A/N: All the songs aren't mine, on the first chapter it's Alannis Moresette, and on this page it's Beatles.


Woke up, fell out of bed,
Dragged a comb across my head


Images flashing around me, it's a dark street. I can smell the trash scattered on the ground. The trees are moving back and forth creating a warped light effect. Something is behind me. I feel my wand, I feel it in my hand. It is cold and strong. It is powerful.

Avada Kedavra. The words are echoing around me- did I say them? Yes- no the person behind me did. No it could not be, it can't be, no, no-
I wake up breathing hard. Luckily I didn't scream this time, last time Mum and Dad hadn't been happy. I can never please them.

We were talking-about the love that's gone so cold and the people,
Who gain the world and lose their soul-

I walk into the prefect's bathroom, red towel on my arm. The dÈcor had been
changed again. The tub was tiled in gold, black, and silver. The walls were a
neutral purple. Hideous.

The tub water sinks around me. No perfumes, no bubbles. Just water. I sigh, and close my eyes. Maybe if I keep them closed long enough it will all go away. I'll sink down to the bottom and no one will ever care or ever know. Maybe I'll come back like Moaning Mertle, Not a happy thought.

my eyes are open. I turn my head, near slamming it on the perfect
tile. It's just Ginny.

Oh hi, Gin.

What are you doing here? I should ask her the same, she's not even a prefect, but I donít want to seem hostile.
Couldn't sleep- worried about Christmas finales, school excuses they work like a charm.

Ginny smiles and says smiling, Hermione, itís only September.

She comes over to where I am, Can I ask you something?

She says it so quietly. Why?

Hermione, you know how I've always been with Harry. I- I , he is worried though, and I never thought of it, but I just Im worried-too now, that you- you.... She trails off. I know what she's saying. Harry had taken interest in her.

I don't like Harry that way, I promise.

That's- that is so great! Are you sure? Because if you- you know- DID, then I would stay far away. Now would be the time to ask her why she's here. Oh well. Does it matter?

Ginny leaves on clouds of bliss about Harry. I stay in the giant pool/tub.

They'll be a cute couple.

Do you need anybody,
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love

I'm not jealous of Harry or Ginny, or anyone else. I'm dead inside. Dead. There is nothing that can pull me out. No one. I can do my schoolwork and later on get a job.

A great job. Thats what everyone wants. To get a great job and grow up.

Oh joy.

I won't be able to do it. I might make it through this year, but it will be the last if something doesn't change. Nothing will.

I get up and dry off and pretend I'm fine. It's four in the morning and I'm fine.My new motto. I smile ironically.

What was Ginny doing up at four in the morning?

I climb back into bed and wait for the morning sun to peek through the windows of my dorm. The windows are small, like a prison. I belong here.