Disclaimer: I don't own DBZ, if I did, Vegeta and Pan would be together by now...oh and I don't get any money for this *cries*

AN: Well then...I must say that this isn't the best I can do, but it'll have to do before you guys start harassing me...once again it's fairly short, but there's still more to come. I'm determined to finish more of my stories! lol!! At least I finished one, YGM...anyways..I'll stop babbling...wala!

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It's amazing what love can do to a person, it can be the thing that keeps you alive and driven, or the thing that leads you to your death…sometimes both. Sometimes, it hurts so much that your torn, you want to die but you want to live. I am in that grey position. We've only been at it for three weeks and already I was drained of emotional and physical strength. I wanted out, but I wanted in. I couldn't even properly explain to myself what I was feeling.

My hands were cold and clammy and I felt sick. We'd slept together three times and I was already feeling guilty and to make things worse, here I was at CC for some reason or rather. Not that three was a very little amount of times you could sleep with someone (especially someone who was married)…anyway I think we were here because it was someone's birthday. I sat in a corner by myself, I didn't really want to talk to anyone at the moment.

"Hey." I jumped as I heard the voice behind me.

"Oh hey." I said nervously.

"You seem jumpy." He stated.

"Yeah well it's been a tough lately." I replied sighing.

"Looks like it." He noted my condition.

I laughed nervously. Could he tell?

"Want to share?" He asked as he grabbed a chair and sat next to me.

"Not really…Sorry." I replied.

"Well…can I tell you about mine at least?" He asked.

"Sure…I guess if it helps."

He gave a deep sigh before continuing.

"I've been feeling so lonely lately…I have Marron, I have you, I have Goten and I have mum, yes even my dad, but lately it just feels like something's been missing. I can't put my finger on it, it's just this hollow feeling. I have a vague idea of what it might be."

"You have no idea how many times in my whole life that I've felt that way." Like now…

He smiled, thanking me silently that I understood.

"Anyway…so, I'm thinking of breaking up with Marron." Trunks said hesitantly.

"What? Why?" I said shocked, didn't he have any idea of the extent of her love for him?

"I think I'm in love with…someone else."

"But…Trunks, Marron loves you so much!" I had no idea why I was pleading with him.

Something deep inside stirred, I always had a freaky sixth sense about these things. I had this feeling…that that someone else was I. He looked at me oddly.

"Sorry…it just seems so sudden…I mean…don't you want to think this over?" I asked desperately.

"I've been thinking it over my whole life." His blue eyes looked so sure and confident of everything.

I looked at him sadly, I really didn't want to break his heart. I had no idea why I thought he was talking about me, I might've been totally wrong, but something told me that I was right. What scared me most was that look in his eyes, that it would take nothing to stop him from getting to her., whoever she was. That…if it was me…he would be able to save me from this feeling I felt for his father. I didn't want to be saved. Breaking my train of thought, I smiled slightly and turned my attention to Trunks.

"Okay…well…just don't hurt her. You've broken too many hearts in my lifetime Trunks Briefs." I told him sternly.

He gave a nervous smile before he left. I shook my head slowly. I couldn't tell anyone about anything. I couldn't shout to the world whom I loved. I loved Vegeta so much it hurt, I didn't know if he could see what he was doing to me. I wished he did, I just couldn't bring myself to end it, but I didn't want him to end it. I felt so confused at that moment.

I looked up sensing eyes upon me. Onyx met onyx eyes and we locked gazes for what seemed like eternity. I knew exactly what was going to happen next. His eyes flickered towards the doorway just as I had expected and a few seconds later he left through that door and a minute later, I would be walking through it as well.

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I lay there still and silent. I could feel my soul sinking deeper and deeper into the hole I was digging myself. It was getting harder and harder to climb out of the situation and soon enough, I knew I would be in too deep. I didn't know better…I couldn't save myself. I could feel my young naïve-ness come into play now, I felt as if there was a chance that he could love me and that this wasn't all sex…that maybe he was still within my grasp. I would find out as soon as I could, I had to give myself that at least.

I sat up slowly and swung my legs over the bedside. I looked back at Vegeta, he was half-asleep, but then again no saiyan is ever fully asleep…we always have to be alert, it's in our instincts. I sat thinking for a while. Thinking about Trunks and how determined he looked, now I felt terrified. Father battling son when I only wanted the father. I shook my head as I got up and got dressed, pushing those thoughts into the dark, unearthed depths of my mind...

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Meiyume