Heero opened his eyes slowly, looking up at the ceiling. Immediately he
became aware of the dull pain in his head. He rubbed his eyes slowly; not
remembering much of last night, except going into the kitchen and drinking.
He must have overdone it, because he had a bad hang over.
Deciding he needed some aspirin for the headache, he rolled over preparing to get out of bed, but stopped startled. He was looking right into Trin's sleeping face. He stared at her, still a little out of it, and then realized with relief that she was sitting on the floor with her arms folded on the bed.
Trin's sleep was troubled. She was constantly haunted by invisible demons she couldn't identify. Suddenly the darkness partially cleared and Shane appeared as if out of nowhere. He walked toward her and she realized with terror she couldn't move. Normally she wasn't afraid of him, but now she was horrified. She tried to move again, but her body wouldn't respond. It wasn't as if she was paralyzed by fear, she just couldn't *move*.
Shane walked toward her, taking his time. As if enjoying the fear he brought to her. As he stepped closer, he placed his hand on her cheek and traced her features gently.
"So beautiful, so delicate. Too bad you have to die" he sneered, now behind her.
Her shoulder was gripped tightly and she was shaken roughly.
Trin's eyes suddenly flew open and Heero drew back his hand. Her eyes were wild; just like the time when he came into her room and she had repeated something about 'the blood' as she thrashed in his grasp.
"Trin.." he began cautiously.
It was Shane; he was in her room. She didn't know how he got into the house. It didn't matter. He was inside. But she'd take care of him. Her hand reached slowly and grasped the first thing that it found. A pillow, but it would do.
The next thing he knew, he was being attacked by a pillow. Poor Heero still dazed tried blocking all the attacks, but his hang over got worse. He attempted to move toward her, but his eyes still didn't focus fully and he unintentionally fell off the bed, taking Trin with him.
Trin blinked, her eyes focusing on Heero's face centimeters away from hers. She realized with astonishment that they were on the floor in his room. His Prussian blue eyes studied her ebony ones.
"Trin.." his voice was cautious, as if ready to act immediately if needed to.
"Yeah?" she answered her voice just above a whisper.
"Are you okay?" Was it just her, or did he seem…*concerned*?
"Are you?"
He seemed confused at her response for a moment. At that time their faces moved even closer, their lips almost brushing.
Then Heero's mind snapped back to reality and he pulled away. Trin as well realized what happened, or rather almost happened, and sat up; blushing slightly.
Heero remained on the floor, except now in a sitting position.
"You didn't answer my question" Trin reminded softly.
He stood up, but she caught his eyes for a second. She saw a flash of anger.
"You should leave" he told her coldly.
She hated to admit it, but she was disappointed. She had almost kissed him and he still wouldn't tell her what was wrong. Whoa, backtrack, her mind screamed. She had almost kissed him? Her brain had trouble processing this. She had almost kissed Heero Yuy? Okay, this was too much. First of all, she didn't like him, she didn't care for him, so why would she kiss him? Second of all, this was Heero, no explanation needed! !
"Trin" she snapped out of her thoughts at the sound of her name "Leave"
She was stung by the words. Again, she mentally slapped herself.
Silently getting up, she walked toward the door and paused in the doorway looking back. Heero glared at her and she left.
As soon as the door closed behind her, Heero dropped onto the bed. 'What am I doing?' he thought, running his hand through his hair. Why had he almost kissed her? It was as if he had no control over his body and he didn't like it one bit. Besides, he didn't care for her, right?
This girl messed him up so much. He couldn't remember the last time he was so confused and lost. What was this feeling he got when he was so close to her? He didn't know. But he had to figure out soon, before he couldn't afford to mess up.
* * *
Trin walked into her room, involuntarily slamming the door. Grabbing some clothes from the closet she walked into the bathroom and after undressing got into the shower. She scowled as the water hit her still hurting skin and adjusted the temperature.
She showered and washed her hair, then after getting dressed stepped back into her room. She grabbed the hairbrush and began brushing her hair slowly.
She hated to admit it, but she was hurt by Heero being so cold to her. But this is how Heero was to everyone, what made her think he would act any different toward her. Well he did tell her about his first mission, she remembered. But he probably only did so because of what happened earlier that night. For all she knew none of it was true anyway. She sighed. It was unbelievable how easily Heero got her upset. That never happened before. She shouldn't care, it's his life and he can do whatever he wants with it, right? So why did it hurt when he basically told her to back off? She was only worried about him, that's all. He was her friend, in a way, she was supposed to care for her friends. 'Aw, who are you fooling?!' a voice inside her head screamed. 'You like him' No, she didn't; she couldn't. He was her friend, her bodyguard, nothing more. Nevertheless she felt something for him that was more than friendship and she knew it, but wouldn't admit it.
Suddenly she remembered the dream she had; where Heero got shot and basically died in her arms. She felt the pain inside again at the memory. She never wanted anything like that to happen to Heero and the fact that he was drinking didn't help ease her troubled mind. She wanted to know what was wrong more than anything. She wanted him to tell her so she could help him; before it was too late.
Then she remembered something else. The day after she had the dream, she couldn't remember much, but she recalled waking up on her bed with everyone around her. Heero then told her that she had went completely out of control when he tried talking to her. Faint memories of that incident surfaced in her mind and she realized almost the same thing had happened again this morning. She had mistaken Heero for Shane just like last time she thought Heero was a dead corpse. What was going on with her head? Was she going crazy? Of course not, she attempted to calm herself, but it didn't do much good. Her hands shook and grasped the hairbrush tighter. So far it had only happened with Heero and she wondered if it would happen again. She prayed it wouldn't. She had hurt Heero the first time, scratching up his arms. He still had marks left and it pained her to see them every day, knowing that she did that to him. She didn't think she hurt him today but she was lucky the only thing that was close to her was a pillow. What if it was something heavier? Deadlier?
No. She wouldn't think like that. She had had a nightmare and when Heero woke her up she was still partially dreaming, that's all. Yes, that's all.
She breathed slowly, trying to calm herself. Then as she lowered her hairbrush she thought she saw something move to her side. Her head snapped in that direction, but she saw nothing. She needed to get out of the room, she realized. Needed to be around other people. Before she really did go insane.
Quickly getting up she walked out of her room briskly and down the hall toward the living room. As she walked in, she felt her body relax at the normalness of the room. Trowa was again reading a newspaper. Wufei seemed to be mediating and she averted her gaze from him, not wanting to get worked up again. In the kitchen Quatre was making breakfast as usual. And Duo and Acire were sitting at the table chatting about something. Duo's arm was around Acire's shoulder and as she watched Acire laughed and pecked him on the cheek. Duo grinned and briefly kissed her on the lips.
Unconsciously Trin's fists tightened. She was jealous and recalling the incident that morning made her even angrier. 'Stop that train of thought Trinity Silverlight!' she yelled at herself mentally. Relationships weren't for her. She was a lone shadow, a soldier inside her waiting to get out. She didn't need any fluff like that.
"Trin, hey!" Acire yelled as she saw her friend standing in the doorway.
Trin looked at her and smiled. Little did Acire know the smile was forced.
"Hi. Morning, you guys" Trin said as she sat down in a chair across from the two.
"Sleep good?" Duo grinned at her and she forced herself to grin back yet again.
"Yeah. I'm sure *you* did" she replied with a wink and both Duo and Acire blushed furiously.
"Hey, um, Duo. Can I talk to you after breakfast?" she added suddenly.
Duo seemed to be confused, but nodded.
"Yeah, sure Trin. No problem"
"Thanks Duo" Trin replied just as Quatre had called to everyone that breakfast was ready. Trowa folded his newspaper and walked toward the kitchen and so did Wufei. Heero walked into the room exactly at that moment and took his place at the table as well.
As they ate Trin tried to look at him as little as possible, but she could feel his icy gaze on her. Everyone as silent as always, except Duo and Acire of course. Suddenly out of nowhere a memory surfaced in her mind; of something that had happened a couple of days ago. It was right after the incident at the mall and she and Heero were in his room. Heero was bandaging a cut on her leg as she noticed a picture on his desk. With a closer look she realized Relena Peacecraft. And when she had asked Heero about it he said he was her bodyguard, but to Trin it seemed as if he wasn't telling her the entire truth. Could this be what was bothering Heero? Could Relena possibly been something more to him than just one of his missions?
Trin finished her meal as fast as she could and then waited impatiently for Duo to finish. He, however, took his time as he chatted between every bite. Just when Trin thought she was going to kill him, he finished and by then so did everyone else. After thanking Quatre, he stood and looked at Trin quizzically.
"Didn't you want to talk to me, Trin?" he asked and she nodded.
"Yeah. Thanks for the breakfast Quatre" she said as she stood up.
"Sure thing" the blond replied cheerily.
As they headed out Acire stood as well, but Trin shook her head.
"Sorry Acire. I kind of wanted to talk to Duo in private" she said apologetically. "But don't worry, I won't steal him away from you" she added with a wink.
"Hey, if you were any other girl I *would* be worried" Acire laughed.
Trin's eyes narrowed.
"And if this was any other time I wouldn't let you get away with that" she told her and grabbing Duo's arm led him out of the room before Acire could think of any other remarks.
* * *
"Okay, so what did you wanna talk to me about?" Duo asked as he flashed her a grin.
He and Trin were sitting on the back steps of the house. It was a warm day and their hair was just slightly moved by the cool breeze.
Trin move around and finally settled with her one leg folded underneath her.
"Duo, could you," she began tensely "could you tell me about, Heero?"
Duo's eyes widened with surprise.
"Heero?" he echoed.
"Yeah" she nodded.
"Trin, I don't mean to be rude, but why are you asking me this?" he asked her and she noticed the usual childish spark was gone from his eyes and replaced by seriousness.
"It's a long story Duo, and I can't really tell you. Let's just say it's a hunch I have" she said trying to be patient. Unfortunately, patience was not her best quality.
Duo shook his head and sighed. She strongly reminded him of Heero.
"Okay" he said after a moment of thought.
Then little by little he told her about how Heero was trained to be the 'perfect soldier' from his early childhood.
The 'perfect soldier'. Trin recalled calling Heero that.
//"You're making fun of me," Trin accused.
Heero turned his back to her as he stuck the coffee cup into the dishwasher. "I'm not."
"You *are*. And since when does the perfect soldier do the dishes?" she asked mockingly.
"Don't call me that," he said.
"Why not?"
"Just... don't."//
It seemed as if the use of that name had struck a nerve for him. She wondered if she had accidentally came across something.
By then Duo was done and watched her intently. He didn't tell her much, but it was enough.
'Maybe I shouldn't be telling her this' he thought heavily.
Realizing that he was done talking, Trin turned to look at him.
"Thanks, Duo" she said quietly "Thanks a lot"
She stood up to leave, but Duo grabbed her wrist.
"Trin, where is all this going?"
"I can't tell you, Duo, I really can't" she said almost apologetically. Almost.
He shook his head again.
"He's more lenient to you than to any of us, but Trin, leave him alone"
She pulled her hand out of his grasp roughly and with a final defiant look walked back into the house.
* * *
Heero stood in a shadow next to a window on the second floor. He watched as Trin talked to Duo. Duo's back was facing him but he could see Trin's face clearly. She seemed to be listening to Duo. Then she got up and Duo caught her arm. Trin glared at him and after a moment went into the house. Heero speculated what they talked about.
* * *
"Idiots" the shadow growled angrily.
"We'll find them soon" Shane replied unnervingly.
"Soon is not good enough!" the person snapped. "We need to find them now or we'll lose the advantage.
A/N: Okay, Okay, this was mostly a "Trin chapter" I know. I hope it wasn't *too* boring though. lol anyway, the next one will be more interesting I promise.
Also, yours truly's birthday is in a week! March 18th ^^ ::BIG GRIN:: I'm gonna be 15!! Presents such as fics, pictures or anything else are welcome *hint* *hint* LOL! You better know I'm kidding! Anyways, I'll try to get the next chapter out by then! Ja!
Luv
~Arion~
Deciding he needed some aspirin for the headache, he rolled over preparing to get out of bed, but stopped startled. He was looking right into Trin's sleeping face. He stared at her, still a little out of it, and then realized with relief that she was sitting on the floor with her arms folded on the bed.
Trin's sleep was troubled. She was constantly haunted by invisible demons she couldn't identify. Suddenly the darkness partially cleared and Shane appeared as if out of nowhere. He walked toward her and she realized with terror she couldn't move. Normally she wasn't afraid of him, but now she was horrified. She tried to move again, but her body wouldn't respond. It wasn't as if she was paralyzed by fear, she just couldn't *move*.
Shane walked toward her, taking his time. As if enjoying the fear he brought to her. As he stepped closer, he placed his hand on her cheek and traced her features gently.
"So beautiful, so delicate. Too bad you have to die" he sneered, now behind her.
Her shoulder was gripped tightly and she was shaken roughly.
Trin's eyes suddenly flew open and Heero drew back his hand. Her eyes were wild; just like the time when he came into her room and she had repeated something about 'the blood' as she thrashed in his grasp.
"Trin.." he began cautiously.
It was Shane; he was in her room. She didn't know how he got into the house. It didn't matter. He was inside. But she'd take care of him. Her hand reached slowly and grasped the first thing that it found. A pillow, but it would do.
The next thing he knew, he was being attacked by a pillow. Poor Heero still dazed tried blocking all the attacks, but his hang over got worse. He attempted to move toward her, but his eyes still didn't focus fully and he unintentionally fell off the bed, taking Trin with him.
Trin blinked, her eyes focusing on Heero's face centimeters away from hers. She realized with astonishment that they were on the floor in his room. His Prussian blue eyes studied her ebony ones.
"Trin.." his voice was cautious, as if ready to act immediately if needed to.
"Yeah?" she answered her voice just above a whisper.
"Are you okay?" Was it just her, or did he seem…*concerned*?
"Are you?"
He seemed confused at her response for a moment. At that time their faces moved even closer, their lips almost brushing.
Then Heero's mind snapped back to reality and he pulled away. Trin as well realized what happened, or rather almost happened, and sat up; blushing slightly.
Heero remained on the floor, except now in a sitting position.
"You didn't answer my question" Trin reminded softly.
He stood up, but she caught his eyes for a second. She saw a flash of anger.
"You should leave" he told her coldly.
She hated to admit it, but she was disappointed. She had almost kissed him and he still wouldn't tell her what was wrong. Whoa, backtrack, her mind screamed. She had almost kissed him? Her brain had trouble processing this. She had almost kissed Heero Yuy? Okay, this was too much. First of all, she didn't like him, she didn't care for him, so why would she kiss him? Second of all, this was Heero, no explanation needed! !
"Trin" she snapped out of her thoughts at the sound of her name "Leave"
She was stung by the words. Again, she mentally slapped herself.
Silently getting up, she walked toward the door and paused in the doorway looking back. Heero glared at her and she left.
As soon as the door closed behind her, Heero dropped onto the bed. 'What am I doing?' he thought, running his hand through his hair. Why had he almost kissed her? It was as if he had no control over his body and he didn't like it one bit. Besides, he didn't care for her, right?
This girl messed him up so much. He couldn't remember the last time he was so confused and lost. What was this feeling he got when he was so close to her? He didn't know. But he had to figure out soon, before he couldn't afford to mess up.
* * *
Trin walked into her room, involuntarily slamming the door. Grabbing some clothes from the closet she walked into the bathroom and after undressing got into the shower. She scowled as the water hit her still hurting skin and adjusted the temperature.
She showered and washed her hair, then after getting dressed stepped back into her room. She grabbed the hairbrush and began brushing her hair slowly.
She hated to admit it, but she was hurt by Heero being so cold to her. But this is how Heero was to everyone, what made her think he would act any different toward her. Well he did tell her about his first mission, she remembered. But he probably only did so because of what happened earlier that night. For all she knew none of it was true anyway. She sighed. It was unbelievable how easily Heero got her upset. That never happened before. She shouldn't care, it's his life and he can do whatever he wants with it, right? So why did it hurt when he basically told her to back off? She was only worried about him, that's all. He was her friend, in a way, she was supposed to care for her friends. 'Aw, who are you fooling?!' a voice inside her head screamed. 'You like him' No, she didn't; she couldn't. He was her friend, her bodyguard, nothing more. Nevertheless she felt something for him that was more than friendship and she knew it, but wouldn't admit it.
Suddenly she remembered the dream she had; where Heero got shot and basically died in her arms. She felt the pain inside again at the memory. She never wanted anything like that to happen to Heero and the fact that he was drinking didn't help ease her troubled mind. She wanted to know what was wrong more than anything. She wanted him to tell her so she could help him; before it was too late.
Then she remembered something else. The day after she had the dream, she couldn't remember much, but she recalled waking up on her bed with everyone around her. Heero then told her that she had went completely out of control when he tried talking to her. Faint memories of that incident surfaced in her mind and she realized almost the same thing had happened again this morning. She had mistaken Heero for Shane just like last time she thought Heero was a dead corpse. What was going on with her head? Was she going crazy? Of course not, she attempted to calm herself, but it didn't do much good. Her hands shook and grasped the hairbrush tighter. So far it had only happened with Heero and she wondered if it would happen again. She prayed it wouldn't. She had hurt Heero the first time, scratching up his arms. He still had marks left and it pained her to see them every day, knowing that she did that to him. She didn't think she hurt him today but she was lucky the only thing that was close to her was a pillow. What if it was something heavier? Deadlier?
No. She wouldn't think like that. She had had a nightmare and when Heero woke her up she was still partially dreaming, that's all. Yes, that's all.
She breathed slowly, trying to calm herself. Then as she lowered her hairbrush she thought she saw something move to her side. Her head snapped in that direction, but she saw nothing. She needed to get out of the room, she realized. Needed to be around other people. Before she really did go insane.
Quickly getting up she walked out of her room briskly and down the hall toward the living room. As she walked in, she felt her body relax at the normalness of the room. Trowa was again reading a newspaper. Wufei seemed to be mediating and she averted her gaze from him, not wanting to get worked up again. In the kitchen Quatre was making breakfast as usual. And Duo and Acire were sitting at the table chatting about something. Duo's arm was around Acire's shoulder and as she watched Acire laughed and pecked him on the cheek. Duo grinned and briefly kissed her on the lips.
Unconsciously Trin's fists tightened. She was jealous and recalling the incident that morning made her even angrier. 'Stop that train of thought Trinity Silverlight!' she yelled at herself mentally. Relationships weren't for her. She was a lone shadow, a soldier inside her waiting to get out. She didn't need any fluff like that.
"Trin, hey!" Acire yelled as she saw her friend standing in the doorway.
Trin looked at her and smiled. Little did Acire know the smile was forced.
"Hi. Morning, you guys" Trin said as she sat down in a chair across from the two.
"Sleep good?" Duo grinned at her and she forced herself to grin back yet again.
"Yeah. I'm sure *you* did" she replied with a wink and both Duo and Acire blushed furiously.
"Hey, um, Duo. Can I talk to you after breakfast?" she added suddenly.
Duo seemed to be confused, but nodded.
"Yeah, sure Trin. No problem"
"Thanks Duo" Trin replied just as Quatre had called to everyone that breakfast was ready. Trowa folded his newspaper and walked toward the kitchen and so did Wufei. Heero walked into the room exactly at that moment and took his place at the table as well.
As they ate Trin tried to look at him as little as possible, but she could feel his icy gaze on her. Everyone as silent as always, except Duo and Acire of course. Suddenly out of nowhere a memory surfaced in her mind; of something that had happened a couple of days ago. It was right after the incident at the mall and she and Heero were in his room. Heero was bandaging a cut on her leg as she noticed a picture on his desk. With a closer look she realized Relena Peacecraft. And when she had asked Heero about it he said he was her bodyguard, but to Trin it seemed as if he wasn't telling her the entire truth. Could this be what was bothering Heero? Could Relena possibly been something more to him than just one of his missions?
Trin finished her meal as fast as she could and then waited impatiently for Duo to finish. He, however, took his time as he chatted between every bite. Just when Trin thought she was going to kill him, he finished and by then so did everyone else. After thanking Quatre, he stood and looked at Trin quizzically.
"Didn't you want to talk to me, Trin?" he asked and she nodded.
"Yeah. Thanks for the breakfast Quatre" she said as she stood up.
"Sure thing" the blond replied cheerily.
As they headed out Acire stood as well, but Trin shook her head.
"Sorry Acire. I kind of wanted to talk to Duo in private" she said apologetically. "But don't worry, I won't steal him away from you" she added with a wink.
"Hey, if you were any other girl I *would* be worried" Acire laughed.
Trin's eyes narrowed.
"And if this was any other time I wouldn't let you get away with that" she told her and grabbing Duo's arm led him out of the room before Acire could think of any other remarks.
* * *
"Okay, so what did you wanna talk to me about?" Duo asked as he flashed her a grin.
He and Trin were sitting on the back steps of the house. It was a warm day and their hair was just slightly moved by the cool breeze.
Trin move around and finally settled with her one leg folded underneath her.
"Duo, could you," she began tensely "could you tell me about, Heero?"
Duo's eyes widened with surprise.
"Heero?" he echoed.
"Yeah" she nodded.
"Trin, I don't mean to be rude, but why are you asking me this?" he asked her and she noticed the usual childish spark was gone from his eyes and replaced by seriousness.
"It's a long story Duo, and I can't really tell you. Let's just say it's a hunch I have" she said trying to be patient. Unfortunately, patience was not her best quality.
Duo shook his head and sighed. She strongly reminded him of Heero.
"Okay" he said after a moment of thought.
Then little by little he told her about how Heero was trained to be the 'perfect soldier' from his early childhood.
The 'perfect soldier'. Trin recalled calling Heero that.
//"You're making fun of me," Trin accused.
Heero turned his back to her as he stuck the coffee cup into the dishwasher. "I'm not."
"You *are*. And since when does the perfect soldier do the dishes?" she asked mockingly.
"Don't call me that," he said.
"Why not?"
"Just... don't."//
It seemed as if the use of that name had struck a nerve for him. She wondered if she had accidentally came across something.
By then Duo was done and watched her intently. He didn't tell her much, but it was enough.
'Maybe I shouldn't be telling her this' he thought heavily.
Realizing that he was done talking, Trin turned to look at him.
"Thanks, Duo" she said quietly "Thanks a lot"
She stood up to leave, but Duo grabbed her wrist.
"Trin, where is all this going?"
"I can't tell you, Duo, I really can't" she said almost apologetically. Almost.
He shook his head again.
"He's more lenient to you than to any of us, but Trin, leave him alone"
She pulled her hand out of his grasp roughly and with a final defiant look walked back into the house.
* * *
Heero stood in a shadow next to a window on the second floor. He watched as Trin talked to Duo. Duo's back was facing him but he could see Trin's face clearly. She seemed to be listening to Duo. Then she got up and Duo caught her arm. Trin glared at him and after a moment went into the house. Heero speculated what they talked about.
* * *
"Idiots" the shadow growled angrily.
"We'll find them soon" Shane replied unnervingly.
"Soon is not good enough!" the person snapped. "We need to find them now or we'll lose the advantage.
A/N: Okay, Okay, this was mostly a "Trin chapter" I know. I hope it wasn't *too* boring though. lol anyway, the next one will be more interesting I promise.
Also, yours truly's birthday is in a week! March 18th ^^ ::BIG GRIN:: I'm gonna be 15!! Presents such as fics, pictures or anything else are welcome *hint* *hint* LOL! You better know I'm kidding! Anyways, I'll try to get the next chapter out by then! Ja!
Luv
~Arion~
