FAVORITE LITTLE DOLL



Hey cutie

You thought you fell in love with a fat girl

Are you sure it wasn't just the ability to control someone's every movement

That you loved about me?



Dear owner-boy

You like to think that people in your life are your property, don't you?

First I was amazed by your fascination with me

And I couldn't tell you to fuck off because you were the only one I had

And when I finally had other friends (you were my first one)

I finally had the courage

To do against your mind

I had never done anything you told me not to do

And besides this time I even thought I'd be pleasing you

As it appears I was wrong



I was having good time that night despite you, my sweet boyfriend

I see that you got angry when you couldn't control me anymore

I see that choosing the different dress than what you told me to choose disappointed you

I even heard later that you were mad at your baby sister for moving away from you and your mother

Did it ever occurd to you that maybe she just wanted to live without eyes on her back and breathing on her neck?

I heard your mother and you are the same kind of people

I heard that when yur baby sister moved to your dad's you decided not to speak wiith her again

Because she was your property and didn't follow your orders



Maybe people just don't like being dressed up and told how to walk

Maybe people just don't like to be owned by someone else



Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful you made me popular

But I'm still mad at you for choosing my every outfit and every lipstick I ever wore

I'm still mad at you for telling me how behave and what to say

I'm still mad at you for making me just your favorite little doll despite of a girlfriend

I'm still mad at you for treating me the way you did



Do you not know you can't design and command a free human being?

Love,

Ellen, your ex-girlfriend, the one you dressed up every day and the one who left you after the graduation party because you couldn't just bring yourself to respect her