"ICSCNTRIG Conclusion: If You Remember When"
By Rita Widmer

Disclaimer: I do not own the show or the characters. They belong to Bellisario, CBS, etc. The story is mine. The song "Remember When" from the title belongs to Rupert Holmes.
Archiving: Sure just tell me, and you can have it.
Feedback: I would greatly appreciate it. I haven't received much on the last couple of parts, and I love to hear the good and the bad feedback.
Spoilers: Impact, People vs. Rabb, Second Sight, Stalker, People vs. Mac, Boomerang II, Yeah, Baby, Good-byes, Return, Adrift part 1, Mr. Rabb Goes to Washington, and Rules of Engagement
AN: Well I finally have the last part written of the story, and I hope everyone enjoyed it. Thanks to the wonderful Rose Garden for giving me the info needed for the conversations. Next project is to rewrite a JAG story called "Old Habits Die Hard" and move onto another new story idea that deals with McCarthyism. If someone has info on the military during this time please write me. Epilogue is at the end.

On to the story...cont'd from part 4

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Mac's Apartment
Georgetown
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Harm slowly turned around to look at her. Eyes met eyes, and each drew strength from each other to continue. He walked up to her and took her in his arms. They knew all they needed was each other.

"Maybe I am ready to have this conversation, because all I want is to move forward. I do love you, Harm," said Mac.

"I love you too," answered Harm. They moved to sit down on the couch. "Where do you think it all went wrong?"

"I used to believe that it was when you left for flying, but recently I have come to the conclusion it was when I left. The Admiral had me doing all this paperwork instead out doing investigations, and at that time I felt like he was telling me that I was no longer wanted at JAG. Dalton was offering me this opportunity that was hard to turn down especially when I felt so unwanted at JAG. The Admiral made it much easier decision for me to leave. You were also pushing me away."

"I didn't want you to leave, but I needed to push you away if you did leave. I thought it would make it easier when you did decide. I thought this way I wouldn't feel like I needed you, but soon I did realize just how much you were needed. Never did I question my coming to you."

"I'm glad you did. I remember thinking maybe one day this man could love me as much as I love him."

"While in Russia, I realized you would always be my life savor. I don't know what I would do without you."

"And you are mine. That's why I reacted so badly to you leaving for flying. Already I had lost three people in my life, and know both you and Chloe were leaving. It was too much to take so close together. I never felt so alone while we watched Harriet and the new baby go off in the ambulance."

"What I never understood is why you never told me about your ex-husband. I would have understood if you had just explained to me what happened."

"Maybe I was hoping that they would make a new law where if you are separated from your husband for long enough time period then you get a common law divorce. It was never going to happen, but I couldn't make myself draw up the papers. I wanted to forget everything about my life before I joined the military."

"Why did you go to Farrow?"

"You were too busy with Bobbie. Plus I felt that he needed to know what was going on. I couldn't let him go on in suspense when the truth might have come out about our past relationship. It seemed my past was bubbling up everywhere that year."

"Didn't you know I would never have stopped loving you, because of your past?"

"I hoped, but when you left for flying I gave up trying to convince myself that you still cared. I felt like I had lost my best friend. It was all my fault."

"No it wasn't. I should have been more supportive, and not pushed you away when you came to ask for help. Why didn't you tell me about your promotion?"

"Because I wanted someone happy for me. I didn't want to read it in an email. It seemed as fake as the ones I was getting from the people at JAG. No one was happy for me not even Mic. You were my last hope, and the person that I wanted to be the happiest."

"And I acted just the opposite. I gave you a stiff congrats instead of giving you the big hug you deserved and a true congratulations. I'm so sorry for that."

"I don't blame you for what happened. I should have told you in an email or something. I really didn't expect anything from you, but I was holding on to a fairytale dream."

"I stopped believing in those when I came back from flying, and no one was happy to see me. Sydney was the last disaster of hope for dreams coming true. It wasn't until I found out the whole wedding was canceled that I believed in dreams again."

"I was so happy to see you again. I was too scared to let myself let you back into my heart, because you might leave again. My head was determined to let you do the fixing of our friendship."

"I have been a total screw up with you the last couple of years. All I had to let go of my fears, and tell you how I felt, and none of this heartbreak would have happened."

"It can stop now. Together we can fight our demons, and find happiness with each other."

"If I could I would go back to Sydney, and change what I said. All I really wanted to do then was tell you I love you, but I couldn't."

"And I should have never accepted Mic's ring."

"Yes you should have! He gave you so much happiness after all the heartbreak I gave you. If that ring did that for awhile then all the pain I went through was worth it. Just answer one last question. If I hadn't gone down in the ocean, and I made it to the wedding, could I have convinced you not to marry him?"

"Yes, but slim. You would have to convince me what we have is forever. When I had Mic giving me forever losing it wasn't an option."

"I promise you will never be alone again."

He took her in his arms, and kissed her. Pulling back he whispered, "I love you."

TBC in Epilogue down below.

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"Epilogue: ICSCNTRIG: Remember When"
by Rita Widmer

JAG Headquarters
Mid-December
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Harm was so excited. He was just told of a new case that was offered to Bud. With Bud's permission, he was going to ask for it to be reassigned. His dreams were finally going to all come true. He knocked on the Admiral's door lightly, and entered after hearing permission.

15 minutes later, Harm walked out with the largest flyboy grin on his face. He had gotten it reassigned to him and Mac. Mac was gone for the rest of the day in Norfolk. He had all day to plan what he was doing.

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Mac's Apartment
That evening
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Mac and Harm had been together for almost 6 months, and Mac was starting to feel a little impatient. She wanted to move this relationship forward to a new level. She wanted everything with Harm.

The knock at the door made her jump. The only person that knew she was home was Harm. She opened the door to find Harm standing with one arm full of files, and the other with flowers and their dinner. Shooing him into the kitchen she went to put the flowers in a vase.

When he came out again, he had a pout on his face. She laughed at him.

"Is that how you greet the man you love?" asked Harm.

"No that's how I greet a man with his arms full. There was no room for me in there."

"Well now my arms are empty." She ran into his arms and kissed him thoroughly.

"Does that make you feel better?" asked Mac.

"Oh yes! You should go away more often. How about tomorrow with me?"

"We have a new case? Where are we going?"

"Yes, and we are going to Sydney."

The fear in her eyes mad him even more convicted to change all those bad memories to perfect memories that she will never forget. They spent until the middle of the night studying, and finally he went home to pack.
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Sydney, Australia
2 days later
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"Mac, make sure to wear something really nice for tonight. I gotta show off my girl." Harm said through the connecting door between their rooms. She only had one outfit to wear, and it was the same as that first ferry ride. Tonight was the night he was going to make their dreams come true.

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Sydney Harbor
Ferry Boat
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Mac and Harm walked onto that famous boat, and Harm started the conversation like he did that first time. "In any language, what man understands a woman?"

"You're referring to me? Oh, let me guess, you don't understand why I was at the beach with Mic."

"That opera house is beautiful isn't it?"

"Smashing. So, what bothered you, that I went to the beach with Mic or that you thought I was topless?"

"You weren't?"

"Harmon Rabb! You're a prude!"

"I am not! Look, I don't care if you wanna go topless."

"You do if it's in front of Mic."

"You work with the guy Mac! You wouldn't go topless in front of me would you?"

"Is that a request?

"You know they wrote eternity on this bridge on New Year's Eve?"

"Is that how long we're going to wait?"

"No Sarah, that's how long I want to be with you. Will you marry me? Please say you will," asked Harm as he got down on one knee.

He held out a beautiful ring, and she whispered, "Yes, Harm. I will marry you, and we will have eternity together."

THE END