Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon, do not sue me. This is merely for entertainment, nothing else.
Warnings: Shounen-ai implications (taito)
Rating: PG-13
Note: Forgot to say, although it SHOULD be obvious... This, and the first chapter, is all Takeru POV! And all of the chapters will be Takeru POV! Okay! I think.. o.O;;..!

Realizing (I lost her)
Two-Thoughts
by Sakura Maxwell

Tai is standing next to Hikari's coffin with a sad face. Tears are slowly falling from his eyes onto the floor. Yamato walks over and comforts Tai by putting his hand on his shoulder and squeezing it gently.

The service is already over, the one for Hikari. Through the whole thing Tai cried. Mr. and Mrs. Kamiya cried also. I just sat there next to Angel, not paying attention. My mind was elsewhere, and I think Angel noticed. But I didn't care. My thoughts are still looming over my head. And what she said..

"Aishiteru, Takeru.."

I look down. What did she mean by that? I mean, she loved me. I know that.. I wish she would've told me sooner. I would've tried to let her understand that the love she feels for me was just a..sibling kind of love? ..Right? Wasn't it? Wasn't I like a big brother and best friend to her? Since Tai had his work and Yamato had work too, we had done things together. But.. Why couldn't she tell me that she loved me? ..Wait, she didn't love that way! Stop thinking like this, Takeru! I grip the bouquet of flowers I got earlier.

I look up at Tai and Yamato and watch them walk away. Alright, my turn, I guess. I step up to Hikari's coffin and place a hand on the smooth wood. "Hikari," I whisper, "I'm sorry.. I know you're probably sick of me saying sorry to you all the time, but I know, this is my fault. I'm the reason you..died. It's all my fault, and I take full responsiblity. I don't know what you're going to do, but if you're going to curse me or anything, just know that I'm willing to pay the price."

I place the bouquet of flowers on Hikari's hands, which are crossed over her heart. "Please, Hikari," I say, "I hope you're in a happy place now.. At least you won't suffer anymore.. Hikari, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..! I wish I could've comforted you, I wish I could've been there to stop you.." Tears brim my eyes and I make no move to stop them from sliding down my cheek. "Gomen nasai, Hikari."

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Author Note- Agh! It's a curse! My chapters for all of my series are getting shorter and shorter!! Why IS that?! x_x;; Oh well.. Anyway, I know this sucks, and you're probably ready to send me flames or throw garbage on my head, but please.. Don't. -_-... Not until I finish this series (if I ever do before I die, which, in that case, would be an absolute MIRACLE).

R&R minna-san! Arigatou!