Hi. If you don't like this fic, its fine by me. I just had fun writing it.
Oh and by the way, this fic has LOTS of songs, just to let you know. It's
just a way to 'express' the feeling and mood. Enjoy anyway!
Confusion in Life.
Chapter Four
Good Enough?
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"Whoo! This place is AWSOME!"
I finally let Jordan in my house. (Well actually, its Taiki's and Yaten's also.)
I guess I was pretty neat. Most of the decorating and furnishing was by Yaten and Taiki. There were very expensive paintings and drawing up on the wall, even painted on the wall. There was soft music flowing through the house, and the floor was dark, polished wood. The couches were black, red, and white, and there were small solid decorative lamps hanging low from the ceiling. Same thing with the kitchen table, and dining room. I personally thought everything was cozy. I saw the fireplace on, so I thought Taiki or Yaten was home somewhere. It was a pretty big house too. Now I was really tired, but I decided to show Jordan around.
As soon as we were done, I let her use my shower. Actually, I WANTED her to use my shower. She was too dirty and smells like shit. I plopped on my bed when she was using the shower. I closed my eyes, but not sleeping. I let the fan above me gently blow my face with air.
My room, compared to the rest of the house, was completely different. It was the messiest thing there was. I personally think it was worse than odango's room. But it wasn't messy like there was leftover food on the desk, or unclean clothes on the floor. I had my books-yes…books- lying all around my bed, some of them opened. I would always read a few chapters before bed, and after that, I just throw them over my bed and sleep without changing my clothes. There were also things from earth. Lots of things. Especially pictures. They were pictures of me with the senshi, Yaten, Taiki, the cast, chibi chibi. Even pictures and posters when we were three lights back then. But most of all, Odango. I made the pictures stand out especially the ones with her. I could stare and think and stare and think for hours….for days…for weeks. God, I'm sick. But do I care? I don't know….
Also, I had my guitar standing beside my bed. I would once in a while strum a few sounds and songs, but I had really lost my touch in making good lyrics these days. I think too much. I'm worse than Taiki. Still, I like playing it. It just brings back memories.
As I had my eyes closed, I heard Jordan singing in the shower. She just loves singing, but I can't blame her, I like singing too. Sometimes I sing in the shower too, but not THAT loud…
I listened closer. IS it another one of those Sarah-whatever songs? It sounded warm though. I could hear clearly through the door…
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Hey your glass is empty
It's a hell of a long way home
Why don't you let me take you?
It's no good to go alone
I would never have opened up
But you seem so real to me
And after all this bullshit I've heard
It's refreshing not to see
I don't have to pretend
She doesn't expect it from me
So don't tell me I
Haven't been good to you
Don't tell me I haven't been there for you
Just tell me why
Nothing is good enough….
Hey little girl would you like some candy
Your momma said it's ok
It's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
And threw you to the ground
Who's there that makes you so afraid
You're shaken to the bone
You know I don't understand
You deserve much more than this
So don't tell me why
He's never been good to you
Don't tell me why
He's never been there for you
And I'll tell you it's simply not good enough
Just let me try
And I will be good to you
Just let me try
And I will be there for you
I'll show you why
You're so much more than good enough….
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Why did it remind me of that…day? That day…
"Am I not good enough?"
The song was exactly….EXCACTLY what I was thinking about…how did Jordan know and like these kind songs. She is very mysterious.
Yes…It was that day…when I became confused….why? Was I good enough? Was I not? Was I just a little *thing* that just interferes with everybody's life's? No… I kept thinking. I was…trying….trying to help. Help? Really? What else?
"YO SEIYA!" I sat up. "Can you hand me clothes? I don't care if they're boy kinds."
I got up, and looked through the drawers. Sticking my arm in with the clothes without looking, she took them, and closed the door. "Thanks!"
She soon came out in my big dark shirt and khaki baggy pants.
"I like it, it's comfy!" She giggled. I rolled my eyes. "Ohh I'm TIRED!" She flopped on my bed without asking. "Oh…comfy! It has a nice scent too!"
I sighed. Letting her do whatever she wants, I went out of the room to look for Taiki and Yaten to tell them that I have a 'visitor'.
"Hey wait! I want to come!" She flung herself on me. I almost collapsed. She's taller than me for Kami's sake! Tall as Taiki, maybe taller.
"Hey kid, do you have any siblings? I wanna meet em!" I nodded, and continued walking. She is older and stuff, but she acts so much like a *child*. I think she's worse than odango and Minako.
I found out both of them were home. They were in the backyard. I peeked out. Jordan tried to see but I shoved her away in the face. "HEY!" She pouted.
"Uh…Taiki? Yaten?" I called softly to them. They turned around.
"Hey Seiya. What are you doing?" Yaten Asked.
"Er…I brought someone…you wanna meet her?" I asked kinda shyly. Jordan giggled.
They had a puzzled look on their faces. I stepped aside and sweat dropped when Jordan jumped out and said, "HIYA HI!!" To my horror, she ran up to them, hugging to death.
They looked so shocked, it was so funny. I laughed for the first time in a very long time.
Confusion in Life.
Chapter Four
Good Enough?
____________________________________________________
"Whoo! This place is AWSOME!"
I finally let Jordan in my house. (Well actually, its Taiki's and Yaten's also.)
I guess I was pretty neat. Most of the decorating and furnishing was by Yaten and Taiki. There were very expensive paintings and drawing up on the wall, even painted on the wall. There was soft music flowing through the house, and the floor was dark, polished wood. The couches were black, red, and white, and there were small solid decorative lamps hanging low from the ceiling. Same thing with the kitchen table, and dining room. I personally thought everything was cozy. I saw the fireplace on, so I thought Taiki or Yaten was home somewhere. It was a pretty big house too. Now I was really tired, but I decided to show Jordan around.
As soon as we were done, I let her use my shower. Actually, I WANTED her to use my shower. She was too dirty and smells like shit. I plopped on my bed when she was using the shower. I closed my eyes, but not sleeping. I let the fan above me gently blow my face with air.
My room, compared to the rest of the house, was completely different. It was the messiest thing there was. I personally think it was worse than odango's room. But it wasn't messy like there was leftover food on the desk, or unclean clothes on the floor. I had my books-yes…books- lying all around my bed, some of them opened. I would always read a few chapters before bed, and after that, I just throw them over my bed and sleep without changing my clothes. There were also things from earth. Lots of things. Especially pictures. They were pictures of me with the senshi, Yaten, Taiki, the cast, chibi chibi. Even pictures and posters when we were three lights back then. But most of all, Odango. I made the pictures stand out especially the ones with her. I could stare and think and stare and think for hours….for days…for weeks. God, I'm sick. But do I care? I don't know….
Also, I had my guitar standing beside my bed. I would once in a while strum a few sounds and songs, but I had really lost my touch in making good lyrics these days. I think too much. I'm worse than Taiki. Still, I like playing it. It just brings back memories.
As I had my eyes closed, I heard Jordan singing in the shower. She just loves singing, but I can't blame her, I like singing too. Sometimes I sing in the shower too, but not THAT loud…
I listened closer. IS it another one of those Sarah-whatever songs? It sounded warm though. I could hear clearly through the door…
_____________________________________
Hey your glass is empty
It's a hell of a long way home
Why don't you let me take you?
It's no good to go alone
I would never have opened up
But you seem so real to me
And after all this bullshit I've heard
It's refreshing not to see
I don't have to pretend
She doesn't expect it from me
So don't tell me I
Haven't been good to you
Don't tell me I haven't been there for you
Just tell me why
Nothing is good enough….
Hey little girl would you like some candy
Your momma said it's ok
It's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
And threw you to the ground
Who's there that makes you so afraid
You're shaken to the bone
You know I don't understand
You deserve much more than this
So don't tell me why
He's never been good to you
Don't tell me why
He's never been there for you
And I'll tell you it's simply not good enough
Just let me try
And I will be good to you
Just let me try
And I will be there for you
I'll show you why
You're so much more than good enough….
_____________________________________________________
Why did it remind me of that…day? That day…
"Am I not good enough?"
The song was exactly….EXCACTLY what I was thinking about…how did Jordan know and like these kind songs. She is very mysterious.
Yes…It was that day…when I became confused….why? Was I good enough? Was I not? Was I just a little *thing* that just interferes with everybody's life's? No… I kept thinking. I was…trying….trying to help. Help? Really? What else?
"YO SEIYA!" I sat up. "Can you hand me clothes? I don't care if they're boy kinds."
I got up, and looked through the drawers. Sticking my arm in with the clothes without looking, she took them, and closed the door. "Thanks!"
She soon came out in my big dark shirt and khaki baggy pants.
"I like it, it's comfy!" She giggled. I rolled my eyes. "Ohh I'm TIRED!" She flopped on my bed without asking. "Oh…comfy! It has a nice scent too!"
I sighed. Letting her do whatever she wants, I went out of the room to look for Taiki and Yaten to tell them that I have a 'visitor'.
"Hey wait! I want to come!" She flung herself on me. I almost collapsed. She's taller than me for Kami's sake! Tall as Taiki, maybe taller.
"Hey kid, do you have any siblings? I wanna meet em!" I nodded, and continued walking. She is older and stuff, but she acts so much like a *child*. I think she's worse than odango and Minako.
I found out both of them were home. They were in the backyard. I peeked out. Jordan tried to see but I shoved her away in the face. "HEY!" She pouted.
"Uh…Taiki? Yaten?" I called softly to them. They turned around.
"Hey Seiya. What are you doing?" Yaten Asked.
"Er…I brought someone…you wanna meet her?" I asked kinda shyly. Jordan giggled.
They had a puzzled look on their faces. I stepped aside and sweat dropped when Jordan jumped out and said, "HIYA HI!!" To my horror, she ran up to them, hugging to death.
They looked so shocked, it was so funny. I laughed for the first time in a very long time.
