The brown haired girl lectured her friend.
~~
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
No more sorrows, your dreams came true
So knock on wood and cross your fingers
And count your blessings
It might be you
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
All your gray sky's turned blue
How many days do you think your given
So get on living, it's up to you
~~
Kina gave Shiva a look that said mostly, "Shut-up-I-understand-I-Won't- Smile-Then!" But Shiva could only laugh at Kina's attempt to appear annoyed and angry.
"What's so funny?" Kina poked her friend as they crossed the street, entering the flower shop.
"Oh nothing. Badger woman." Shiva whispered the last line.
"What did you call me?!" Kina stepped in front of her friend, holding out a rose dangerously.
"You looked like a badger just then!" Shiva burst into another fit of laughter. "Oh save me Tuxedo Mask!" She teased Kina as Kina put the rose back in its rightful place.
"If you no buy, you leave!" The shop owner walked up to them, shaking her finger in annoyance.
Kina couldn't help but laugh harder. "Y-yes..." They both stifled their laughter until they returned to the outside world. Then they laughed so hard their sides hurt.
~~
Life is good
Life is great
Life is unbelievable
Life is hard, life is cruel
Life is so beautiful
Ooh yeah ooh yeah
La life is unbelievable
Oh yeah oh yeah
La life is unbelievable
~~
"So where is everybody else?" Shiva questioned Kina once their laughter subsided.
"Oh, they're waiting for us at home." Kina cracked her knuckles loudly, causing Shiva to shiver.
"Please don't do that." Shiva glared at Kina. Her friend knew she hated it when she cracked her knuckles.
"You mean...DO THIS!?!" Kina instantly was by Shiva's ear, cracking her knuckles more.
"WHY YOU!!" Shiva ran ahead, trying to get away from Badger Woman.
Kina smirked, watching Shiva walk a few feet ahead of her. They were headed towards Kina's house. She hummed softly to herself, letting her mind wander to places unknown. She looked down at the sidewalk as she stepped faster to keep up with Shiva's rapid pace. She noticed the cracks and the grass that poked through the sidewalk, attempting to live in the broken cement. It seemed so pathetic to her; the grass kept attempting to live on when she knew it was just a futile effort. And yet it kept trying to grow, no matter how many people stepped on it and crushed it. It just kept on trying until the end. Kina smiled. "Maybe we all could be a little bit more like that stub of grass." Kina picked up her pace until she was next to Shiva. "Hey Shiva...do you ever get lonely? Isn't there a special guy there for you?" She couldn't resist. Kina had just noticed how everyone was mostly paired off while Shiva wasn't.
Shiva glanced down at the ground, a bit uncomfortable. She seemed to be in deep thought but then she spoke up. "I'm not the kind of person that depends on others, especially on the love of a man. I don't need someone to feel 'complete' or for somebody to make it all better for me. What will I do if I lose them then? I can make it on my own and I can depend on myself. That I know. I think that is one of the most important traits in a person; that they can depend on themselves to make it through tough times. I believe I can do it, therefore I can. Sure, it is nice to have someone there for me, very nice, but I want to do things on my own also. I don't desperately need someone there for me, but sometimes I think it would be nice." She blushed as she looked down at the sidewalk also.
Kina nodded, understanding her friends' feelings. "Very true."
~~
Hey if your messing with the sacred world
It's a never ending test
I don't know where to begin
And I feel I'm at an end
I don't wanna live life
Doing petty nonsense
It's hard to sleep at night
With a guilty conscience
You know It's really a mess
Now I feel blessed
I'm stuck with all the blood, the sweat and the tears
~~
"I look up to you Shiva." Kina gave her friend a gentle nudge.
Shiva chuckled. "Yeah, sure!"
"I really do!" Kina smiled then fell silent, the two nearing the house.
~~
A mother sheds tears at the same time a baby is born
On the other side of town a life is lost
A young thug was knocked off and the heat was tossed
Life is real, it's so trivial
but don't stop now Live your life
I know it's hell for the rough
But don't talk down on your man,
Unless your helping him out
It's yours
~~
Shiva turned, facing Kina. "Kina- Don't worry. You'll be fine. You can make it on your own, just believe in yourself a bit more. Have a little faith. People have many things to live for no matter how down life can get. Cause we make the future."
Kina looked at her friend, the two embracing quickly. A voice whispered in Kina's mind, sounding much like her brothers. "Do not hate a human for being human, do not judge without a cause. Anger destroys everyone, there will be none right or wrong. Prosperity is an easy gain. Life can only be pleasant if we all but remain patient, hopeful and loving. So stop running little angel."
~~
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
No more sorrows, your dreams came true
So knock on wood and cross your fingers
Now count your blessings
It might be you
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
All your gray sky's have turned blue
How many days do you think your given
So get on living, it's up to you
Life is good
Life is great
Life is unbelievable
Life is hard, life is cruel
Life is so beautiful
Ooh yeah ooh yeah
~~
Author's Note: Hey people! This is just a little poem I read somewhere called "After a While" by Veronica A. Shoffstall. It is about breaking up with your significant other and I hope it will all give you some hope and make you strong when faced with hard times.
After a while, you learn the subtle difference,
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning.
And company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your road on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
And futures have a way of falling down in mid flight.
After a while, you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth...
And you learn and learn...
With every goodbye you learn.
Chapter 21
"Sorry I didn't show up yesterday Shiva." Kina nervously walked into the hospital room.
"Hey, it's ok. Yue explained." Shiva ran, hugging her friend. "I'm leaving today! Time to return to the real world!"
"Are you sure you want to do that?" Kina rose her eyebrows, knowing how cruel the world could be.
"Of course! Why wouldn't I want to return? Too many great things out there for me to do!" Shiva smirked.
Kina flashed her back a smile. A simple yet touching genuine smile. "I understand now." She whispered softly, taking the arm of her friend.
~~
La life is unbelievable
La life is good
Life is good
Life is great
Life is unbelievable
Life is hard, life is cruel
Life is so beautiful
Ooh yeah ooh yeah
~~
"We're moving back into our house also today. Want to stay for a few weeks?" Kina opened the door for Shiva. The two walked out of the hospital, waving to familiar nurses and doctors.
"Sure." Shiva reached out, stretching her arms up towards the sky. "Want to stop and grab a bite to eat?"
"Ok. My treat!!" Kina perked up. She felt so much better than the day before. She had people who cared about her and she cared about them. Sure, maybe they wouldn't be around forever, maybe she'd lose some of them to the world, maybe she'd be hurt, maybe they would turn against her but she would worry about that when the time came. All that mattered was being there with them right now. And being with them made her body fill with a warm, happy feeling. John was gone but she would see him one day in the future. Now he wouldn't hurt inside, he would be up with the angels and with mom and dad. But Kina was pulled out of her thoughts as they walked into a tiny coffee shop.
"Two donuts and a coffee." Shiva smiled at a woman wearing a pink outfit, obviously a waitress. The woman smiled back at them happily, writing down the order.
"Two cups of coffee?" The waitress asked.
"Only one. Give her caffeine and she'd go crazy." Shiva pointed at Kina and then snickered, hiding laughter. The waitress nodded in understanding then went to get their food.
~~
La life is unbelievable
Oh yeah oh yeah
La life is unbelievable
Somewhere in life and yet on my way to anywhere
A woman named Beatrice serves me coffee
And she smiled as if she cares
~~
Kina grabbed her donut and promptly began munching on it. Shiva proceeded to scarf down her own donut and guzzle on her coffee. "Ahh, so much better than Jell-O. If I had that one more day I'd scream!!"
"Then I won't tell you what I bought for dinner." Kina joked as Shiva rolled her eyes.
"Oh bite me!" Shiva retorted.
"Where and how hard?" Kina laughed.
"Whatever!" Shiva sighed as they both walked down a street sidewalk. She glanced across the street to see a floral shop. "Want to get some flowers to brighten up the house?" Shiva cast her friend a sidelong glance, noticing the hint of sadness in her eyes.
Kina jumped up, zoning out of her trance. Another smile lit up her face but this one seemed a bit sad. "Sure."
"You don't have to smile if you don't want to." Shiva gave Kina a serious look.
"Sorry, I just saw the lilies and it reminded me of him." Kina apologized.
"No need to say you're sorry. I understand." The brown haired girl lectured her friend.
~~
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
No more sorrows, your dreams came true
So knock on wood and cross your fingers
And count your blessings
It might be you
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
All your gray sky's turned blue
How many days do you think your given
So get on living, it's up to you
~~
Kina gave Shiva a look that said mostly, "Shut-up-I-understand-I-Won't- Smile-Then!" But Shiva could only laugh at Kina's attempt to appear annoyed and angry.
"What's so funny?" Kina poked her friend as they crossed the street, entering the flower shop.
"Oh nothing. Badger woman." Shiva whispered the last line.
"What did you call me?!" Kina stepped in front of her friend, holding out a rose dangerously.
"You looked like a badger just then!" Shiva burst into another fit of laughter. "Oh save me Tuxedo Mask!" She teased Kina as Kina put the rose back in its rightful place.
"If you no buy, you leave!" The shop owner walked up to them, shaking her finger in annoyance.
Kina couldn't help but laugh harder. "Y-yes..." They both stifled their laughter until they returned to the outside world. Then they laughed so hard their sides hurt.
~~
Life is good
Life is great
Life is unbelievable
Life is hard, life is cruel
Life is so beautiful
Ooh yeah ooh yeah
La life is unbelievable
Oh yeah oh yeah
La life is unbelievable
~~
"So where is everybody else?" Shiva questioned Kina once their laughter subsided.
"Oh, they're waiting for us at home." Kina cracked her knuckles loudly, causing Shiva to shiver.
"Please don't do that." Shiva glared at Kina. Her friend knew she hated it when she cracked her knuckles.
"You mean...DO THIS!?!" Kina instantly was by Shiva's ear, cracking her knuckles more.
"WHY YOU!!" Shiva ran ahead, trying to get away from Badger Woman.
Kina smirked, watching Shiva walk a few feet ahead of her. They were headed towards Kina's house. She hummed softly to herself, letting her mind wander to places unknown. She looked down at the sidewalk as she stepped faster to keep up with Shiva's rapid pace. She noticed the cracks and the grass that poked through the sidewalk, attempting to live in the broken cement. It seemed so pathetic to her; the grass kept attempting to live on when she knew it was just a futile effort. And yet it kept trying to grow, no matter how many people stepped on it and crushed it. It just kept on trying until the end. Kina smiled. "Maybe we all could be a little bit more like that stub of grass." Kina picked up her pace until she was next to Shiva. "Hey Shiva...do you ever get lonely? Isn't there a special guy there for you?" She couldn't resist. Kina had just noticed how everyone was mostly paired off while Shiva wasn't.
Shiva glanced down at the ground, a bit uncomfortable. She seemed to be in deep thought but then she spoke up. "I'm not the kind of person that depends on others, especially on the love of a man. I don't need someone to feel 'complete' or for somebody to make it all better for me. What will I do if I lose them then? I can make it on my own and I can depend on myself. That I know. I think that is one of the most important traits in a person; that they can depend on themselves to make it through tough times. I believe I can do it, therefore I can. Sure, it is nice to have someone there for me, very nice, but I want to do things on my own also. I don't desperately need someone there for me, but sometimes I think it would be nice." She blushed as she looked down at the sidewalk also.
Kina nodded, understanding her friends' feelings. "Very true."
~~
Hey if your messing with the sacred world
It's a never ending test
I don't know where to begin
And I feel I'm at an end
I don't wanna live life
Doing petty nonsense
It's hard to sleep at night
With a guilty conscience
You know It's really a mess
Now I feel blessed
I'm stuck with all the blood, the sweat and the tears
~~
"I look up to you Shiva." Kina gave her friend a gentle nudge.
Shiva chuckled. "Yeah, sure!"
"I really do!" Kina smiled then fell silent, the two nearing the house.
~~
A mother sheds tears at the same time a baby is born
On the other side of town a life is lost
A young thug was knocked off and the heat was tossed
Life is real, it's so trivial
but don't stop now Live your life
I know it's hell for the rough
But don't talk down on your man,
Unless your helping him out
It's yours
~~
Shiva turned, facing Kina. "Kina- Don't worry. You'll be fine. You can make it on your own, just believe in yourself a bit more. Have a little faith. People have many things to live for no matter how down life can get. Cause we make the future."
Kina looked at her friend, the two embracing quickly. A voice whispered in Kina's mind, sounding much like her brothers. "Do not hate a human for being human, do not judge without a cause. Anger destroys everyone, there will be none right or wrong. Prosperity is an easy gain. Life can only be pleasant if we all but remain patient, hopeful and loving. So stop running little angel."
~~
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
No more sorrows, your dreams came true
So knock on wood and cross your fingers
Now count your blessings
It might be you
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow
All your gray sky's have turned blue
How many days do you think your given
So get on living, it's up to you
Life is good
Life is great
Life is unbelievable
Life is hard, life is cruel
Life is so beautiful
Ooh yeah ooh yeah
~~
Author's Note: Hey people! This is just a little poem I read somewhere called "After a While" by Veronica A. Shoffstall. It is about breaking up with your significant other and I hope it will all give you some hope and make you strong when faced with hard times.
After a while, you learn the subtle difference,
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning.
And company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your road on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
And futures have a way of falling down in mid flight.
After a while, you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth...
And you learn and learn...
With every goodbye you learn.
