I sat in the corner of the empty room, so dark, so quiet. I heaved a
quiet sigh, something that quite amazes me. Was this a real sigh or am I
pretending again like I did in front of Hokuto and you? Taking out my
packet of Mild Seven, I took out a cigarette and lighted it. It was weird
how I, a dark onmyouji, would use something like this as a weapon. I shook
my head and smiled. At least I know that you wanted to hunt me, wanted to
kill me. After all, I was the one who killed your sister. Your beloved twin
sister.
How long has it been? 8 years, or is it 9? Time certainly has pass quickly. Yet, I have yet to kill you, Subaru. Hokuto was merely a mirror, your substitute. But what I wanted was…you.
I still remember, that day after all these years when we met again. You were older and more mature, but your face was filled with coldness, yet your heart felt likewise. Your heart was just like what it used to be; caring and kind. You just don't change with your age do you? I guess so, for you are still using attacks that will never hurt me at all.
I know how I will end, in fact, I know when I will end and in who's hands I will end in. Tonight will be the last night I'll be spending, on this very Earth that's going to be destroyed sooner or later by "Kamui". Am I going to be sad to see your saddened face when I die? I don't know, and my wish has yet to be fulfilled yet.
I saw you being hurt on the Sunshine Tower that night, yet I didn't help you. I was too late, I guess. Would you accept this as an apology? I doubt so. One of your wishes was finally granted, wasn't it? Now, are you happy with it?
Today, I will finally die in your hands. I saw you approaching the bridge from afar. I had just returned from killing someone, and you did not notice me there. With a lit cigarette in your hand, you stood there. I gently crept up to you and help your hand with my right hand, the hand that was not stained red with blood. You seemed surprised, but you were caring, too caring to note that the ash may burn my hand. You said I had changed you, but you never did change, never.
When I took the cigarette away from you, you were angry, weren't you? I, the Sakurazukamori, has killed yet another person. You attack me but lost to me, and created your kekkai. We had a few more blows, before I finally kneeled down in front of you, your hand pierced through my heart. You seemed shocked, and blood splattered on your face.
You held me in your arms, asking me why was it possible. Irony, isn't it? There I was, telling you how I had killed you sister and how she defended herself. My surrounding were getting fuzzy, and the air felt so cold, even with your warmth. I could feel your tears, your warm tears, falling silently onto me. You say you wanted to erase me from your memory but you just couldn't forget me.
I'll be frank with you, Subaru, I don't even understand myself sometimes. Had I really loved you then, I think I did, but that would have hurt both of us even more. I am a Dragon of the Earth after all, and you, a Seal of the Heaven, how are we possibly to be able to be together?
I really knew you wouldn't be able to kill anyone even if you said you wanted to, which is shy Hokuto left you with this spell cast on me. I can't really breathe as I got closer to you, wanting to tell you what I really felt towards you. I…you…I guess the wind did it again, causing you not to hear me for the last time. Good-bye Subaru, good-bye my one and only…
How long has it been? 8 years, or is it 9? Time certainly has pass quickly. Yet, I have yet to kill you, Subaru. Hokuto was merely a mirror, your substitute. But what I wanted was…you.
I still remember, that day after all these years when we met again. You were older and more mature, but your face was filled with coldness, yet your heart felt likewise. Your heart was just like what it used to be; caring and kind. You just don't change with your age do you? I guess so, for you are still using attacks that will never hurt me at all.
I know how I will end, in fact, I know when I will end and in who's hands I will end in. Tonight will be the last night I'll be spending, on this very Earth that's going to be destroyed sooner or later by "Kamui". Am I going to be sad to see your saddened face when I die? I don't know, and my wish has yet to be fulfilled yet.
I saw you being hurt on the Sunshine Tower that night, yet I didn't help you. I was too late, I guess. Would you accept this as an apology? I doubt so. One of your wishes was finally granted, wasn't it? Now, are you happy with it?
Today, I will finally die in your hands. I saw you approaching the bridge from afar. I had just returned from killing someone, and you did not notice me there. With a lit cigarette in your hand, you stood there. I gently crept up to you and help your hand with my right hand, the hand that was not stained red with blood. You seemed surprised, but you were caring, too caring to note that the ash may burn my hand. You said I had changed you, but you never did change, never.
When I took the cigarette away from you, you were angry, weren't you? I, the Sakurazukamori, has killed yet another person. You attack me but lost to me, and created your kekkai. We had a few more blows, before I finally kneeled down in front of you, your hand pierced through my heart. You seemed shocked, and blood splattered on your face.
You held me in your arms, asking me why was it possible. Irony, isn't it? There I was, telling you how I had killed you sister and how she defended herself. My surrounding were getting fuzzy, and the air felt so cold, even with your warmth. I could feel your tears, your warm tears, falling silently onto me. You say you wanted to erase me from your memory but you just couldn't forget me.
I'll be frank with you, Subaru, I don't even understand myself sometimes. Had I really loved you then, I think I did, but that would have hurt both of us even more. I am a Dragon of the Earth after all, and you, a Seal of the Heaven, how are we possibly to be able to be together?
I really knew you wouldn't be able to kill anyone even if you said you wanted to, which is shy Hokuto left you with this spell cast on me. I can't really breathe as I got closer to you, wanting to tell you what I really felt towards you. I…you…I guess the wind did it again, causing you not to hear me for the last time. Good-bye Subaru, good-bye my one and only…
