Chapter Six
I sat in my room, by myself, thinking. ~ I really ought to tell them. But, what would they say when I told them? And who should I tell? Carmen would laugh, Denera would pretend she never heard, Legolas, who knows what he would say. That leaves Katherine and Haldir. Haldir's busy almost all that time. Katherine, I have to tell Katherine. ~
I got up, I had finally decided that I needed, and would, tell someone the secret that was eating away at me.
I eventually found Katherine, she was in the library, studying. "Can we talk?" I asked. "Somewhere private?"
"Sure," she said and got up.
***
Please don't interrupt me," I said. "I don't think I'll be able to deep going if you do."
"Katherine nodded and I began. "I guess I should begin with how my family was butchered and why I wasn't. I was with my family, in out home, we lived a small ways from Lorien. The orcs took us by surprise. My dad only had time to lock me in a closet, where I would be safe. I could not see, but I heard my family die, I could hear their dieing screams. Sometimes I wish I died with them, and sometimes I think that I could have saved them. Then again maybe not."
"It took the elves of Lothlorien three days to find me. Three foodless, waterless, days of being locked in a closet. Oh, I forgot to say, it was the summer after my freshman year at the Lorien high school.
"I was in shock for quite awhile, and yet, I never cried. Maybe it would have helped.
"I didn't cope very well, I had never felt so alone in my life. Within weeks I started doing drugs, smoking and drinking. A month or so after that, I was no longer a virgin. Within half a year, I was a mess. Practically a whore, never mind. I was a whore, worse, I would sleep with anyone. My grades were failing, I was a depressed, doped up, anorexic whore.
"Celeborn finally decided that something needed to be done. He sent me to Rivendell, and when I met you, Carmen, and Denera, things started to clear up and it looked like I had a future. I haven't really been honest about my past, I was so ashamed, there was nothing to be done but move on." When I stopped I looked at her expectantly. I wasn't sure what I expected, but it wasn't her hugging me.
"No wonder you were so locked up inside yourself when I took you as my fledgling," she said. "I wondered why you never cried, ever."
"You understand then?" I asked, softly, it was one of those times when I wished I could find those tears I had locked away from the world not so long ago.
"Of course I do. Of course I do," she said. "I won't tell anyone if you don't want me too."
"Please don't, if it gets around school, I'd be shunned, or I'd be harassed out of my mind," I said.
"Let's go in then, that's all, right?" she asked.
I nodded and got up, we needed to study.
***
"Did you hear?" Carmen asked cheerfully, bounding into our room.
"Hear what? I don't hear a thing besides you and I'm an elf," I said, rolling my eyes.
"We're getting another person in here!" Carmen replied.
"Shit!" Denera exclaimed. "Don't they think that four is enough? I mean, come on! Some seniors have their own room!"
"Is it someone transferring rooms, or someone new?" Katherine asked.
"Transferring schools, Elrond's daughter, Arwen," Carmen said.
"Oh no," I muttered, putting my hands up to cover my face. Arwen was a relative and managed to find out about my little secret. Not that it was so little.
"What's so bad about that?" Denera asked.
"Arwen's a relative of mine," I said, voice muffled by my hands.
"Relative? Which one?" Katherine asked.
"Celeborn is her grandfather and my grandfather's brother," I said.
"What's so bad about that?" Denera asked again.
"She's snobby and popular and manages to get all the cute guys and she's been known to blackmail me," I replied, frowning.
"With what?" Carmen asked.
"A whole lot of shit," I said.
"Such as?" Denera prompted.
"What makes you think I'm going to tell you?" I demanded.
"Nothing," Katherine interrupted.
"I need to get ready for a date," I replied.
"With Legolas?" Denera asked.
"Who else?" I inquired. It was now a well-known fact that I was dating Legolas, practically the whole school knew, Legolas was very popular already. Not just popular but extraordinarily cute. So cute it's freaky. Don't mind me, I think I just might go on like this for a while now…
A/N: I know, I know. I mentioned Arwen already in this story, ignore that. So, people like my story! Yay!
~*Sky Magic*~
I sat in my room, by myself, thinking. ~ I really ought to tell them. But, what would they say when I told them? And who should I tell? Carmen would laugh, Denera would pretend she never heard, Legolas, who knows what he would say. That leaves Katherine and Haldir. Haldir's busy almost all that time. Katherine, I have to tell Katherine. ~
I got up, I had finally decided that I needed, and would, tell someone the secret that was eating away at me.
I eventually found Katherine, she was in the library, studying. "Can we talk?" I asked. "Somewhere private?"
"Sure," she said and got up.
***
Please don't interrupt me," I said. "I don't think I'll be able to deep going if you do."
"Katherine nodded and I began. "I guess I should begin with how my family was butchered and why I wasn't. I was with my family, in out home, we lived a small ways from Lorien. The orcs took us by surprise. My dad only had time to lock me in a closet, where I would be safe. I could not see, but I heard my family die, I could hear their dieing screams. Sometimes I wish I died with them, and sometimes I think that I could have saved them. Then again maybe not."
"It took the elves of Lothlorien three days to find me. Three foodless, waterless, days of being locked in a closet. Oh, I forgot to say, it was the summer after my freshman year at the Lorien high school.
"I was in shock for quite awhile, and yet, I never cried. Maybe it would have helped.
"I didn't cope very well, I had never felt so alone in my life. Within weeks I started doing drugs, smoking and drinking. A month or so after that, I was no longer a virgin. Within half a year, I was a mess. Practically a whore, never mind. I was a whore, worse, I would sleep with anyone. My grades were failing, I was a depressed, doped up, anorexic whore.
"Celeborn finally decided that something needed to be done. He sent me to Rivendell, and when I met you, Carmen, and Denera, things started to clear up and it looked like I had a future. I haven't really been honest about my past, I was so ashamed, there was nothing to be done but move on." When I stopped I looked at her expectantly. I wasn't sure what I expected, but it wasn't her hugging me.
"No wonder you were so locked up inside yourself when I took you as my fledgling," she said. "I wondered why you never cried, ever."
"You understand then?" I asked, softly, it was one of those times when I wished I could find those tears I had locked away from the world not so long ago.
"Of course I do. Of course I do," she said. "I won't tell anyone if you don't want me too."
"Please don't, if it gets around school, I'd be shunned, or I'd be harassed out of my mind," I said.
"Let's go in then, that's all, right?" she asked.
I nodded and got up, we needed to study.
***
"Did you hear?" Carmen asked cheerfully, bounding into our room.
"Hear what? I don't hear a thing besides you and I'm an elf," I said, rolling my eyes.
"We're getting another person in here!" Carmen replied.
"Shit!" Denera exclaimed. "Don't they think that four is enough? I mean, come on! Some seniors have their own room!"
"Is it someone transferring rooms, or someone new?" Katherine asked.
"Transferring schools, Elrond's daughter, Arwen," Carmen said.
"Oh no," I muttered, putting my hands up to cover my face. Arwen was a relative and managed to find out about my little secret. Not that it was so little.
"What's so bad about that?" Denera asked.
"Arwen's a relative of mine," I said, voice muffled by my hands.
"Relative? Which one?" Katherine asked.
"Celeborn is her grandfather and my grandfather's brother," I said.
"What's so bad about that?" Denera asked again.
"She's snobby and popular and manages to get all the cute guys and she's been known to blackmail me," I replied, frowning.
"With what?" Carmen asked.
"A whole lot of shit," I said.
"Such as?" Denera prompted.
"What makes you think I'm going to tell you?" I demanded.
"Nothing," Katherine interrupted.
"I need to get ready for a date," I replied.
"With Legolas?" Denera asked.
"Who else?" I inquired. It was now a well-known fact that I was dating Legolas, practically the whole school knew, Legolas was very popular already. Not just popular but extraordinarily cute. So cute it's freaky. Don't mind me, I think I just might go on like this for a while now…
A/N: I know, I know. I mentioned Arwen already in this story, ignore that. So, people like my story! Yay!
~*Sky Magic*~
