"When I Close my Eyes"
By: Sara Angeldust
"Rebirth of the Lost One"
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*Disclaimer*: The Anime t.v. show Gundam Wing doesn't belong to me but it's respective writers and creators and the Sotsu© and Sunrise© corporations. BUT! The characters in this chapter do belong to me and are not to be used without my consent. If u ask nicely I will gladly let you use them. Just give credit where credit is due k?
Authors Note: I really don't have anything to say for this chapter. Just try not to get confused. I have a tendency to do that to people when I write explanations. ^_- Also yes I know I put the main synopsis in the Prolouge but for some of you , you may need a review.
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Main Synopsis:
- 15 year old Rain was a test pilot. A nameless, faceless solider used and manipulated by war driven scientists. But the special psychic bond shared by her Gundam, Phantom, will prove to be more then just an experiment, but her only ticket out of a cruel fate and onto a battlefield scattered with people possessing answers about her past and her long lost family.
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The year is AC 238. After more then 50 years of peace between the Earth and the Space Colonies a war is beginning. A new leader representing all of the Colonies and the ideal of greater unity has begun his term and has more in mind then just ruling the Colonies. After detaching the colonies from ESUN .(Earth Space United Nations; which evolved from Preventers) The leader known only as 'Pegasus' has raised a gigantic army called Angels from Above (AFA for short but known as AFH 'Angels from Hell' by all those who apose them ) to fight the Earth and defeat them so he may bring the Earth into his idea of 'unity' as well. Knowing this would happen the Earth raises it's own army therefore making ESUN a thing of the past. As the Earth and the Colonies again begin fighting, the leader of the now almost extinguished ESUN, Relena Dorlain-Yuy, has called upon all of the past Gundam pilots to bring their grandchildren to each command their own ESUN. Corp. ESUN therefore becomes it's own army fighting in an attempt to stop the out break of war. And once again save the people of both Space and Earth.
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It is aproxamently 2 months into the war. So far the Earth and Space have not managed to do much damage to each other. Having pretty much the same military abilities they are evenly matched. But 'Pegasus' is not about to give up yet. In secret he has had 4 scientists working on the now deserted Moon Colony. There they have had a breakthrough. A new system called the TCS System, has been created and tested. This system creates a bond between any selected pilot and mobile suit therefore giving the pilot telepathic abilities powerful enough to control the soft minds of aposing soldiers. These scientistshave tested and perfected the system and in an attempt to hide it from the evil's of the AFA they have said that their only test pilot, Rain, has died. Three years later Pegasus and the AFA have gotten suspicious. But 'Pegasus' isn't going to get what he expects.
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The day began as usual for Rain. She had gotten up at 4 am to begin her morning exercises with Phantom, as she had for 10 years but as she walked into the simulation room that morning she could tell something was wrong. The simulation room was relatively small. Actually it was more like an old broom closet but was simple. All four walls had been covered in technical screens which glowed yellow as she entered. The heels of her boots began to make light clacking sounds and seemed to echo from every which direction. In the center of the room sat a huge chair. More like a dentist chair the anything. It was hooked up with so many wires and sensors that getting five feet from it was an experience in itself and to get into the chair Rain always had to jump so as not to unconnected the cords which she knew would get her in trouble. The last time she unconnected a cord it took Dr.S almost a day to repair the system! What could she say, it was sensitive.
Getting near the cords Rain automatically jumped and landed perfectly into the chair. Usually by that time one of the scientists would be in to tell her about what she was going to do that day, but for some reason no one was there to say anything and the room began to grow silent. Closing her eyes tight Rain concentrated on weaving her mind through all of the mental waves in the facility until she came upon the one she wanted to communicate with.
'Phantom?'
'What is it Rain? I feel your worry.' 'Have you seen Dr. M, or any of the other scientists? I can't seem to locate them.' 'No I haven't. But I can sense them still in the base. Would you like me to contact them?''No that's alrigh,t I'll go find them myself. Thanks Phantom.'
'You're welcome.'
Opening her eyes Rain broke the bond with Phantom. She always loved the rush of connecting with another human mind and letting it go. Since she was 8 she could communicate with her gundam. She never knew that it would actually be able to talk back to her but to her surprise it could, and with a personality too. Phantom was her best friend. Although she was mainly a machine she knew what Rain was thinking all the time and comforted her when she had been punished for doing something bad by the scientists.
Rain stalled her thoughts and began to search for another brain wave. Dr. M's wave was always easy to find if you looked for it. He was a genius at mobile suit technology and mechanics and was always thinking up new things in his head. So all she ever had to so was hear the words 'Mobile Suit X Core'' or 'Bioengineering Mechanics' and she found him. Dr. S was a little harder then Dr.M. He was the programmer of the systems Rain tested and he never focused on the job. He always had ideas about how to stop the war and not create it or fuel it and was constantly thinking of his children and wife back at the L3 colony. Then there was Dr. R. Man was that the worst mind she had ever encountered. Dr.R was her martial arts and defense instructor and was constantly paranoid. She could always find his wave because when ever she tried to get near it he would sense her automatically just out of shear paranoia. Not only was he always aware of her mental romps, but he was also constantly berating her about going into people minds so much. He always told her horror stories of how earlier mentally bonded patients went psycho because of their own mental romps into the wrong brains. Rain was sure he was one of them.
Closing her eyes again she searched. As she expected she found Dr. M first but could tell his mind was busy on something other then mechanics. Suddenly she felt a sharp pain in the back of her head. It was brief but harsh and as she opened her eyes she saw stars. A Warning. Dr. M had given her a warning!. When she was younger the sharp mental kicks were used to stop her from going into their minds uninvited. But she had not been punished for going into their minds since she was 9 and she was 15 now. When the stars and pain finally went away she knew something really strange was going on.
Her mind raced with questions that she wanted answered. Why? Was the most frequent. Knowing that she wouldn't get them from the good doctors she went to the next best person. Alec. Alec was the only son of Dr. M. He was 18, handsome, with dark brown curly hair and deep green eyes. But of course Rain never though of him as boyfriend potential. She had grown up knowing Alec as a brother. Dr. M never had any real family and when his wife died after Alec was born he decided to keep Alec with him at the moon base. This was fine with the both of them because Alec was an amazing haker. He could hack into any base's programs in a matter of minutes so it was a big surprise when he learned that he was no match for Rain at his own special gift. When Rain was 7 she and Alec were paired together with Dr. S to teach and be taught their hacking skills. Rain had always loved Alec as a really close brother and treated him as such. So it was as natural as breathing for Rain to contact Alec next. Even if he was the only one left to talk too he was also sometimes in on the secret things that went on behind Rain's back on the base.
"Alec?HELLO!" It was easy to find Alec's brain wave which she connected with right away. It looked like he was esleep. "Ugh, what is it now! I'm trying to sleep here Rain!"Rain had to mentally giggle at this. It was always so funny to wake Alec up from sleep.
"Well sorry Mr. Sleepy but I got to ask you something important. Or would you rather sleep some more?hmmmmm?""Well now that I'm AWAKE I guess I have no choice." Alec said giving in.
"Good. Do you know what's going on with the Dr.'s? I tried to contact your dad but he kicked me! Alec he hasn't kicked me since I was 9. I think something is wrong." "Are you sure it was my dad that kicked you and not Dr. R? Remember he never has liked the idea of letting you go into……""Alec I'm not stupid. I know when someone kicks me who it is. You know I can' stand it."
"Well gesh, you don't have to get snotty about it."
"Just answer the question Alec! Do you know what's going on or not!"
"Well now that you mention it I really don't. Are you sure they never told you they were gunna be busy today?You know your brain, you always have something other then news in your head. Man I'm glad I'm not the test pilot."
"No none of them told me anything about today. You could be right though. I have been under a bit of stress lately. Your dad's been boosting up the testing levels lately. And he's been setting the modes on shock too. Do you know how much those things hurt! I can't even sucomb to one enemy without almost blacking out!"
"That is really strange. Dad didn't tell me anyting about boosting the level. An I always know when he's gunna do something like that…. Rain I'll get back to you. This is starting to make me suspicious."
"Ok, you know what to do if you hear anything."
"Right. You take care."
Rain sat up stiffly in the testing chair.
'That was weird' She thought. Alec always knew when they boosted the level on the sims. And if Alec was left in the dark then something must have been really wrong.
Looking around the now deffly silent testing room the steel screens brought a new light to Rains eyes. Lies. That was a new one for the 15 year old girl. She had never been lied to about her testing. Maybe misinformed or not told at all but never lied too. When Rain had asked about the boosting of the difficulty levels on her testing she had been told it was just a small skills test and that even Alec knew about them. That was the reason she had never questioined what the doctors had said and asked Alec but now that was all different.
Jumping out of the chair Rain landed with a thunk far from the jumble of wires. She was going to get to the bottom of this thing if it killed her. As she walked from the room she listened to the clanking of her boots. An omen. Whatever she was about to learn it would be big.
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"Are you sure she can handle it. I mean she hasn't had that much experience out on the field. I don't know if shes ready. Are you sure you've thought this through M? We can't lose her. She's the only one with that kind of information. It would take years to train a new one and we only have, maybe hours."
"I don't know anything for sure R. But what I do know is that she can handle it. She was born for this. This may be her only chance to escape the fate we have placed over her head. Don't tell me you havn't grown to love the girl as your own daughter. I would never do anything to harm her….. I want to free her. She diserves her life back."
"I agree with M. She diserves her life back and although this is a bit of a drastic way of giving it to her it is for her own good. I also love her like my own daughter. Hmmm, I probably love her more then my own biological daughter."
"*sigh* Your right. She's just to special a person not to love. Alright, lets go ahead with it. Do you still have ESUN's communication code?"
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Without the presence of the doctors close the hallways felt almost dead to Rain. She was slow in her walking as she turned left and right down hallways searching.
"Where could they be?" She said stopping at a fork in the hallways. She took a look down the left one and turned to walk to the right.
"I can barley sense them, where could they be?" Question kept filling her mind as she clanked down the steel hallways. Suddenly Rain felt a huge pull towards her left by her mind. Seeing a hallway to the left she took it and saw where she was. The words "Communication and Navigation : AUTHORIZED PERSONAL ONLY" were posted on a door to her right. Rain felt a strong presense of people behind the door.
"This must be where they are." She said servaying the door. Next to the door handle was a security box. Knowing that the box would probably not except her she placed her thumb on the pad. ACCESS GRANTED appeared in green letters on the box.
"Ok, that was freaky." Rain said staring at the handle.
"Well I guess if my access was granted I can enter right?" Rain said talking to herself. She shook her head and entered the room.
As she opened the door a sense of knowing entered her mind. Someone inside was waiting for her. As she walked into the black room the lights turned on showing her what looked like a small computer lab with a huge screen taking over the corner. The room couldn't be and bigger then 6 meters from the door to the back wall, small for a communication room in her mind. As she looked around the room she noticed someone sitting in a chair facing a blank computer screen.
"Doctor M? What are you doing in here? Where are the other doctors?" Rain asked walking to stand behind the doctors chair. She tried again to access the doctors mind but found it blocked. To her gratitude it was only blocked and the doctor did not give her a kick. She watched as Dr. M turned his chair around to face Rain. The look in his eyes told her he had some news that he didn't want to tll her on his mind.
"My goodness. I don't think I'll ever get over how fast you can find us through your telepathy." Dr. M Said shaking his head slighty and smiling a bit. " I don't' know how I'm ever going to tell you this."
Rain was confused. Had she missed something? Tell her what? Questions again buzzed in her head but she surpressed then and decided that they are not a good thing to ask at the time.
"Tell me what Dr. What is it that has this whole place being so secretive?"
Dr. M looked up at Rain. This was it she thought.
"Rain do you know a lot about what is going on between the Earth and the Colonies right now?"
Rain though for a second. She remebered back to about two weeks ago when Alec gave her a large vid of news reports on the current war. She remembered all of it. How could she not. It angered her everytime she saw anything about it. That damn AFA was going to destroy the entire system that ESUN had created. She hated the man Pegasus even more. Who ever hire him into the Colonies Nation Council might have well been putting a hungry cat into a box full of fat mice. She couldn't stand him.
"Alec gave me a vid on it a while ago and I've been looking things up on it when I had time alone with Phantom." Rain said.
"Very good, that will be of much help to you." Dr. M said standing up from his chair.
What he had said puzzled Rain even more. How would this help her? Unless….omg….no way. They must have been crazy.
"Rain are you ok?" Dr. M said noticing the shock on her face. Rain pushed her thoughts a side and nodded. Although she told Dr. M she was fine she began to prepare herself mentally for what she though he was about to say.
"Rain, Dr. S, R and I have decided to enlist you in ESUN."
Rain looked up at Dr. M. Enlist in ESUN? That would mean that they were sending her into the war. But why? Why was she being turned into a real soilder?
"Why?" That was all she could get out. Why. Although this was not what she intended to ask that was all she could managed to say.
Dr. M looked at Rain with a fatherly look., one that Rain had never seen from the man.
"It's sort of complicated Rain. We have finished our initial testing her on the TCS system, thanks to you, and we want you to be able to use your skills to help those who can't help themselves. We aren't forcing this on you Rain, not at all, but we wanted to give you a choice of things to do after we halt operations. You are so special and we don't want to see your mind or body go to waste."
Rain took a deep breath. So, they wanted her to help ESUN. But what about them? She never wanted to see anyehitng happen to her adopted family, even if they were war scientists. But what else could she do? Dr. M was right. After they closed the operation she would have no where to go. With being an orphan and having no family to turn to left her with little options. So why not. It seemed like a resonable offer to her.
" When would I be leaving?" She asked. Dr. M lost much of the tention in his shoulders and smiled at her.
"You could leave tomorrow morning if you wanted. No testing tonight." Dr. M paused. "So is that a yes then?"
Rain thought about it. She would be leaving them if she said yes. Poor Alec wouldn't have anyone to pick on anymore. But then again maybe she might have fun, if that was possible. Her mind screamed for her to say yes, and she never didn't give in to her mind.
"Yes," Rain said smiling "I think I will go to ESUN."
Dr. M smiled at the excited teenager. He was glad she wanted her life back as much as he wanted her to have it.
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Rain looked longenly out the small window of her room. Space looked so beautiful from where she lay. She hoped it would look just as beautiful from the veiw of Phantoms cockpit. How she had always longed to pilot Phantom through space. Although she longed to be in space with her fellow piltos she also felt a huge missing for her family here on the moon.
"I've never not been near them Phtantom. I've lived here all my life. What am I going to do without them?" Rain said contacting Phantom for moral suppport. "You'll be fine Rain. I'll be with you all the time, you don't have to be so fearfull."Phantom was right. As long as Rain had at least one person (or mind) with her she would be fine. And besides, Alec and the docs would only be a com link away if she ever needed anything.
Feeling that she had comorted herself enough Rain began to fall esleep knowing that she would always be close to the ones she loved.
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What cha think? Good eh? Well that's it for this chapter of "When I Close My Eyes"
See you next time when I bring you Chapter 2
"Full Of Grace"
