Title: Summer Rain Part 10/?
Author: Emily
Rating: PG 13, same as show.
Disclaimer: Property of Joss and Marti
Spoilers: Set in the summer after 'The Gift'. Maybe 'Bargaining' and some early season six. Buffy's still dead though.
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Notes: Help! I'm not too sure where to go with this,
should I bring Buffy back or not? Let me know what you
think after reading these two parts. Oh and hell yes,
I'm a B/A 'shipper, darn proud :)
Distribution: Lil' Nibblin, LNABB, ff.net anywhere else just
ask.
Part 10
It couldn't mean anything else right? Osiris couldn't
be the Egyptian god of resurrection and also puppies?
They *could* be doing a spell with puppies. Man, what
am I talking about, what else could it possibly mean?
Wait, I should be *happy*. Ecstatic. Not wigging out
like this. I mean, we all miss Buffy. 'Miss' doesn't
begin to cover it. Her being gone is killing us.
Willow cries when she thinks nobody can see. Giles
hasn't been the same since. I've seen Anya holding
Xander when he quits being all macho and guy like, and
just needs to cry.
And me? I've cried more times than I can count. I've
lain awake at night wishing, that she would be here
again. Thinking back to that night and thinking how I
could have stopped her. I don't *think* I could have.
But I'll never know.
I fantasised about her coming back a million times,
but I…I don't think it's right. Not like this. When I
tried to bring Mom back, Tara told me that it was
wrong, that we didn't have the right to mess with life
and death. And we don't. I didn't then and I don't
think Willow does now.
I'd have thought Tara would have tried to stop her.
Maybe Willow persuaded her. Anya should know that this
is insane and wrong and against everything natural
though. And Xander, maybe Xander would have wanted
this. He used to love her. I know he loves Anya now,
that's easy to see, but a part of him will always
belong to her. When she was gone, he fell apart.
Angel didn't come for the funeral. I don't think he
*could* come. She was the love of his entire
existence. She never got over him as much as she tried
with Riley. Perhaps coming to watch her being put in
the ground was just too much. He's gonna live
*forever* and… she didn't.
It wasn't even a proper funeral. We didn't tell
anyone, just buried her out in the woods. But he knew.
Willow went to see him and he just *knew* what it was
before she said a word. If everything wasn't so heart
shattering and terrible that might even be romantic.
Cordelia and Wesley came to Sunnydale though. Cordy
muttered some apologies about how Angel couldn't make
it. Later on she cried. I had never thought that
Cordelia had even liked Buffy. But she cried for her.
Ruined her mascara and perfect makeup. Maybe they
weren't friends and maybe they spent High School with
claws out at each other but Cordy knew Buffy and I
think she respected her for what she did. I guess
Buffy coming here and Cordelia finding out about
vampires and *helping* shook up her world more than a
little.
We couldn't tell Riley. Nobody knew where he was, and
besides he *had* left. I suppose he did love her but
if you really love someone wouldn't you want to stay
with them no matter what? You wouldn't run away. It
seems like that's what he did.
I know Angel left her too but that's different, things
were so complicated and he was all noble and thought
it was *better* for them. That she could have a normal
life that way. After the intensity of what they had
had I didn't see how anything could be normal for her
ever again. If only he had known how Buffy had cried
afterwards. She spent another summer moping over him.
I got so sick of it, honestly, I told her just to go
and find him. She loved him, he loved her, wasn't it
that simple? Buffy just looked sad and shook her head.
I used to have a crush on Angel too.
But Riley, I think in the end it was better that he
went - she didn't love him and even if he had stayed I
don't think she would ever have.
Tara and Anya didn't know Buffy all that well. Not
like Willow and Xander did. They were her friends
though. That's what counts. And it's tragic and unfair
that she's gone but they're moving on, dealing with it
somehow. They should be. I think we all have to.
I think wherever she is, it's *good*. She was a good
person. It makes sense she would go to a good place…
I want her back too though. I know this is wrong and
screws with the order of life but…I miss her. I miss
her so much.
Author: Emily
Rating: PG 13, same as show.
Disclaimer: Property of Joss and Marti
Spoilers: Set in the summer after 'The Gift'. Maybe 'Bargaining' and some early season six. Buffy's still dead though.
Feedback: Where's the love, people?! Feedback is always good. pipergal33@y...
Notes: Help! I'm not too sure where to go with this,
should I bring Buffy back or not? Let me know what you
think after reading these two parts. Oh and hell yes,
I'm a B/A 'shipper, darn proud :)
Distribution: Lil' Nibblin, LNABB, ff.net anywhere else just
ask.
Part 10
It couldn't mean anything else right? Osiris couldn't
be the Egyptian god of resurrection and also puppies?
They *could* be doing a spell with puppies. Man, what
am I talking about, what else could it possibly mean?
Wait, I should be *happy*. Ecstatic. Not wigging out
like this. I mean, we all miss Buffy. 'Miss' doesn't
begin to cover it. Her being gone is killing us.
Willow cries when she thinks nobody can see. Giles
hasn't been the same since. I've seen Anya holding
Xander when he quits being all macho and guy like, and
just needs to cry.
And me? I've cried more times than I can count. I've
lain awake at night wishing, that she would be here
again. Thinking back to that night and thinking how I
could have stopped her. I don't *think* I could have.
But I'll never know.
I fantasised about her coming back a million times,
but I…I don't think it's right. Not like this. When I
tried to bring Mom back, Tara told me that it was
wrong, that we didn't have the right to mess with life
and death. And we don't. I didn't then and I don't
think Willow does now.
I'd have thought Tara would have tried to stop her.
Maybe Willow persuaded her. Anya should know that this
is insane and wrong and against everything natural
though. And Xander, maybe Xander would have wanted
this. He used to love her. I know he loves Anya now,
that's easy to see, but a part of him will always
belong to her. When she was gone, he fell apart.
Angel didn't come for the funeral. I don't think he
*could* come. She was the love of his entire
existence. She never got over him as much as she tried
with Riley. Perhaps coming to watch her being put in
the ground was just too much. He's gonna live
*forever* and… she didn't.
It wasn't even a proper funeral. We didn't tell
anyone, just buried her out in the woods. But he knew.
Willow went to see him and he just *knew* what it was
before she said a word. If everything wasn't so heart
shattering and terrible that might even be romantic.
Cordelia and Wesley came to Sunnydale though. Cordy
muttered some apologies about how Angel couldn't make
it. Later on she cried. I had never thought that
Cordelia had even liked Buffy. But she cried for her.
Ruined her mascara and perfect makeup. Maybe they
weren't friends and maybe they spent High School with
claws out at each other but Cordy knew Buffy and I
think she respected her for what she did. I guess
Buffy coming here and Cordelia finding out about
vampires and *helping* shook up her world more than a
little.
We couldn't tell Riley. Nobody knew where he was, and
besides he *had* left. I suppose he did love her but
if you really love someone wouldn't you want to stay
with them no matter what? You wouldn't run away. It
seems like that's what he did.
I know Angel left her too but that's different, things
were so complicated and he was all noble and thought
it was *better* for them. That she could have a normal
life that way. After the intensity of what they had
had I didn't see how anything could be normal for her
ever again. If only he had known how Buffy had cried
afterwards. She spent another summer moping over him.
I got so sick of it, honestly, I told her just to go
and find him. She loved him, he loved her, wasn't it
that simple? Buffy just looked sad and shook her head.
I used to have a crush on Angel too.
But Riley, I think in the end it was better that he
went - she didn't love him and even if he had stayed I
don't think she would ever have.
Tara and Anya didn't know Buffy all that well. Not
like Willow and Xander did. They were her friends
though. That's what counts. And it's tragic and unfair
that she's gone but they're moving on, dealing with it
somehow. They should be. I think we all have to.
I think wherever she is, it's *good*. She was a good
person. It makes sense she would go to a good place…
I want her back too though. I know this is wrong and
screws with the order of life but…I miss her. I miss
her so much.
