The memory burns.. Why this memory among so many. Most of them bad. The
stuff that nightmares are made of.
I am cursed with my memory, it is almost photographic, I remember nearly everything that ever happened to me. Good and bad all mixed up in my mind.
The bad ready to emerge whenever I relax my guard, whenever I fall asleep. I am so used to the nightmares, I can't remember a time when I didn't have them. They are part of me. You take on Seamus Harper you take on his bad dreams. The screams in the night. The bedding drenched with sweat every morning.
I have one memory though that is my safety valve, when things get too bad even for me I bring it out of it's hiding place deep in my mind. With its power I can stop the bad memories from doing their worst. I only use it sparingly though, only during the truly dreadful dreams. It's such a simple thing to have so much effect.
What do I remember? I remember a tall red headed woman. I remember the time she smiled at me and I felt that I belonged somewhere, that smile made me feel that I had a family again, people who cared about me.
I think I fell in love with her at that moment. Of course I'll never tell her. I'll flirt with Rommie and Trance but it's her that I love.
I am cursed with my memory, it is almost photographic, I remember nearly everything that ever happened to me. Good and bad all mixed up in my mind.
The bad ready to emerge whenever I relax my guard, whenever I fall asleep. I am so used to the nightmares, I can't remember a time when I didn't have them. They are part of me. You take on Seamus Harper you take on his bad dreams. The screams in the night. The bedding drenched with sweat every morning.
I have one memory though that is my safety valve, when things get too bad even for me I bring it out of it's hiding place deep in my mind. With its power I can stop the bad memories from doing their worst. I only use it sparingly though, only during the truly dreadful dreams. It's such a simple thing to have so much effect.
What do I remember? I remember a tall red headed woman. I remember the time she smiled at me and I felt that I belonged somewhere, that smile made me feel that I had a family again, people who cared about me.
I think I fell in love with her at that moment. Of course I'll never tell her. I'll flirt with Rommie and Trance but it's her that I love.
