Heart's Choices

Chapter 7- I Must Be Dreaming

By: Cherry-Blossoms854



You must know the truth but am I ready to tell you? Am I ready to let you know what I've hidden from you for the longest time? Am I ready to even begin? Most importantly are you ready to hear?

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Sir walks back in with papers and a little piece of glass with blood in it in his hands. He looks at Quistis who seemed to be enjoying her stay in his office. Waking up from her thoughts she looks in Sir's direction. He looks at her and sits down in a desk at the far end of the room. Quistis stands up and starts walking in Sir's direction when the trainee steps in front of her making her stop and look at him.

"Where do you think you're going?" He growls at her. Staring at him she shoves him out of her way, looks at him pathetically and continues walking over to Sir. The trainee stares at the blond woman and stands up resuming his position. Sir looks up at the now standing in front of him Quistis.

"Joe I thought we had an understanding that she was to be nowhere near me." Sir says to the brown haired trainee.

"Yeah but she pushed me down rather hard and continued walking toward you." Sir looks up Qusitis really pissed.

(How pathetic. He can't even take a push on the floor. Mine as well send for his diapers and blankets. Is he scared of the dark and the boogieman too?)

"Don't you ever listen to a word I tell you. First you decide you won't eat and now you push down my trainee!" He exclaims.

"Joe would you leave us for a moment." The trainee nods and walks out and closes the door softly. Sir gets up and locks the door and glares at her.

"Why do you need MY blood for YOUR personal reasons." Quistis glares back and stands waiting for her answer. She crosses her arms and goes into her usual waiting stance.

"You really want to know why? Do you think you're ready for the truth."

" I know I want to know and I want to know why I have to stay here and why you have kidnapped me! That Ex-girlfriend shit is a bunch of bullshit and I'm waiting until you tell me. I won't leave." Quistis sits in his chair behind the desk and looks up at him meeting his misty blue eyes. Sir sighs and turns his head over to the window overcastting the ocean.

"Quistis, you're not the same as everyone else around you. You're not like anyone. Different from anything ever made…" Quistis interrupts him making him stare at her. (A/N: I guess she didn't catch the word made yet, eh?)

"I don't care if I'm different, I already knew that. I just want to know who or what I am dammit!" Quistis sighs and puts her head down like a child just caught in a cookie jar. Sir sighs.

"Quistis you're a unique kind of sorceress. You and Sorceress Rinoa have some things in common, but she's a lot stronger and more trained in the field. I took your blood to compare the differences in yours and Rinoa's blood. To see if there is anything to make you stronger, and more powerful. So you could beat her." Sir states without a flinch or sigh. Quistis stares at him like he's lost it and looks away from him. She stands up and walks to the door leaving him standing there. She turns around and states out her last sentence.

"I may be a sorceress, but there is no way that I'm going to have anything to do with your evil revenge plans. I'm not going to try to be stronger than one of my own best friends just because you want me to be. I'm staying how I am and that's it." Quistis looks at him one more time as Sir stares at her one more time to breathe out his sentence.

"Quistis, one more thing you must know before you retreat to your room. You're not real. You're nothing but a ghost made to look real. You're hardly capable of tears. When was the last time you cried?" Sir states silently. Quistis stares into his eyes and says his actual name silently.

"Philip."

"You figured it out. It took you that long just to figure it out. I'm your creator."

(This can't be happening. I'm real. People can feel and see me. I'm not a ghost made to be real. I've cried before. I'm real, dammit, I know I am!)

"Do you really want to know the last time I cried? I never have cried because I've put ice around my heart so I would never be hurt, but I can make an exception right now. I'm crying dammit and you want to know something? I'm not melting and I'm not disappearing in little pieces, am I? Just stay the hell away from me, you fuckin damn asshole." Quistis tries to control the tears but they are already flowing down her pale cheeks. Quistis backs away from him and opens the door and runs out of the room crying.

(I'm so immature. I'm crying over the truth that I said I could handle. The truth that I wish was never true. I'm lost in a dream and I'm never to awake.)

Quistis runs past her room and all the trainees who try to stop her outburst. She continues running until she's out of the palace and runs into the meadows, away from everything. Away from everything but herself.



"Hey Seifer are you up, man?" Zell speaks silently to the still form on the infirmary bed. The ex-knight turns over so he's facing Zell. Seifer takes a quick glance at Zell and closes his eyes again, hoping he would get the clue and go. Zell continues trying until Seifer sits up angrily. Zell grins at the grouchy Seifer and laughs.

"What are you laughin bout Chicken-Wuss? What the hell do you want?" Seifer snarls stretching. Zell glares at Seifer, but ignores his stupid ass comment.

"Squall wants you in his office A.S.A.P."

"But I just got up and I'm still a little dizzy. Can't he pick another day?" Seifer forces himself out of the infirmary bed. Dizziness takes his head over as he stands. He places his hand on the wall to his left to support him so he won't fall over. Zell walks out of the room leaving Seifer standing, or rather leaning, there, feeling sick. Seifer balances himself out and looks at his surroundings again. He sees a card on the table to his right. Picking it up, her opened it and it read:

To Seifer,

We all heard about your accident with the T-rexer. We're all hoping you recover soon!

Your friends,

Selphie, Irvine, Rinoa, Squall, and Zell.

Looking at the cover he traces the city of Balbamb with his fingers.

(At least they cared enough to get me one. I bet Selphie talked them into it though.)

He places it back on the nightstand and sees Zell walking in with his clothes from the night he fought the beast, the thing that led him here. He places it on the unmade bed and turns his attention to him.

"Here's your clothes. They've been cleaned. Get dressed and meet Squall in his office after you're done. The doctor know you're being released today." Zell walks out leaving the blond man with nothing to do but change into his battle wear. Seifer walks over to the door and closes it. He dresses quickly, makes the bed, and is about to walk out when he looks at the card. He looks at it and grabs it placing it in his inner coat pocket. He strolls out of the room and says a faint thank you to the Doctor before leaving. He rushes over to the commander's office without a doubt knowing what the topic was going to be about.