Edited, not rewritten. Ed-it-ed.
Feelings
Sirius stood stonily in his living room, his godson's words repeating inside his head, 'and whose fault is that!'
"Whose fault indeed..." he muttered under his breath. He knew that they had both over stepped their bounds, and he was angry with himself for letting it happen.
What was he going to do? What if Harry really didn't want him to be his godfather, what would he do if he lost the last thing he had in life?
There was no way that he could loose him, it just couldn't happen. But he didn't know how to make it better.
Although he did stick behind his decision, Harry had been through enough, what he really needed was rest. Nevertheless Sirius admitted begrudgingly that, at least part of the decision had been his own over protectiveness.
He sighed and sat down on the sofa, "Life just isn't fair"
It was a similar scene inside Harry's bedroom. He stood distantly watching the clouds drift outside his window, his mind a jumble of thought. 'You don't even know him, how can you possibly know what he'd do!' He admitted that those words had burned deeply; of course he knew he didn't really know his parents. He'd heard about them, and sure he had pictures, but he really had never met them…
The truth hurts.
Harry sighed and learned his forehead against the cool glass pane. He admitted that it really wasn't a big deal that he couldn't go over to Ron's, there would be other times, of course. The problem was that it had been Sirius to say the words, that in its self, had hurt. He had this mental image of what living at with Sirius would be like…
"This isn't it" Harry brooded
He just wasn't used to being told what to do, or being grounded, nobody really ever cared one way or the other at the Dursleys. Harry suddenly had a disturbing thought, 'After what I said to Sirius, why would he want me…'
Harry almost panicked, what was he going to do! He hadn't meant a word he had said, what would he do if Sirius didn't want him anymore?
"Life is 'not' fair!"
Remus 'Moony' Lupin sat beside a frantic Sirius, shaking his head in denial of his friend's dimwittedness. "You have got to be kidding me! Sirius what on earth are you thinking, of course Harry will still want you to be his godfather."
Sirius gazed at Remus with doubt "Are you so sure Moony?"
"Of all the stupid, idiotic… he loves you, you big mutt! Just because you fought doesn't mean it's the end of the world. I admit you said something you definitely should not have said, but Padfoot..."
Remus looked into Sirius's slightly less panicky eyes. "Family's fight, it happens, quite frequently if I remember correctly. I assure you, Harry is a teenager. It most defiantly 'will' happen again!"
Sirius looked at him with big puppy dog eyes. "You mean Harry doesn't hate me? Really?"
Remus sighed in exasperation, "Yes 'Mutt', Harry most defiantly does not hate you. I, on the other hand, am beginning to."
Sirius's eyes darkened threateningly, "Mutt?" he asked, "I am not a mutt! I am, for your information you mangy wolf,' very much purebred!"
Remus smiled indulgently "Yes Padfoot, what ever you say…"
"Oh professor! What am I going to do, I should never have said that, he's going to hate me!"
'Oh for the love of…'
"He does not hate you Harry, he very much loves you, I promise. Yes, you both
said thing you shouldn't have said, but come now, you didn't actually think that Sirius would truly hate you, did you?"
Harry looked up into Remus's eyes, showing that, yes, he very much had.
'My god,' Remus thought 'there the most dense people…'
"Harry please, you know that there is nothing you could do to make Sirius hate you!"
"But, Prof- Moony" Remus smiled, "after what I said, I don't understand how he can forgive me."
Remus raised his eyebrows; "So I take it you hate Sirius then?"
"No!" Harry shouted, "How can you say that! I could never hate Sirius!"
"Ahhhh, Then you forgave him for what he said to you, how could you, after what he said."
Harry fell for it hook line and sinker 'James he is 'far' to much like you for his own good.' Remus thought.
"I forgave him because I, well, I love him, and I know he didn't mean to hurt me!"
"Then why is it so hard to believe that he would forgive you?"
"Oh…"
"Yes, oh!" Harry looked at Remus, unsure of himself.
"…are you sure?"
"Oh for the… Harry, listen to me, before I turn 'you' into a toad too! Sirius loves you, he always has, he always will, no mater what you say, or how many fights you get into!"
"Okay…" Harry said meekly, "umm Moony?"
Remus rolled his eyes, "Yes"
"Who else have you turned into a toad?"
AN:
He he he
Toads
I love the whole toads thing,
I'm not sure, should he, at some point, come clean?
I guess we'll see.
I should have another chapter or two in the next day or so,
See ya!
Next Chapter:
Making up is the best part: I think you get the drift…
