Disclaimer and notes: Firstly I don't own Digimon so please don't sue me. Alos, I have borrowed the name's of Matt's band from Emperess of the Eclipse, sorry! , I didn't ask and I know I should've done!. So credit goes to Emperess for the names of the band. Also I strongly recommend you read any of her fics. So after reading this fic!, go and do that!.

Anyways back to this fic, yet again I have chosen an angsty/ revenge sort of feel for my story and surprise, surprise there is Taito so you don't like it? Then click the back button now!

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1 Candles in the wind

Part one – Caught in the middle



"No! TK"! I yell, my voice hardly recognisable in the storm. The rain pours down and soaks my hair making in flop annoyingly in my eyes. I want to scream, long and loud.

I've just seen my brother cut down by a digimon. Before I can even get to him I'm whipped back by the Digimon Emperor. The whip cuts into my cheek and I feel the blood run down my chin. I don't care I have to get to my brother.

"Matt, stay back!, he'll kill you"! Tai shouts. He runs to me and his strong arms hold me back. I fight against him feeling hot tears in my eyes.

"Tai please"! I beg struggling, trying to free myself from his grasp. I'm not aware of anything else around me. There's fighting, shouts and screams but that's all I know. I have to get to my brother.

Tai's still holding me back as I start to scream, he's muttering soothing words to me, trying to get me to calm down before…………black.



"Hey Tai….get over here!, Matt's waking up"! I hear someone call…I think it's Sora. I moan lightly, my head is killing me, the worst headache ever. My face…it's sore. I bring a hand up to it, I can feel a wound on my cheek. I suddenly remember….TK….that digimon….his screams….where is he?….I start to breathe faster and faster.

"Matt, please just calm down". I feel arms hold me tightly. I'm pulled against someone, Tai. He lets me sob into his chest as the full realisation hits me. Is my little brother dead?.

I can tell that they're skirting around this already, no-one's mentioned TK, they're all asking me how I am.

"Oh, thanks God you're awake! , we thought we'd be out one singer"! Akira , one of my band rushes over to me.

"Smooth Akira….." I hear Gendo muttering, they're obviously trying to stay away from the subject of death, I bet they're waiting any minute for me to ask where TK is.

I break away from Tai's hold and ask the inevitable question.

"Where's TK"?

They all look at me, with varying degrees of sadness, regret and sympathy. I don't need to hear an answer.

"Oh…..ok…….." I hang my head. I don't know what to do, I don't even know how I feel. I'm angry, for the Digimon Emperor at doing this to my little brother. Yet I'm totally upset about losing him but something in me won't let me cry.

Once again, Tai puts his arms around me, but I feel nothing, except a wave of coldness rush through me.

"No, Tai, get off me" I mutter, pushing him away.

"Matt"? He looks at me, questioningly.

"I said No Tai, just leave me alone". I get up off the sofa I was laying on. I don't even turn around to look at anyone as I walk out of the door.

**

He's gone. I can understand that much. He won't be there anymore when we go to the Digital World. He won't be there when I go to mom's flat, he won't be smiling at me anymore, saying how much he loves me and that I'm the best big brother in the world. He won't come round to my apartment anymore for holidays, I won't be able to take him sledding anymore on the hill in winter. He won't be at the beach in the summer. He won't be there anymore, he won't be by my side , he won't be there to help me and I can't help him anymore. I can't be there for him and I can't look after him anymore.

This is how I feel, most of the time. However deep inside me, there's intense anger, intense anger for the one who caused this, the Digimon Emperor. Ken Ichijouji.

I long for revenge. I want him to suffer like I am, like TK did. He deserves pain every last moment. And I, Yamato Ishida, am going to personally see to it that he suffers……..

**

Tai watched from the sidelines as Davis kicked the ball to another member of the soccer team, only to watch one of the opposition steal the ball away. Tai raised his hand to his head.

"Why did I ever agree to coach the younger kids team"? He asked himself. He looked back to up to see that the ball had been passed on to another member of the opposite team. Tai did a double take…that boy…he looked so familiar. Tai stared at the boy who was concentrating hard on getting the ball further down the pitch. That blue/black hair….skinny frame….his confident movement…..it couldn't be….could it?…..Tai stared harder, the boy has passed the ball on and had turned to see Tai staring. The boy looked at Tai with harsh, cold eyes……..

It clicked. This kid was Ken Ichijouji!…know better as the Digimon Emperor. Tai turned away from the pitch and silently cursed. He'd agreed to meet up with Matt after band practice….however Matt decided he wanted to catch the last five minutes of the game so he had told Tai to wait for him on the sidelines.

Tai checked his digivice, the time told him that Matt would be here any second. This was all he needed. Matt hated Ken so much he was bound to cause some sort of scene when he arrived and saw him.

Tai started to think of ways of how he could keep Matt away from seeing the teams, he was about to seriously think about one of the ideas when he felt a hand on his shoulder. Tai turned around and sure enough, true to his word, was Matt.

"Hey Tai, what's the score"? He asked with a slight smile on his face. Matt never fully smiled anymore.

"Um………two one to the opposition……" Tai muttered.

"Oh well…you win some…you lose some". Matt replied quietly. Tai gasped as his best friend scanned the pitch for Davis.

Eventually Tai saw Matt's eyes stop and narrow at the sight of a player. Tai held his breath not knowing who Matt was staring at.

"Um…what's so interesting"? Tai asked nervously.

"Oh…nothing" Matt blinked and turned to his friend. "I just made my mind up about something". He offered his half smile. "Look Tai, I gotta take a raincheck on the pizza. I just remembered something I had to do". Without waiting for a reply, Matt disappeared.

Tai silently cursed, Matt must have seen him.