~*A/N: hi hi! Wow! Good reviews!!! So.. should I let you have some more to read?? Yeah, sure why not!! Enjoy! ~Feathers of the wind~*
Love is Forever
Chapter 4: Is it really you?
By dinner time, Hitomi felt even worse than before, now that she knew she was completely alone. At dinner, she so silent and didn't eat. Her parents thought she'd gone into some sort of pre-heart attack shock. She quickly ate once piece of chicken, then left the table.
"Even my parents probably hate me..." tears welled up into Hitomi's eyes.
"Forget it! What's the point of even living anymore?! I can't do this anymore... I just can't..." Hitomi again curled into a ball in her room crying her eyes out for the second time that day. She lost her friends, her spirit, and... she lost Van. Suddenly, she stood up and went through her desk drawer and pulled out an exacto knife. She looked at the terribly sharp blade for a good 10 minutes before deciding to make the first move.
"Van... if you can hear me.... just...don't be mad at me ok? I just want to tell you... I wish I never left you. I-I... just can't deal with life here on Earth anymore... it's too painful alone. Too painful without you. I'm probably about to do something I'll regret for eternity, but right now, I don't care. I'll be waiting for you."
And with that, she swiftly cut her wrists with the knife. The knife quickly fell to her carpeted floor, as blood rapidly ran down her arms. Her head felt so dizzy, and her legs suddenly couldn't seem to hold her up anymore. She fell to the floor with only 4 words on her mind.
"Van I love you..." As the darkness closed in on her, Hitomi thought she could almost see Van flying towards her, like he did that day in the energist mine. He was smiling, and his gentle auburn eyes seemed to be calling to her. She closed her eyes with a smile on her face.
Van I love you...
"Hitomi?" Van suddenly called out. Everyone in the room turned to look at him.
"My lord? What did you just say?" An elderly advisor asked him with interest. It seemed like the King of Fanelia still hadn't gotten over that Mystic Moon woman, but they were trying to get him to marry other princesses.
"uh... nothing. If you'll excuse me..." Van got up and left the room to get outside where he could think. He went to the place where his mind seemed to be at rest most... his Parents' and Folken's burial grounds with Escaflowne guarding them.
Van closed his eyes and tried with all his might to get a connection to Hitomi. He frowned when he felt nothing there. He tried again, this time getting a glimpse of half closed emerald eyes. But that was all he could get. He felt a numb pain in his arms, he looked at them, but nothing was there.
"Hitomi... what happened to you?" Van understood the pain in his arms when he heard Hitomi's message 3 seconds later.
Van... if you can hear me.... just...don't be mad at me ok? I just want to tell you... I wish I never left you. I-I... just can't deal with life here on Earth anymore... it's too painful alone. Too painful without you. I'm probably about to do something I'll regret for eternity, but right now, I don't care. I'll be waiting for you. Van cursed. He had once heard about people slitting their wrists to kill themselves, but why would Hitomi do that?
Van's question was quickly answered, and a bright column of blue light appeared not more than 3 feet away from him. When the light dissipated, a bleeding figure lay on the ground. Van nearly choked. Hitomi's arms were almost completely covered in blood, but the weird thing was... she was smiling. Van had no idea how long she'd been lying like that, but he knew she'd be needing immediate medical care. But he couldn't take his eyes off her bleeding wrists... so she had tried killing herself. Why? Van tried to think of a way to stop the bleeding.
Van began ripping up his shirt, and tightly bound the strips of fabric around her wrists, then carried her into the castle. The Healer took one look at Hitomi, and quickly ushered Van out of the room. She didn't even bother asking who it was. As Van stood outside the doorway of the healer's ward, he kept wondering the same question: What was so terrible that made Hitomi try to take her own life? yes, he was happy Hitomi was back like his mother had said... however, it wasn't like how he'd expected.
~*A/N: people, please never try doing this. The way to get rid of problems is NEVER trying to kill yourself. I'm only using this scenario for a story. Anyway.... Hmm... where is this story leading?? LOL... you'll find out... ~Feathers of the wind~*
