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Read and review thanx! ~Queen Isa~ their ages now: Ken and miyako are 23.And they have plans to be married and Kken works in the police force ..Sorry, this fics NOT good. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
10 years in the future..
(song) Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared Beneath the stars above For a moment All the world was right How could I have know That you'd ever say goodbye And I am glad I didn't know The way it all would end The way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have had to miss The dance (ends)
All around me were people crying, all adorned in black. The digidestined, parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, all of them watching my fiancé being lowered to his grave. It was Sunday, as it was raining, it seemed as if the whole world was crying. They thought they knew the pain I was going through. Yet they didn't. Not really. How could I explain to them, that my one reason for life was gone? What was the point of living? Ken made me a promise back when we were kids and when he was on his deathbed. I had never told anyone about it so how could they know what I was going through? How could they know that I'd promised to wait for him, and he had done the same for me? How could they know that one part of me was broken, never to be repaired? And the other was relieved? I knew that he was going to keep his promise and so was I. It was because of that, and the fact that I knew he was watching over me at that exact moment, forever and always, that I kept me from breaking out in hysterical screams. I thought of Ken and all those many dances we'd had, under the stars and a small smile played on my lips.
"Miyako Inoue?"Joe Kido, one of the "older" digidestined also, ironically and the doctor, who'd treated Ken in the emergency room when he'd been hit by a bullet in the line of duty tapped me on the shoulder. "It's okay, you'll be okay. Time is going to heal your pain and you'll move on."
*~* [Flashback.]
Ring,ring! "I'm coming, I'm coming, keep your wig on!" I thought as I picked up the phone. "Hallo?" I said as I picked up the receiver "who is this?" "Miyako Inoue?" said the voice on the other end, which sounded oddly familiar. "Yes this is her." "Miyako, its Joe Kido, I'm afraid there has been anaccident." I must confess that I was happy - only for a moment - because I was concentrating on seeing Joe, and how Ken would love that, because we had gotten on pretty well, during the digidestined times. Then my brain got moving to the accident part of his sentence. "Accident?" I said stupidly "What do you mean? " "Miyako, I'm sorry, but Ken has been shot while in the line of duty." "Oh" it was the only thing I could think of to sayThen."Ha haJoe, great joke, now cut the crap and tell me what's really going on." I had to say it, it all had to be a joke, it could never be true.It was just some joke that someone was playing to get me scared,they were jealous of Ken's love for me it couldn't be true, he had made me a promise and Ken never broke his promises. Never. This was Ken we're talkin' about. KEN. " No, Yolei, its not a joke.Could you meet me at the Tamachi Hospital?" The use of the childhood nickname told me in itself that it was not a joke. "Yes, yes of course, right away. See you in about 15 minutes." "Good Bye." I hung up, grabbed my coat, put on my shoes and headed for my car. Busying myself with everyday thing to stop me thinking about where I was going, what I was doing, what might happen. I got the keys to the car, shut the door and walked down the stairs: thinking: it can't be true, it can't be true, it can't be true, it can't be true. I was so engrossed in the words, the syllables, the rhythm, it can't be true, it can't be true, I tapped the rhythm with my feet on the walk to the car, It can't be true, Tap Tap Tappety Tap It can't be true Tappetty Tap Tap. It was insane, making up beats with my mind for 4 words.in the car, I tapped the beat on the wheel, humming all the while,
it can't be true it can't be tru-hhuue, it ca-an't be truue, it can't be true. over a series of bumps It.Can't.Be.True
A bunch of kids walking on their way back from school" It.Can't.Be.True
I had to keep up the rhythm, breaking it would fear the truth of my world falling apart judged on one person, one time, one place. It can't be true. It can't be true. It can't be true, it can't be true it can't be true. I parked the car, and began walking.
It can't be true. Tapptappteppety tep. It can't be true tapp tappetyy tapp tapp tappetty tap.
I met the other Digidestined at the entrance to the Hospital. We were then met by Joe and led down a maze of white,detergent smelling corridors. It can't be true. I was taking interest in the smallest things, "Oh how nice those tiles are," I thought, thinking in the same old rhythm: it can't be true. "Oh what a nice colour that woman has on": Then, suddenly the It can't be trues were back, it can't be true it can't be true it can't be tue.
"Boy don't I hate the smell of hospitals." I turned to face Davis who wrinkled his nose in disgust at the smell. He shrunk back afraid that I would get angry. But I smiled in spite of myself, after all he was only trying to help, in his own way. Joe suddenly in front of a door. Then my mind was thinking faster and faster at the anticipation of what I wanted to see, it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true , and my heart pulsing at the same pace as my brain which went to the same words: it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true. I wanted so badly to know what I was to find but in wanted it not to be me to discover I wanted it so badly that I began to think, oh if only it was someone else, a friend, an aunt anyone. But not him,
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true.
"Come on" Joe said. I walked in and gasped at what I saw. I saw Ken surrounded by machines and wires. Normally hospitals don't scare me, I'm used to it, as my aunt's a doctor (A/N: if she wasn't then she is now. :P) and I spent some of my time at them are used to it. But this time it freaked me out. All the other times it had been people I had barely known that had come o be in hospitals, but this time, this time it was Ken and it was a hell of a lot different.
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true.
He opened his eyes as if knowing I was there. He smiled. "Hey" "Hey, great choice of words."I smiled back, mentally cursing myself for my stupidity.
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true
I mean he was in hospital, probably, probably going to die, and there I was cracking jokes, as if it was alright. "Yeah, Ken Ichijouji literary genius strikes again" he laughed and took my hand. I sat in the chair and the others crowded in. Each saying their wishes. (A/N Sorry, but Ken and Yolei's bit are more important!) "So." I said unsure of how to proceed. "So, when I get out of this place, what do you say we get those marriage plans in order eh?" "You got it."
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true
"Promise me something Yolei." He said suddenly serious. "Depends" He laughed but then gave me a look that told me to be serious.
It can't be true it can't be true oh, please no, god no it cannot be true please.
"Yep, go on." "Promise me you'll wait for me?"
I can't answer!Answering will make it possible to be true! Oh please no no no! it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true.
When I didn't answer he said "Promise?" "Promise promise" (AN: see Stepmom movie) I looked at what the others were doing - it can't be true it can't be true - and then I heard the machine that monitered the heart bleep. BEEEEEEEP...
I had answered. I had said yes. If I hadn't answered, time woyuld have frozen, I could have stopped him from leaving, and still my mind went on:
It can't be true it can't be true.
The instant I had finished saying those two fatal words, I knew it was the end.
And I knew it was true.
[End of Flasback]
"But HOW?" I thought. After Joe had gone, Kari came up to me and said: "Come to my house now Yolei,"and tugged at my arm to get me moving. But I didn't want to move. So I resisted no-one could make me to nothing I didn't want to do especially not now. "NO! look, I'm really sorry Kari but I really need to be alone right now. I know you and Sora are just a moment away but what I really need is to be alone."
So that's what I did. I walked away and she pulled me back but Sora stopped er from completely stopping me and for that I am grateful to her as I don't think I could hold out much longer. I went home to my place, what used to be our place Ken's and mine. I put my coat away and then I went to his cupboard and I lost it, I had held up pretty well all day, but then being around his things and him not being near made the realisation hit home. He wasn't home right now and he never will be again. I fell to my knees crying hysterically and not being able to stop it. I crawled to the bed carrying a garmet of his crying into it. I became so hysterical that I dreamed that he was walking through the bedroom and holding me. But when I reached out to touch him, he wasn't there. He would never touch me again. I would never see him again. And that fact made me angry. "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO NOW? " I screamed in the empty apartment. "You're DEAD and you're NEVER coming back. I know that now. But I'm still waiting."
And I still am but I know its not in vain.
I What I'm feeling,time is gonna heal it I've been hearing that for so long now They say I'll move on,got to try and be strong Life will go on,I'll get through this somehow Oh,but how,when I'm still waiting For you to come back I'm aching For you to walk through that door And hold me once more But you won't Waiting It was a Sunday,we buried you in the rain I never knew pain 'til the first night alone Opened your closet,breathed you in and lost it The truth of it,baby,finally hit home No,you're not coming home but I'm still waiting For you to come back I'm aching For you to walk through that door And hold me once more But you won't Waiting Wish you could talk to me somehow Tell me,what do I do now I'm still waiting I'm still waiting For you to come back I'm aching For you to walk through that door And hold me once more But you won't Waiting I'm aching For you to walk throught that door And hold me once more But you won't (you won't) Yeah,I know (I know) That you won't (you won't) Still I go on WaitingI
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Was that good?Bad? Love it? Hate it? (God knows I do!) I KNOW it's such a change from the other chaps **duckes tomatoes**
Ayla: Sorry I didn't use you're idea. I promise I will in another fic!!! Come and chat soon! =)
Comments? Critisms? Anyone? REVIEW!!!!!!!!
Oh.. and I don't own the songs.. There by Garth Brookes and Jaimie O'Neal.. I think they own it .. oh well, all I know it that I don't. :P
So what do you think????
REVIEW PLEASE!!!!!!! And .. if you don't like it you can throw rotten tomatoes at me in the reviews!!!!
~Queen Isa~
Read and review thanx! ~Queen Isa~ their ages now: Ken and miyako are 23.And they have plans to be married and Kken works in the police force ..Sorry, this fics NOT good. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
10 years in the future..
(song) Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared Beneath the stars above For a moment All the world was right How could I have know That you'd ever say goodbye And I am glad I didn't know The way it all would end The way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have had to miss The dance (ends)
All around me were people crying, all adorned in black. The digidestined, parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, all of them watching my fiancé being lowered to his grave. It was Sunday, as it was raining, it seemed as if the whole world was crying. They thought they knew the pain I was going through. Yet they didn't. Not really. How could I explain to them, that my one reason for life was gone? What was the point of living? Ken made me a promise back when we were kids and when he was on his deathbed. I had never told anyone about it so how could they know what I was going through? How could they know that I'd promised to wait for him, and he had done the same for me? How could they know that one part of me was broken, never to be repaired? And the other was relieved? I knew that he was going to keep his promise and so was I. It was because of that, and the fact that I knew he was watching over me at that exact moment, forever and always, that I kept me from breaking out in hysterical screams. I thought of Ken and all those many dances we'd had, under the stars and a small smile played on my lips.
"Miyako Inoue?"Joe Kido, one of the "older" digidestined also, ironically and the doctor, who'd treated Ken in the emergency room when he'd been hit by a bullet in the line of duty tapped me on the shoulder. "It's okay, you'll be okay. Time is going to heal your pain and you'll move on."
*~* [Flashback.]
Ring,ring! "I'm coming, I'm coming, keep your wig on!" I thought as I picked up the phone. "Hallo?" I said as I picked up the receiver "who is this?" "Miyako Inoue?" said the voice on the other end, which sounded oddly familiar. "Yes this is her." "Miyako, its Joe Kido, I'm afraid there has been anaccident." I must confess that I was happy - only for a moment - because I was concentrating on seeing Joe, and how Ken would love that, because we had gotten on pretty well, during the digidestined times. Then my brain got moving to the accident part of his sentence. "Accident?" I said stupidly "What do you mean? " "Miyako, I'm sorry, but Ken has been shot while in the line of duty." "Oh" it was the only thing I could think of to sayThen."Ha haJoe, great joke, now cut the crap and tell me what's really going on." I had to say it, it all had to be a joke, it could never be true.It was just some joke that someone was playing to get me scared,they were jealous of Ken's love for me it couldn't be true, he had made me a promise and Ken never broke his promises. Never. This was Ken we're talkin' about. KEN. " No, Yolei, its not a joke.Could you meet me at the Tamachi Hospital?" The use of the childhood nickname told me in itself that it was not a joke. "Yes, yes of course, right away. See you in about 15 minutes." "Good Bye." I hung up, grabbed my coat, put on my shoes and headed for my car. Busying myself with everyday thing to stop me thinking about where I was going, what I was doing, what might happen. I got the keys to the car, shut the door and walked down the stairs: thinking: it can't be true, it can't be true, it can't be true, it can't be true. I was so engrossed in the words, the syllables, the rhythm, it can't be true, it can't be true, I tapped the rhythm with my feet on the walk to the car, It can't be true, Tap Tap Tappety Tap It can't be true Tappetty Tap Tap. It was insane, making up beats with my mind for 4 words.in the car, I tapped the beat on the wheel, humming all the while,
it can't be true it can't be tru-hhuue, it ca-an't be truue, it can't be true. over a series of bumps It.Can't.Be.True
A bunch of kids walking on their way back from school" It.Can't.Be.True
I had to keep up the rhythm, breaking it would fear the truth of my world falling apart judged on one person, one time, one place. It can't be true. It can't be true. It can't be true, it can't be true it can't be true. I parked the car, and began walking.
It can't be true. Tapptappteppety tep. It can't be true tapp tappetyy tapp tapp tappetty tap.
I met the other Digidestined at the entrance to the Hospital. We were then met by Joe and led down a maze of white,detergent smelling corridors. It can't be true. I was taking interest in the smallest things, "Oh how nice those tiles are," I thought, thinking in the same old rhythm: it can't be true. "Oh what a nice colour that woman has on": Then, suddenly the It can't be trues were back, it can't be true it can't be true it can't be tue.
"Boy don't I hate the smell of hospitals." I turned to face Davis who wrinkled his nose in disgust at the smell. He shrunk back afraid that I would get angry. But I smiled in spite of myself, after all he was only trying to help, in his own way. Joe suddenly in front of a door. Then my mind was thinking faster and faster at the anticipation of what I wanted to see, it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true , and my heart pulsing at the same pace as my brain which went to the same words: it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true. I wanted so badly to know what I was to find but in wanted it not to be me to discover I wanted it so badly that I began to think, oh if only it was someone else, a friend, an aunt anyone. But not him,
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true.
"Come on" Joe said. I walked in and gasped at what I saw. I saw Ken surrounded by machines and wires. Normally hospitals don't scare me, I'm used to it, as my aunt's a doctor (A/N: if she wasn't then she is now. :P) and I spent some of my time at them are used to it. But this time it freaked me out. All the other times it had been people I had barely known that had come o be in hospitals, but this time, this time it was Ken and it was a hell of a lot different.
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true.
He opened his eyes as if knowing I was there. He smiled. "Hey" "Hey, great choice of words."I smiled back, mentally cursing myself for my stupidity.
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true
I mean he was in hospital, probably, probably going to die, and there I was cracking jokes, as if it was alright. "Yeah, Ken Ichijouji literary genius strikes again" he laughed and took my hand. I sat in the chair and the others crowded in. Each saying their wishes. (A/N Sorry, but Ken and Yolei's bit are more important!) "So." I said unsure of how to proceed. "So, when I get out of this place, what do you say we get those marriage plans in order eh?" "You got it."
It can't be true it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true
"Promise me something Yolei." He said suddenly serious. "Depends" He laughed but then gave me a look that told me to be serious.
It can't be true it can't be true oh, please no, god no it cannot be true please.
"Yep, go on." "Promise me you'll wait for me?"
I can't answer!Answering will make it possible to be true! Oh please no no no! it can't be true it can't be true it can't be true.
When I didn't answer he said "Promise?" "Promise promise" (AN: see Stepmom movie) I looked at what the others were doing - it can't be true it can't be true - and then I heard the machine that monitered the heart bleep. BEEEEEEEP...
I had answered. I had said yes. If I hadn't answered, time woyuld have frozen, I could have stopped him from leaving, and still my mind went on:
It can't be true it can't be true.
The instant I had finished saying those two fatal words, I knew it was the end.
And I knew it was true.
[End of Flasback]
"But HOW?" I thought. After Joe had gone, Kari came up to me and said: "Come to my house now Yolei,"and tugged at my arm to get me moving. But I didn't want to move. So I resisted no-one could make me to nothing I didn't want to do especially not now. "NO! look, I'm really sorry Kari but I really need to be alone right now. I know you and Sora are just a moment away but what I really need is to be alone."
So that's what I did. I walked away and she pulled me back but Sora stopped er from completely stopping me and for that I am grateful to her as I don't think I could hold out much longer. I went home to my place, what used to be our place Ken's and mine. I put my coat away and then I went to his cupboard and I lost it, I had held up pretty well all day, but then being around his things and him not being near made the realisation hit home. He wasn't home right now and he never will be again. I fell to my knees crying hysterically and not being able to stop it. I crawled to the bed carrying a garmet of his crying into it. I became so hysterical that I dreamed that he was walking through the bedroom and holding me. But when I reached out to touch him, he wasn't there. He would never touch me again. I would never see him again. And that fact made me angry. "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO NOW? " I screamed in the empty apartment. "You're DEAD and you're NEVER coming back. I know that now. But I'm still waiting."
And I still am but I know its not in vain.
I What I'm feeling,time is gonna heal it I've been hearing that for so long now They say I'll move on,got to try and be strong Life will go on,I'll get through this somehow Oh,but how,when I'm still waiting For you to come back I'm aching For you to walk through that door And hold me once more But you won't Waiting It was a Sunday,we buried you in the rain I never knew pain 'til the first night alone Opened your closet,breathed you in and lost it The truth of it,baby,finally hit home No,you're not coming home but I'm still waiting For you to come back I'm aching For you to walk through that door And hold me once more But you won't Waiting Wish you could talk to me somehow Tell me,what do I do now I'm still waiting I'm still waiting For you to come back I'm aching For you to walk through that door And hold me once more But you won't Waiting I'm aching For you to walk throught that door And hold me once more But you won't (you won't) Yeah,I know (I know) That you won't (you won't) Still I go on WaitingI
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Was that good?Bad? Love it? Hate it? (God knows I do!) I KNOW it's such a change from the other chaps **duckes tomatoes**
Ayla: Sorry I didn't use you're idea. I promise I will in another fic!!! Come and chat soon! =)
Comments? Critisms? Anyone? REVIEW!!!!!!!!
Oh.. and I don't own the songs.. There by Garth Brookes and Jaimie O'Neal.. I think they own it .. oh well, all I know it that I don't. :P
So what do you think????
REVIEW PLEASE!!!!!!! And .. if you don't like it you can throw rotten tomatoes at me in the reviews!!!!
~Queen Isa~
