Blast to the Past

Chapter Seven: Dreaming of Nightmares

By Kitty Malfoy (KM)

KM: Hey Everyone! Guess what?! I've got a new story for all of you! It is entirely H.P. based. Just a note: I used the name and description of the main character on Sailor Moon. Don't hurt me, but she is not used as a SM char in this story. I just like the name, and I think the description fits the name perfectly. NO NASTY REVIEWS ABOUT THIS!!

P.S. Peter Pettigrew is not in here because I don't want him in mah story. He'll stink it all up with his foul stench! Icky-Icky-ICKY!!! He's so…so…so…DIRTY!

Please read on…….



Oh, and there's a new character in this chapter, inspired by my friend Sharmalade!! Thank you!

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"I'm so sorry, but I can't---"

"Yes you can!"

"You don't understand…………I'm not even supposed to be here!"

"You don't know that!"

"And neither do you!"

"……………I love you Serenity---"

"Please don't do this, Sirius!"

"So I'm going to ask again…"

"Get up NOW!"

"Will you---"

"STOP!"

"---marry me?"

A single crystalline tear slid down her cheek.

"I. Can't." She said evenly.

"This is right, love. Why are you rejecting it?"

She stood up and placed a loving hand on his cheek and whispered quietly.

"I'm a sinking ship, Siri. And I love you too much to drag you down with me. Please-just move on…."

"NO!"

Another tear leaked out and followed the first leaving a salty tear down her pale cheeks. He stood up swiftly and cupped her face in his warm hands.

"I. Will. Not. Leave. You!"

Serenity pulled his hands away and stepped back.

"Then you DO NOT love me…" She whispered, and ran out of the hall.



~*~

Serenity sat bolt upright - clutching her sheets to her chest. She was dripping with swear and could feel her heart pounding.

"Ugh-it's been the same dream - no, nightmare - since school started, and I haven't had a decent night's sleep since!"

Serenity slipped out of bed, and stumbled into the bathroom. Dunking her face in cold water she dabbed her face with a dry towel and drew herself a bath. Sliding in she grabbed a kick-board and lazily paddled back and forth.

( Her thoughts ** The annoying little voice everyone hears **)

I am so glad McGonagall let me keep this room after I stopped teaching. These dreams are terrible…..

** Who says they're dreams? **

What are you talking about, Pip? Of course they're just dreams….what else would they be?

** Visions? **

Yeah right! Sirius and I just have a casual relationship

** Yeah, a casual relationship FOR A YEAR AND A HALF?! **

Still, he wouldn't just ask me so soon……would he?

** He's your boyfriend, not mine. **

Thanks for your help.

** If he asked you to marry him today - would you say 'yes'? **

Of course……I think. Well…..I…..I don't know. I just…..I just don't know when I'm going to go back to my own time, and I don't want to hurt him.

** You're a little to far involved to back out now, don't you think? **

…………..

** Do you really want to go back to your own time? **

Of course! It's my home!

** What is there for you back there? An abusive father, and an entire school terrified of you. **

It's……It's never been a problem before…..

**……and Sirius being 40 years your senior and your teacher? **

But he'll remember me won't he? I mean…..I'm changing the future by changing the past, aren't I?

** I don't know……..you need to figure this one out on your own. **

She quickly finished bathing and walked back into her room. Preoccupied, she pulled on a pair of old jeans and an 'Old Navy' sweatshirt.

The common room was empty when she got there so she decided to just head down, seeing as how her friends were probably already there.

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Deep in thought she weaved absently in between tables, heading towards a shock of bright red hair that betrayed Lily's presence. Sitting down she began shoveling food into her mouth, not even bothering to acknowledge her friends.

"Comfortable?" Sirius asked in a sarcastic, muffled voice, through her hair.

"Yes, very." She mumbled. She blinked her eyes in surprise and her head swiveled around.

"You're on my lap, love." Sirius teased, and gave her a kiss, "Mmm, Apple…."

Serenity shared a look with Lily, and grinned absently. "Yeah, it's my favorite flavor……"

He stole another kiss. "Mine too!"

Serenity became increasingly uncomfortable - as if at any moment he'd fall to his knees and propose to her in the middle of the Great Hall. Shoving her plate roughly to the side she slid off his lap, and leapt up.

"Uh…I have to go….." She said. Rolling off an excuse she turned and fled out of the Hall.

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Flopping down onto her bed she stared up at the canopy top. Her mind was filled with conflicting thoughts and emotions, and endless mental debates and arguments that left her psychologically exhausted. Rolling onto her side she fell into a fitful sleep.

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BANG!

"James, dear, what was that?!"

"I don't know, hun."

James stood up and poked his head out the door. He slammed it immediately, and took a steadying breath.

"They're here."

Lily gasped and picked up a wrapped bundle. "Come on, James. We have to get out of here."

"No, Lily! I'll hold them off. You and Harry need to run."

The bundle in Lily's arms wriggled, and a small head poked out, and began to cry. It was like its father in every way, save for the emerald green eyes of its mother.

"I won't go without you, James!"

"You have to. Harry needs to live and grow up!…..I love you."

He seized her face in his hands and kissed her swiftly - but passionately.

Lily turned and fled, glancing back only once. The bright flash of green light brought tears to her eyes, and she stumbled blindly through the house.

A long scaly hand reached out and threw her to the ground.

"Give me the boy!"

Lily was sobbing.

Puh-puh-please…..no!"

"Just move aside, girl! I came for the boy."

"No! Not Harry. Please not Harry - kill me instead!"

Lily pushed the wailing bundle behind her, and gave the man a defiant glare.

Serenity watched over the man's shoulder; no-Voldemort's shoulder.

She saw his wand raise before Lily did, and tried to shout out a warning. She raced forward as Lily pulled her wand up in defense. But it would not save her. A flash of green light filled the small room, and when it was gone Lily Potter lay dead on the floor, and Serenity knew what she had to do.

She had to protect Harry.

Closer….

Closer….

She was running in slow-mo.

Closer….

Closer….

[Avada Kedavra]

Serenity was racing against time - and a deadly curse….

Almost there…..

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BAM!

"AHHHH!"

Serenity struggled inside her tangles of sheets screaming out in terror and frustration. Her hair was stringy and in tangles and her body was covered in perspiration.

"DAMN! DAMN! DAMN! DAMN! DAMN!"

She screamed and pounded her fists against the floor. Several pairs of hands grabbed her and struggled to pull her to her feet. She screamed again and fought against her restraints.

"LET ME GO, DAMNIT! I HAVE TO HELP THEM - HAVE TO SAVE THEM! THEY'RE DYING…….LET ME GO!"

"Serenity…….Serenity……..SERENITY!"

"CALM DOWN!"

"It's us…..you're friends. Ren, please!"

Two fingers slid down her neck and pressed suddenly. Serenity felt her entire body go immobile, and fall stiffly to the ground. She stared up fearfully into worried blue-gray eyes, and managed to stutter, "Remus?"

"Yeah, I'm sorry I had to use pressure points on you, but you almost broke my nose, and I think you scratched Sirius."

"What are you doing here?"

"We heard your screaming-you were having a nightmare." Sirius supplied.

"No I wasn't! It was real. Lily…..a…and James…..they-they need my help!"

"Help with what?"

Serenity looked up in surprise, as a head of shocking red hair peeked up over Sirius' shoulder.

"L..Lily?" She stuttered. "You're alive!?"

Lily looked at her strangely, and whispered something in Remus' ear who reluctantly nodded in agreement. She turned back to the paralyzed girl.

"Uh…Sere? We think, maybe, we should take you to Madame Pomfrey's….."

"Why?"

Lily looked away ashamed, and Sirius absently placed a kiss on her forehead.

"Answer me!" Serenity peered at their faces in the darkness of her room. "You think I've lost it……you think I've lost my marbles. No…."

"No!" She said with more force, "I AM NOT CRAZY!

She barely heard Remus apologizing as a thick liquid poured down her throat and she fell into a blissful, dreamless sleep.



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Sirius stared at his girlfriend's unmoving state, his hand stroking hers that clutched the bed sheets.

"Are you sure we did the right thing? I mean we did sort of jump to conclusions….." He asked quietly.

"Sirius, she thought Lily and I were dead……" James said slowly.

"She was half asleep; she didn't know what she was saying!"

"I think by screaming her head off she woke herself up bloody well, as long as the rest of us!"



James rather loud comment had roused Serenity out of sleep, and she groggily thought back on previous events.

My own friends think I'm crazy.

She clutched the bed sheets tighter and her eyes snapped open with a growl.

"Serenity you're---"

"Get away from me….." She said in a deathly calm voice. Her face was neutral and serene which meant she was furious. Her friends backed away nervously-all except for Sirius.

"Ren--"

"Don't call me that."

"--I'm so sorry, I--"

"It's too late for that! Sorry won't cut it anymore!"

"But--"

"Just leave me alone." They didn't move. "GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME!"

Picking up the glass of water from beside her bed she chucked it at their retreating backs with a scream.

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The next day Sirius was beside her bed when she woke. He started to speak, but she pulled the hospital curtain around her bed and placed a Charm on it; falling back asleep.

When she awoke again Sirius had fallen asleep. Making sure that Poppy was in her office, she became invisible and slipped out of the Infirmary.

Choosing her steps carefully she dodged past several students, on their way outside, and slid into the Library. Moving into the Charms section she reappeared and pulled some books off the self, and moved quickly into the Dark Arts section. Sliding her finger along the books she stopped, and pulled out 'The Unforgivable Curses.'

Shoving it into her bag with the other books she turned invisible and raced back up to the Infirmary.

Opening the door quietly she tiptoed in and closed it softly behind her-becoming visible again.

"What are you doing?" Remus asked quietly

Serenity whirled around to find herself face to face with Sirius and the others.

"What? Is it now illegal to take a walk in this school? I must have missed the memo."

"You shouldn't be walking---" Lily began.

"Yeah, you're right. I shouldn't be walking around in such a 'weak mental state', " She spat acidly, "Afraid I'm gonna jump some poor first year in a back hallway?"

She pushed roughly past them and set her bag down beside her bed. James came up behind her. "Serenity…..you're not well…."

Serenity whirled around. James was cut off as her wand was pressing against his throat. Leaning in close she whispered in his ear, "Maybe I should just kill you now…..save Voldemort the trouble."

Backing away she pointed her wand at the group. "Maybe I should just hex all of you now……but no, then you'd be stuck in here with me." Walking closer, her voice lowered slightly. "Don't forget--I came from the future……I know what befalls all of you. And I swear on my mother's grave, James and Lily will die."

With a flick of her wand the entire group went flying backwards and out of the Infirmary door, which shut with a BANG!

Her face turned sour and she settled down on her bed and began to read.

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"She's been holed up there for the past three days…."Sharlee said quietly.

"Yeah, you're the only one she'll see, Sis." Sirius said dejectedly.

"Don't feel so bad, Siri. It's only 'cuz I wasn't there when you brought her to Madame Pomfrey's because she was 'crazy'."

Sharlee Black was Sirius' younger sister in Sixth Year. She had curly black hair that hung just around her shoulders, and frightening ice blue eyes.

Sirius just continued to stare into the fire, sipping a Butterbeer. Lily placed a comforting hand on his shoulder, and James and Remus tried to get him involved in a Quidditch debate, but it was to no avail.

Serenity's 'temporary loss of sanity' had cut him worse than most. She felt betrayed and angry and now refused to even see him much less talk things out.

Remus' calm and quiet voice broke through the tense silence. "Maybe she's Seer." They looked at him in surprise. "Maybe she's been having visions...maybe more than Lily and James dying."

He clasped his hands in his lap, and became silent. The others in the dreary common room were lost in thought, pondering their friend's wise words.

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Serenity was at that very same moment thinking about her dream/vision. It was a scene from her past and their future. Marking her place in 'Charms to Protect From the Dark Arts' and set it down on her bedside table. She just had to find a way to stop Voldemort from killing Lily and James, and to protect little Harry Potter.

Voices murmuring outside the door brought her cruelly back to reality. She recognized her friends' voices and started to draw the curtains around her, but a warm hand stopped her.

Icy blue eyes stared her down.

"Hey, Shar."

"Hey….you still in here?!"

"Poppy says my nightmares are just stress…." She said with a sardonic laugh. Sharlee shifted uncomfortably.

"I know you're just here to make sure I'm not crazy. The others, waiting outside, don't want a rapid witch to attack them…." She said bitterly.

"It's not that-----AH!"

Serenity had started to twitch, and mumble. Soon she was convulsing spastically and her bed began to rock and creak.

"SIRIUS!" Sharlee called desperately.

Her brother raced into the room, followed closely by the others. "What the hell?"

"She just started twitching! It was so sudden."

Sirius grabbed her hand in his and held it tightly while stroking her cold face. Suddenly his hand was wrenched away by an unseen force, and a faint black glow appeared around Serenity's body. Her eyes rolled into the back of her head and her body lifted off the bed.

Her feet dangled a foot above her bed, and her friends' looked up at her in terror. White light filled her eyes and mouth and exploded from her fingertips and toes. Before they could even think to call for Madame Pomfrey, a large black ball appeared in Serenity's hands and a scene began to play within the swirling mists inside.

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A hooded figure floated through a tangled and tortured forest drawn by an unseen force. The female figure passed by thousands of yellow unblinking eyes belonging to the horrible creatures that dwelled in this hell, but they did not faze her.

Suddenly she was in a clearing in the center of a circle of hooded figures. A man appeared in front of her-his entire essence radiating evil.

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"Voldemort!" Sirius hissed.

"Shh…..look" Lily hissed, and Sirius turned back to the scene in the ball.

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Voldemort raised his hand, and the figure's hood flew back revealing a long mane of familiar golden hair. It was Serenity. Serenity did nothing as Voldemort walked, slowly closer. Her eyes were glazed and her body was rigid. Her mouth moved slowly, forming two words.

"I do. I do. I do.---"

"This is your child, Lucius?" Voldemort asked in a silky voice.

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"Lucius MALFOY?!" Sharlee exclaimed with a shriek.

"He graduated two years ago. Slytherin. Good riddance!" James supplied.

"Aren't you guys even listening?" Lily asked exasperated. "He just implied that Serenity was Malfoy's daughter!"

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Lucius Malfoy stepped forward and slid back his hood. His pale blond hair turned silver in the moonlight. He kneeled in front of Voldemort and touched his forehead to the ground.

"Yes, Master."

"Hmm, Yet another Malfoy offspring. I trust she is better than your last child…?"

"Yes, Dark Lord. Much better than Draco. He was a fool."

"Quite--but she seems not quite sane."

Lucius' eyes darted back and forth, and you could tell he was thinking fast.

"She is ill, Lord Voldemort-but almost recovered!"

"Good….this one has much power. She has The Gift. Look at me child."

She tipped her head upwards and stared into the space in front of him, unblinking.

"I do. I do. I do.---"

A long tapering finger trailed down her cheek and onto her shoulder. It moved slowly down her arm and he stopped at her wrist; drawing a small design.

~*~

What they witnessed next was terrifying and would remain with them all their life.

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A huge puff of black smoke poured out from within Voldemort's hood. It twisted around to form the Dark Mark. Serenity's mouth opened up and the smoke was sucked out of Voldemort's hood and into her mouth. A black light appeared around her hand and when it faded a glowing Dark Mark was visible, emblazoned on her wrist.

~*~

The scene dissolved inside the ball and the ball disappeared in a puff of smoke.

Serenity's floating body drifted lazily back down and she dropped in a crumpled heap atop her bed.

"Serenity a Death Eater?! No way!" James exclaimed.

"Do you think it was a vision?" Remus asked. Sirius turned and looked at him solemnly. "Yes, I do."

Sharlee interrupted. "I do…….. that's what she was repeating over and over. What do you think it means?"

"I don't know…."Lily said carefully, but broke off. "Oh god, Sere!"

Serenity was rolled up in a ball, hugging her knees to her chest. Tears streamed down her cheeks. And she was biting down on her lip to keep from crying out.

Sirius moved forward to pull her into his arms, but she cried out. "I'M NOT A DEATH EATER!"

"We know, love. We know….." He whispered. Remus came around as well and stood next to Sirius.

"It's ok…..now we know what you're going through, and about your family---"

"NO YOU DON'T! You have no idea what my life was like! Do you want to know what it was like in my time? My father beat and tortured me! Filled my head with Dark Arts and Curses. The kids at school knew my father, and were terrified of me! No one wanted to be alone in a hallway with me! My only friend was my brother, Draco, and he was always away helping Dumbledore."

They stared at her in shock, but Serenity continued before they could interrupt. She needed to get this all out.

"What kills me now is that I know that in the future we're not friends. Lily and James are dead, I don't even know Sharlee, and Sirius and Remus are 30 years older than me, and worse yet you are my professors!"

Sirius was dumbfounded. How could there be a world where he did not love Serenity. It was an impossibility.

"Did you know that when you found me on the stairs last year, I hated you all so much! I told Headmaster Granger that I was going home for the holidays but missed the train. I was going to use a Portkey. What she and you didn't know was that I had altered it to bring above the stairs. It was a suicide attempt! I WANTED TO KILL MYSELF!"

Her voice became soft and quiet. "I knew that my father was going to make me a Death Eater, just like he tried with my brother. So, I did what I felt was the only answer. I ran……like a coward. And Fate cursed me. She forced me to live and brought me here……"



There was a long silence. "Serenity---"

"Please don't, Sirius……I need to be alone right now."

"No, you need me here with you now." The others retreated quietly, and Sirius sat down next to her bed. With his hand clutched in hers. Serenity fell into a numbing sleep.

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Pweze!!! Love y'all.

Kitty Malfoy

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