Dearest Remus and Harry,
This letter was charmed so that, for it to be opened, you both had to present. Firstly, I want you both to know that I love you more than anything. Remus, I knew that I would love you the rest of my life from the first moment that I set eyes on you. And, Harry, I've loved you since before you born. You are been the son I didn't, couldn't have.
Because of you both, I survived the war. I had to know that you would make it through all right. As you've shown me time and time again, neither of you have any need of some one to protect you let alone me. What purpose in life did I have if not to protect you? I had to take a close look at myself. I have lived for practically two decades fueled by one thing, a thirst for revenge. The thing that I had been really living for was gone and all that is left is an empty shell of a man with barely the strength to stand on his own. I have no place in either of your lives; I have nothing to give or offer, just a broken middle age man who's only talent is that he can hide.
I could never be the lover you need, Remus, or the family that Harry deserves. Severus is more equipped to be what you need, Moony, and as much as I hate to admit it he loves you almost as much as I do. He is more like me than I would care to admit. As for you Harry, you are now a part of the Weasley family and you have more family now that you could ever want. A father, a mother and even a new baby brother or sister on the way. You'll never lack of love again. They are good solid people who would do anything for you. I'm very glad that you will have people like that around you when I am gone.
This brings me to the point of my letter. This is the last contact that you will ever have from me. I do not deem myself fit for society in general, let alone to be a part of your lives. Don't look for me; you won't be able to find me. I'm going to let nature take its course. I am not committing suicide, if I live, I live and if I die, I die. I doubt I will last the winter though. Remus, I know that you are angry and Harry is going to feel abandoned, but this is truly the best course of action.
Remember that I will always love you,
Sirius
This letter was charmed so that, for it to be opened, you both had to present. Firstly, I want you both to know that I love you more than anything. Remus, I knew that I would love you the rest of my life from the first moment that I set eyes on you. And, Harry, I've loved you since before you born. You are been the son I didn't, couldn't have.
Because of you both, I survived the war. I had to know that you would make it through all right. As you've shown me time and time again, neither of you have any need of some one to protect you let alone me. What purpose in life did I have if not to protect you? I had to take a close look at myself. I have lived for practically two decades fueled by one thing, a thirst for revenge. The thing that I had been really living for was gone and all that is left is an empty shell of a man with barely the strength to stand on his own. I have no place in either of your lives; I have nothing to give or offer, just a broken middle age man who's only talent is that he can hide.
I could never be the lover you need, Remus, or the family that Harry deserves. Severus is more equipped to be what you need, Moony, and as much as I hate to admit it he loves you almost as much as I do. He is more like me than I would care to admit. As for you Harry, you are now a part of the Weasley family and you have more family now that you could ever want. A father, a mother and even a new baby brother or sister on the way. You'll never lack of love again. They are good solid people who would do anything for you. I'm very glad that you will have people like that around you when I am gone.
This brings me to the point of my letter. This is the last contact that you will ever have from me. I do not deem myself fit for society in general, let alone to be a part of your lives. Don't look for me; you won't be able to find me. I'm going to let nature take its course. I am not committing suicide, if I live, I live and if I die, I die. I doubt I will last the winter though. Remus, I know that you are angry and Harry is going to feel abandoned, but this is truly the best course of action.
Remember that I will always love you,
Sirius
