Disclaimer: I don't own anything except for maybe the plot! * Sighs * Wish
I did though. I also don't own the song "Hero" from the Spider-Man
soundtrack sung by Chad Kroeger & Josey Scott. It's a good movie so go see
it!
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I hate being known. I hate being tortured. I hate the rumors, the whispers I hear as I walk by. I hate me. I'm sitting here in Potions with the Gryffindors and Slytherins. Snape's lecturing about something or other. The pain of everything grows inside me, so I take out a scrap sheet of paper and write. As the words flow through my fingers like liquid emotions I feel lighter. I'm dizzy with pain and pleasure.
// I am so high, I can hear heaven
I am so high, I can hear heaven
Whoa, but heaven...no, heaven don't hear me //
I fear going home. It's a place full of darkness where a little child has grown up. A little innocence that has now tarnished. Home is a place where a person should feel happy but all I feel is the hand of love crashing upon my face. The bruises, broken bones the busted lips have all complied on a list of "childhood mishaps". My family..what family? They are people who beat me. Nothing more, nothing less.
// And they say
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away //
I'd rather not get too detailed with this. I know I don't what to relive that. I can remember him, a bed and a five-year-old me. Those times I had to spend with him were supposedly lessons. Lessons to make me a man. That's all I think you need to know. I crack a smile. Who am I talking to? I wish it were to my partner. Ronald Benjamin Weasley, I love saying that name. He's my savior in a sense. Everytime I hear his laugh, see his smile, I become so emotionally tranquil.
// Someone told me
Love would all save us
But, how can that be
Look what love gave us //
I wish the bell would chime so I can go back to the safety of my room. I cut myself. Don't ask me why. I don't do it for control or for pleasure, I get that from the many girls and guys who adore me. I hate to sound pompous but there are people out there who adore me. I love the attention but it doesn't satisfy the hunger that I feel for Ron. I crave him like a drug addict craves their drug of choice. But he doesn't get it. His slight thickness prevents him from noticing me. Or at least like how I want him to.
// A world full of killing
And blood spilling
That world never came //
I don't know why I like Ron so much. Maybe because he's the underdog of everything. He's loyal, trustworthy...like a dog, not a good analogue. But I want him. I want to caress him, kiss him. I want to make all the stress of the world melt away as a kiss my way down his lengthy body. I want to hold him in my arms, no wait! I want him to hold me. I just want to please him.
// And they say
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away //
It could never happen though. He would never go for me. We'll never be able to get together. We're too different. We are what we have been since the beginning of the year and it will stay like that forever. It's hopeless. I see him out of the corner of my eye. He's dosing off. I want to tell him it's almost over. I want to tell him to go to sleep and I'll let him copy my notes that I have, even though I'm sitting here doing nothing too. But I can't; Slytherin or not, Snape will deduct points from your house if you interrupt his lecture.
// Now that the world isn't ending
It's love that I'm sending to you
It isn't the love of a hero
And that's why I fear it won't do //
I can' t believe I'm still here. I've looked Voldemort in the eyes many a time. I should be dead. Maybe I should join up with him, and then I wouldn't have to worry about being chased after. I wouldn't be afraid for my life anymore. But then there is that fire head angel next to me that snaps that idea right out of my head.
// And they say
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away //
Finally, the bell rings and everyone quickly leaves. Ron was in a light daze and I nudged him, to wake him up.
"Geez Malfoy! What was that for?" Ron grumbled.
"Bell rang." I mumbled as I packed up my things.
"Oh," is all he says as he leaves to meet up with Harry and Hermione. I over hear him say:
"You are so lucky Harry. You got paired up with Lavender. But me, no! I get stuck with Malfoy as my partner for the rest of the year."
I sigh as I trudge up to my room to read my little writing and watch my blood ooze.
// And they're watching us
They're watching us
As we all fly away //
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I hate being known. I hate being tortured. I hate the rumors, the whispers I hear as I walk by. I hate me. I'm sitting here in Potions with the Gryffindors and Slytherins. Snape's lecturing about something or other. The pain of everything grows inside me, so I take out a scrap sheet of paper and write. As the words flow through my fingers like liquid emotions I feel lighter. I'm dizzy with pain and pleasure.
// I am so high, I can hear heaven
I am so high, I can hear heaven
Whoa, but heaven...no, heaven don't hear me //
I fear going home. It's a place full of darkness where a little child has grown up. A little innocence that has now tarnished. Home is a place where a person should feel happy but all I feel is the hand of love crashing upon my face. The bruises, broken bones the busted lips have all complied on a list of "childhood mishaps". My family..what family? They are people who beat me. Nothing more, nothing less.
// And they say
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away //
I'd rather not get too detailed with this. I know I don't what to relive that. I can remember him, a bed and a five-year-old me. Those times I had to spend with him were supposedly lessons. Lessons to make me a man. That's all I think you need to know. I crack a smile. Who am I talking to? I wish it were to my partner. Ronald Benjamin Weasley, I love saying that name. He's my savior in a sense. Everytime I hear his laugh, see his smile, I become so emotionally tranquil.
// Someone told me
Love would all save us
But, how can that be
Look what love gave us //
I wish the bell would chime so I can go back to the safety of my room. I cut myself. Don't ask me why. I don't do it for control or for pleasure, I get that from the many girls and guys who adore me. I hate to sound pompous but there are people out there who adore me. I love the attention but it doesn't satisfy the hunger that I feel for Ron. I crave him like a drug addict craves their drug of choice. But he doesn't get it. His slight thickness prevents him from noticing me. Or at least like how I want him to.
// A world full of killing
And blood spilling
That world never came //
I don't know why I like Ron so much. Maybe because he's the underdog of everything. He's loyal, trustworthy...like a dog, not a good analogue. But I want him. I want to caress him, kiss him. I want to make all the stress of the world melt away as a kiss my way down his lengthy body. I want to hold him in my arms, no wait! I want him to hold me. I just want to please him.
// And they say
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away //
It could never happen though. He would never go for me. We'll never be able to get together. We're too different. We are what we have been since the beginning of the year and it will stay like that forever. It's hopeless. I see him out of the corner of my eye. He's dosing off. I want to tell him it's almost over. I want to tell him to go to sleep and I'll let him copy my notes that I have, even though I'm sitting here doing nothing too. But I can't; Slytherin or not, Snape will deduct points from your house if you interrupt his lecture.
// Now that the world isn't ending
It's love that I'm sending to you
It isn't the love of a hero
And that's why I fear it won't do //
I can' t believe I'm still here. I've looked Voldemort in the eyes many a time. I should be dead. Maybe I should join up with him, and then I wouldn't have to worry about being chased after. I wouldn't be afraid for my life anymore. But then there is that fire head angel next to me that snaps that idea right out of my head.
// And they say
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away //
Finally, the bell rings and everyone quickly leaves. Ron was in a light daze and I nudged him, to wake him up.
"Geez Malfoy! What was that for?" Ron grumbled.
"Bell rang." I mumbled as I packed up my things.
"Oh," is all he says as he leaves to meet up with Harry and Hermione. I over hear him say:
"You are so lucky Harry. You got paired up with Lavender. But me, no! I get stuck with Malfoy as my partner for the rest of the year."
I sigh as I trudge up to my room to read my little writing and watch my blood ooze.
// And they're watching us
They're watching us
As we all fly away //
