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Chapter 2: Dinner Rendezvous

--Dorm 302-C, Blizzarius' room--

The clock read 1830 hours. Blizzarius slowly woke up and found that dusk had settled in. He got up and put his shoes on and decided to head towards the cafeteria. When he got out of his room, he found Squall in the dining room sitting down studying for something. He must be studying for the test coming up, Blizzarius thought. He didn't need to study for this. He was taught a lot about magic in the Galbadia Military Academy.

Squall heard the door to the other room open and quickly turned his head and saw Blizzarius slowly walking out. He positioned his baby blue spheres towards Blizzarius' turquoise blue eyes. They stared at each other for a split second then the green turned and headed for the door. Squall instantly felt the need to say something and said, "Where... are you... going?"

Out of impulse, Blizzarius coldly replied, "Nowhere..." he then opened the door and left, slamming the door behind him.

Squall was now convinced that Blizzarius had a very cold heart. Even colder than his own. Much colder. Squall tried to think of a good explanation as to why his new roommate acts this way. Unfortunately, Squall found no explanation for it. Did he really expect to know why Blizzarius acts this way when he couldn't find out why he's like this himself? No, of course not. But it was only human nature.

Blizzarius continued his way into the hallways and tried to find the cafeteria. A blank expression was planted on his face and from the looks of it, the expression doesn't look like it was going to budge soon. Shiva didn't like the way he had acted towards Squall just now and decided to talk to him.

~Blizzarius?~

**Oh... yes?** Blizzarius responded in his mind. He was already getting the hand of talking from within.

~Why... why did you act that way?~

**W... what... do you... mean?**

~Towards Squall. That was cold and ignorant.~

**......** Blizzarius remained silent within. He knew what he did, and he knew that Squall didn't deserve that, either. So, what was his reason for doing such a thing? Nothing. Blizzarius couldn't find a valid reason, or any reason for that matter. **I'm... sorry... Shiva...**

~No... no need, Blizzarius. I understand why you'd just act upon that. But if it's anyone you'd like to apologize to, please do it to Squall. It might not seem like it, but he was probably hurt.~

**I... guess... so...**

~Please, Blizzarius.... do not be afraid...~

**Shiva... I...** Blizzarius began to feel his heart tingle. He felt bad for doing such a thing. to Squall but at the same time, he felt thankful. No one had been there for Blizzarius like this. **Thank you... Shiva... so much...**

~It is my duty, Blizzarius...~

Blizzarius finally arrived at the cafeteria. He quickly ordered some pasta fetuccini with alfredo sauce and a bowl of chicken noodle soup. He looked around for an empty table and quickly sat on it.

--Dorm 302-C, dining room--

After that incident with Blizzarius, Squall hasn't been able to study for the upcoming test. Why did the green head do that to him? Squall had never thought it'd bother him this much. For some reason, he needed to find out. But one question still lingered in his mind. Would Blizzarius really tell him why? This lead him to more questions. Will Blizzarius tell Squall the truth? Will Blizzarius talk at all? Would he heave a reason for doing such a thing?

#Squall, you're thinkin' with your head again.#

**Huh?** Squall almost didn't realize that Quezacotl just spoke to him.

#Look, Squall... I don't wanna get sappy for anythin' like that, but it's time you explored things outside your normal limits.#

**Huh? What do you mean?**

#It's time you started thinking with your heart, not your head.#

**Think... with... my heart?** Squall wondered.

#Do what you really want to do, not what your rational thoughts tell you to do.# Quezacotl couldn't be anymore clearer than this.

**Umm...** Squall was still confused.

#Do you really want to see Blizzarius? Or are you just going to ignore the fact that you were hurt since it's nothing new to you and you've been hurt too many times? Squall, I don't think I need to make it more clear for you.#

**Quezacotl... I...**

#Hey! What did I just tell you? Think with your heart, not with your head!#

**Quezacotl... what if I-- **

The thunder bird GF interrupted the mortal. #You'll never know until you try. Now, are you gonna see him or not? Squall, I don't want you to regret any of it later.#

In a sudden jolt of realization, Squall shut his books and headed out the door. He then began to think where Blizzarius could be right at this moment. Then, he thought of the two nearest places around. The parking lot, and the cafeteria. Why would Blizzarius be at the parking lot, though? As far as Squall knew, Blizzarius doesn't drive. Then he figured that most of the students who weren't in their dorms would be at the cafeteria, the majority of them considering the time of day it is now. Squall then made his way over there to look for Blizzarius.

--Cafeteria, a few moments later--

Blizzarius slowly sipped the soup. He felt the warm feeling that went down his stomach and took comfort in it. With this feeling, he's ready for bed. It didn't take him long to finish this soup and as soon as he did, he closed his eyes for a minute to clear his mind.

Squall had arrived at the cafeteria shortly and decided to get a little something to snack on. After grabbing a small sandwich, he took a quick look around to find Blizzarius. Without a moment's notice, Squall found the green head on a table at the corner sitting by himself. Squall found this as no surprise. This is what Squall would do as well. He then made his way over to the new student to sit with him.

Blizzarius kept his spheres shut as he tried to relax. He really enjoyed his dinner tonight, which is something that happens once in a blue moon. Squall finally arrived without Blizzarius noticing so he decided to talk to him.

"Umm..." Squall began. "Is it... okay... if I sit here...?"

Blizzarius was a bit thrown off-guard. He, once again, heard that familiar monotone voice. He then responded. "Sure..." He answered in a soft, normal tone this time, slowly opening his turquoise blue spheres.

**Wow... he sounds... wonderful... like that...** Squall thought to himself as he sat across from him.

**Hmm... I wonder why he's here...** Blizzarius thought. The person he didn't expect to suddenly show up just did right in front of him.

Both of them were stuck without words. They had a few things to say, but their mouths didn't allow the two of them to say anything. Instanteneously, they had just decided to speak.

"Squall, I-- " "Blizz, I-- " They both said at the same time. That totally blew the both of them away. They didn't expect that to just come out of each other. Once again, they both stared at one another, even if Squall could only see one eye of Blizzarius's. It had been 15 seconds that they've been staring at each other when Squall decided to make his own move. He took his left hand and made its way over to Blizzarius' face. Once it got there, he gently pushed Blizzarius' hair to get a better view of his face. Wow! Blizzarius was beautiful, Squall thought. Even though his facial expression was still blank, Squall thought that his turquoise blue eyes brightened up his face. Squall's baby blue spheres wandered around Blizzarius' face, remembering all that he could see.

The green head watched every action that Squall did. He never thought that someone would study him like this in a good way. But other than that, he wondered what Squall was really trying to do. What was it that he wanted? What was it that he needed from Blizzarius? As much as he wanted to find an answer, Blizzarius couldn't find one, and decided to leave it at that.

There were a few things that Squall would like to tell him, but he couldn't figure out how to express them. Expressing emotions isn't something that Squall is good at, and he was having a hard time as it is trying to figure out these emotions that he was feeling for Blizzarius. But one thing was for sure. He never felt this way about anyone before.

Then, Squall just decided to go with it and slowly said, "Blizz... you're beautiful..."

Blizzarius was a bit shocked. Did he hear right? Did someone just tell him that he was beautiful? How? Why? When? His thoughts when at light speed when heard Squall say this. No one has ever told him that he was beautiful. Not even the loved ones that he had lost. Why was Squall doing this? Why does Squall think that Blizzarius is beautiful? Again, Blizzarius was stuck with no answers, and decided to accept the fact that he wouldn't get any.

"Th... thank you... Squall..." Blizzarius managed to say. He kept his turquoise blues locked with Squall's, awaiting some type of response from the brunette.

"Blizz... I... why..." Squall tried to say, but the words just wouldn't come out right.

"Squall..." Blizzarius began to say. "I'm... sorry..."

"Sorry... for... what...?"

"The way... I acted... I... didn't... mean it..."

The brunette slowly shook his head. "No... it's okay... no... need to..."

"Didn't want to... make you... feel like that..." Blizzarius insisted on apologizing.

Squall felt relieved that Blizzarius didn't mean any of what he did and said. He figured that it was... just... natural. Squall knew that he would have done the same thing. "I.. would have... probably... done the same..."

"The... same...?"

"Yes..." Squall then tried to continue. "It... hurt... when I felt... what I do to other people. I had no idea... they felt like that..." Squall lowered his head down as he was again realizing what he does to other people and how they make them feel.

Blizzarius looked at Squall and positioned his eyes towards the floor. He didn't know that what he does makes people feel like this as well. Then, he tried speaking again. "Squall... please... this is... my fault... I'm sorry... truly... If I had only known..."

The brunette raised his head to look at Blizzarius once again. "I'm glad that... you didn't mean it..." Squal then attempted a smile but only twitched his face. Blizzarius also tried with no luck, although his face brightened with his eyes.

"Should we... head back?" Blizzarius asked.

Squall looked around and noticed that they were the only ones left in the cafeteria. "Sure... let's go." The brunette and the green head slowly stood up and threw away their food. They then headed out and back to the dorms. For some reason, Squall felt good being with him. He felt calm, relaxed, and loosened up. He didn't know why he felt like this, nor did Squall care. He liked it.

Blizzarius felt relieved that finally, there was someone he can relate to. Almost all his life, he's always been this way and this was the first time he's known how much offense his normal behavior had on other people. The green head knew that it'd be hard for him to change that about himself but promised in the back of his mind that he'd try, now that he knew how people would feel. They both proceeded to their dorm as they both called it a night.

"Good night, Blizz..." Squall said entering his room.

"Good night... Squall..." Blizz responded. He then closed the door to his room and he changed into his pajamas. After hopping to bed and shutting off his lamp, he decided to think about things for a minute. Unlike Squall who doesn't like to do a lot of thinking but ends up doing it anyway, Blizzarius is a deep thinker. He began to think about today's events and thought about how different they've been from other days.

Shiva also took this moment and thought about things. The ice goddess thought that this is one mortal that has a very kind heart, who's been through so much, which is the reason why he's afraid of letting other people get close to him. She decided to compliment him on how he approached Squall.

~Blizzarius, I'm proud of you.~ The ice queen began.

**Huh...? What... what did I do...?**

~You apologized... to Squall for your behavior... and you meant it from your heart.~

Blizzarius then smiled from within. **Th... thank you... Shiva...**

~You're welcome.~

Shiva's voice echoed through Blizzarius' mind. Never in his life has anyone told him that they were proud of him. There was one thing that was on his mind and decided to tell the GF.

**Shiva...?**

~Yes, Blizzarius?~

**You... even though... I've only had you for just today... you light up my life... Thank you so much...**

~No need to thank me, Blizzarius...~

**I know... but... I feel like I should...** Blizzarius paused for a minute, then continued. **Shiva?**

~Yes, Blizzarius?~

**No one... ever... in my life... has been this good to me, Shiva. I... I want...** Blizzairus was afraid to tell her. He was afraid that even she'll get taken away from him.

~What is it, Blizzarius?~

**I want...**

~Please, Blizzarius... please tell me...~ Shiva sounded sincere.

**I want...** Then Blizzarius forced it out of himself. **I want... you... by my side, Shiva...** Blizzarius wanted to continue so he forced himself again. **Ever since I could remember... I've always lost... someone important to me, Shiva... I... I don't want to lose you, too... Shiva...**

Shiva's ice heart warmed. Never in her entire existence has she had a mortal like Blizzarius, who expressed his need for the GF. She felt every emotion that Blizzarius felt right now, and she knew it needed that blanket of security and reassurance.

~I promise... from the depths of my heart, Blizzarius... that I will always be by your side. Whenever you need me... I'll be there... I promise...~

**Thank you so much...** Blizzarius' heart also warmed. Hearing those words comforted him to no limits. He wondered if Shiva really meant what she said, but she promised. That was good enough for him. He then closed his eyes and fell asleep. This could possibly be the most comforting sleep he'll ever get.

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