*Notes*
-I do not own x-men evolution or it's characters in any way, shape or form
-This is my own personal fanfic, please don't re-post it as your own---thx
-I'm attempting to bring in some previous episode plots in the next few entries that way I can catch up to the new Day of Reckoning episode by this weekend. I mentioned before that I wanted to stay kind of close to the show plots but also have this spin-off into what I'd like to happen. Here's hoping it comes together smoothly…
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5/8-Wednesday
Dear Diary,
Lance and I had the most awesome conversation last night! It started off with the whole goody-goody x-dorks tirade but this time I was prepared with my guns a-blazing. I had to remind him that he too, at one time, became a member of this team-AND that he left the Brotherhood just like Rogue did so he shouldn't feel so betrayed by her. Of course he came back with the it- was-only-to-be-close-to-you argument, which made me blush something fierce and almost derailed me from my point, but I stuck to my guns. Though he had a comeback explanation for every single point I brought up, I did my best—but I did notice that I seemed to be the deciding factor for every one of his reasons…
When he initially came to the Institute, it was to be close to me. When he showed off during the Danger Room training session, it was to impress me. When he saved me instead of Rogue in the water training session, it was to be able to touch me. When he blew off the Brotherhood while they confronted him about becoming an X-Man, it was to show me he was genuine.
Then I found out that at first when everyone blamed him for the X-vehicle mishaps, the only reason he stayed was because of me! Because I believed in him.
I never realized how much influence I had without even trying!
We ended up talking about how sad he felt when everyone automatically believed he was to blame for the X-jet incident. It bothered me too, especially when I was trying to stick-up for him and explain the truth and no one would listen. He said he was use to it from years of uncaring foster homes. It made me so incredibly sad to listen to him describe all the horrors he experienced throughout his life. Then he told me one of the reasons why he left the Institute.
It was for me. Because he didn't want to see me go thru the ridicule on a daily basis.
He tried to forget me; he tried to make me mad at him because he knew he was no good for me where it concerned the others at the house. But he simply couldn't forget me. He couldn't stop thinking about me, couldn't stop thinking about the kiss I gave him and how for the first time in his life, someone truly believed in him.
Then he told me he came to the Institute not only to be close to me, but also to prove to himself that he was really worth something. That he was better than the way he's always been treated. He also wanted to prove his worth to the rest of the X-Men, and to Professor X. He said, "Kitty, I joined the X-Men mainly for you, but a small part of me wanted to be accepted by Scott and the rest of them. All my life I've been beat down and told I was worthless. Told I wasn't ever loved and I'd never be a part of any family. You guys at the Institute are so close, like a family. I wanted to belong to that, to be accepted into your world—a world I've never known. A world of positive encouragement, of friends who understand, a world of love—something Mystique never gave before she abandoned us. The Institute was going to be the home I always dreamed of. I thought the others would be able to accept me despite the past after I proved myself to them but I was sadly mistaken. You were the only one who gave me a chance. You saw something in me the others would never see."
I almost cried when he said that to me. And it's so true.
That night he left; I walked the grounds for hours thinking about it. I remember sitting down in the rose garden and this wave of utter sadness came over me. I remember wondering why no one except maybe the Professor wanted to give Lance a chance. They had all jumped the gun so quickly, without even thinking that it could be the new recruits who had caused all the trouble. It was on that night I realized that Lance was the way that he was because of people like Scott. I became determined never to be like that.
Of course Lance and I bicker sometimes, but there's no real animosity behind it. I know deep inside that he's looking out for me, no matter how much he infuriates me!
I also found out he's not really mad at Rogue because of betrayal to the Brotherhood, but because she's here in the place he wanted to be. That's reassuring!
We also teased each other about the 2 kisses we've had so far…. both on the cheek mind you. He wanted to know what the one kiss I gave him meant the day he left the Institute because of all the crap. I told him it was just a friendly good-bye kiss and I flirtatiously giggled. I asked him about the kiss he gave me this past Saturday after the movie and he laughed saying that he was just being a gentleman. I sorta spilled that I would have liked more before turning totally red and telling him to forget I had just said that. We both cracked up and he said, "Who knows."
It really was one of the best talks I've had with him. Well Diary, it's dinner time and early to bed for me. Lance and I stayed up on the phone till after 2am last night! I need to catch up on my sleep. Sweet dreams for me!
~Kitty~
-I do not own x-men evolution or it's characters in any way, shape or form
-This is my own personal fanfic, please don't re-post it as your own---thx
-I'm attempting to bring in some previous episode plots in the next few entries that way I can catch up to the new Day of Reckoning episode by this weekend. I mentioned before that I wanted to stay kind of close to the show plots but also have this spin-off into what I'd like to happen. Here's hoping it comes together smoothly…
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5/8-Wednesday
Dear Diary,
Lance and I had the most awesome conversation last night! It started off with the whole goody-goody x-dorks tirade but this time I was prepared with my guns a-blazing. I had to remind him that he too, at one time, became a member of this team-AND that he left the Brotherhood just like Rogue did so he shouldn't feel so betrayed by her. Of course he came back with the it- was-only-to-be-close-to-you argument, which made me blush something fierce and almost derailed me from my point, but I stuck to my guns. Though he had a comeback explanation for every single point I brought up, I did my best—but I did notice that I seemed to be the deciding factor for every one of his reasons…
When he initially came to the Institute, it was to be close to me. When he showed off during the Danger Room training session, it was to impress me. When he saved me instead of Rogue in the water training session, it was to be able to touch me. When he blew off the Brotherhood while they confronted him about becoming an X-Man, it was to show me he was genuine.
Then I found out that at first when everyone blamed him for the X-vehicle mishaps, the only reason he stayed was because of me! Because I believed in him.
I never realized how much influence I had without even trying!
We ended up talking about how sad he felt when everyone automatically believed he was to blame for the X-jet incident. It bothered me too, especially when I was trying to stick-up for him and explain the truth and no one would listen. He said he was use to it from years of uncaring foster homes. It made me so incredibly sad to listen to him describe all the horrors he experienced throughout his life. Then he told me one of the reasons why he left the Institute.
It was for me. Because he didn't want to see me go thru the ridicule on a daily basis.
He tried to forget me; he tried to make me mad at him because he knew he was no good for me where it concerned the others at the house. But he simply couldn't forget me. He couldn't stop thinking about me, couldn't stop thinking about the kiss I gave him and how for the first time in his life, someone truly believed in him.
Then he told me he came to the Institute not only to be close to me, but also to prove to himself that he was really worth something. That he was better than the way he's always been treated. He also wanted to prove his worth to the rest of the X-Men, and to Professor X. He said, "Kitty, I joined the X-Men mainly for you, but a small part of me wanted to be accepted by Scott and the rest of them. All my life I've been beat down and told I was worthless. Told I wasn't ever loved and I'd never be a part of any family. You guys at the Institute are so close, like a family. I wanted to belong to that, to be accepted into your world—a world I've never known. A world of positive encouragement, of friends who understand, a world of love—something Mystique never gave before she abandoned us. The Institute was going to be the home I always dreamed of. I thought the others would be able to accept me despite the past after I proved myself to them but I was sadly mistaken. You were the only one who gave me a chance. You saw something in me the others would never see."
I almost cried when he said that to me. And it's so true.
That night he left; I walked the grounds for hours thinking about it. I remember sitting down in the rose garden and this wave of utter sadness came over me. I remember wondering why no one except maybe the Professor wanted to give Lance a chance. They had all jumped the gun so quickly, without even thinking that it could be the new recruits who had caused all the trouble. It was on that night I realized that Lance was the way that he was because of people like Scott. I became determined never to be like that.
Of course Lance and I bicker sometimes, but there's no real animosity behind it. I know deep inside that he's looking out for me, no matter how much he infuriates me!
I also found out he's not really mad at Rogue because of betrayal to the Brotherhood, but because she's here in the place he wanted to be. That's reassuring!
We also teased each other about the 2 kisses we've had so far…. both on the cheek mind you. He wanted to know what the one kiss I gave him meant the day he left the Institute because of all the crap. I told him it was just a friendly good-bye kiss and I flirtatiously giggled. I asked him about the kiss he gave me this past Saturday after the movie and he laughed saying that he was just being a gentleman. I sorta spilled that I would have liked more before turning totally red and telling him to forget I had just said that. We both cracked up and he said, "Who knows."
It really was one of the best talks I've had with him. Well Diary, it's dinner time and early to bed for me. Lance and I stayed up on the phone till after 2am last night! I need to catch up on my sleep. Sweet dreams for me!
~Kitty~
