AN: Yay! Chapter 10! I think I have it narrowed down to about 12 more songs till the end of the story… maybe 11. ^_^ If you also read Avant Garden, I've been working on chapter 5 like crazy and it's almost done, so be patient. ^_^
-Rhyein/Aozame
Disclaimer: I don't down Cowboy Bebop or "Seeing Things" which is by Black Crowes. Don't sue, or I'll sic my muses on you.
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I find it hard to shed a tear
You brought it all on yourself my dear
Wrong, yes I may be
Don't leave a light on for me
'Cause I ain't comin' home
It hurts me baby to be alone
Yes, it hurts me baby
*
I sat, staring at the old television screen, watching the same part of the video over and over again. That statue; I know it. It's been bothering me. I sighed. I wonder where Spike went to? He's been… well… sleeping in here lately, but tonight he kind of disappeared. I'm not sure why. I stretched a bit and turned my head.
"AHH!" I yelped; Ed was sitting right next to me, staring blankly at the television. "How long have you been sitting there!?"
"…Water sploosh…" was all she said to me.
"You know this?" I asked, motioning to the image on the screen.
"I know. I don't know," she said in a melancholy tone of voice. "I don't know that I think I know. I don't think I know that I know…"
Ed fell over, asleep. She'd been sleepwalking. DAMMIT ED!
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A hundred years will never ease
Hearing things I won't believe
I saw it with my own two eyes
All the pain that I can't hide
And this pain starts in my heart
And this love tears us apart
You won't find me bent down on my knees
Ain't bendin' over backwards baby
Not to please
*
Okay, so maybe I feel a LITTLE bad about tying her to the roof of the Red Tail… but where else was I going to put her?
"Ed? Listen, if you take me to the 'water-sploosh' place, I'll give you something really good," I said into the com-unit. Ed's voice crackled back at me, sounding excited.
"Good thing? What!?"
I haven't a fucking clue… but it'll get her to show me, won't it?
"Something very, tremendously, wonderfully good," I replied. God, I'm such a liar. Why do I keep making promises like that? I'm surprised this kid doesn't hate me for all the promises I break. That place though… I want to- no, NEED to know about it. She wouldn't tell me if I didn't promise her something, would she?
"Something very, tremendously, wonderfully good!" she cried happily over the com.
I still can't believe I actually tied her to the roof.
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'Cause I'm seeing things for the first time
I'm seeing things for the first time, oh yeah
I'm seeing things for the first time
In my life, in my life
*
We flew over a few craters, she said it was in this direction.
I wonder what Spike and Jett will think when they wake up? Jett'll probably be pissed that I touched the ship… that and the fact that we'll probably lose our bounty now. I don't care, I need to know. I need to remember. Spike told me the past doesn't matter. What does he know? He at least HAS a past! I want to find mine, then I'll decide if it matters or not.
"Over there! Down, down!" Ed's voice said. I sighed and maneuvered the Red Tail, looking down at a giant junk heap. Dammit.
We landed not so softly, and I untied her from the roof. Ed ran through the piles of junk and I picked carefully through, glancing around. There was a small town on the edge of the heap, and then the ocean. It would have been a beautiful view, if it weren't for the junk piles and the craters.
I waited as Ed dug through the trash. She pulled something out and waved it in the air.
"This, this!" she laughed, showing me a watering can. I sighed. This had been a giant waste of time… Time to go back and get my ass chewed out by Jett.
"I found Ed!" Came a small voice behind me.
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I used to dream
Of better days that never came
Sorry ain't nothin' to me
I'm gone and that's the way it must be
So please I've done my time
Lovin' you is such a crime
You won't find me down on, on my knees
Won't find me over backwards baby
Just to please
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The nun set a plate of food down in front of me as I dried my hair. Man, she didn't have to spray me with the hose.
"I'm sorry about that," she said. "It's the only way to get the kids to listen. I hadn't meant to hit you." She smiled warmly at me and continued setting the other places. I couldn't help but smile back.
"It's alright… Is Ed from this place?"
"She wandered in here about five years ago. Pretty soon she was eating meals with us and acting as if she'd been here all the time. Then, three years ago, she wandered back out again. I was wondering how she was doing." The nun finished setting the table and stood upright. "Time to eat!" she called.
Suddenly the table was covered in children. Blech. Too many children. Ed was with them. They said a rather… well… sacrilegious prayer and then dug into their food. I sat watching them, wondering what I was doing. Spike and Jett probably thought we left them and are in Earth's atmosphere as we speak… No, Spike wouldn't let Jett leave without me… would he? He knows I love him. I'm pretty sure he loves me too… I think. Damn that man!
We should leave. If Ed wants to stay here she can. I'm going to find my past.
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'Cause I'm seeing things for the first time
I'm seeing things for the first time
Seeing things for the first time
Oh I'm seeing things for the first time
Yeah, seeing things for the first time
I'm seeing things for the first time
Yeah, I'm seeing things for the first time
In my life, in my life
