Heart's Choices
Chapter 11- I Don't Need Anyone
By: Cherry-Blossoms854
Never give me sympathy I don't need. Don't give me food if I don't want to feed. Don't try to comfort me if I'm crying inside. Don't try to save me if I want to die. Don't change me if I want to be left alone. Just let me be strong and face them on my own.
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Quistis, still sitting in the cafeteria, stares at her reflection that hits the just cleaned table. She tries to hold the tears back as she looks at herself. Not letting the tears flow in public she stands up and quickly heads to her dorm, staying clear of anyone who wants to talk to her. When she reaches her dorm she finds the door unlocked, but not caring she opens and locks her door. Sorrowfully she flops down on her bed on her stomach. Her hands circle the pillow and her face stays put in it as salty tears carry themselves down her porcelain face.
(Am I that ugly inside? I'm not even real and I'm crying over my body that I once thought was real. I thought I was something before I was kidnapped. I thought I had everything a girl could have…except one thing. Love. I craved it so much that I must of fell for Squall and now I have high hopes that Seifer loves me. I just wish that someone was like me and could help me through this because no one can. They can't feel my pain that I've burdened for so long. All they can feel is sympathy and pity toward me and I don't want that. Never have and never will. )
Quistis removes the pillow from her face and sits up Indian style on her bed. She walks to the bathroom and splashes cold water on her face to lower the red puffiness around her eyes from crying. She dries her face and fakes a smile as someone knocks on the door.
"Hey Quisty! Squall wants to see you! He said it's urgent." Selphie screams through the door as Quistis stands by the door.
"Alright Selph. I've got the message. I'll be there as soon as possible. Where does he want me to meet him?" Quistis questions curiously.
"Oh yeah! Good thing you asked cuz he wants you to meet him at that small little café in Balbamb."
"Oh okay. I'll be there soon. Thanks Selphie." There was no answer so Quistis went to her closet to find some normal clothes to wear instead of her usual attire. It was getting pretty boring to Quistis and she wanted to change the boring, sophisticated, responsible Quistis Trepe. She brought out and changed into a pair of blue jeans and a red T-shirt that went about 6 inches above her knees. Looking happy with the outfit Quistis put some white Adidas on and grabbed a blue/white windbreaker on her way out.
Squall tapped his fingers impatiently waiting for the usually responsible and on-time instructor. He looks up as he hears the bell on the door ring. Squall watches the blonde woman look in his direction and walk over to him. She smiles before she sits down and takes a seat in front of him. A waitress walks over to them and looks at the people in front of her.
"I'm Cedra. I'll be your waitress for the night. Can I get you anything?" She smiles at them. Quistis smiles back but Squall just keeps staring at the blond confused.
"I'll have a cup of coffee. Thank you." Quistis nods toward her and Cedra looks over to Squall.
'Would you like anything?" Squall shakes his head and looks right back at Quistis who is staring right back at the commander.
"You needed to see me?"
"Uh…yes. About your past, I need to ask some questions and so does Seifer, once he gets here." As if on que, Seifer strolls in and takes a seat by Quistis, who has to move over more.
"Why make yourself comfortable Mr. Almasy." Quistis mocks. Seifer grins at her and looks at Squall.
"Continue on Commander." Seifer and Squall both turn their attention to the instructor. She shifts uncomfortably under their direct stares and keeps as little eye contact with them as possible.
"Questions? What kind of questions Squall because I'm not answering anything that has to do with my past, present, or sorcery powers."
"Actually we need to know if Seifer is going to keep and eye on you." Quistis stares at Squall as anger boils up in her.
"Squall I do not, repeat NOT, need someone to be my little watch dog. I can protect myself! Haven't you learned anything about me in the couple of years that I attended Garden and served as your Instructor?' Quistis clenches her hands, her fingernails digging into her skin.
"Quistis you couldn't do anything when you were kidnapped now could you?" Squall states silently. Quistis reverts her gaze to the streets and pays no attention to Squall or Seifer.
"Quistis Marie Trepe. Stop acting like a little baby and pouting because I have to play knight. This is the only way we are going to know that your safe at all times. We're sorry that we have to do it this way but what if you get kidnapped again?" Seifer adds annoyed with Quistis for putting on a 4 year old fit. Quistis looks at them again and sighs.
"What about at night? Seifer has no right to enter my private quarters."
"Well, actually he now has a right to as of now. I'm allowing it for about 6 months at max or until we get this case filed out and finished with." Quistis, angrily, pushes Seifer out of his seat so she can get out and leaves. Seifer, who is still on the ground, stares at her and stands up slowly. Squall looks at the ex-knight and looks at the door, which Quistis just exited.
"Seifer, better go get her. You wouldn't want anything to happen on your first day would you?" Seifer looks over at the commander and rushes out of the café leaving Squall with the paycheck. The waitress hands Squall the coffee and the bill. He hands her the gil and leaves toward his home.
(The games begin now…)
~* What Quistis and Seifer are thinking as Seifer searches for Quistis.
(Where the hell is she?)
(What gives them the right to invade my personal space and think that I can't protect myself?)
(When I find her I'll hurt he myself in no one hasn't done it already. Dammit!)
(I'm not a little kid anymore. Don't they see I'm trying to fend for myself? Don't they know I want Seifer away from me so I can't fall deeper into his trap?)
(Quistis Trepe when I find you, you are getting your ass kicked! That's if I don't end up stuttering in my sentences when I stare at you.)
(Seifer…If only you felt what I feel everyday. Your face haunts me in my dreams. The texture of your skin makes me want to drown in your kisses, but we're not meant to be. I need you away from me so you can live a happy and normal life…)
(Quistis I need you in my life, with me. I need you there and no other woman is going to make me happier than what I feel around you. I just want to hold you. Is that a crime?)
Quistis and Seifer: (Can't you see that I'm in love with you?)
The blondes look up at the sky as crystal raindrops fall upon the little town called Balbamb.
Love conquers all
Can that be true
I'm ten feet from the longest fall
What should I do
You know I love you
You know I care
Is there ever a way that I can get it through
That I want you here not there
Try to see me
Instead of walk the other way
Try to see
How you hurt me when you walk away
You don't have to stay
Just be a friend
Act like it's a play
And it won't ever end
THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. My note is that I feel like makin a sequel or sumthin 2 tis or sumthin cuz I'm not writin Nemore right now. U all can wonder or sumthin. U can wander if Quistis and Seifer will eva hook up, (it's sooooo obvious, but hey) wat Squall gots up his sleeve and if Quistis will actually leave us! (Member 1st chapter where she waz supposed 2 leave but everything got screwed up?) Well hopefully that was good even though the ending sucked… but I'm tryin and I'm only so young! Well bye and thanx 2 all u ppl who read and devoted ur sweet time 2 readin my writing!
-Cherry blossoms854
p.s. dun ask wat's up w/the horrible poem –" It waz jus sumthin that would sorta!!! Go with the story
Chapter 11- I Don't Need Anyone
By: Cherry-Blossoms854
Never give me sympathy I don't need. Don't give me food if I don't want to feed. Don't try to comfort me if I'm crying inside. Don't try to save me if I want to die. Don't change me if I want to be left alone. Just let me be strong and face them on my own.
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Quistis, still sitting in the cafeteria, stares at her reflection that hits the just cleaned table. She tries to hold the tears back as she looks at herself. Not letting the tears flow in public she stands up and quickly heads to her dorm, staying clear of anyone who wants to talk to her. When she reaches her dorm she finds the door unlocked, but not caring she opens and locks her door. Sorrowfully she flops down on her bed on her stomach. Her hands circle the pillow and her face stays put in it as salty tears carry themselves down her porcelain face.
(Am I that ugly inside? I'm not even real and I'm crying over my body that I once thought was real. I thought I was something before I was kidnapped. I thought I had everything a girl could have…except one thing. Love. I craved it so much that I must of fell for Squall and now I have high hopes that Seifer loves me. I just wish that someone was like me and could help me through this because no one can. They can't feel my pain that I've burdened for so long. All they can feel is sympathy and pity toward me and I don't want that. Never have and never will. )
Quistis removes the pillow from her face and sits up Indian style on her bed. She walks to the bathroom and splashes cold water on her face to lower the red puffiness around her eyes from crying. She dries her face and fakes a smile as someone knocks on the door.
"Hey Quisty! Squall wants to see you! He said it's urgent." Selphie screams through the door as Quistis stands by the door.
"Alright Selph. I've got the message. I'll be there as soon as possible. Where does he want me to meet him?" Quistis questions curiously.
"Oh yeah! Good thing you asked cuz he wants you to meet him at that small little café in Balbamb."
"Oh okay. I'll be there soon. Thanks Selphie." There was no answer so Quistis went to her closet to find some normal clothes to wear instead of her usual attire. It was getting pretty boring to Quistis and she wanted to change the boring, sophisticated, responsible Quistis Trepe. She brought out and changed into a pair of blue jeans and a red T-shirt that went about 6 inches above her knees. Looking happy with the outfit Quistis put some white Adidas on and grabbed a blue/white windbreaker on her way out.
Squall tapped his fingers impatiently waiting for the usually responsible and on-time instructor. He looks up as he hears the bell on the door ring. Squall watches the blonde woman look in his direction and walk over to him. She smiles before she sits down and takes a seat in front of him. A waitress walks over to them and looks at the people in front of her.
"I'm Cedra. I'll be your waitress for the night. Can I get you anything?" She smiles at them. Quistis smiles back but Squall just keeps staring at the blond confused.
"I'll have a cup of coffee. Thank you." Quistis nods toward her and Cedra looks over to Squall.
'Would you like anything?" Squall shakes his head and looks right back at Quistis who is staring right back at the commander.
"You needed to see me?"
"Uh…yes. About your past, I need to ask some questions and so does Seifer, once he gets here." As if on que, Seifer strolls in and takes a seat by Quistis, who has to move over more.
"Why make yourself comfortable Mr. Almasy." Quistis mocks. Seifer grins at her and looks at Squall.
"Continue on Commander." Seifer and Squall both turn their attention to the instructor. She shifts uncomfortably under their direct stares and keeps as little eye contact with them as possible.
"Questions? What kind of questions Squall because I'm not answering anything that has to do with my past, present, or sorcery powers."
"Actually we need to know if Seifer is going to keep and eye on you." Quistis stares at Squall as anger boils up in her.
"Squall I do not, repeat NOT, need someone to be my little watch dog. I can protect myself! Haven't you learned anything about me in the couple of years that I attended Garden and served as your Instructor?' Quistis clenches her hands, her fingernails digging into her skin.
"Quistis you couldn't do anything when you were kidnapped now could you?" Squall states silently. Quistis reverts her gaze to the streets and pays no attention to Squall or Seifer.
"Quistis Marie Trepe. Stop acting like a little baby and pouting because I have to play knight. This is the only way we are going to know that your safe at all times. We're sorry that we have to do it this way but what if you get kidnapped again?" Seifer adds annoyed with Quistis for putting on a 4 year old fit. Quistis looks at them again and sighs.
"What about at night? Seifer has no right to enter my private quarters."
"Well, actually he now has a right to as of now. I'm allowing it for about 6 months at max or until we get this case filed out and finished with." Quistis, angrily, pushes Seifer out of his seat so she can get out and leaves. Seifer, who is still on the ground, stares at her and stands up slowly. Squall looks at the ex-knight and looks at the door, which Quistis just exited.
"Seifer, better go get her. You wouldn't want anything to happen on your first day would you?" Seifer looks over at the commander and rushes out of the café leaving Squall with the paycheck. The waitress hands Squall the coffee and the bill. He hands her the gil and leaves toward his home.
(The games begin now…)
~* What Quistis and Seifer are thinking as Seifer searches for Quistis.
(Where the hell is she?)
(What gives them the right to invade my personal space and think that I can't protect myself?)
(When I find her I'll hurt he myself in no one hasn't done it already. Dammit!)
(I'm not a little kid anymore. Don't they see I'm trying to fend for myself? Don't they know I want Seifer away from me so I can't fall deeper into his trap?)
(Quistis Trepe when I find you, you are getting your ass kicked! That's if I don't end up stuttering in my sentences when I stare at you.)
(Seifer…If only you felt what I feel everyday. Your face haunts me in my dreams. The texture of your skin makes me want to drown in your kisses, but we're not meant to be. I need you away from me so you can live a happy and normal life…)
(Quistis I need you in my life, with me. I need you there and no other woman is going to make me happier than what I feel around you. I just want to hold you. Is that a crime?)
Quistis and Seifer: (Can't you see that I'm in love with you?)
The blondes look up at the sky as crystal raindrops fall upon the little town called Balbamb.
Love conquers all
Can that be true
I'm ten feet from the longest fall
What should I do
You know I love you
You know I care
Is there ever a way that I can get it through
That I want you here not there
Try to see me
Instead of walk the other way
Try to see
How you hurt me when you walk away
You don't have to stay
Just be a friend
Act like it's a play
And it won't ever end
THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. My note is that I feel like makin a sequel or sumthin 2 tis or sumthin cuz I'm not writin Nemore right now. U all can wonder or sumthin. U can wander if Quistis and Seifer will eva hook up, (it's sooooo obvious, but hey) wat Squall gots up his sleeve and if Quistis will actually leave us! (Member 1st chapter where she waz supposed 2 leave but everything got screwed up?) Well hopefully that was good even though the ending sucked… but I'm tryin and I'm only so young! Well bye and thanx 2 all u ppl who read and devoted ur sweet time 2 readin my writing!
-Cherry blossoms854
p.s. dun ask wat's up w/the horrible poem –" It waz jus sumthin that would sorta!!! Go with the story
