From the beginning I knew I had made a terrible choice. But now that I look at it, "a terrible choice" just seemed like an understatement. There were things we all did together which I would and could never have dreamt of doing, not even as the Digimon Kaiser. I now regret very much that I had taken part. That's not the person Wormmon had always wanted me to be. That's not what my real friends expected me to be. And my parents thought they had then known me well enough and had never thought I'd be so cruel to others.

I remember when I had first gone over to Gomakashi's house for a celebration for becoming a Sinister Dragon member. I knew that I really shouldn't mess around with people like Gomakashi and his gang... So I never argued with them and played along. Later that night, Nukimi, the green haired female, tattooed the drawing of the gang's dragon to the side of my neck. The paint was cheap and the tools used were very homemade, so she made sure to dig it deep into my skin to make sure the tattoo would last.

It was a horrible feeling to have the knife-like tool stab into my tender skin over and over. It felt like burning lava erupting at that one and only spot under my ear. Blood rushed to my face when it first plunged in. But after five minutes or so of this treatment, it really wasn't all that bad. It was like I had finally proved myself able to handle the pain and I was then finally worthy of the dragon. After she had carefully painted the dragon onto my neck for what seemed like an eternity, Gomakashi wiped off the blood that had been leaking down my left shoulder. Strange, I had never felt the blood there. He then promptly picked up a pocket-sized mirror and showed me the tattoo. I was a bit reluctant to look, but I was still curious of how Nukimi's handy work had turned out.

"Nice," commented Gomakashi from where he stood behind my back. I only nodded in agreement. There was no chance of turning back now.

The drawing was almost the same as Gomakashi's and everyone else's except the dragon I had was an indigo color with deep violet eyes. The knives in the background were a silver and blue color with gold handles. "Nice? Is that it?" Nukimi asked from the side, looking at my shoulder. "It's much more than that, thank you very much."

"PMS, you know what it does to girls," Gomakashi whispered into my ear. Nukimi growled angrily behind us. He laughed jokingly and hit her playfully on the back. "Just messin' with ya!" He said. Her anger didn't disappear, but at least now she'd stopped talking.

In an entire change of scenes, Gomakashi assembled the group so that he and I were in front. I was very nervous standing there with everyone's eyes on me. But I only stared back at them quietly while Gomakashi began to speak to the fifteen (now sixteen, with my addition) members of the group. I had noticed that some of the members were people who I'd never seen at school. So the gang must have been a bit spread out. "Now, everyone," began Gomakashi who whipped strands of crisp golden hair from in front of his eyes as he began. "This is Ichijouji Ken, the newest member of the Sinister Dragon." He looked at me as if I was supposed to say something. So I said:

"Hello," just plain and ordinary. I didn't know really how to greet these sort people. But that seemed fine enough as they welcomed me as well.

Gomakashi continued, "His SD name is Indigo Dragon." Now, SD stood for "Sinister Dragon". Every member was given this sort of code name for the gang to use. These names would also relate to the dragon tattoo on each member as well. Gomakashi, for example, was known as the Dark Crimson Dragon for the black and red dragon on his neck. And Nukimi was known as the Emerald Dragon for the deep green dragon on her neck. And now I was the Indigo Dragon.

Followed after this was their traditional beating. The red headed girl, Aiko, wrung a thick yellow rope around my wrists. I gave in to the treatment and stayed still. I was backed a bit, a few feet from the corner of the ugly house.

The members randomly chose weapons. Nukumi, a two-foot hollow board. Harumi, a long stiff cane. And Gomakasi, who hurt me the worst, used a pair of sharp kitchen knives. I turned red and whimpered as the circle of people around me drove their weapons mercilessly onto my body. I quickly got myself into a ball. I tried not to cry out when the knife drove itself into my forearm, but I couldn't seem to hold in my cries. I knew I wouldn't look tough if I screamed. But I did anyway. My hopeless cry of pain echoed off the walls.

I'm sure now that that is not what they wanted to hear, for they all swung more recklessly then before. My body was turning numb then and the pain wasn't that bad anymore, even though I could feel the blood slowly running down my body onto the fake wooden floor.

After what seemed like an eternity, the pounding of weapons ceased. I was pulled up by a member named Akira. Akira was what could be described as "dark tall and handsome". He had dark brown eyes and black hair and had to be six-foot-four, at least. It strained my body to get up. I suddenly felt very hot and heavy and my body complained as it throbbed.

Everyone cheered as I stood and they began to "party" in a way I'd never seen before. There was music playing loudly from a stereo, which was most likely stolen, and people dancing in a. let's just say an awkward fashion.

Drinks were later pulled out and drunk quickly by the rest of the gang.

There were drugs there as well.

I remember the kids and police that had often visited my elementary school when I was younger who had always said it was wrong to do drugs and it would only end up hurting yourself in the end. And as a result, I had stayed far away from them. Hell, it wasn't until then that I had ever seen marijuana!

I was however put under heavy peer-pressure. Something I should have never ever listened to.

After that party I returned home to my mother and father. They had known that I had gone to a friend's house so I wouldn't have much trouble getting in. However, I was feeling very sick after the party. I felt dizzy and heavy. Everything seemed blurry. It was difficult enough just to get into my apartment and then into my room! When I had gotten to my room it was as empty as always.

Wormmon now stayed in the Digital World. He had shown how much he missed it there and I decided he should be there. He was a bit worried that something bad might happen to me. But I had changed so much then from that shy boy into a talkative boy that it eased the caterpillar some. Finally he agreed to leave, but only if I visited him after school was over. I smiled at him then and promised.

The poor guy would have been sent into a whirlpool of anxiety and worry then if he had seen me. I was lying on my bed a moaning softly. I remember silently hoping I would finally lose consciousness and fall asleep. My prayers came true but minutes later and I fell into a sickeningly sweet dreamland.

That next morning I woke up with a horrible headache. I got up from my bed and slowly stepped down the ladder. I walked into the kitchen and fumbled through the medicine cabinet. "Aspirin." I muttered while looking. "Where is it.?" My hand grasped the large case of Aspirin. I undid the lid and took out two pills and put them both in a glass of water. I took the glass to my bedroom with me and gulped everything down.

I then returned to my happy dreamland in my head where everyone is always happy. There was nothing wrong with this world inside my head, you see. That's why my favorite time of day was when I slept. Because then I'd return to my kingdom at the end of the sky. to escape.

//Kodoku to jiyuu uraomote

Togireta kokoro kakushite

Me wo tojita mama ten aogu

Tsuyosa to yowasa kami hitoe

Mune no naifu migaite

Mugen no chikara shinjita no sa//

//Both sides of isolation and freedom

Halt and hide in my heart

Eyes close as the sky depends on the

Strength and weakness of a single god while

the breast of the knife shines

believe the eternal power can make a difference//

//Honne misezu ikiteta kamen kabutte//

//True feelings show through the mask I put on my head//

//Kitto kitto kitto sou sa

Kitto kitto hitori shika inai jibun wa kono yo de

Motto motto motto tooku

Motto motto sora no hate made kake nukete iku only one//

//Absolutely absolutely absolutely the difference seems

Absolutely absolutely absolutely this night by myself only within

myself

More more and more at a distance

More and more I'm the only one who goes to the end of the sky to escape//

//Fuan to kibou irimajiru

Unmei ni sakaraezu ni

Toki ga kuru no wo matteta no sa

Tenshi to akuma sorezore ga

Atama no naka de sasayaku

Dochiraka erabu no wa jibun sa//

//Anxiousness and wishes mix

to oppose my destiny

I'll wait till the time comes to make a difference

The angels and devils individually

whisper inside my head

I'll choose one of the two to make a difference//

//Dakyou sezu ni yaru no sa kyou mo ashita mo//

//Without compromise today and also tomorrow can make a difference//

//Kitto kitto kitto sou sa

Kitto kitto hitotsu shika nai towa no tamashii

Motto motto motto atsuku

Motto motto honki ni natte kagayaite iku only one//

//Absolutely Absolutely Absolutely the difference seems

Absolutely Absolutely not only are the soul and eternity the same

More more and more its sweltering

More and more I become the only one who can seriously shine//

//Honne misezu ikiteta kamen kabutte//

//True feelings show through the mask I put on my head//

//Kitto kitto kitto sou sa

Kitto kitto hitori shika inai jibun wa kono yo de

Motto motto motto tooku

Motto motto sora no hate made kake nukete iku only one//

//Absolutely absolutely absolutely the difference seems

Absolutely absolutely absolutely this night by myself only within

myself

More more and more at a distance

More and more I'm the only one who goes to the end of the sky to escape//

//Motto motto motto tooku

Motto motto sora no hate made kake nukete iku only one//

//More more and more at a distance

More and more I'm the only one who goes to the end of the sky to escape//

//Sora no hate made kake nukete iku only one//

//I'm the only one who goes to the end of the sky to escape// ~*~ Ichijouji Ken (Paku Romi), Only One~*~